Primeval
Chapter Nine
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"Holy shit."
"Yeah… that pretty much sums this up." Raven closed her eyes and leaned back against the brick wall behind her, trying not to focus on the sick, sticky feeling between her and Beast Boy. What had they done? They acted like stupid teenage kids feeding off hormones instead of logic, and now they'd created a world of trouble for themselves. Raven moved against him, trying to push his suddenly heavy weight off of her ribcage. "Beast Boy, please put me down and hand me my pants." She felt the brick move beneath her back and her feet touched the moist asphalt beneath her.
The silence was deafening. Beast Boy was adjusting himself, pushing hair out of his eyes, and casting sidelong glances at her at if he expected her to say something rude about his sexual prowess. Raven at this point couldn't care less if he was the world's greatest lover or not, she was furious with herself, furious with the pieces of her soul (Desire primarily), but most of all, she was furious with Beast Boy. He let the emotions between them burn too hot and too fast, and look at the consequences: public sexual intercourse. She should go to jail for indecent exposure.
"You're not talking."
Raven looked over at him. He was smiling as he watched her try to smooth her hair back into something relatively normal. It felt strange, having him look at her like that, with that strange, soft look in his eyes. The same look that the heroes got in cheesy romance movies. Ugh. Why her? "No. I'm not. Do you expect me to?"
His smile fell and he sighed and looked away, rolling his eyes. "Actually? Yeah, I do. We just… mated in an alley after a nasty fight, and you have nothing to say about it? No rude quips against me? No apologies or excuses?"
"Did you just say excuses?" Raven felt the red cross her eyes and the words bubble up into her throat before she had a chance to stop either one. "I'm sorry, are you insinuating that this was my fault? That I was the one that started this? That I was blinded by your masculinity, falling at your feet, begging you to take my virginity in a public place?"
Beast Boy paled and he took a step closer to her. "You are… were…"
Raven growled. "Empath, Beast Boy. I don't like to get close to a whole lot of people, and they don't usually like to get close to me. You seem to be the exception, unfortunately." She pushed past him and finally dropped the barrier shielding them, sending a silent "thank you" to whatever Goddess helped her keep it up. Because mating with Beast Boy was bad enough, imagine if the public knew all about their coitus. "Well, you got what you wanted, didn't you? We're mates now, and I'm guessing there isn't a whole lot I can do to reverse it."
She felt the shockwave of Beast Boy's rage and looked over at him, not caring whether or not she had made him angry. He forced her into this, gave her no choice, left her no option of escape, so what did he expect from her? Compliance? A weary acceptance of this fate he gave her?
"You're so… emotionless about it. About us. Like what you said and what we just did didn't even matter to you." He snarled at her and grabbed her wrist, preventing her escape. "I didn't fuck you, Raven. We mated. We did that together. Don't you dare try to blame all of that on me, not when you were touching me like you were and kissing me like you were. You were asking for it." His hand tightened and he pulled her closer. "You moaned, Raven. And writhed, and hissed, and scratched… and you gave me your submission."
"Because you asked for it, not because commanded it from me." Raven snarled up at him, tugging at her wrist. "Let me go. I'm not your bitch, you cannot control me."
He slammed her against the wall and Raven saw the dark green fire burn to life in his eyes. The beast was struggling to get to the surface, to have a say in this conversation and make himself heard. "You gave me your submission. You're already my bitch."
"Like hell." Raven tried not to think about the way her clothes suddenly felt uncomfortable, or the feel of his thighs pressed against hers, or the way he fit so nicely into her body. She tried desperately not to notice the tousled, sweat-dampened hair falling into his eyes. His anger and frustration were sending her emotions into overdrive again. She tightened her lips and snarled up at him. "I refuse to be."
"You can't refuse." Beast Boy raised the hem of her shirt and touched her brand, watching her face as her eyes closed and her lips parted in a breathless moan. "You react to my touch. My brand. My kiss." He leaned down and caught the muffled sound of her moans on his own lips. "You're my mate, Raven. Don't tell me you're not."
Raven pulled away from him and glared. "I don't want this."
"Bullshit. You stood there, touching me and kissing me, and telling me to my face that you want me. And now… all the sudden you don't? You can tell me that you don't want me, but I know the truth." He slid his hands over the fabric on her jeans, rubbing his palm against her core. Raven felt her hips buck against his touch and she cursed herself. "You let me eat you, Raven. You mated with me in an alley. Don't you dare tell me you don't want this."
"I don't want this." She pushed at his shoulders and put space between them. "I don't know how to get it through to you that I don't want this. Yes, I made a stupid mistake in letting you… fuck me and telling you that I wanted you… but that's all it was, a stupid mistake, and it doesn't mean I want it to happen ever again. I am not your mate, I am not your bitch, I'm your friend and your teammate, and it's going to stay that way."
