Hey guys! So I've read your reviews and I absolutely love all those things that you said! You really made my day! I'm jumping with joy right now, literally. The first time I logged in, into my Yahoo account, I was so, so, so, overwhelmed with all those reviews! So I plan on making another chapter before I go for a break. (It's this chapter) Anyway, just want to tell you the exact date of my first day of classes. IT'S NEXT WEEK! :( JUNE 14, 2012! huhu. :'( I don't want to go to school and leave this story yet! :( But as I promised, I will try my best to sneek into the computer and update since my mom is going to be really pissed if she founds out that I'm using the computer during school days.
Anyway, here's Chapter 8! Enjoy!
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN INUYASHA
Chapter 8
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Kagome's POV
I was still dazed of what happened a while ago. I can't believe that I'll be a rogue from now on. I'm nothing without my pack. I don't even know if I'll even survive there for 3 days! Honestly, I don't know how to react right now. I don't know if I should cry, shout, or get angry or what! Ugh. After what happened a while ago in the field, I made my way to my locker to get my things and just go home. I didn't even finish the classes that day. So now, I'm walking in the street to go home.
I keep on thinking what will happen to me from know on since I don't have a pack anymore! And that's not just it, I also lose my mate. Wow. If this is a dream, I would never ever want to go to bed again.
I seem so deep in thought that I haven't realize that a car was honking and a man was shouting at me. "What the hell? Could you please look at where you are going? Are you trying to get yourself killed? You're going to get me in jail for your recklessness! Move!" He shouted angrily at me while pressing his car's horn.
"Sorry!" I said and made my way to the forest. That way, I could go home easier and I could have some more time to think. When the coast is clear, I take all of my clothes off, put it in my bag and shift into my wolf form.
I stayed there for a while, when I found a nearby pond. I shifted back into my human form and sit there while staring at the whole forest. This is the last time that I'll be doing this. Tomorrow, I'll be gone so I need to reminisce all of this. Actually, I never thought of leaving this pack. I never thought that I would be a rogue. I love my pack. This is where I grew up! This is where me and my parents made memories! This is the place where I feel that my parents are still here with me. And now, I'm losing all of it. My friends, my mate, my home, my parents memories and know my pack. When he exiled me, it feels like he just killed me. And I wish he did kill me, rather than to lose everything.
I sighed at the thought, and that's where my tears started falling. I cried and cried and question myself. What did I ever do to deserve this? I've never been mean to anyone! All I did was dream that my mate would love me the way I love him. Is that bad? I didn't even choose to be weak. If I could do anything to be strong I would do it. I could feel my wolf depressed inside me. She also can't accept the fact that our mate rejected us.
I wiped the tears from my face and started walking back home. I didn't want Sango to see me crying. Although I know that she will notice it since she'll smell my tears.
When I was home, I went to my room and start to pack. I don't have to many clothes so one big backpack is enough. I put all my things there while crying again. When I was done, I decided to take a nap since I would need energy when I get out of my pack. 'No. This is not my pack anymore. This is my old pack from now on.' I thought sadly and cried my way to sleep again.
When I woke up, it was 11 pm. Shit. I must have lost track of the time! I dressed up and check whether I left some things. When I was done, I pulled out a piece of paper and write a letter to Sango so that she won't be worried.
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Dear Sango,
I'm sorry if I didn't say this to you in person, but I don't want to disturb you in your sleep since it's 11pm when I wrote this. I just wanted to say goodbye for now. I'm so sorry but...I need to go. I can't stay here anymore. Please don't go look for me. You'll just make yourself in trouble if you do that. Don't ask me why. I just know.
I also want to say that I will miss you! :'( I really will. I love you, for god's sake. You're my bestest friend ever. Thank you for always being there for me. For always saving me when Kikyo bullies me. I will always remember the days when we always laugh and have fun together. I will also miss the time when we fight. I'll miss you so much Sango! Thank you for everything. I hope you and Miroku stay and be happy together. I'm really sorry if I won't be there to comfort you when you have problems. But don't worry. I'll call you when I can.
