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Troy walked into José house tired and sore he didn't know he could fight so well. He saw his cell phone blink as couple times meaning he had a missed call he left it charging he saw it was from Dean and decided against hearing it but for some reason he had a change of heart and he picked it up and dialed voice mail. He then heard the message start.

He felt sad he had no idea Dean felt like that the phone started to ring so he picked it up and heard someone frantically yelling and when he heard the news he hung up and for the 2nd time that week he sat down and cried….

Troy kept playing that message in his head and the more he did it the more he felt like a jerk worse than that he felt like he was worthless like if he was a poor excuse for a human being. He smoked a lot of herbs and took many pills that night the only way he could deal with the pain.

José walked in a couple minutes later to find troy on the floor covered with pills and weed he looked confused and saw his cell phone loosely inside his left hand he picked it up and started looking for something he saw the voicemail Dean had left him and heard it.

"Troy… this is dean by the way…phew I can't believe I'm calling you you'd be the last person I want to talk to but uh… I realized something you know you can't force love as much as you can't force someone's will and I understand you and Sharpay's past I do… I get it and that's why… that's why…. I'm giving her to you she's not mine she'll never be mine coming to this school I can only say has been the worst thing that has happened to me… but I wouldn't have it any other way I've grown… matured overt these past few months that I wouldn't have even imagined in the past. I love the people I've met all the wildcats even you Troy I feel meeting you has brought me problems but like I said I wouldn't have it any other way so I think you and Sharpay are meant to be troy and anyone who says anything different is a moron. You know I didn't want to say anything but I got accepted into a really good Christian college with a scholarship at my disposal and what great timing right I think I'm going to take it to. Even though I accept you and Sharpay it still hurts you know anyway that about it you have my blessing… take care of her yeah… See you around playmaker."

José felt anger right now Troy was incredibly stupid. There was nothing he could do about it tonight so he went to sleep but the next morning he was in for a surprise.

The next morning there was a knocking at the door Troy didn't get up so José had to. It was Carlos. He opened the door to let him in.

"What's this about?" José asked

"I thought maybe Troy would want to go" Carlos answered with a confused look on his face.

"Go? Go where?"

"You didn't hear about it, it was on the news last night."

"What, what happened?" José was curious now

"He's dead… the white boy Troy fought with got hit by a drunk driver last night he didn't make it, all of his friends are at his girlfriends house thought he would want to go, one of his friends called him last night."

José snapped he went to the couch and kicked Troy pretty hard right in the stomach.

"Get up." He kicked him again "I said get the hell up!"

"Alright stop what th-"but José grabbed him by the collar and threw him to Carlos.

"Your going to your friends house."

"What no I'm not."

"Yes you are because until you do you're not coming back in here."

"José what co-"

"NO! She needs you right now they all do…" with that José pushed him out the door and into the street.

The drive over there seemed incredibly long to Troy he kept thinking about his night with Sharpay and how much he enjoyed being with her and then he was reminded of the life he could've saved by simply saying no to her that night. He was beginning to think maybe it was his fault that Dean was dead would everyone blame him? Then he thought of Dean's parents how would they take it? He arrived outside the Evans home and knocked really quietly on the door hoping they wouldn't hear it and he could leave. Right before they answered the door he took a pill and quickly swallowed and the door opened to reveal Ryan he quickly enveloped Troy in a hug.

"It's good to see you Troy." Ryan said

"Yeah you too." Troy let tears swell in his eyes but he didn't let them fall. "How is she?"

"Ugh… she's horrible I didn't think she would take it this hard she hasn't even left her room all day."

Troy made his way upstairs and said hello to everyone on the way up there arriving at Sharpay's door no one answered and he didn't say who it was so he went through Ryan's room and climbed out the balcony to Sharpay's balcony knowing the door would be open she loved to just stand out there and think. He opened the balcony door to discover she wasn't in there she was in the bathroom he made his into her room trying to get reacquainted with it since it had been a while since he was there.

He found things he had given her along with things dead had given her then he saw a picture of him and Sharpay labeled the past he loved it was her and him standing on a beach in Malibu one summer day he remembered that day it was their first kiss.

Flashback

"Troy slow down" whined Sharpay as she fell on the sand.

"Cmon Pay' run faster girl" Troy beamed down at her.

He picked her up and carried her to a cave hidden by rocks "Troy are you mad? Put me down!"

