"Brittany?!" I look up at Rachel "are you ok? I lost you for some minute"
"Yeah, yeah I'm fine" I keep looking at the wall in front of me. I really don't know how to handle this.
"Britt it's ok"
"It is? Because I don't think so, she's a bitch to everyone and to me primarily and why? Because she likes me? It's not ok"
"Britt not everyone is so good with being gay, she's probably trying to , I don't know, don't think about it?"
"But it gives her no right to bitching me"
"Maybe you could talk to her"
"Are you crazy? I'm not even gonna get near her now that you told me that, I tryed to understand her, to talk to her and she snapped at me everytime, so no. I'm going home"
This is how I ended the night, really pissed and confused.
I picked Lara twenty minutes early so we can talk about yesterday, I wanna hear from her what she thinks about Santana and why she didn't tell me instead asking Rachel. I park outside school and we sit on the bleachers while the football team is already on the field running.
"So, what did you wanted to talk about?"
"Well I talked to Rachel yesterday" she looks down "yeah, I wanted to know if something is wrong between us"
"No it's not that, it's just.. her"
"I know Lara, but nothing happened between us, why didn't you ask me? Why go to Rachel?"
"I was worried you were going to say yes" I widen my eyes "come on Britt you would have thought that too if you were in my shoes"
"It's just so hard for me to understand, and you and Rachel talk about it like is something so easy to see"
"It is now" she takes my hand "but now that I know that nothing happened I'm fine, really, I was just paranoid"
"Good"
We stand up and start walking to school hand in hand. Now she's good, but I don't know if she'll be so if Santana still keeps slushie her, what if she looses her patience and confronts her? It would be a disaster!
What if I confront her? I should, I really should, but then what? If I tell her I think she's gay she'll go crazy on me, not even saying she likes me, she's gonna kill me and be more bitch than now. What should I do? Maybe I could try with Quinn, I think I can talk to her, I mean, she did with me so.. But would she talk about Santana? Her best friend? Maybe she doesn't even know, if Santana is so scared maybe she didn't tell anyone.. if it's true anyway.
There's a thing I don't understand, why bring Puck at home that day, her parents seems fine with the idea of "being gay",I mean there wasn't any need to bring him just because I was there, I was alone and it doesn't matter to me if she's single or not.. Do her parents not know? But why hide from them if they're fine about it?.. Well say something like that to parents isn't easy even if they're fine, it doesn't matter, but I still think Rachel and Lara are wrong about it.
It's all a mess, Rachel and Lara are messing with my head, why would she be gay? She has a boyfriend, her friends don't know and her parents too, no one knows but Rachel and Lara?! They don't even talk to her! And even is she is, why me? Why have a crush on me?
After school I go to the gym, it's good to be here, I need to distract my mind and here is the perfect place to forget about the rest of the world, before I can even place my foot on the treadmills Carl stops me.
"What are you doing?" he asks.
"Mhh?"
"Santana is waiting you, why aren't you with her?"
"She's here?" he nods, I roll my eyes and walk into the other room where Santana is sit on the floor "I thought you weren't coming anymore" I sit in front of her and we stretch together.
She stays silent, we start our practice but I'm the only one talking, I try to not look at her in the eyes 'cause I'm scared she could read my thought, it's stupid, but the only thing I can think now is "she could have a crush on me"! I'm right behind her trying to let her understand how to make me fall one ground, even if I know she can already do it, and it's weird to touch her now, but it's my job.
"Pierce are you even here?" she snaps.
"What?"
"Wake up, I wanna end this lesson as soon as possible, I don't wanna waste my time here with you" Yeah totally crushing on me!
After half and an hour we go into the locker room, she goes into the shower and I start changing my self. You see if this "crush" thing wasn't came up I would act as normal and tease her while she's naked in front of me, as I already did, but now that I think about the far possibility that she has a crush on me I can't up my eyes from the floor!
"Why are you so weird today Pierce?"
"I'm not weird" I say still looking down.
"Are you sure? 'Cause you aren't even looking at me" are we talking? Why is she asking me questions? Why isn't she snapping at me? I really hate Rachel, now I'm always going to questioning everything.
"I thought you didn't want me to look at you" try to act normal Britt.
"And since when you do what I say?"
"Well if you want me to look at you just ask Santana I won't say no to you" I look up at her, ok now it's good.
"I don't"
"Ok" I stand up and walk toward the door.
"I wanted to say.. Well.." What is she rambling? "Thank you" Thank you?! I'm dying! "You know, for not telling my dad I wasn't coming here, he's so annoying sometimes"
"Umh, ok" Really Britt? She says thank you and you just say ok?! I go away before I embarrass myself or before she decides to return in her self.
What a weird day!
Days are running normal, nothing happened, well if we not talk about the slushies, those are still there, Lara is really pissed 'cause she just wants to tell Santana "fuck you , you can keep slushie me but Brittany's still my girlfriend!" or something like that, I wasn't really listening.
Rachel is on cloud 9, her relationship with Finn is good, they're sweet, almost disgusting to look at and even if she's dating the quarterback the cheerios keep slushing her, that's because of Quinn.
Me, well, no one slushied me, she didn't slushie me, but I can say that I spend my lessons trying to not look at her, I don't know why I do it, but my head turns to her without me noticing! Sometimes Rachel elbows me 'cause she just caught Santana looking at me but I didn't say anything.
I had two sessions with Santana at the gym since the one when she said "thank you" and there's a kind of tension now, I don't know, we don't talk, just about the moves, nothing else, we barely see each others' eyes!
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