You know, I imagine you saying that I shouldn't run from my problems, while I'm writing this. :) The thing is, I don't want to do this too. I don't want to leave you and my friends here. But I have to. I know you can't understand me right now, but one day, one day, I will tell you the real reason why I left and that will be the day where I wouldn't be weak anymore.
I'll always love you and will never forget you! I'll miss you, best friend! But this is a goodbye for now. Don't worry because I promise, I will go back one day. I just don't know when.
Lots of love,
Kagome
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I was crying when I finished writing and I could feel my hands shaking. There also some teardrops in the paper. I wiped my face and put the paper in my bed.
I got my things and quietly got out of the house and close the door. I stared at the whole house for a while, trying to remember every detail of my old home. I walked to the forest and shifted to my wolf form bringing my bag. I exited the Silver Moon territory in 30 minutes. I was a little bit tired but I need to continue walking or else, other rogues or hunters might find me and kill me.
When I found a place in the forest where I can sleep safely, I settled my bag and shifted in my human form to start a bonfire to help me keep myself warm. When I was done making fire from scratch, I looked at my hands to see it with a lot of scratches and dirt. I transformed into my wolf form since my fur will help me keep warmer and lay my head down to sleep.
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When I woke up, it's already afternoon. I can tell based on the sky. I feel a little hungry but I just ignored it. I do have some money from my savings, but I want to save it until I get a decent job.
I was fixing my things when I began to think about what happened to me. The rejection and being exiled. I fought hard not to let my tears drop again. I can't think about those right now! I shook my head and sighed. 'Forget about it Kags. Nothing will happen if you keep on reminiscing the past. Nothing will change.' I thought to myself.
Even though I want to cry and cry all day, I can't do that. I need to ind a decent place to stay and a job. That way, I can earn some money for myself and I could distract myself from feeling depressed. This is the only solution I'm thinking right now.
I snapped out of thoughts and inhaled deeply. That's when I smell something different. I sniffed again and realize what it was. There's another werewolf in here. But I don't recognize its scent. I widened my eyes in realization. Another rogue is here! And it's not just one. Using my werewolf abilities, I can I hear more than 4 paws thumping on the ground. When I listened carefully, I realized they where 3 and they were coming my way. Shit. Just freaking shit.
I got my things in my snout and run as fast as I can. That's when I hear paws running fast. I feel presence behind me. The bad thing is, I look behind and saw them running to catch me. They were so close to catching me. I moved faster and faster. Even if I'm having a hard time breathing, and my legs are giving up, I continued to run until I find a cave and hid. 'Oh God, Please don't let them find me!' I thought. When I lost them, I came out and shifted back into my human form as I fell on the ground because of tiredness. I was breathing and panting hard on the ground. I never thought that I could run that fast in my whole life! Maybe because my survival instincts in me came out.
I was damn tired but I fought to stand up and start walking. I'm hungry and I was walking like a drunk woman.
"You need to find some food. Go look for some fruits here in the forest." My wolf said to me in concern. I followed what she said and looked for food until I found some berries.
I delicately plucked some of the berries and cradle them in my shirt. When I found a spot where I can sit on, I started eating the berries. They weren't really big but it will do. I shouldn't be picky at times like this! I put it in my mouth, tasting it. It was bitter, but it was food and it was edible.
After I was done eating all of it, I laid on the grass as sleep overpower me, taking me to my dreamland where my mate accepted me and love me for who I am.
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When I woke up, my body was in agonizing pain. I screamed out. It felt like my stomach was eating and tearing itself out apart from the inside. I wrapped my arms on my torso and curled into a ball. What's happening? What was wrong with me?
"The berries you ate! They were poisonous!" my wolf said sounding in pain as well. I groaned as my head fall back. Why does this have to happen to me? Why did the gods hate me so much that they let all of these happen to me. First, they took away my parents. I got rejected and was exiled by my own mate. And now that I found something edible to eat, I got poisoned!