Gathering as much courage as she could, she pushed past him and started for the car, not giving a second glance towards the destroyed shop front. Somewhere in the distance, Raven could hear sirens. Probably the police in response to the damage. Ugh, how was she going to explain that to her teammates? "Now that we've both effectively pissed each other off, let's go home. I'd like to pretend for a few moments that this never happened and I'm just mad at you for something else stupid you did."
"You're not going to talk about this? About us? About your total refusal of me?" He chased after her grabbed her arm and tugged her close to him, dropping his voice to a whisper. His eyes darted around looking for any eavesdroppers, or someone who might have figure out what happened beneath those thin layers of magic in the alley. "The brand aside, the ritual aside, our… sexual frustration aside, you can't ignore that we just mated. In public. We fucked against an alley wall, Raven. What does that mean to you?"
"To me? It means we're both idiots and we pushed each other too far, and now we're both denying how each of us feels. You don't like that I'm angry and I don't like that you're hurt. Now, let me go. I want to go home." She shook his hand off of her arm and opened the passenger side door, sliding into the confines of the car.
Beast Boy growled and got in on the driver's side, slamming the door behind him. The tension filled the car until it felt like it was a ticking time bomb, just waiting for the spark to set it off. Beast Boy leaned back into his seat and stared at her, his fingers clenching and unclenching. "I cannot believe you, Raven. Really. You're so damn… fickle with your emotions. One minute you can't love me, the next you simply don't, and after that… I'm not even sure you want to be my friend."
"Stop being melodramatic." Raven rolled her eyes and leaned back into her seat.
"How can I not be?" He started the car but didn't move, and instead watched as a few police interceptors pulled into the parking lot, followed by a news van. "You don't even seem to care about what happened, except that you think we're both idiots because we actually felt something for each other and acted on it."
"We are idiots, Beast Boy. We fucked in an alley. We didn't make love or have sex, we fucked. It was purely hormonal, and I don't know how I feel about that just yet." Raven pinched the bridge of her nose and looked away, watching as a fire truck and another news van approached the comic book store. Great, this day couldn't get any worse. Now everyone was going to know about Raven's jealous outburst. "Can you please drive? I would really like to not be around when they figure out what I did to the comic book store."
"Fine." He sighed and started the car, pulling onto the street, but not heading back to the tower. He turned onto a side street that slithered up toward the foothills to the mountains, far away from the bay. "But I'm not going home, and neither are you, until we talk about this and figure something out."
"What is there to talk about? You fucked me in an alley." She crossed her arms over her chest and watched as the houses and building started to grow farther and farther apart. How far away was he going to take her? "Thanks, by the way, for checking about my sexual status. That wasn't exactly how I planned to lose my virginity." She smelled the acrid spike of his anger and turned away.
"What did you expect out of me, Raven? You… you… egged me on." He turned down another side road, taking her away from any civilization and into the national forest. Not good. "You let me fuck you in an alley. You were petting me and touching me and teasing me. I couldn't control myself or the beast, and we both just reacted."
Raven felt the snarl form before she could stop it and she whipped around to look at him. "Don't blame this on the beast! That was you. You fucked me. No one else."
"Because I wanted to!"
"Well, clearly we were both not thinking, because I let you fuck me."
"Because you wanted to?"
Raven felt the question hang like a blade in the air. "I don't know."
"You do too." He slammed the steering wheel and cursed. The tension turned stifling, as they were both been pushed past the breaking point. "Why? Why do you let that thing touch you, kiss you, eat you, brand you, and it's okay? But you finally give into your feelings for me, and it's as if the world is going to end. He's a beast Raven, and you just let him conquer you."
"He didn't conquer me." Raven growled and looked away. "I'm still fighting it."
"He continues to brand you. I know, I saw it last night. The brand is all the way from your stomach to your spine, and I didn't do that." Beast Boy shook his head and growled back at her. "That's a mark of territory, Raven! How is that not considered conquering?"
Volatile heat boiled between them and Raven spoke before she could hold her own tongue. "Look at your own goddamn wrist, Beast Boy. My soul hasn't exactly been passive during this whole debacle either." Raven winced as soon as she pointed out her own brand on his skin. Why? Why did she tell him? True, he would have figured it out eventually, but that didn't mean that she had to tell him now, when they were fighting. And more importantly, when she was fighting this whole situation.
His eyes slid from the road to his right wrist and back again. Minutes passed as he slowly put the pieces together, finally understanding what the mark was. "That's… that's yours?"
"Yes." She sighed and pressed a hand to her forehead, trying not to look at him. She didn't know that it was even possible, but the situation had just gotten a hundred times more embarrassing, and a hundred times more frustrating. "I'm not the only one being conquered. My powers reached out and branded you at some point. Don't ask me when, don't ask me how, because I'm still trying to figure that out for myself."
