A/N: tee hee its chapter 8, if it is not as long as you guys deserve then I am sorry in advance. I have been a lousy author with this story and I know that I could update more often but this is where I need you guys to come in. I need you to tell me where you think that the story is going. Because right now I don't really know what else to do. Review or PM me your ideas and theories, I would love to take some of them into consideration.

8

Carlisle looked at me, with a look of pure terror in his eyes, it was clear that he thought I had hurt him on purpose, or that I had hurt him full stop. But in actual fact I have no idea what happened.

It made it all the more hard with Jasper and Emmett in the room to make any conversation, what with Jasper's emotions projecting hostility all over the place.

It was unclear to me what had happened.

I was thinking about why I had been so stupid as to think that the Cullen's actually loved me, or cared for me, it seems that I had been right.

There was things different about being immortal, like there was some kind of shield that I could put around me to protect myself, in all instances.

I tried.

I concentrated on a wall of protection, a cone of silence and peace and serenity.

that's when I felt it.

It felt like there was something coming from inside of me, though I could not see it, I could feel exactly where it was coming from, it was coming form within me, like a bubble, only invisible.

It felt impenetrable.

The thing about this 'shield' was that it felt like I could expand it, to consume someone else, hold someone else in it, and protect them too.

I decided to try out how impenetrable this shield really was. Which wouldn't be that hard. All I had to do was approach and then refuse 'orders' from Jasper and I would be on the ground in no time. It was clear that he was here to protect his family, and if that meant taking me out, then so be it.

I slowly stood up, taking my time, and keeping jasper in my sight at all times.

He saw me moving, but had a slightly confused look on his face, even with this the hostility pouring of him never wavered.

I put up what I thought was a kind of force field or shield, and walked straight past him.

Well it wasn't really passed him, because when he tried to restrain me, as soon as he came into contact with my skin his hand rebounded off it like a bouncy ball, a wall.

It was very interesting, and I realised that this could in fact be a very good thing, depending on how people thought about it.

I mean really, if I could learn to expand my shield and protect others, we could be safe for life, we would never have to worry about the Volturi again.

In all my excitement and rapid thought, I realized, I would have to be accepted back into the family for that, and with the pain that edward was in I didn't think that would be happening all that quickly.

It pained me to think that because of my bad luck and Edwards amazing skills, that I could never be accepted into this family again.

that's when I heard him.

"that's not true Bella" who was this that I was hearing?

"you will always be apart of this family, you are the love of my life and I am never letting go, especially now that I have you forever." it was Edward.

Though I was ecstatic to this newly acquired information, I was completely awestruck and dumb founded as to why Edward could hear my thoughts.

"I have no idea as to why I can hear you thoughts Bella, but what I do know is that I can, but only when you are willing, or don't have a guard up."

I was listening to him tell me about myself and my newly acquired powers, while doing this I followed his voice into the living room.

Is that why you were in pain before?" I addressed him directly for the first time since my transformation.

"I think that if you have your barrier up in your mind and me trying to enter it, it send off a trigger type alarm thing and it repels the intruder. I giggled softly at his form of explaining, though it made complete sense.

"aren't you thirsty Bella?" Edward enquired as I sat down on the couch on the other end to him.

"ahh no im not actually, though I hadn't really thought about it till now, is that normal?" I asked, I was getting a little worried about it, because from all the stories that I had been told was that newborns were out of control and were supposed to be thirsty all the time.

Was I some kind of mutant vampire?

"hey Edward? How long did it take me to wake up? Because it fell like a life time, not just three days." I had been told that the average transformation took around three days to be completed.

"ahh well Bella, it wasn't quite three days." he said with clear hesitation in his voice.

"well how long was it?" I asked getting a little annoyed at his stalling, it couldn't have been that bad, could it?

"you were out for about ten days." Edward said with his bowed, and even with my spunky new vampire hearing I struggled to hear him.

"TEN DAYS?!!" I said standing up, that was an awfully long time to be out, three pint three times longer than the average transformation time.

Oh Golly, I shudder to think of what I had missed.

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JEss Xxx