March 1st

TPOV

"Tell me everything," Christina barges into my office.

I glance up from the pile of order forms that need to be done this week.

"What would you like to know," I ask holding back from laughing because I know exactly what she is referring to.

"Tris… Don't play dumb right now," she says sitting down.

"Boston was great. Four showed me around. I went INSIDE Fenway instead of just seeing the outside. It was awesome. We stayed at Amar's. The club was great too. Oh I saw Lauren. We went to the spa one day and got pampered… Four and Amar were doing something so we just went to the spa," I finish.

Christina looks up from her nails, "Oh are you finished blabbing about things that you can tell me later? I want the good stuff… Details woman," she says.

I laugh knowing exactly what I did and that it would annoy her.

"Ok… We kissed a few times and held hands… And…"

"And what!?" she says excitedly.

"We slept in the same bed. I mean nothing happened but snuggling and a few kisses… but you know that is a big deal for me," I tell her.

"Awe… I love it! My Tris is falling in love," she squeals.

"Umm… I don't remember saying those words…I am afraid though. What if it's different for him?" I try to recall.

"You didn't have to. I see the way you look at him. How your face lights up when his name is mentioned. Even if you don't see it yourself right now… You've got it bad girl. I am so happy for you though! You just have to stop being afraid of what could go wrong and think of what could go right," she says then gets up to start the day.

I sit at my desk thinking about everything she has just said. Do I love Four? Am I falling for him? Am I ready to love again this soon? Does he even feel the same?

I am brought back to reality when the timer goes off letting me know the batch of muffins is ready.

My day goes by pretty quick and its lunch time.

"Any idea what you are wanting for lunch," Christina asks me.

"I actually have no clue but I am starving," I tell her.

"How about I just order a couple pizza's from Sal's," she suggests.

"Did someone say pizza?" Four asks as he walks in with four pizzas.

"You are officially my favorite person," I say walking over to help him bring the pizzas to the back.

He smiles at me as I kiss him on the cheek and grab two pizzas.

I look over and you can't wipe the smile from Christina's face. She mouths you two are so cute.

"Thanks for bringing us lunch," I tell Four as we grab slices, "You didn't have to do that."

"I wanted to… plus," his voice goes to a whisper, "I wanted to see you. I missed waking up beside you."

I blush and geez does that make my heart soar.

He gives me his 'I know you feel the same way' grin.

"Me too," I confess.

"Can I come over tonight?" he asks.

"Hmm, I'll have to think about it," I joke and act like I'm pondering the idea.

"I mean if it's that big of a decision….-," he states

"I'm kidding. I would love for you to come over," I say.

After we finish eating I tell Four to come in the office so I can give him some money for pizza. I grab my purse from the cabinet and turn to give Four the money and run right into his chest. I look up at him with a 'really' look on my face but her only smiles.

He leans down and whispers, "I didn't want the money! I just wanted to give you this." He slowly tilts his head and kisses me. I kiss him back. It's a sweet but amazing kiss.

"I'll see you tonight," he tells me as he backs away.

"Ok. See you tonight," I say back.

He officially knows how to brighten my already fairly bright day.

You can't wipe the smile off of my face for the rest of the day.

FPOV

I swear just saw Tris a couple of hours ago at the bakery but I am ready to see her again.

As I lay on my bed at Zeke's house I can't help but think how things are moving forward for us. I don't want us to move too fast though…I don't even know what this is. Maybe we should talk about it tonight. When is going to be the best time to tell her I am leaving though? How am I going to tell her?

I glance at the clock and time is going by so slow. I am ready to be with her again.

…..

"I brought some food," I say as I walk in the door.

"You keep bringing me food and I'll get fat," she tells me then smiles.

Her smile… Man….

We sit down to eat and we are both silent at first.

"Four," Tris finally speaks up, "Umm… I've been thinking about… us today. And talking with Christina… I just… What are we doing? What is this between us?"

"I was thinking about that today as well. I was trying to figure out the same thing. What do you want us/this to be?" I ask her.

"I don't want to play games. I like you Four… like really like you. I can't be friends with benefits with you. If we are going to do this… We both have to be in it for real," she confesses as she plays with her napkin then finally letting her eyes meet mine.

"I like you too Tris," I tell her, "I don't want to mess this up."

"Me either. I think we should take things slow for now. Ok," she tells me.

"I couldn't agree more," I tell her as I reach for her hand.

She smiles back at me and at this very moment there is nothing else I want to think about.

