Thank you so much everyone for your patience on the chapter upload, and for the many reviews :) even though most of them were very angry and cursing at Sasuke. I started college this past Monday, plus I start my new job tomorrow! It's good for me, but not so great for you guys. It means my writing will be few and far between now, so its either I very slowly publish some new chapters over this semester, or I make very small chapters and publish more of them. I'm not too sure what to do yet, but 13 credit hours, homework, and work are basically going to take my life away. I will NOT abandon this fic dammit! Besides, I want to get this one done so I can begin writing my NEW Sasuke Sakura fic! With some Itachi mixed in ;) I came up with a brilliant idea and made sure nobody had my idea already - they don't - so I can start that one when this is done! Here is chapter 9 for you guys :) thanks again for the patience, reviews, and support!
Her Med Tech class sucked that day. As soon as she had walked into the room, Suigetsu tried one of his trip-and-fall-and-reach-for-your-boobs trick, only to get a swift slap in the face for the lame attempt. It was also quite unfortunate that he sat at the lab desk in front of her, so for the next two periods he kept trying to poke at her and hint about her Friday. Sakura did best to not give him a reaction, however it was just a little too hard to do. When they had a break and the teacher left, with the students thinning out the room, she yanked the smart-ass male off to the side and laid a hard fist into his gut. She warned him to kindly shut the fuck up and never mention it. He knew then he had taken it too far if the Haruno actually decided to physically hurt him to make him stop. She received an apology and he backed off, though he did slip out one more comment that he could top Sasuke's unknown performance.
She had rolled her eyes, then proceeded to slowly progress through the next few periods of the day before getting to 7th period lunch. The rosette could finally go talk to a man she really trusted, Hatake Kakashi. He was expecting her to join him for lunch today, and even though Sasuke had explained most of her questions, she still wanted the expert opinion.
She walked down one of the main hallways, then took a left to the Hatake's classroom door. The lights were on, door slightly opened. Sakura entered the room to see him leisurely sitting at his desk, feet up on the table while munching on a sandwich and reading. He glanced up as she walked in with her brown bag. "Shut the door, will you?"
Sakura complied and shut the door before walking over to the desk parked right in front of his. She liked to call it the intimidation seat, since it always sat against Kakashi's, almost in the middle of the room and surrounded by the other desks. He only used it when he had to talk to his students one-on-one about their papers.
Gladly, she took the seat and opened her bag, fishing out her diet soda and ham sandwich. The Haruno heard a faint rustle, like something had been set down, only to look back up at Kakashi to see he had laid his book down and lowered his feet off the table. Now he sat upright and eye to eye with Sakura, without anything covering his face. Only naturally did she blush at the handsome sight before quickly munching on her sandwich.
"I assume you wanted to talk about Sasuke?"
She nodded, swallowing her food. But the redness remained upon her face because of what she was about to reveal to him. "We…did it Friday." She found herself fidgeting and trying to not look up at the writing teacher.
There was a momentary pause before she heard him speak up.
"So how big is his-"
"HEY!" She was able to cut him off before he answered, though shouted rather loudly in embarrassment.
"What? You wanted to talk about it." Sakura took another bite out of her sandwich, looking back up at Kakashi. His face remained straight, calm, and rather unmoved.
"He…was a little too much for me to handle. I was just…confused by the way things went." She found herself mumbling and wanting to look away, but Kakashi remained attentive and wanted her to continue. "I was really nervous at first, but Sasuke kept reassuring me and saying it would be alright. He was being…sweet. And he started off slow, with kissing…" Her cheeks remained as pink as her hair, bursting with heat, "but when the clothes came off, he seemed kind of selfish. He made me try oral on him but I couldn't do it, then….the way he…"
As she trailed off, she took note that her old teacher was leaning in close to her, like this was the climax of some movie. "Go on…"
"…He was fingering me really hard and lost that soft, caring, loving touch. I mean, it started like that…and when I said it hurt to much…he told me to get on my knees…" Sakura found herself becoming rather sad, and quite disappointed. And with a burst of energy and desperation, she picked back up. "Oh Kakashi, it was awful! We didn't even look at each other when he was doing me, and it was over so quickly!" The man across the desk from her nodded, still leaning in and paying close attention. "Maybe he knew I wasn't exactly satisfied, so we did cuddle naked for a bit…and said we could try it again. So maybe next time it won't be like that."
As soon as she stopped, he began unloading his questions. "Are you two dating?"
"W-what? No…not yet…"
"Did he say you two are friends or something like 'this won't hurt our friendship?'"
The rosette was at a loss for words, but nodded, and wanted to explain herself. "But he's working on asking me out, I'm sure!"
"Did he even talk to you this weekend, Sakura?"
