Sorry bout that little hiatus...? Or more like break in my usual schedule. Fixed some grammar in chapters

Watching some videos...it was...kinda...tense. I kept looking back at him to see if he was bored. He would just smile whenever he caught me looking at him.

I kept my eyes glued to the computer sometime after.

"Rin...?" I glanced at him and he hugged me.

...

I felt myself blush and freeze, as he let go. Why does he...I really don't...

Uaghhh...

It made me so uncomfortable, I wanted to dissapear into thin air. I sat there. Why did he do that? "You just looked like you needed a hug..." It was as if he read my mind... Did I look scared? What was it? "Now come here." He pulled me so my head was on his lap.

I didn't... Did he like that? Why don't I know what he's thinking? It's my fault he's here though...

...I bet he doesn't really talk to his friends anymore.

Did I ruin his life...?

I didn't...right?

"Sorry." I mumbled, not exactly sure why I said that. Now it's out. And I'm not explaining.

"Hmm? Why?" Is he acting like he doesn't know. Does he know? Does he?

Why do I have to be so close...? I can't think very well... Ahh...

"Rin?" I sat up and felt his hand touch my side. Stay calm...get out of there... "Rin you didn't do anything. It's fine." He reassured. How would I know? The damage I've done to everyone who meets me...

"...Mm." I looked down. "Oh k-kay.." He smiled and nuzzled me.

"Alright then! Let's watch something else then!" Did he believe me? Or is it all fake.

Every moment I spend with him... What if it was fake?

Just that word fake. It's really...real. To me.

All just nothing...but wasted time... He makes no sense...but then again, no one makes sense. My head hurts. And I don't want to do anything...

I was kind of...getting irritated.

I've been getting more unhappy now, but I wasn't always in the best mood nowadays. Maybe it had to do with Len, or maybe it didn't.

Sitting next to him was weird... Not really uncomfortable now. I felt numb now. My ears blocking out all sounds...

Maybe I'm supposed to panic because I have some important disease and this is a symptom. I'm pretty relaxed though. Just talking about nothing and something at the same thing. My mind feels far off as thoughts pool in, single file. Maybe sometimes there are a few multiple ones, but it's most single file.

If I caught a cold, what would happen? My fever last time had just dissapeared, and I didn't notice. People who never had car sickness don't think about car sickness when their in the car. Most of the time.

Where am I getting at? With all these pointless thoughts that aren't tieing together or doing anything.

Let's think about Len.

I'm not physic. Or a mind reader. Anything could go through his head. It's hard to tell if what they're saying they truly thought about was right. I'm a bit...distrustful when it comes to people.

I don't exactly hate people. I dislike. So it's a bit hard for me to understand people who hate a ton of people, and talk behind their backs. A bit hard for me to understand why someone would want to hurt someone else for looking ugly.

Maybe I've hated a couple of people, but I've forgotten?

I couldn't be very sure.

Len doesn't seem like the kind of guy that would hate others. I'm just judging. I think most, if not all judge people, animals, or anything. Just by what they look like, I could assume he was a nice guy.

What if he was treated badly? There was several possibilities to that. He forgot those memories in self defense, he's ruined in the inside, it doesn't concern him. That's all I can think of.

Maybe he needs affection, so that's why he brought me extra close. And perhaps because he was so comfortable, he fell asleep.

Maybe I was itching to get out, but I didn't want him to wake.

I let him fall back on the bed, and moved away. Shutting off the laptop was a priority, and letting him sleep was another.

It was a bit funny how people sometimes looked different when they slept. The most grumpy person can look like an angel asleep. Funny.

I sat away from him, observing his chest rising and falling. It was captivating.

He sleeps a lot doesn't he? I wonder how tired he gets. Or maybe he has a sleeping problem. Maybe. The scary truth. I'm pretty sure I don't want to know what it is.

I wonder if he had dreams? I often don't have them, or just not remember them at all. What was he dreaming about? Oh, the endless possibilities. So overwhelming. I might not want to know, I'm not sure I want to know if it was graphic or not. If it is...

I glanced at the clock next to me, that read 2:00. After 2, time seems to go way faster. I wouldn't seem like it, but it was true most of the times.

Len is either worried about me or not.

I would just say he's an ok guy, right now. Kind of.

There's some random stuff around middle to end because I became sick, or kept sneezing with stuffy nose.

RPR: Umm...ok sure? Well I'll try to put some here.

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