Not Bella

disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, for the hundredth time. Gosh. Seriously, how many times have I written this? It makes me depressed every time I write it. XD

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This chapter is based on the song, "Find Me Tonight," by Everyday Sunday. I don't own that, either. I suggest looking it up and listening to it while you're reading this. I listened to it while I wrote it. It's an amazing song. Even though the actual chapter probably has nothing to do with the song, it's good back up music. (:


Chapter 9:

Need

(Bella's POV)

The kiss between Edward and I was the best thing I had ever experienced. He wasn't careful, he wasn't hesitant. He was him. He didn't have to worry anymore. He couldn't break me. He couldn't hurt me.

After the kiss, Edward just stared at me. His eyes were filled with adoration and desire. He looked at me like he had never looked at me before. But at the same time, it was just like he looked at me. All at once. It was amazing.

He didn't say anything. And I didn't, either. This moment was perfect without words. There wasn't any words to describe it.

His arms were still wrapped around me, guarding me from any harm. Even though I was indestructible, he did it anyway. The same protective gleam was still in his eyes.

I took my fingers and wound them into his hair. He closed his golden brown eyes and sighed, pushing me impossibly closer to him. His lips were at my ear.

"Why are you doing this to me?" He asked, his voice pleading. It dripped with desire. It sent a chill through me, from my head all the way to my feet.

"I didn't know I was doing anything." I answered him. I started to pull away. "But, I'll stop it. Whatever it is."

"Oh, no you don't." Edward demanded, instantly pulling me back to him and burying his face in my neck. He inhaled deeply. "You're not going anywhere, or stopping anything. You're staying with me. I need you."

I had never seen Edward so vulnerable, except maybe when I was burning in the hospital room. I turned my head and placed a light kiss on his face.

Edward let out a small whimper, and moved his head to kiss the hollow beneath my ear. I closed my eyes and sighed.

Wasn't I supposed to lose this feeling? Wasn't that part of the deal? Give me immortality, and take away my ability to want Edward?

I was confused, but I was happy at the same time. It should have taken a decade, or even two to gather even a fraction of the desire that I was feeling right now. What was going on, here?

Edward sensed my confusion and brought his face to mine.

"What's wrong, love?" He asked, concern in his beautiful golden eyes.

I shook my head and smiled.

"Nothing's wrong. It's just..." I trailed off and placed my fingers back into his hair, pulled lightly, and watched him moan. "I'm not supposed to feel this yet, am I? I thought it would take a long time before I could want you again."

Edward looked at me, amazement, shock, and passion filling his expression.

"You still want me?" He asked, almost breathless.

"Yes." I responded, bringing my hand from his hair to his chest. "I do. So much."

As if my words had some magic meaning, as soon as I said them, Edward's eyes filled with lust. Pure lust. I had never seen that in Edward's eyes before now.

"Edward?" I asked, his eyes expressing exactly what I was feeling. "Edwa..."

Before I could finnish, Edward had me pinned against the bathroom door, locking it simultaneously. He kissed me hard, and if I was still human, I would have broken in two.

I knew I had the strength to break free, but I didn't want to. This was what mattered. I didn't care that we were in a hospital bathroom, or that I was only minutes old. The only thing that mattered was Edward. Edward. Only Edward.

His fingers were in my hair, and a groan escaped both of our lips. My mouth was instantly on his, him begging for an entrance inside my mouth.

As soon as I parted my lips, though, and him finding his way in, a dry burn stung my throat. I whimpered painfully. What was happening?

Edward noticed the pained whimper and stopped kissing me. His hand were on my face instantly, searching for any damage.

"What's wrong, love? Did I hurt you?" It was probably force of habit that he asked that question. He couldn't hurt me. It was impossible.

I shook my head and attempted to talk.

"My throat..." I pointed to the area of the most pain. "It burns."

Edward's face was suddenly sad and pained. His fingers moved to my throat and rubbed there gently. Trying to banish the pain away.

If he could have cried, he would have.

"Bella, I'm so sorry." He said. "I should have known...I should have figured that you would be thirsty. I was just so happy that you still wanted me..."

"Hey, hey." I said, touching this cheek. His eyes bored into mine. "Don't be sorry."

"But I am." He said, running his pale fingers through my hair. "I should have known."

"I distracted you." I poked. "It's my fault. I should have..."

Edward's finger was on my lips, shushing me. He pushed me to him, his chin resting on my shoulder.

"Don't you dare be sorry." He said.

It was silent for a few moments. Then the horrible stinging burn ripped at my throat again. I whimpered.

Edward's eyes were filled with such sadness. I had to look away.

"Come on, love." He said in a pained voice, taking my hand in his. "We're going hunting."


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