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Chapter 9: The Letter
He paused and stared at me, then his face fell and I knew what was next.
"I'm sorry, Bella, I can't. I'm not ready to be a father. I love you," he said as he opened the door. With a last glance at me he whispered goodbye then walked out, closing the door behind him.
"Goodbye," I whispered back, staring at the door he just retreated from.
Alicen was finished with her bottle so I burped her and set her back in the carrier. I grabbed what I could and walked out. I needed someone to watch Alicen for a couple of hours while I got all my stuff from Edward's and I knew just the person. I walked in the door and found her in the living room reading.
"Mom?" I called from the front door.
She looked up from her book, closing it. "Bella?"
I walked in and set the carrier with a sleeping Alicen on the couch next to her. "Can you watch Alicen while I get all my stuff from Edward's? I'll explain everything later."
"Of course, dear. Call your brother, I'm sure he'll help."
"Okay, thanks. Love you mom." I kissed her on the cheek and ran out the door calling Emmett as I drove back to Edward's.
I met him there and as he opened his mouth to say something I held my hand up to stop him. "Later please, let's just get this over with."
He nodded. "Okay, but after I want to know."
"I'm telling everything at mom and dad's later tonight, after we finish here."
"Then let's get started." Everything was moved out and into Alice's house in an hour and a half. Emmett left to go get Rosalie and take her to our parents' as I stacked some of the boxes in my "new" room. I moved into Alice's room since my old room was made into the nursery. All of my boxes were lined up against the wall and I was too overwhelmed at the moment to do anything about them or Aly's things.
I glanced at the clock and headed back, meeting everyone in my parents' living room. I walked in and looked at my family, my emotions catching up with me. I slowly walked to the couch and sat down, noticing the tears welling up in my eyes for the first time. Esme walked over and handed me Alicen as Rosalie grabbed my hand. Everyone moved closer, surrounding me in a cocoon of comfort, support and love.
"What happened, Bells?" Emmett asked.
I took a deep breath, trying to control my voice. "Well, Mr. Jenks - the attorney who met with me at the hospital - wanted to go over Alice's will. She left me everything, including Alicen. It was my choice on what to do with her but I couldn't lose the only thing I have left of Alice so-"
"So you became an instant mom," Carlisle finished my sentence. "Oh, Bella, you've always had a good heart, my daughter."
I smiled a little. "Thanks dad. Now I've got to move back into Alice's house-"
"Your house," Emmett interrupted me.
"What?"
"Well, you said that Alice left you everything, which means that the house is yours."
I stared at him blankly. "Huh, you're right," I finally said.
"We are here for you for whatever you need. You're a new mom and I'm sure you'll need all the help you can get," Esme said.
I nodded and tried to smile.
"Anyway, I need to plan her funeral as well."
"How about I plan it? It would give you one less thing to do and she was like my daughter. It's the least I can do," Esme said.
"Are you sure, Mom?"
She nodded. "Positive. Now only one thing I need to know, cremation or casket?"
"I can't imagine Alice rotting underground and not haunting me so cremation definitely, with a stone for Alicen to visit."
She nodded and walked away as my brother sat down and put his arm around me, which I gladly leaned into for comfort.
Alicen and I left shortly after. We went home and I put her in her bassinet and grabbed the baby monitor from the dresser to go unpack the boxes in my room. As I walked to the door I tripped on something and caught myself on the chair. I picked up the object and heard what sounded like paper hitting the floor. I turned on the lamp for better light.
It was a baby book that I'd tripped on. Alice must have been in there with the book before her water broke. I picked up the papers on the floor and set the book on the table.
On the front of one folded sheet it was addressed to me and on the other it was addressed to "My Beautiful Baby."
I gasped. Alice wrote a final letter to Alicen and me. I sat on the chair before my legs gave out and opened mine.
Bella,
I am so sorry to leave you suddenly. Know that I love you and that I thank you a thousand times over for taking care of my baby for me. You have always had a kind heart and I know you will find someone who has a heart like yours who will love you more than anything. You'll get over this bump in the road with Edward and find someone better; I've seen it.
You have been my best friend since we were little and I can't imagine anyone better to take care of my little one. I knew this would happen ever since that dream I had and I wouldn't change the outcome. I hate having to leave you and her but I am happy with what I am leaving behind.
Don't mourn me. Miss me but please don't be sad over me being gone. I have left you with the other thing I love most in my life. I will be watching over you both and I don't want to see you weep. I want you to keep living your life.
Good things are coming for you, just don't be afraid to answer when he comes to you. Live life to the fullest and hold nothing back, especially love.
If you could, please read her the letter I have for her as much as you can. Thank you again.
I love you more,
Alice
I folded up her letter and set it aside. She knew she was having a girl. Before I or anyone knew. Of course she knew Alicen would be a girl; I never got anything past her so why wouldn't she know she was having a daughter. I hastily wiped the tears from my cheeks and eyes and opened Alicen's letter.
My Beautiful Baby,
I love you so much. I loved you before I knew what was going to happen and I am so sorry to leave you so suddenly. I wanted to be there to watch you crawl, walk, run and to speak your first words. I wanted to catch you when you fall, to wipe your tears when you cry, and to give you advice whenever you need it.
I wanted to meet your first boyfriend, hold you through your first heartbreak, see you get married to the man who has your heart and to watch my grandchildren grow. I want to be there for all of that but I know I left you with the best person I know who could take care of you and guide you through life.
Love momma Bella as much as I do and listen to her; she is wise and she always helped me through everything I needed. She has a good shoulder to cry on and she listens to your problems. If you still need to talk I will listen but don't hesitate to talk to her, she will never turn her back on you.
One thing that I will leave you is the knowledge that family comes first. Whether it is biological or parental, you love them, care for them and be there for them.
I won't be there in person to see your life, but I will watch over you and Bella. Try to keep me close to your heart.
I love you most,
Mom
I refolded that letter and set it on top of mine. I picked Alicen up out of the bassinet and even though she was asleep, I read her the letter.
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