Two months passed by and in those months, Ashley was determined to get her life sorted out. Since she had access to her bank account again, she paid her mom a sum of money for her trip to England and for the house in England. She got all the paperwork sorted out so she legally owned that house.

Ashley found a loft apartment in the city and moved out of her parent's house. As much as she liked the security that came with living with them, she wanted to be independent. Ashley had big hopes for hers and Spencer's future. She knew that a lot of people would probably think that she was being naive but she was in love and nothing was going to stop her doing what she thought was right.

With all her affairs sorted out, Ashley thought it was time to head back to England and whisk Spencer off her feet. She had spoken to her lover the week before and all was well. She was planning on telling her parents about Ashley that day.

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"Spencer, why are you so tired lately? You aren't working half as well as you were when Ashley was here." Paula mused as they were working the fields.

"I don't know mom. I guess I just miss having her around." She bit her lip and thought of Ashley. She knew that she had to tell her family before Ashley got back but she had no idea when she was coming back.

Spencer knew that she was tired because she had been waiting up until stupid times at night to talk to Ashley. Ashley would call Spencer every other day if she could. Spencer felt dead without Ashley and because of her sudden lack of sleep but it was all worth it to hear her lover.

Spencer hadn't heard from Ashley in a day or two so she was hopeful that tonight she would definitely hear from her. Spencer knew that Ashley had a lot to do in LA so it didn't bother her that sometimes she didn't hear from the brunette.

Spencer was however, worried that Ashley might fall off of the wagon again. She was so proud of how Ashley was recovering. The last thing she wanted was for Ashley to have fallen back in to clubbing and drugs. Spencer would be lying if she didn't admit that a small part of her was scared that Ashley would cheat on her.

She felt bad for thinking that Ashley would do that to her, but she couldn't shake the feeling. It tore Spencer apart to think of Ashley in the arms of another woman.

Spencer's cell rang and she was quick to answer it.

"He, you." Ashley's voice husked through the phone, sighing contently.

"Hey baby, I miss you so much." Spencer led back on her bed and smiled. Simply knowing that Ashley was there, talking to her was enough to calm any worries she had.

"Tell me about it babe. I want to be with you right now and snuggle up to you."

"When are you going to come back to me?" Spencer pouted. She knew that Ashley couldn't see her but she knew that Ashley would hear it in her voice.

"If everything goes right, I will be with you by the end of the month."

"But it's the first today!" Spencer protested, her heart dropping a few inches.

"I know babe, I'm sorry. And I can't call you this week. I have a lot to sort out and I'm probably going to be flying a lot. Some kind of family drama."

"Ok. Don't get too wrapped up in the drama Ash. I don't want you getting stressed and doing drugs again."

"I know Spence, I wont I promise. It's been really hard these last few days. I need you. I want you." Ashley groaned quietly. "I want to touch you."

"Where do you want to touch me Ash?" Spencer replied in a low, lust filled tone.

"Everywhere. God, all the things I want to do to you right now Spencer." she growled

Someone knocked on Spencer's door and without an invitation, it was opened.

"Spencer! Get off the phone! It's three in the morning!" Paula shouted and slammed the door.

"Don't go." Ashley pleaded.

"I wont, but I'll have to be quiet." She whispered and sunk lower in to her bed as she let Ashley's voice drive her.

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Spencer wandered out to the cows paddock to find her mom and dad in a heated discussion. She debated with herself as to whether she should go and hover as they finished fighting, or go and see to something else on the farm. She chose the latter and tuned to walk away but her mom called her over.

"Spencer, do you have a boyfriend?" Arthur asked calmly.

"What? Why would you think that? Aiden just dumped me.

"Because it sounded like you were having phone sex with 'Ashley' last night! You aren't even married Spencer!" Paula shouted.

Spencer laughed at how dense her mom was being. She could swear that Paula only remembers things that happened two hour prior. Paula shot a look at Spencer for laughing but it just made Spencer laugh more. She looked at her father who looked slightly amused too.

"This is no laughing matter Spencer! You are going to hell!"

"Premarital sex is not my biggest sin mom." She snorted. Paula looked utterly confused. Of course Paula wouldn't think that her precious little daughter would ever be gay. "Mom, you remember Ashley right? That farmhand from America?" Paula's face went white as she took a step backwards. "She's coming back in a few weeks and then she's taking me back to LA with her. She's who I was on the phone to last night."

"Spence, you know that that's not right don't you?" Arthur said slowly, resting a hand on Spencer's shoulder

"If it's so bad, why does it make me feel so good?"

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A week later, Ashley arrived at the familiar cottage. She got out of the taxi in took a deep breath in. she didn't think that anything would ever beat fresh country air. It had taken her a while to get used to in the beginning but while she was back in LA, she found herself missing it.

Ashley had always planned to come back a week after her last phone call to Spencer. She wanted to surprise her girl. With the thought of her girl being only a few miles away, she ran in to her house with her bags, changed her shoes then ran towards Spencer.

When she got there, she knocked on the door. It was a Sunday afternoon so she knew that Spencer wouldn't be out and about on the farm. Arthur opened the door. His expression went from shocked, to pleased and finally to one of sadness.

"Ashley. I didn't expect to see you again." He sighed and reached for something on the table next to the door. He handed a white envelope to Ashley and slowly closed the door.

A little disgruntled, Ashley shrugged and walked home. She was scared to open the envelope. She sat on her couch and slowly opened it.

Ashley,

I'm not coming back, I've done something so terrible I'm terrified to speak but you'd expect that from me. I've messed up I'll be blunt. Now the rain is just washing you out of my hair.

As if some weird force were watching over her, thunder rolled and lightning cracked as the rain started to pour out of the sky. It mimicked Ashley's slowly breaking heart.

And out of my mind. Keeping an eye on the world. There are so many millions of feet off the ground. I'm over you now I'm at home in the clouds, towering over your head.

Spencer.

Ashley thought at first that it sounded like a suicide note but then she realised that it wasn't in Spencer's bubbly handwriting. It didn't even look remotely similar. It was scrawled and sharp.

Ashley didn't know what had happened. Her heart ached too much to think about it. She curled up in a ball in front of her roaring fire, desperately clutching to the idea that Spencer wasn't over her. Spencer was somewhere and she was going to find her, even if it was only to get answers for the note that barely made sense.


AN: Ok, so some of you might start to think that I am getting a complex for hurting Ash… just remember… Momo chose the scenario so it's her fault.

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