"So… I guess its official… We are together now…dating…," she says.

"That's what I want… I hope you want the same," I tell her.

She gets up from her seat and walks over to me then sits on my lap.

"It is… Of course that is what I want," she tells me then kisses me.

I can't get enough of her kisses. They never seem long enough.

"So… are you staying tonight?" she asks me.

"If you want me to," I tell her.

"Ok, well I'm going to take a shower. I'll get all of this cleaned up when I get out," she says.

"Ive got to run to Zeke's and grab some clothes. I should be back by the time you are out of the shower," I say.

"Ok," she says and I kiss her forehead before she heads upstairs.

I, of course, get all of the food cleaned up before I leave.

March 13th

TPOV

Ever since I told Christina about Four and I officially dating she hasn't quit asking if we have done more.

"Chris… I promise you will be the first person I tell when and if it happens. We are taking things slow though," I try to convince her through the phone.

"I better know first," she says.

"Do you still want to go to Belle Vie this week?" I ask her.

"Yes!" she gets excited.

"I can't believe you and Will are getting married," I tell her almost tearing up.

I am so happy for Christina. She and Will are going to be so happy together.

"I know," she squeals.

"Ok, so I will see you tomorrow probably then. I am tired and going to bed," I finally tell her after talking weddings for an hour.

"Ok. See you tomorrow," she says.

Four didn't come over tonight. He promised Zeke he would help him move some things out of his house.

I guess I can read on the Fifty Shades trilogy…Just me, my wine and Mr. Grey.

I hear my phone beep and I glance at the clock. It's 8:30.

Four- Are you still up beautiful?

Tris- Yes. Just catching up on my reading…

Four- Are you home along reading the porn books? (;

I instantly giggle and blush then roll my eyes.

Tris- I so just rolled my eyes at you.

Four- You remember what happened last time you did that right?

Tris- I'm not scared.

Four- Should I get out of the bed and come remind you? (;

Tris- Are you trying to use that as an excuse to come see me?

Four- Well… I would love to come see you, but Zeke, Uriah and I are supposed to be meeting some guys in the morning for a basketball game. Plus I am beat!

Tris- Oh fun.

Four- I think someone wanted me to use that as an excuse to come over…

Tris- Maybe a little

Four- I was thinking you could come over here around lunch and we could go get something to eat.

Tris- That sounds good.

Four- Great. Goodnight Tris.

Tris- Good night Four

It doesn't take very long before I am yawning. I mark my spot in my book and get in bed.

March 14 (Date from beginning of the story)

FPOV

"I can't believe they thought they could actually beat us," Uriah won't shut up about our game.

"Four are you going to play with us next week?" Zeke asks.

Damn… What am I going to tell them? I won't be here next weekend… I really wanted to tell Tris first.

"Umm…" I try to think of an excuse but fail, "Ok you can't say a word right now to anyone! Not Shauna or Marlene…"

Zeke and Uri look at each other then agree.

"I haven't told Tris yet. I'm leaving in 7 days…" I finally say.

"Leaving to where? How long are you doing to be gone… a week?" Zeke asks.

"I'm getting deployed," I tell them.

Both of their faces go blank. With their reactions being like this, I don't want to think about Tris'. I have to tell her today.

"Ok, say something," I finally say.

"You mean to tell me you are leaving in 7 days on a deployment and you haven't told Tris yet? Aren't you two dating now?" Uriah asks.

"I'm telling her today," I tell him.

"I can't believe you haven't told her yet," Uriah yells at me, "How could you be so selfish? Do you not realize what she has been through already? How do you think she is going to take this news?"

He doesn't give me any time to answer. He jumps out of the vehicle and goes inside

I look over at Zeke.

"Don't worry about him. He is pretty protective over Tris and Jamie was his best friend," he says.

"I understand. I probably should have already told her but everything with us is new and it was hard," I tell him.

"No judgement here from me," Zeke says.

"I better go shower. Tris will be here soon… Wish me luck," I say.

"Good luck man," he tells me.

I'm starting to get a little nervous as I finish getting ready. I'm nervous about how she is going to react. As I button my shirt up I hear my phone go off and I already know its Tris.

Tris- I'm here.

I take a deep breath because I now this isn't going to go great after I tell her…She will, probably, be upset with me but I know we will get through it.

"Hey there beautiful," I say and give her a hug.

"Hey there yourself," she says.

"Ready to go?" I ask her.

"Yep," she replies.