"No, but-"
His tone grew stern, and he cut her off. "I'm not asking for excuses; I want a yes or no answer." She found herself getting frustrated and angry at the Hatake. There was a reason for everything he was asking her about! If he would only let her explain some!
Sakura began to clench her fists, making her soda can crackle in her hands from the pressure. "Kakashi, he had a reason why he didn't text me and why Naruto's claim that he's trying to hook up with a Senior was false!"
His brow lifted inquisitively, "oh? So he's already going to the next girl, huh?"
"No he isn't dammit! He told me so!"
"How do you know he isn't lying to you?" Her temper quickly cooled, looking at the stony eyed male in a shocked manor. Would Sasuke ever lie to her? She had never let that possibility cross her mind. It didn't seem like it was something he would do. He gave her reasons to everything…even the Senior thing. But would Naruto lie to her? Would Gaara lie to her? Would her best friend and old teacher feed her their concern over Sasuke for nothing? There were several people against Sasuke, but all she wanted to do was back him up. Sakura was beginning to doubt that everyone would conspire against her for their own personal reasons.
But she wasn't ready to accept that Sasuke was a liar.
"No, I don't think he's lying. I…" Her head bowed as he eyes cast into the remainder on her lunch. "…I don't know what to think anymore. I don't know who to believe."
Kakashi sighed from behind his desk, leaning back into his chair. "You have known Ino and Naruto and Gaara for many, many years. Compared to Sasuke, who you've only got to know over the last month or two. That isn't enough time to learn about someone and who they really are."
He was right, and she knew it. Why was she trying to block out people she knew since middle school? She loved all her friends and they all really cared about her. They had no reason to hurt her, though it felt like they were. It was one of those honesty things friends do, where they tell you something you just don't want to believe, but you take it personally, and it hurts. In a way, they had all warned her and expressed how they really cared. And Sakura chose to ignore their concern and believe it was something else they expressed which hurt her. They were all against something she wanted to do: to let the Uchiha take her virginity.
Her heart started to ache terribly, letting her emotions flow forward that she tried to block out since before the hookup. "Kakashi…what did I get myself into?"
"I don't know him that well on a personal level, but I know he's capable of leaving girls devastated once they find out the truth."
Her green eyes came to meet with his, half full of tears. "The truth?"
"Why don't you try asking someone close to him? Someone who warned you…like Gaara."
Sakura simply shook her head, going to look back down. Gaara had no idea what her and Sasuke had done, and there was no way she could tell him. She could try to inquire about Sasuke, but then the redhead would start asking why she was so curious and what she had done. If she approached him, he would know and be more than just a little disappointed. "I can't do that…I can't let him know-"
"Sakura, he knows."
She wanted to set out with a plan in mind. Sasuke was precious to her and currently held her heart, and innocence, in his hand. Of course she didn't want to believe he was lying. However, she wanted to believe in her friends and find out the dark truth behind the Uchiha. It started with talking to Gaara. She had initially wanted to rub it in his face that they did it, but the circumstances were beginning to shift. If Sasuke really were lying to her and took her virginity for personal gain, Sakura would look like one giant fool. Then she would be ashamed that even Ino knew.
Yet somehow, Gaara already found out, now the last person she would want to know. The Haruno knew she had to do this though - to send this text message to him and set up a time to talk.
Inhaling a rather big breath, she pressed the button and watched her screen play a short animation of a letter flying to a mail box. Shortly after, a check mark lit up her screen to confirm that it had been delivered. She released that breath and slumped into her desk, closing the cellular device. One of the hard parts was over and now all she had to do was wait for the hardest part - meeting Gaara face to face to talk about the one thing she wanted to avoid.
"-And that is how to solve and graph a quadratic equation. Keep these steps in mind to find your plotting points and line of symmetry." Sakura snapped back to reality and out of her mind to come back to the math lecture. Again, it was another brainless lesson that she had done ahead of time. Asuma held a stack of papers and began to pass them out. Review, she had figured, since there was a math test later this week. "Here is your review paper to fill out and complete for practice. Start on it now if you want, but know that its due Wednesday."As the paper came back to her and she got a look at it, she knew it would be done in the matter of an hour. Maybe the math would help keep her busy for a while…
"Oh man! Sakura, this looks haarrrddd! Can you help me?"
The rosette looked at the desk next to her only to see a pair of big, blue puppy eyes staring back at her. She grinned and roller her eyes in a joking manor at Ino. "I GUESS I could help. You want to come over after school today?"
The blonde nodded, eager, "I would love to! Oh thanks Sakura!" Now that she had Ino to help, it would distract her even further from Sasuke or Gaara or any sort of doubt. Some relief was better than none.
