A/N There is a trailer on youtube for this story. Made by myself:) Also, this is a chapter some of you have been waiting for. Born This Way 2mrw!
Swim 'Til You Drown
Like a bird flying away, the day disappeared too quickly. Anyone could try to focus in on the winged creature fading away, they could try so hard, their eyes adjusting to the detail of feathers and the glimmer of the sun as it flickered off the wings, but before they could realize it, the bird was gone.
Just like the damn school day.
It seemed like the more Kurt tried to pay attention to his classes and his friends, the task became harder. When he had hung up the phone with Blaine hours before, he knew that the day wouldn't be easy, considering the amount of thoughts and worries concerning him and Blaine he had, but he hadn't expected it to be this hard.
In what seemed like no time at all, the final bell rang. Kurt was one of the last ones to leave the Algebra room, set aside the over-achievers who always seemed to have comments about the lesson to share with the teacher. Kurt slung his bag over his shoulder and stepped away from the classroom towards his locker.
He wanted to lean his head against the locker door and just stand there, pretend the world didn't exist, and that he didn't have to go and meet Blaine after school. Kurt pulled out his jacket and pulled his arms through the sleeves.
He honestly wasn't worried about the movie, he was actually quite excited about it. Conversation and smiles came easy between the two, and with both being humorous and clever, they could simply make fun of the movie, if it was bad, with witty one-liners that would be whispered to each other in the darkness.
Smiles were always passed within each other, their upturned lips signaling amusement for a joke one had said, or for something as simple as a look.
Their time together during the movie would be fine, fantastic even, but it wasn't what Kurt was worried about.
Blaine knew about his relationship with Dave. Kurt didn't know, or couldn't even recall, why he had kept it such a safe guarded secret from Blaine. His friends and Burt were the people he couldn't tell, after they had gone to so much trouble to keep him safe from the one person Kurt was dating. But Blaine? Now he knew.
And Blaine thought that it was an abusive relationship? It couldn't be...
Kurt slammed his locker shut with more vigor than necessary. His heart was racing, his mind returning the pace with just as much speed. Why was all of this happening at the same time?
When Kurt got to his Navigator, he didn't drive home. Instead he leapt into the driver's seat and lounged his legs out on the passenger side. He rested his head against the window and stared at his phone, waiting for a message, a call, something...but he didn't know what he was looking for.
Maybe he wanted a text message or phone call from Dave. Kurt let his phone slide from his fingers and fall onto his lap. He tentatively reached a hand up to gently prod at his eye, which was beautifully and artfully covered up with slight makeup. Kurt grimaced and lowered his hand. What would Dave have to say to him?
That he was sorry? Because Kurt was sure Dave had said that already, but had blamed all the injuries on Kurt, as if it was his fault Dave decided to unleash his anger out on him. That was not an apology. It was like saying, 'I'm sorry that you're fish died, but really you shouldn't of gotten a fish in the first place. It's your fault'.
What had Kurt done wrong? He doesn't mean to upset Dave. It seemed like Kurt had to be treading careful water when around Dave, because one wrong move could send him toppling in the water - or in this case, ground.
Dave looked like he knew exactly what he was doing to Kurt, yet he didn't stop or even try to decrease his actions. But Dave loved him; granted he had only said so one time, and that time was when he was nearly slamming Kurt against the ground, but still.
Then Blaine confessed his feelings. He had a whole speech, and though the wind had been rippling around them and the sheer cold was overwhelming their bodies, Kurt knew that he would never forget that moment.
Admittedly, Kurt had been thinking of that moment for days on end. It was occupying his thoughts and taking over his mind during classes and at home. Was it possible for Kurt to have remembered every aspect of the time with Blaine when he could barely remember the happiest time he had with Dave?
Kurt moved out of his lounging position. He turned on the radio, a semi-popular station, and he drove slowly out of the parking lot.
Kurt was too lost in his thoughts to notice was song was playing. It wasn't until the chorus came on when he realized how much the song related to him, in some retrospect.
All this time we were waiting for each other; all this time I was waiting for you.
We got all these words can't waste them on another. Oh, running back to you.
Kurt pulled a fast turn into an empty parking lot, only minutes from his house. When the song was drawing to a fading close, it felt like his heart was being reborn, and it was of this realization that led Kurt to his shocking, yet earnest and compassionate, epiphany; he returned Blaine's feelings.
When Dave had hurt him, both physical and emotional, Kurt had fled into the open arms of Blaine. When Kurt had no one to turn to, Blaine offered himself as comfort, even while knowing Kurt already had a boyfriend.
And all the memories they shared? The laughs, the jokes, the coffee talks, the movies, the everything...it was sincere from both boys. They genuinely loved spending time together.
But when Kurt was with Dave, for any reason at all, it always seemed like Dave was out to ruin Kurt's view of himself. With Blaine, everything seemed to fit together like it was meant to be. Blaine was, and always has been, so considerate, so humble and brave, so incredibly sweet and honest...and sometimes it seemed like Dave was the opposite.
Was it possible for Kurt to be falling in love with Blaine?
Whenever Blaine looked at him with those beautiful hazel eyes, Kurt's heart seemed to stop. Blaine's lips would turn up in a smile at almost everything, and it was nearly impossible for Kurt's lips to not mirror his. Blaine gave him compliments, made him feel like he was the only one Blaine ever cared about. Kurt would always feel so comfortable around Blaine, his actions were purely him and he held none of his personality back when around Blaine, because he knew Blaine accepted and admired him for him. Kurt felt like Blaine was soaring through the same cloud as him, where they could both share their opinions and secrets without the fear of being judged.
It was possible.
With Dave, things had always been stressed or tense. Was Kurt only looking for love, no matter how much risk it came with? Dave had always held a mean hand for Kurt, and sometimes Kurt thought that Dave still held it for him. The cruel words, the abuse. It was practically the same now, and they were in a relationship.
Kurt took a sharp intake of breath, as two things came crashing down at once. He was in an abusive relationship.
It all made sense. The taunting, the threatening, Dave had even said that no one would ever love him and Blaine had admitted that he does, proving Dave's words wrong.
And Blaine...the smiling, handsome face of Kurt's best friend and partial mentor, the one Kurt looked to for advice and help, the one who would willingly spend hours on the phone talking about nothing yet discussing everything, the one who loves Kurt.
As if someone poured cold water on his head, the sudden understanding of Blaine washed over him. When Kurt had left Dalton for McKinley, he was still harboring feelings for Blaine. Up until now, Kurt was sure that they had went away. He was wrong, so amazingly wrong.
He was still in love with Blaine Anderson.
All this time, I was waiting for you. We got all these words, can't waste them on another. Oh, running back to you.
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