Mckenzie took a deep breath before tears started to fill her eyes
"I was seven... It was my stepdad..." She started and Fergal immediately tensed up "he would come in my room every night to 'teach me a lesson' that's what he called it.. He wanted to teach me a lesson on what a woman's real place was.. It went on for years..." She said tears falling freely
"Did anybody know?" Fergal asked and Mckenzie shook her head
"My mom knew... And she said I just had to listen to him and do what he said.." She said Fergal had tears in his eyes listening to his girlfriend wishing that he had met her when she was little.. He could have saved her..
"Then after she found out he got pissed that I told her and he came in to teach me a lesson every night and after he did that he would beat me for not cooperating and not 'being a good girl'"
"Did you ever get out?" He asked her
"I did.. When I went to my dad's house for the weekend and told him what was going on and they called social services and eventually but not quickly eventually they arrested him and I was taken away from my mom.. And went to live with my dad.." She said
"It ended well.." He said
"So I thought.." She said "he was in jail for 2 years and I went back to live with my mom while he was in jail and then when I was 15 he came back.. He taught me another lesson... This time.. Something happened.. I got pregnant.. And then when he found that out he beat me and blamed me for it and said it was all my fault and then he threw me down the stairs and I lost the baby.. They never even took me to the hospital.. I had to sit there all night and go through the pain and see all the blood pouring out of me and miscarry by myself.. My dad came to pick me up the next day because I was supposed to be dropped off at his house that morning by my mom and when he got there nobody was there the door was unlocked and when he came in I was laying on the floor in a pool of blood passed out.. I almost died.. After that I didn't want to live anymore.. Which is how I got these.." She said moving her bracelets to reveal the scars on her wrists "and these.." She said revealing the scars that we're all over her thighs
"Kenzie.. I'm so sorry.. I wish I could have been there... I wish I could have saved you.." Fergal said pulling her into his chest
"You did save me.." She said looking up at him
"When was the last time you cut yourself?" He asked her and she looked down
"About two months ago..." She said "right after I met you.." She said "so yes.. You did save me.." She said and he kissed her
"Promise me... Never again.." Fergal said
"I promise.. As long as I have you.. I have a reason for staying alive..." She said snuggling closer into his chest
"Is he still alive?" He asked her
"Yeah.. He and my mom both live in Colorado.. They never got charged because they moved states before we got to press charges.."
"Well.. I'm not going anywhere.. But you can't keep this stuff bottled up.. You've got to talk to somebody.."
"I have.. I talked to you and Rebecca.. And my dad.." She said and Fergal shook his head
"You need help... You need to go to therapy.." He said
"Are you trying to say I'm crazy?" She asked him getting mad
"No! No! Mckenzie listen.. You can talk to me all you want and I promise you I will listen to every single word that you say but you need to talk to somebody that isn't attached to you.. You need to figure out what we need to do to get you in a better place..." He said
"I'll only go to therapy on one condition..." She said "you go with me.." She said and he grabbed her hand
"Of course..." He said