That is, until her phone began to vibrate in her lap. Sakura gasped a little with her heart rate picking up because she knew there was only one person who would be texting her back right now. She slipped her phone open and saw it was a reply from Gaara. I was hoping you would come around. I have work right after school so I can't see you tonight, but I can tomorrow. When did you want me over? The thought of having Gaara come over to her house was a bit nerve racking. He had dropped her off a few times before when her and the gang hung out and again picked her up a few time. She didn't ever remember him being inside her house with her to hang out. So for him to basically invite himself over was hard to grasp, though it only meant this was something just that dire.
She replied saying right after school would be fine, then he replied he could take her home that day and they would talk at her place about this. Texting about Sasuke and all the drama was unacceptable because it was too important and emotional to text or even talk on the phone about. This HAD to be a face to face, extremely serious discussion. It could really hurt her, now that she thought about it, but she just had to know what she was up against. If only Sakura had done this before she agreed to let Sasuke take her virginity… It had only been a few days and already she was being mentally tortured.
Sakura finished off math, stopped off at her locker to get a few things, then went to her study hall. She decided to read a bit for English and Med Tech, only to get interrupted by more text messages. They weren't from Gaara, or even Ino. Rather they were from a certain male named Suigetsu. It was only him trying to push another date on her or trying to hang out one on one together today. And as usual, she declined to be in private with him.
Despite his pleading, it got Sakura thinking about Sasuke. He had warned her earlier today about something…to not listen to the red head or anything he said. It made her ponder the idea more. The Haruno tapped her pencil on her open medical book, one hand on her head while she looked off into the distance. Sasuke said not to believe a word Gaara said because he was upset about the two of them. Sakura knew Sasuke wasn't lying there, cause the red head did know of their affair. But even the Hatake suggested she talk to him and that Sasuke was a liar. This could only mean one thing. It dawned upon her, and she found her mouth beginning to gape open in disgust.
She recalled the day in the hall where the Uchiha wanted to kiss her at her locker and he got pissed when she declined. It was because Gaara was there watching and Sasuke WANTED to piss the other male off on purpose. Now he was saying to not even believe Gaara even though he warned her before all this happened? Her eyes were really beginning to open and see into what person Sasuke was. He was manipulating Sakura away from Gaara for a reason, wasn't he? And he was trying to get the red head mad on purpose by pushing himself on Sakura. The rosette was beginning to feel ill with the idea of being used as a tool for the Uchiha's amusement. Between Sasuke and Gaara, it was clear she should lean toward her old crush, though part of her was still doubtful. She wanted evidence or a second person to back up whatever Gaara might say to her tomorrow.
Which brought the Haruno back to Suigetsu. He was close to Sasuke and they could relate easily. Maybe if, just ONE time, she hung out with him and asked about how the raven haired male really was? Who or if he was chasing someone else, or if he juggled many girls at once and lied to them all. Sakura knew she would probably have to flirt with him some to get out the info she wanted…then again maybe she could beat him like she did in Med Tech to get the point across.
She grabbed out her phone to text the older male with her plan now taking its shape. If Gaara were really telling her the truth, then whatever Suigetsu said would match up. There was one person she really wish she could go to instead about the whole Sasuke thing, but if he knew he would be devastated. Naruto was probably her best guy friend and she could trust him with her life. He didn't know of her and the Uchiha's connection though, and if he did, who knew what might happen. She wasn't going to take that risk and loose one of her closest friends.
Sakura took a moment to get out her cell phone and to open it to her contacts list until she found Suigetsu's name. Alright, FINE. If you really want to hang out that's fine…but I'm making you study!
The message was sent, but it only took a minute to get a reply. Oh, we're going to 'study' huh? ;) I can bring you over to my place Wednesday after school. This is going to be awessoommmeee!
She knew he wasn't being serious about his sexual innuendo and replied with a simple 'alright' to end the brief conversation. Sakura didn't want to talk to him too long about anything because it might get his hopes up, especially his thought of getting private alone time with her. She said study so they would have something educational to do that would keep both of them busy and his wandering hands from trying to touch her. Then again, she discovered what the power of her punch did earlier. That could always be a last resort.
The school bell rang shortly after she had finished her homework and the rosette set off toward her locker. Kakashi was giving her a ride home today along with Ino, but that part was a surprise. As she gathered her things into her book bag, she couldn't help but drift back off into thought about this awful situation she had got herself into. Maybe Sasuke and his lying was as far as it went. Hopefully, she thought, she had already gotten deep into his secrets and there would be no more disappointments, let downs, or broken hearts. People could redeem themselves for a few lies here and there, but if she was only scratching the surface now…she was afraid of what else she would discover. The Haruno hoped that she wouldn't have to plummet any further into this matter and that all of the drama starting with Sasuke would drop just as soon as it began. She could only hope…
"Ready to tackle this math together, Sakura!" She found herself staring off into her dark locker, quickly snapping to at Ino's voice. She shut her locker and turned around, getting ready to speak. Until, in the distance of the crowded hallways, she saw Sasuke. A lot of speculation had gone on today about this man and she felt unsure of what to believe. But she saw him with someone else, and they were getting pretty close to one another. There were so many people, though she could have sworn it looked like she had her arm around him from their posture. Her hair was that rusty-red color. It was that stupid bitch with the big boobs, wasn't it? The one from earlier today. If they were only friends and joking around then they were getting pretty damn close to one another.
