Thank you so much for the reviews and for the people who are reading my story. I'm sorry I'm not updating as much as I like to but I have no time at all during the week. Please keep letting me know what you think, what you would like to happen and if I should continue. (Notice I changed the title ) :)

After another minuet of holding each other, making up for lost time she suddenly remembered Meredith was still standing there, staring at them in disbelief. she sat Owen down on the porch of the trailer for a second and walked to her. They stepped a few steps farther until they were out of Owen's earshot "Meredith go back to the house. I got him "

"I don't think that's such a good idea, Cristina he almost killed himself 5 minutes ago. I think we should get some help-"

"Meredith, thank you, but go back to your kids, I'll take care of him"

"Fine. But you need to talk to me later and let me know if everything is ok"

"Ok, Just go now please"

"Fine" The 2 Women parted ways, The one just worried about her person and her person's other person, and the other just wanting to get back to her man, her person, her love, Feeling so stupid for ever letting him go.

She walked to him and saw him sitting on the edge of the elevated deck floor of the trailer,His face in his hands. She sat next to him, close, so that she could feel his warmth. She needed to feel his warmth. She needed to know he was really there, and hers again, because if not she doesn't think she'll be able to take it. She placed her hand on his shoulder, smiling softly, waiting for him to look at her and hoping so badly there are not gonna be hate and anger in those eyes "Hey..." She moved her hand up to his cheek, turning his head to her and feeling huge relive that she saw nothing in them but love and pain. It still made her feel a deep pinch in her chest because she knew it was there because of her but she promised in that moment silently in her heart that she is going to fix this. He didn't say anything, just looked at her with his blue puppy eyes so she pulled his head closer to hers and placed her lips softly on his .

As she pulled away he smiled weekly, being happy that she's back in his arms after all this long. Sure , he had a lot of work to do to get better but right now he just wanted to be with her in that moment. Just for tonight. "I love you" He said wanting her to know that, and that he doesn't blame her for anything ."I'm gonna get better. I promise Cristina. I'm going to work hard and- and go to my therapist and eventually I will be a better man for you Cristina you'll see"

"I know. I know Owen. It will all be ok and don't worry- You don't ever have to worry about me leaving again. I won't Owen, I can't... Live without you which is why you can't ever do this again do you hear me? I need you to get better ok?" Some tears started to well up in her eyes as it always did when she talked about her emotions to him. Only him.

"Let's go inside. You need to sleep,you look exhausted"

The thought of confronting his nightmares again made him scared but he couldn't resist her leading him to the bed.

They got under the covers, clenching to each other tightly in the cold night in the trailer to feel each other's warmth and to make up for the time that they had both missed each other so badly. The other's body wich they knew everything about, each other's heart that loved them so strongly, and mind- containing all of their hops and dreams wich they both also knew everything about, maybe even sometimes better than themself. But yet they never ran out of things to talked about and they never got tired or bored of each other.

He brough his hand up to brush a soft curl of her forehead and slip it behind her ear . He held her face with both his hand and looked at her with complete love written all over his face. He moved his head from his pillow to hers, his lips inches from hers and their nose rubbing each other lightly.

She felt his warm breath on her , slightly tingling her nose. Finally closing the gap between their lips, she started kissing him ,first with a short but a soft sweet pack on the lips and then a deeper one, opening her mouth just enough to kiss his lower lip. She felt his tongue separating her lips and exploring her mouth making her feel a shiver down her spin that she missed feeling so badly in those last few months- almost 10 , she couldn't understand how she made it this long without it. She wanted to have him again so badly but she knew he was exhausted and needed to sleep because he hasn't slept in the last few long days.

He felt her pulling away, saying "Come on Owen,You need to sleep. We're gonna have all the time in the world to do that later but right now you need to rest"

He looked at her disappointedly "I know. It's just that I missed you so much" It was very true but there was something else he wasn't telling her- He was afraid to go to sleep because he didn't wanted to wake up screaming again.

"I know. I did too" She looked at him and bite her lower lip fighting hard to stop herself from taking this any farther even though she wanted to so badly."Not tongiht"

"Ok" he said knowing she was right but it didn't make him want her any less. So he just held her tightly to him and kissed her lips sweetly goodnight. It was enough for now.

She stroked his jaw line with her thumb, looking at him with a loving look that made him feel like everything is going to be ok

"I'm scared you won't be here when I wake up" He confessed

"I'm not going anywhere Owen. I won't ever leave again. I promised you. You don't need to worry. Please just close your eyes and try to fall asleep. I need you to be ok, I need you to get better , please do this for me "

"Ok" He kissed her again one last time and rolled to lay on his back closing his eyes. She placed her head on his chest, Just above his heart, listening to his heart beat. It was comforting , ensuring her he was still there and she came back home. His left hand wrapped around her waist, keeping her close to him and the fingers of his right hand entwined with hers . She wished they could stay right there and then in that moment for ever. It was perfect, they both had everything they needed because for the first time finally after long , long months they weren't going to sleep in an empty bed and heart, but whole and one with their other half , the love of their life again. Their soul at peace after months of incompleteness and tortured search for that thing that complete it. It was perfect. just now, it was perfect.