He set her down and they stared at the roof of the cave not saying anything just listening to the darkness.

"Troy?"

"Hmmmm" he acknowledged her question.

"I want you to be my first kiss"

Troy's head shot up "You've never been kissed? You're almost 15!"

"I know shut up okay I've just been waiting for the right guy."

"Your not losing your virginity Pay' it's just a kiss."

"I know okay but I still want it to be special" she answered in an angry tone.

"Sorry you know I love you just why me?"

"You're my best friend I couldn't think of anyone else I trust more than you."

"Maybe you should save it for someone you really love."

"I do love you Troy just not that way."

With that Troy edged over and applied his lips to her and completed her most secret fantasy after the kiss they decided to go outside and take a picture to cherish the moment.

Flashback

He smiled at the memory and saw the picture behind it which made him a little jealous it was labeled the not so distant future and had Dean with his arms around Sharpay in front of dean's house along with pictures of her and his parents. The bathroom door opened and revealed Sharpay with no makeup on and a simple hoodie and sweats she looked up to see Troy and said nothing to him waiting for him to say something. He stayed quiet knowing she was there but he didn't turn around he wanted her to think that he didn't know she was there forcing her to speak first.

"Hey Troy" she replied in a raspy tone shaped with anger.

"Sharpay" he nodded at her and replied in a monotone voice.

She covered the pictures he was looking at "Can I help you with something."

"Yeah… you can tell me how your feeling."

"Go to hell Bolton."

That actually hurt him she hadn't called him that since their elementary school days when they use to hat each other until their parents made them get along.

"Ouch could you be a little nicer."

"No I can't because you sabotaged the one relationship that mattered to me."

"What the hell are you talking about." He inquired not fully knowing what she meant.

"You told him we slept together." She got up to his face and looked him in the eye.

"I only told him the truth." Troy whispered not wanting to remember the look on Dean's face when he told him the news.

"I told you not to tell him I told you to shut up!" she lifted up her voice.

"he got the better of me okay he frikin' punched me at the bowling alley I was mad and wasn't thinking straight."

"No Troy your were you just wanted him to know that the one thing he cared about most in this world was taken by you because of the stupid ego you have that everything has to go your way that you are the alpha dog and you know what it sickens me and I'm tired of it … I'm tired of you."

"What's that suppose to mean?"

"It means you hurt me really bad Troy" she started sobbing "It means I loved him I really did I finally got over you and I was ready to go with him."

"With me… you loved me?"

"Yes, are you stupid?! Everyone knew even Dean knew and he still loved hoping I would love him back too one day and I did to bad it was to late."

"Sharpay I-"

"No Troy I never want to see you again" she dried her teary eyes and looked at him with anger and disgust clutching her fist at her side she slapped him across the face. "You killed him Troy."

Those words hurt him he was thinking them all the drive up there but it hadn't set in until now it took someone else saying them to make him realize it. "How can you say that to me?" his eyes swelled up in tears.

"Because it's true I hate you so much right now." Her nostrils flared and he saw a rage and fury inside her that he hadn't seen in her entire life he had finally pissed her off.

Troy couldn't take much more so he opened the door and walked out. It's pretty hard having someone accuse of something you felt responsible for. As he was walking down the stairs he felt everyone look at him wondering if he finally spoke to her and they were answered when Sharpay ran down the steps to take another swing at him.

"I never want to see you in this house again do you hear me Troy ever!"

Troy kept walking to the door not wanting to listen to anymore but she was relentless even though she was held back her words still poured out at him. He had to hone his ears to hear the whispers some of his friends said to each other.

"You know what Troy you're a coward…you can't even come back to face me. I hate you Troy the greatest mistake of my life was sleeping with you!"

Everyone looked at each other then at Troy who opened the door and took one final glance at Sharpay. His mind was going crazy he could hear voices saying it was his fault calling him murderer.

"It's all you fault" she said out of breath. "You're the reason he's dead… You killed him!"