We get to the restaurant in no time. There is a silence between us but I can't figure out if it is a comfortable silence or an awkward one… I think on her end it's probably more comfortable and with me it's awkward. I'm trying to hide how nervous I am.

"So," she speaks up first, "Did you have fun with Zeke yesterday?"

"Ha. He is very bossy," I think back at how Zeke was trying to boss me and Uri around.

"That he can be… Well to everyone besides Shauna. She definitely wears the pants in that relationship," Tris says then laughs.

I love to hear her laugh.

"What about you? How was your porn books?" I try to make a joke and try not to laugh.

She rolls her eyes at me.

"So now I owe you for two eye rolls…," I tell her.

"Hmm… And just what exactly do you have in mind," she flirts.

I am so nervous about telling her that Im leaving that I can't figure out how to take her comment. Was she flirting? Was she insinuating she wanted things to go further?

I just look at her and give her a smile.

Our conversation comes easy throughout lunch. We go from talking about the bakery to the idea of opening a diner like Amar's here in Chicago. Then it's on to Christina's wedding…The wedding she doesn't know that I won't be at.

"Are we going back to Zeke's," she asks me as we leave the restaurant.

"Yes. I think everyone is going over there if you want to hang out tonight," I tell her.

"Ok," she says.

She sings along with the music all the way to Zeke's. That's another thing I am going to miss… Listening to her sing when she doesn't know I'm listening.

I keep playing different scenarios in my head of how to tell her. I haven't made up my mind by the time we get there. Thank goodness Christina and Will are here though. That will give me a little more time to figure things out.

As we walk through the doors I see Uriah. He is giving me a 'if you don't tell her now I am' look. Zeke sees as well and bumps his shoulder.

"So… Who wants to go watch the game in my new man cave?" Zeke asks.

"Yea…right. It would be a woman cave before it was ever a man cave," Shauna says walking past Zeke causing everyone to laugh.

"Woman! Can't you let me have something for one second," Zeke whines.

Everyone starts following them to the new room… We don't know what we should call it.

"Umm Tris," I say stopping her, "Can I talk to you for a minute before we go with them?"

I see Uriah look back and nod his head before leaving the room.

"Uhh sure… Is everything alright?" she asks looking at me.

"Well," I say taking her hand in mine, "I have to tell you something and it's going to be really hard for me to say this because I don't know how your reaction will be."

"Four… You are starting to scare me," she tells me with worry in her eyes.

"Tris," I pause for a minute, "I am leaving in a week."

"What do you mean leaving? Where to? When will you be coming back?" she asks confused.

"I'm being deployed Tris. I have to leave out in a week and I'll be gone for about 6 months," I tell her.

It hit her like a ton of bricks. I can see it in her eyes. Her hand drops from mine and the look on her face goes from shock to sadness then to being angry I think.

"I…I…," is all she could say.

"Talk to me Tris," I say moving closer to embrace her.

"How long have you known," she finally asks.

"I've known for about a month or so," I confess.

"A MONTH!" she yells as she jerks out of my embrace, "You have known for a month and haven't said anything to me. You started… This…Us… When you've known!"

"Tris, Im sorry. I didn't think it would make a difference if WE started this… I don't want anything to change," I tell her.

"Sorry… No… You don't get to be sorry. Do you not realize that LESS than ONE YEAR AGO I sent my fiancé off on his deployment and he never came back," she says as tears start streaming down her face.

She's right. I should have told her before we started dating. I am so selfish.

"I didn't know how to tell you Tris," I tell her.

I can see the pain in her eyes and hear the hurt in her voice.

"I can't… I won't send someone I care about off again," she sobs.

"What are you saying?" I ask now confused… Is she ending this?

"I think we both know what I'm saying Four! Goodbye," she tells me.

"But I love you Tris," I burst out before even thinking about what I was saying.

She looks at me with so much anger now.

"Don't! Don't you dare tell me that right now Four. I can't believe you! We have only been dating a few weeks… And," she paused then says coldly, "Well I don't love you."

Then she walks out.

Ok guys… I cut this chapter short because I felt like this was a good stopping point… Good news is though… I have a good bit of the next chapter done. How was it? Don't hate me! (: I will try my best to finish the rest of the next chapter ASAP! Maybe by this weekend… No promises though! I am going to work on it this afternoon and hopefully most of tomorrow morning! Oh and I still haven't caught up the pinterest board yet but I promise I am working on it. I wish I would have started it from the beginning to I wouldn't have to play catch up!

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