I got my things and walked out of the forest. If I am going to die today, I don't want it to be in the forest where no one would notice my death. I started walking in the streets even though my stomach was hurting so badly and I'm starting feel dizzy. I ignored what I am feeling and continue walking. I need to find a place to stay. A cheap hotel would do. I needed to save money and find a place to stay for the night. Just for the night and I will leave in the morning. That is, if I make it in the morning and I'm still alive.
I could feel my eyes starting to blur and my walk is not that steady anymore. I feel so hot (in a bad way). I could feel drops of sweat falling down my face. I fought hard to stay focus. Good thing I'm a werewolf so I have more energy than human. My werewolf blood was also helping to cure me from the poison.
After walking for hours, I found an old looking building that looked like an apartment or something, with many windows. I walked up towards the main door and saw a name beside the door. It says Homeless Shelter.
I started to think. What would it be like to live here? I will have food and a place to sleep in. I think it was...enough.
Is this what my life is going to be like from now on? A life living in a homeless shelter because I've been kicked out from our house. A life living away from my friends. Was I that unwanted? That I had come this low?
"At least we have place to stay and free food. That will be enough...for now." My wolf whispered to me.
I nodded my head in agreement. I should accept what was given to me. I should be thankful. At least I'm not living in the streets. I opened the doors and walked to the front desk where a woman was, sitting while using her computer.
She didn't seem to recognize me so I cleared my throat. She looked up, rolled her eyes and picked up a pen and a book that looks like a directory or something.
"Your name?" She asked sounding annoyed. I looked down, ashamed.
"Kagome...Kagome Higurashi." I whispered.
"Speak louder." She ordered me. My wolf growled lowly in my mind. She doesn't want anyone ordering her especially now that we were a rogue. She doesn't follow orders from anyone. I just ignored her. If I want a place to stay, I need to put my pride down, even if I was a werewolf.
"Kagome Higurashi." I said raising my voice a little bit, but still looking down.
The woman started writing something on the book and I could feel her gaze on me. "You only have 2 months to live here. That will give you enough time to find a job. Breakfast is at 9, Lunch at 12, Dinner at 7. Don't be late or you won't have your meal. Pillows and blankets are over there." she said and lead me towards the hall where people are curled with blankets covering them. "Try to get one fast, before they run out." She stated and walked back to her desk to continue what she was doing.
I looked away, my eyes filled with tears and looked around the room that I would be considering home for the next 2 months.
"We can do this. I'll be here with you. I won't leave you. I promise." My wolf assured me.
'Thank you. Thank you so much. I wouldn't know what will happen to me without you.' I said to her in my mind.
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2 months later...
"Kagome..." someone said while slightly tapping my shoulder, waking me up. I groaned and put my head under pillow and turn the other side. I still want to go to sleep.
"Kagome!" The voice said and sound a little sharper than before. I groaned again and opened my eyes to see who it was. I sat up, rubbed my eyes and stretched. "What's up Nunally?" I asked, sleepily.
"Sweety..."She said apologetically. I looked at confused. Me and Nunally had become friends since I came here. I told her everything. Everything that happened to my life. Besides the part that I wasn't human. We shared secrets with each other. I'm glad to say that I found a new close friend besides Sango.
"What's wrong?" I asked, sounding tired. Yesterday, I walked and walked the whole day finding a decent job. But unfortunately, no one wants to hire me. I mean, who the hell would hire a 16 years old girl that didn't even finish high school?
"Kagome, I hate to say this but, it's your last day here tomorrow. It's your 2 months mark. I'm sorry." She informed me.
"But..but I don't have any place to stay! I can't find any job. No one wants to hire me! Where the hell should I stay?" I asked while tears starting to form in my eyes. No, this can't be happening to me. I'm getting kicked out again, for the second time. I'm going to leave all the friends I have here. I'll be a rogue again with no shelter and no food.
