Chapter 9
Kendall stared at his little sister, obviously confused. What did he do? He didn't remember doing anything bad to Katie. "What do you mean?" He asked obliviously. Katie stared at him, shocked.
"You don't know what you did?" She practically shouted. "You've been ignoring and hurting Carlos for the past week!" She yelled angrily. Kendall stared at Katie, wide eyed.
"Yeah, but that's only because..." Kendall trailed off, not knowing what was wrong with Katie. Her eyes almost looked black because she was so fed up with him. But... why? Katie had never looked so angry before.
Katie took a deep breath and handed Kendall a note written in Carlos's messy handwriting. Kendall read it, and didn't know what to think. He handed it to James and Logan, who looked frozen in shock after they read it.
"See what you guys did? He tried to kill himself, and it might've actually worked!" Katie shouted, starting to cry again. How could Kendall, James, and Logan be so stupid! How could they do this to someone like Carlos? How could they do this to anyone?
"Katie, I-I don't know what t-to say." James whispered his voice shaky. But Katie obviously did know what to say.
"You idiots! How could you do this? What is wrong with you?" Katie shouted, running into her room and slamming the door.
Kendall stood frozen in shock and disbelief. Carlos tried to kill himself? How was that even possible? He couldn't even spell the word 'suicide' correctly! How could he do it? Kendall knew this had something to do with the three of them. Actually, it had everything to do with the three of them. They were such jerks to Carlos. It had been a joke at first, but now... Kendall had started thinking that Carlos deserved it for some reason. He did mess up their dreams and wishes, but Kendall knew he went way too far. Carlos probably didn't even know what he was doing to himself. Kendall knew this was all their faults, and he kind of hated himself for doing it.
James felt tears in his eyes. Carlos had committed suicide! Carlos was the kind of guy who was always happy, and didn't have a care in the world. But now here he was, trying to kill himself. James could just imagine how hurt someone must have had to been to even think of killing himself. James knew he had messed up big time. And he was mad at Carlos for messing up. James knew he had made the biggest mistake he'd ever made in his entire life. If Carlos died, James would hate himself. He might even try to kill himself, just as poor Carlos had. James vowed to never do anything to hurt Carlos ever again. If he lived, that was. James hoped more than hope that Carlos would be alright.
Logan rubbed the back of his neck nervously. He wanted to be a doctor, and that was probably the only reason he got mad at Carlos for not giving him the right folder. But Logan felt guilty now. Why did he get so angry? Why was he such a jerk to Carlos? Logan had been the biggest bully target in middle school, so he knew exactly how it felt to be bullied. So why did he do it to his best friend? That just sounded obscure to Logan, and he felt disgusted with himself. How could they all do this to Carlos? Now he had tried to kill himself, and commit suicide. Logan knew many teenagers died from that every year, but he never knew that Carlos would be in danger of dying of suicide.
"This is all out faults." James muttered softly. Kendall sighed, and Logan nodded his head in agreement. This was indeed their fault.
"I can't believe I was a bully..." Logan said, tears choking up his voice. "How could I do this to him?"
"Logan, we all were jerks to Carlos, and I think we're paying the price for our wrong actions right now." Kendall pointed out grimly. The others nodded in agreement. They had been real harsh to Carlos the past few days.
"Guess we better go and check him out." James said blankly, heading out the door. Logan followed suit. Kendall was about to leave himself, when he thought of Katie. Kendall slowly approached Katie's room, and knocked on the wooden door twice.
"Katie! We're going to the hospital! You wanna come?" Kendall asked softly. His voice was so hoarse, it was a wonder that Katie heard him and came out of her room. Her eyes were red and puffy, and she had a bunch of tissues littered on her bed. Kendall's eyes softened, and Kendall gave Katie a hug.
"This is all my fault. And James and Logan, too. But mostly mine. You were right Katie, like always." Kendall smiled, and Katie half smiled back. At least her brother knew he had done something horrible. Katie put her small hand in Kendall's larger one, and together, they walked out of the apartment, locking the door behind them. They caught up with James and Logan, who were patiently holding the elevator door open, waiting for the two Knights to arrive.
Katie quickly pressed the button that soon brought them to the lobby. They ran out of the hotel, ignoring Bitters protests. They ran to the parking lot, and hopped onto the car. Logan drove, and James sat in the passenger seat. Kendall and Katie sat in the back. All four of them sat quietly in the car for the whole ride, anxiously awaiting the red lights to turn green.
Finally, the four arrived at the hospital. Kendall ran to the desk and rung the silver bell over and over again. A nurse came out with clipboards and papers. "Yes, sir, do you need anything?" She asked with a sweet and quiet voice.
"Um, Carlos Garcia?" James asked quietly and hopefully. Honestly, Kendall knew they were all expecting for the worse. That the nurse would look at them sorrowfully and say "I'm sorry, he's passed away," or something like that. But that wasn't what happened.
"Are you family?" she asked hesitantly, not missing the desperate looks the boys and Katie gave her. Logan thought quickly, not caring if he lied. He would lie for Carlos as many times as he could in a situation like this.
"Yeah, he's our little brother." Logan said, surprising Kendall. Logan never lied if he could help it. But now, they had to see Carlos, and see what they had done to him. The nurse nodded in acceptance, and led them to Carlos's room.
"You can only see him for a few minutes. The doctors are stitching him up soon."
Kendall stared at her. "Can you tell us what... injuries he has?" The nurse sighed sympathetically, and glanced at her clipboard. She flipped through a few papers, and finally looked up.
"Carlos had a broken wrist from where he stabbed it, and a minor concussion from when he fell." James nodded, and the nurse took that as her cue to leave.
Kendall looked at Carlos. He expected him to have a bunch of tubes and everything covering him up, but he didn't. He just had this... white thing wrapped around his head, and Kendall could see some dry blood on his face. There was also a huge thing wrapped around Carlos's wrist. Kendall could imagine a huge hole where Carlos had stabbed it. Kendall could feel Katie shudder, and he pulled her in for a hug. Katie was too young to see something like this. Poor Katie.
Kendall begged for Carlos to wake up. Silently, of course. His friends couldn't see that he was broken on the inside. He had to take care of them, especially Carlos and Katie. They needed him so much now, and he knew he couldn't back down and be weak.
"Come on, Carlos. Please wake up." James whispered. Tears rolled down his eyes, and Kendall's eyes filled up with water, too. But he would never let them fall. That was a sign of weakness.
"Yeah, man... we're really sorry." Logan said helplessly.
"Carlos, we need you. Wake up." Katie said. she didn't mean for it to sound like a demand, but she kind of wanted to demand Carlos to wake up.
"Carlos, we need your happiness and your cheerfulness. We need you to teach us to pretend there isn't a care in the world. Please wake up." Kendall begged, his whisper just loud enough to be audible. He wanted to tell Carlos that if he didn't wake up, his leader and role model, Kendall Knight, would die on the inside.
Kendall felt so bad for Carlos right now, especially since this was all their fault. But Kendall knew he had to say strong for everyone. They made this mistake, and they were going to pay for it.
A/N- Abrupt ending... sorry... Well, I hoped you like it! All of you were begging not to have Carlos die... and he didn't! Well, at least for now...
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