Kagome woke up and decided that it was time to get up. She sat up and looked at the calendar, February 14th. Just what see needed another valentine's day without love and she wasn't the kind of girl to really ask for love. She had not had the life that everyone else had and she felt like a walking shadow of a life that was once beautiful. So like every other day she got dressed then walked to the dining room had a small breakfast then went to school.

Sesshomaru noticed that Kagome was acting different than normal. Since the incident four months ago he had gotten her to come out and go to school and talk to him. Today she came out and went to school but she didn't talk to him. He went to Kagome's diary for the answer. He found two entries that was probably the answer.


Dear diary

Today was Valentine's Day and it was not so happy. Mom gave me a card, Miroku and Souta gave me chocolate and Kikyo was herself and didn't do anything. That was the only good thing. At school yesterday the teacher had us make a "mail box" for cards and we placed them outside the class room to keep it secretive. Well I had made a card for almost everyone in the school but when I opened my box I found only one card and that was from my teacher.


Dear diary

Again I go unnoticed as another Valentine's Day came and went. MY family forgot about me and at school I caught my boy friend Hojo in a lovers kiss with my best friend Megan. Also not one card from any one, everyone laughed at me and I literally ran out crying. I then ended up locking myself in the bathroom and falling down the stairs. I came out with a hurt pride and a broken heart. My mother came and brought me home before lunch because when I fell I must have broken my arm. So I am now in a cast for about 7 weeks. I don't think my life is going to any better but just getting worse.


Sesshomaru was shocked. With the amount of love Kagome had given such little to be returned. That added to the long list of many things that Kagome had not been given during her life.

"Man is there any way to see how her life was and not threw what she said." Sesshomaru said out load. He wanted to see how her life was and try to fix it. He didn't want to admit it but he loved her, a human. He had never known anyone to have a life worse than his. Hours went by and he felt Kagome come into the palace and head to her special spot. He was about to leave and listen to her song when his mother appeared before him.

"Sesshomaru I am here to grant your request to see into the past of Kagome."

"Wow I never thought anyone heard that."

"Well my son I listen to you even when you're alone. Now come to enter to her past we must enter threw her song." Sesshomaru took hold of his mother's hand and zoomed to the garden to listen to Kagome's song.

I gotta take a little time
A little time to think things over
I better read between the lines
In case I need it when I'm older
Aaaah woah-ah-aah

Now this mountain I must climb
Feels like a world upon my shoulders
And through the clouds I see love shine
It keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me
Aaaah woah-oh-ooh

I'm gonna take a little time
A little time to look around me, oooh ooh-ooh ooh-ooh oooh
I've got nowhere left to hide
It looks like love has finally found me

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
I can't stop now, I've traveled so far
To change this lonely life

I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
I wanna feel what love is
I know you can show me
I wanna know what love is
I want you to show me
And I wanna feel, I want to feel what love is
And I know, I know you can show me

Let's talk about love
(I wanna know what love is) the love that you feel inside
(I want you to show me) I'm feeling so much love
(I wanna feel what love is) no, you just cannot hide
(I know you can show me) yeah, woah-oh-ooh
I wanna know what love is, let's talk about love
(I want you to show me) I wanna feel it too
(I wanna feel what love is) I wanna feel it too
And I know, and I know, I know you can show me
Show me what is real, woah (woah), yeah I know
(I wanna know what love is) hey I wanna know what love
(I want you to show me), I wanna know, I wanna know, want know
(I wanna feel what love is), hey I wanna feel, love
I know you can show me, yeah

Her song was sad and as she finished Sesshomaru's mother pulled him into her as a portal to her past opened. They landed just as Kagome watched her mother turn her back to Kagome on her 7th birthday.

"Sesshomaru you need to know that she can't hear, see or touch you." Sesshomaru nodded and watched the scene take hold.


"Mom I'm 7 today can't I take a break of cleaning?" young Kagome asked

"No you are to clean for your siblings are too busy doing their own things."

