"I- Something's happened. Something terrible."

Hermione whimpered at those words and begged, "Tell me Cas! Please!" A horrible thought struck her and she clutched at her angel's trench coat, choking out, "Merlin! Dean?! Please say he's ok! The apocalypse was stopped wasn't it? But he sacrificed himself for it or something didn't he?"

Cas caught her by the shoulders firmly and told her sadly, "He's fine, Mya. Dean didn't sacrifice himself."

Hermione let out a sigh of relief.

"Sam did."

Hermione choked on her sigh and gripped Cas' trench coat until her knuckles turned white. She stared up at Cas, waiting for him to say it was all a sick joke that Dean cooked up, but his face stayed grim and sombre. That was when it hit her.

Sam was gone.

Sam was dead.

"NO!"

The scream tore from Hermione's throat as the tears fell viciously. She hit her fists against Cas' chest as she broke down, screaming incoherent words, catching only half of what Cas was telling her. It was enough for her to understand though.

"Let Lucifer in... gained control... jumped into the pit... Dean never wants to see you or I again..."

"SHUT UP!" Hermione screeched, covering her ears and shaking her head, only just registering the fact that her parents had burst into her room. That last statement had broken her. "I DON'T WANT TO KNOW!"

Hermione squeezed her eyes shut to try and stop the tears and block out the images of Sam, her big brother Sam, jumping into Hell and of Dean telling Cas to never bring Hermione over again. But her memories of Sam started to play behind her closed eyelids instead.

The times he had helped her with self defence...

'Come on Mya! Press a little harder and I'll be unconscious within seconds!"

'I don't want to hurt you Sammy!"

'Please Mya! You're just a little girl! You can't do that much harm to me!'

'Really? We'll see!'

'That's it! I should c-'

'...Sammy? Sam! Hey... I did it!'

The nights he had sat up with her in the summer after 1st year after she had had a nightmare...

'Sam?'

'Mya! Nightmares again?'

'Yeah. Dean's snoring keeping you up again? Can I sit with you for a while?'

'Right in one, Mya. Sure you can. Wanna tell me what your nightmare was about?'

'It's kinda stupid...'

'Mya, I've had a nightmare about clowns brainwashing everyone in town to chase me with flowers that squirt water. I'm sure it's not as stupid as that. Now, come on. Tell me.'

'Well... it's just the whole Philosopher's Stone adventure... I keep dreaming that I picked the wrong potion and poisoned Harry! Then I go back into the chess room and Ron wont wake up and Quirrell appears with a fully restored Voldemort and they spot me and... and...'

'Hey! Hey! Don't cry Mya! If this Voldemort guy ever does try to hurt or kill you, he'd have to go through me, Dean and Bobby first. Not to mention, Cas with his angel powers. Listen to me. You didn't poison Harry! You chose the right potion! Ron woke up and you managed to get out and Harry managed to stop Quirrell. You're safe ok?'

'Th- Thanks Sam.'

Other memories flashed before Hermione's eyes as she screamed and sobbed, lashing out at anyone who dared touch her. Finally, Cas caught her flailing limbs and pulled her into a tight hug that stopped her from moving. She fought for a moment before all the fight went out of her and she collapsed in her angel's arms, crying.

"W- Why? Why did it have to be Sammy? Why my big brother?" She sobbed, clutching Cas' shoulders. She heard Cas tell her parents he was taking her to calm down and he would be back with her soon. She instinctively held on tighter as the sound of wings accompanied them leaving her room. In the split second it took to transport to the new place, Hermione made a mad decision.


"Hermione? Wha-"

Hermione silenced Cas by pressing her lips to his roughly, tears still falling freely, letting the angel steal her first kiss. Cas stood frozen for a moment before pushing Hermione away.

"Please Cas!" Hermione cried, lip trembling. "Please make me forget! Just for a little while! And I don't mean by wiping my memory either!"

"Hermione, I can't! You're only 14 and-"

"Don't give me that bullshit!" Hermione shrieked, pulling Cas towards her roughly. "You're my bloody guardian angel! You know about the time turners! You know I'm gonna be 16 in 2 months!"

"I'm an Angel of The Lord, Mya! It would be a sin!" Cas retaliated, cradling her face in his hands gently. Hermione almost gave up, feeling embarrassed and humiliated, when she spotted something in Cas' eyes.

"You're afraid." She whispered, catching Cas' face in between her own hands so he couldn't look away. His eyes stared into hers, wide with fear and nervousness. "You have no idea what to do. Do you?"

"No." Cas admitted, looking ashamed and slightly embarrassed. "Like I said, I'm an Angel of The Lord. I've never had... never been with... you know... It's not what I'm here to do, Mya. I'm here to protect you. To keep you mentally and physically healthy."

"Cas, if you don't do this for me... I think... no, I know I will go insane. Then you would have failed to keep me mentally healthy." Hermione pointed out quietly, searching his eyes. "I can see you want to. I can see the curiosity in your eyes."

"Hermione..." Cas begged, trying to pull away from her grip. She wouldn't let him look away from her eyes though, letting him see all the pain and weariness in them. She was a 15, meant to be 14, year old girl. She was meant to be worrying about school instead of whether she was going to see her friends again or not and about whether Sam was being tortured in Hell.

"Please Cas. You're my Guardian Angel. You told me once you'd be here and you'd save me whenever I needed you." Hermione reminded him, tears sparkling in her eyes on her cheeks. "Well... I need you. Save me, Castiel."

Cas stared into her eyes deeply for a moment before sighing and closing his own. He opened them again and pulled Hermione into a hesitant but heated kiss, making her clutch at his shoulders with one hand and his wind swept hair with the other. Cas groaned into the kiss before speaking aloud.

"Forgive me, Father, for I am about to Sin."

Just a short one this time! What did you guys think? I'm guessing you guys know what's about to happen next! This story is not going to have a lemon in it! Sorry! I might get my best friend Emily to write one though and I'll upload it separately! The next chapter will have a time skip in the middle of it, I think.

On another note, I went to the Harry Potter Studios on Thursday with my Media class and it was amazing! So thanks for reading and please review! :D ~ Phoebe x