Nunally seems to be in thought and then she said, "Well, maybe you'll get hired today! Don't lose hope." She said, trying so hard to be optimistic. I looked down and cover my face with my hands while crying silently.
What am I suppose to do now? Where will I go?
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I hugged my arms as I walked down the empty street. It was dark, and the only source of light was the street lamps. The windows were dark and all the stores were closed. Only the sound of some leaves flying the ground were heard. I was starting to get scared but I chose to ignore it. 'I am a werewolf. I can do this.' I assured myself. It was my 2 months mark today so I was kicked out of the homeless shelter.
I was walking near the edge of town, and I was looking for some place to stay for the night when I saw something.
There was a man holding a gun and was pointing it towards the scared woman on the floor. "I'm sorry! Please don't kill me please! I have children and a husband! They will be depressed if I die!" The woman cried frantically. Her whole body was shaking with fear. The guy didn't say anything but just put the gun in the woman's temple. I didn't say a word because I was also scared and I don't want to get involved. Then I heard a gun shot and the woman fell on the ground. And that's where I gasped accidentally and covered my mouth.
The man seemed to heard me and walked towards my way. I stumbled back, shocked and not knowing what to do. I didn't even feel that I'm a werewolf at that time. I feel like a useless human. The man narrowed his eyes when he was 5 feet away from me. "Well, well what do we have here? Seems like you came at a wrong place, am I right little girl?" He cooed.
I didn't respond. My voice seemed to be stuck down my throat. I want to scream and beg him as I can, but no words came out. I just feel my tears flowing. The man raised his gun towards me, and pulled the trigger. I felt a little relaxed at the moment knowing that a normal bullet wouldn't affect me that bad. My wolf would just heal it.
But I was wrong. It wasn't just a normal bullet. It was a Silver Bullet. I could feel it. I could feel the bullet touched my stomach and go inside.
I cried. I didn't want to die yet. Even though my mate rejected and exiled me, I still want to live. I still want to live and have children with human maybe. Besides our mates, humans are the only one who can make us pregnant, mate or not.
I staggered up to my feet while I was holding the wound in my stomach, so that I won't lose so much blood. I walked slowly towards the forest. Well more like crawl actually. I tried to shift into my wolf form so that the healing process would be quicker, but I can't. The silver bullet made me weak enough that I can't even shift. If I remain in human form and no one finds me in time, I would die because of losing blood.
When I can't move anymore, I sat and leaned against a tree and looked at my wound. I winced. It was getting painful and painful. I looked at the sky and watch the stars. 'Inuyasha. Please help me! Please. I need your help right now. I don't want to die yet.' I whispered into my mind, hoping that he would hear it.
I feel so weak. I cried. I don't want my life to end like this. I have so many dreams. Then I heard paws coming my way. I didn't bother to move. It's either I will die out of this wound, or because of the other werewolves.
I saw 4 guys in front of me. The dirty blonde guy walked up to me and asked harshly, What are you doing here? Why are you trespassing the in our territory?"
"I...I didn't...m-mean to intrude. I just...need some help. I didn't know this was...someone's territory." I asked shakily and I could feel my eyes starting to blur. Now, I could see the guy in front of me have 2 heads. Wait 2 heads? I shook my head and stayed focus.
"Well, you're just trespassing in the Midnight's Pack territory." the guy sneered and frowned when he saw my wound.
The Midnight Pack. I've heard it before. Yes, that's right. They are known for being one of the strongest pack in the whole US. They are also the wealthiest pack in the state.
I wasn't able to reply as I could feel sleep starting to overpower me. Sleep was good. Sleep was peaceful. I wanted to sleep, to let go, to forget all of my problems...just for a while.
A/N:
Ok so guys, there you go! She finally meets the Midnight Pack! Yey. Anyway, if you haven't read what I wrote up there, I just want to tell you again, that MY FIRST DAY OF CLASSES STARTS ON JUNE 14, 2012! So don't get mad if I don't update daily. :)
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