"But mom, Kikyo is on the phone, Souta is just kicking a soccer ball at the house and Miroku is sleeping. Please mom."

"Kagome no now go clean the steps." Sesshomaru watched as his young love walk off to clean and cry. The scene changed to later at the dinner table.

"Mom, Becky and I want to go out tomorrow can we?"Kikyo asked

"Sure dear just be back before ten."

"Thanks." Kikyo smiled and Kagome walked in and sat down.

"Mom the chores are down. May I have my super?" Kagome asked

"Oh I guess I forgot to make enough. You can have what is ever left." Kagome got up and went to make her plate but all that was left was one single pea. "Mom there is nothing left so can I make a sandwich?"

"No dear I am almost out of bread and I need it for lunches tomorrow so just finish what is in the pans and then clean the dishes and floors then finish your homework then got to bed okay dear." Kagome sighed. The scene changed to a few years later at Christmas. Form the windows it was snowing heavily.


"Kagome you need to go shovel the walk way before the rush comes." Kagome's mother said as she pulled the covers off of Kagome.

"I am sick. I threw up 3 times last night and I have a fever." Kagome coughed a very harsh cough.

"Hunny don't be silly you are just making excuses now go shovel and I will make my warm hot chocolate." Sesshomaru watched a sick Kagome get up and work and come in to have no hot chocolate or time to unwrap her gift. Sesshomaru was now in tears. Her mother could be charged for neglecting Kagome. The scene changed to what looked like to be that day.

"Kagome please stay after class." Sesshomaru watched and listen to Kagome get yelled at by her teacher for cheating off of Kouga. Kagome said that she didn't but that he did. Before Sesshomaru say any more he was back in his study with his mother standing in front of him.


"Is that enough for you son?"

"That is more than enough for me to work with. I am going to go to her now." Sesshomaru was about to leave when his mother spook up

"Son you mustn't tell her that you have seen her past and help train her to be strong." Sesshomaru nodded and thanked his mother. He got to Kagome just as she finished her song. Kagome was gifted with a beautiful voice and he couldn't help but want to listen to it.

"Kagome, why are you so depressed today?" Sesshomaru asked

"You wouldn't understand." Kagome said as once again tears fell from her eyes

"True but it is better to talk things out then let them bottle up inside."

"Well in my history class the professor accused me of cheating. And the person I cheated off of was my stupid ass half brother." Sesshomaru was about to say something when Sango came out running to them.

"Papa, Miroku asked me to marry him. And we are having a priest come today to marry us." Sesshomaru hugged his daughter and then looked at where Kagome was sitting and she was gone. He smelt tears. The wedding was small and simple. Kagome though didn't join the part but watched from her room. She didn't want anything to do with the love that was down there and even though Kagome was Miroku's family, she didn't want to be near love.

Sesshomaru saw how Kagome acted around Miroku and Sango for the few weeks following the wedding. She would rarely hold a full conversation with either her brother or Sango.

"Miroku have you noticed that Kagome doesn't even talk to you or my daughter?" Sesshomaru asked one Sunday morning at breakfast

"Yes but I have been so uptight with Sango that I haven't confronted her about it. Sango wants me to get a job but I haven't had any luck" Miroku said

"Did Kagome have anything go wrong with her as a child?" Sesshomaru asked hoping to figure out what was wrong

"Well the only thing i can think of is that she didnt get enough love as a child. Mother really believed that she was the cause of father leaving us and made her do more chores than the rest of us."

"That could be it. a wedding is a symbol of love of two people and two families coming together. She couldnt look at the wedding and i felt some hostility towards it from her." Sessgomaru now knew what he had to do. The only thing was that he couldn't figure out was how he was going to do this.

Sesshomaru sat on the couch and turned on what Miroku called the tv and flipped through the channels till he came to a local channel with a message that would definatly help him.