With that he shut the door and went to his car and just sat there in silence for a while he was full out crying now the words she had said to him still played in his mind like a record he believed it now he actually believed that it was his fault a 17 year old rising basketball star was dead he had taken his dreams, his future, and his life. Troy felt horrible…

He made his way to his house… his actual house it had been a while since he had step foot in here but he made sure his parents weren't home and he went to his room to grab something he had hid a long time ago right after he had met José and started using drugs one of the guys in the detention center said he'd sell it to him that he might need it sometime and Troy did need it he pulled out a gun. He sat on his old bed and polished it checking it to see if it was still functional without firing it of course. He put the gun back into its hiding place and laid on the bed he made a decision that he would stay there until his parents got home so he could talk to them he was sure they would be ready for him if they saw his car in the driveway so he slowly closed his eyes and gave in to the pleasurable slumber…

Troy opened his eyes as he heard the front door open he saw the clock and realized that it had been almost 2 hours since he arrived he waited patiently for his parents yelling out his name. he heard footsteps coming up the stairs he hid in his closet for some reason he lost his resolve he waited until his parents went to their room and he made his way downstairs he wanted to walk out the door but he fought his fear and sat down on the couch closing his eyes tightly waiting for the inevitable his mother was the first to notice him.

"Troy" she said in a relieved sigh and went to hug her son.

"Hi mom" he wrapped his arms around his mothers neck and realized how much he really missed her.

"Oh Troy your really here… have you talked to the Evans?"

"Uh yeah" he remembered the less than pleasant argument he had with Sharpay.

"Oh poor Sharpay first she loses her mother, god bless her, now she lost her boyfriend that girl deserves all the help she can get after what she's been through.

Troy remembered what Sharpay had said to him and that made him sad so he quickly ripped those thoughts from his head as soon as he saw his father and prepared himself for another confrontation his mother left to the kitchen to leave them alone. Troy tried to read his father eyes because he couldn't believe what he saw in them for the first time since all this had happened he saw compassion in his eyes.

"Troy…" his dad said in a whisper.

"Dad…" he had decided to call him Dad the next time he saw him and not Jack.

Jack got closer to Troy and stared into his eyes. "How are you doing?"

"Fine I guess" he said monotonously.

"Chad told me what… what Sharpay said to you and let me tell you Troy she doesn't know what she says she's so confused right now with losing everyone."

"No she did she meant every word she said." Troy started tearing up

Jack Bolton grabbed his son fiercely and hugged him Troy did the same and cried into his father's chest.

"Listen Troy she just needs time."

"You know what she called me." He tried to keep his voice calm. Jack shook his head no "she called me murderer."

"No son I love you and can tell you that you are not a murderer and let me tell you how proud I am of you and how much I love you son.

Troy clung on to his father for a long time before they released each other and had supper as a family again. After supper they talked about how things were going. After all this Troy decided to call José and tell him he was staying with his parents tonight. Troy was lying in bed that night finally giving in to the sleep that was strongly over coming him but his nightmares proved stronger than he thought they were pictures of dean and how his future could've been if it hadn't been for Troy then he saw Sharpay yelling in his face resenting him and casting him out of her life. Everyone said she was out of line and blamed it on her situation but Troy knew better he knew here longer and better than anyone else she had meant every word she said and he didn't blame her he was starting to believe it himself and that was what scared him most. As all these thoughts rushed to him he heard a low humming sound he woke up covered in sweat. His mind was slowly breaking he imagined if this is how everyone felt when they realized they had taken the life of human being and even though he physically hadn't the only person who mattered to him in the world had told him he was still at fault and that was enough for him to think of that himself. He saw his phone was what was making the droning noise. He looked at it and saw he had a text he thought it would Sharpay. It was one of the guys he hung out with inviting him for a "Night on the town" and apparently he would be paid 2 grand if he went on this adventure. Troy had heard José talking to other people about a guy called Silverio who would steal cars and take them apart that and sell drugs. Troy had also heard about the people who got in their way and how they were in the wrong place at the wrong time. He needed anything to get his mind off Sharpay right now and Dean and all the other crap that he had burdened himself with. He looked at the place where he hid his gun and looked at it for a long time before picking up his phone and sending a message. He thought for a long time before he remembered the words he had said to his father.

"She called me a murderer…" he thought to himself "And she was right to do so…"

I Know its been a while sorry but I've been really busy with school I hope I can update faster after this but just so you know I'm not stopping the story though I would like at least 10 reviews if you could that was another reason I kinds stopped no one reviewed so I took less time writing and then just got overwhelmed But just a couple of reviews and I'll get you the next chapter hope you enjoy this one and don't worry Troypay will be keeping soon so don't get annoyed with the subplots it'll tie in later. And for those of you who hated Dean he really wasn't a bad guy he just wanted Sharpay too.