Her heart throbbed even though they weren't doing anything terrible from what she saw. It was bad enough that she had to look away and reply to her friend with a simple nod. Sasuke was walking down the hallway away from them, and luckily for Sakura, her and Ino had to go the opposite direction. She didn't say a thing to Ino and turned her back to the Uchiha and his big-breasted friend, hoping she never had to set eye on those two together again. It disturbed her and she received a terrible feeling in her gut from it, like her stomach dropped and she wanted to get sick. Not that it was a big deal…but she felt replaced already. He hadn't come around to bother her once today like he had all last week.
Sakura didn't want to think about it anymore. She didn't want to speculate on evidence or ideas that weren't there yet. Ino always did say that she had a knack for getting worried or carried away with her mind.
Both girls got outside to the parking lot where Kakashi waited, without a book covering his face again, though he didn't look to pleased. "You didn't tell me about Ino coming too."
The blonde girl rolled her eyes, sighing. "We're going to the same place - her house, to do math actually!"
"Ino, you can do math?"
At that comment, she shot off like a pistol, looking like she was ready to explode. "HEY! Why don't you shove my math right up your-!"
"Ino!" Sakura cut her friend off in the nick of time. "Just get in the car." She got into the car, but not before she could stick her tongue out at the Hatake. Sakura took the front seat while her friend was in the back, though her arms were crossed and she was fuming at Kakashi.
"How did your day go, Sakura?"
He began to drive and attempted to make small talk, though it was probably due to him noticing she was upset. "It was alright. I already got my assignments done…" She hoped, with the way she sounded, that Kakashi wouldn't be an inconsiderate jerk and bring up the Sasuke thing. Obviously something was on her mind about him because of the doubt she felt. In good time she would bring it up with Ino in private, but if Kakashi dared to try to talk of it now, Ino would feel just a little more than left out. She would probably feel betrayed and huddle in a corner somewhere, whining about how Sakura has replaced her and how she needs to know everything first.
Luckily, the car ride home remained mostly quite with a little chit chat here in there, though no words were exchanged between the Hatake and the still fuming blonde. He pulled up in the rosette's driveway, both girls beginning to gather their things. Sakura didn't remember the last time she had seen Ino bolt so quickly from a car. "Come on, Sakura! I want to eat and do this stupid math!"
Her green eyes met the Hatake's for a moment, recognizing that look of slight concern. As her friend paused on the sidewalk, Sakura fumbled for an excuse. "I, uh…I can't find my phone. Go on inside and I'll be there in a minute." Ino rolled her eyes and shrugged before heading for the door and entering. Now her and her old professor had a moment to talk. Even if it was for the second time today, Sakura had realized a few things about Sasuke and knew she couldn't fully trust him like she did Gaara for the most part, or Naruto or Suigetsu.
"I see you have began to realize that there is more to Sasuke than imagined."
She nodded, thinking about what she had last period. "I think he really wants to make Gaara mad and even used me to try to drive us apart. I'm talking to him tomorrow. I'll be double-checking facts though…just to make sure Gaara is telling the absolute truth."
The Hatake's eyebrow rose, "I see…with who though?"
"…Suigetsu."
It sounded as if Kakashi was ready to laugh, then suddenly masked it before it got him into trouble. "I know you hate his advances, but it's only going to get worse. I guess he is a reliable source as well. He just might be a bit…graphic. Or ask for favors in return for info."
She simply rolled her eyes in response. He didn't think she could handle all the perverted things he might try, which is probably why he laughed. Or maybe he imagined Sakura socking Suigetsu in the face and thought that was also quite funny. Either way, he was quiet now. "I have it under control. Besides…I keep seeing Sasuke with this big-breasted girl. I'm beginning to think…" Already her heart began to ache, tears welling into those pale green eyes. Even thinking about what she was going to say hit a terribly soft nerve. "…I'm being replaced already."
Her old teacher didn't leave much time for sympathy - he was never very good at expressing his soft side anyways. "Sakura, you'll just have to find out." She needed things to end there before she came any more upset and before Ino began asking questions. She simply nodded and thanked the man for giving her a ride home before grabbing her things and shutting the car door she had just come out off. Sakura quickly wiped off the forming tears as he drove away, and headed inside to try to forget the matter for now.