There was a long, heavy pause between them, neither one daring to speak. If either of them said the wrong thing, then their emotions would set off the bomb. Beast Boy swallowed and glanced over at her, his voice barely above a whisper. "So, what does this mean?"
"I don't know." Raven sighed and leaned against the door. "I honestly don't know."
"I think you do. I think you know exactly what this means, Raven. You just don't want to admit to yourself that you might actually care for me."
"As a friend and a comrade, Beast Boy, nothing more." Raven still refused to look at him. The emotions rippling through the car were morphing from tense into volatile with every word she uttered. But she couldn't be bound, not to him or anyone else. Swallowing her reservations, she looked straight at Beast Boy and continued talking. "What we did back there… it was a mistake. You made it, I made it, and I refuse to believe that it meant anything more than pure, carnal emotions. Nothing is going to change."
"Fuck you."
Raven felt the air shift and the explosion go off before she had a chance to stop it. He jerked the car to the right, sending them down a secluded road, one that ended in a small hiking trail that meandered through some of the deepest parts of the national forest. It was raining and the trail was defined as "expert", no one would be there. Raven closed her eyes and fought against her own panic. This was bad. Why did she let this happen? "Where are you going?"
He grunted, and Raven could see the spark of the beast swimming in his eyes. He was still fighting for control, trying to get out and dominate the situation. Beast Boy parked the car in the deserted parking lot and unbuckled his seatbelt. He was gasping for air, struggling against a pointless fight. Anger and possession struck Raven square in the chest, choking her and sending her body into overdrive again. A wave of heat washed through her limbs and pooled in her stomach, her body reacting without her consent. The day had officially gotten worse.
"Get out. Right now."
Raven reached for the door, her fingers tentative on the handle. If she stepped outside, there was no telling what would happen to her, but her body wouldn't let her stay in the car either. "Gar…"
"Get. Out." He threw open the door, walked around to the other side of the car and yanked her out. "Now. Right now."
"Gar… Stop it." She looked into his eyes, seeing her friend disappear into their depths. She didn't want to face him, not here and not now. "You're hurting me."
He pulled her to the front of the car and nearly threw her onto the hood, her body making a strange noise as it connected with the metal. He pressed close to her, pinning her between the hood of the car and his own body. "Shut up, and mate with me."
His lips were on hers before she could stop him, feasting on her mouth as if it were some kind of delicacy. Raven was helpless to respond, and her body wouldn't let her do otherwise. He tasted of a mixture of rage and desire, boiling up from the deepest part of his soul, and Raven wasn't necessarily sure that he was all Garfield. In fact, she wasn't sure if there was any Garfield left in him now.
His hands were already grabbing her at her shirt, pulling it over her head with so much force he nearly ripped the seams. He unlatched her bra and cupped her breasts, enjoying their weight in his hands. There was a moment where he tried some awkward attempt at foreplay, but he grew bored and anxious. He didn't want to please her, he wanted to fuck. Whatever tenderness was in him vanished, and he ripped her jeans off of her with painful force. Raven winced and stared up at him, seeing nothing left of her friend. He was all beast.
"Why are you doing this?"
"Because you force me to. I've been taunted and teased by you for years, Raven. I've chosen you for my mate, and you've accepted by mating with my host. But now you're refusing me, and that will not happen. I want you now. Here. In the rain. Like a beast and a demon." His fingers slipped lower and probed her body, stoking a foreign fire in her without her consent. She knew she didn't want this, but her body reacted oppositely. It wanted everything the beast would offer. She moaned, arched her back, hissed and scratched at arms.
"He had you first, now it's my turn." He smiled something that looked like a sneer and leaned over her, baring his fangs in a show of dominance. "You would not let me make love to you, so I will rut with you like the demon you are." He palmed her hips and spun her around, pressing her hands to the smooth, wet surface of the metal.
Her body was confused, both elated and disgusted by everything he was doing to her. She gasped as his hands slid over her rain-slicked body, delving into hollows she didn't know she had. He was still trying to get her aroused, to make sure she was ready for him. Tears leaked from the corners of her eyes as his hands covered hers. There was pressure from the searing heat of his body pressed against her own, and then he paused.
His lips feathered over her ear in some small act of gentleness. "Do not fear our union, Raven. But do not forget that I am your mate too and I will have you how and when I want you." He kissed down the column of her neck and bit into the flesh on her shoulder, pinning her into submission. There was a moment of anticipation and pushed himself inside her.
Raven screamed. He groaned into her ear, a sound that was a mixture of pain and pleasure. His teeth tightened on her flesh and he moved savagely against her, each thrust pushing her knees into the car's bumper. She cursed and moaned and screamed and cried, her body both trying to take him and reject him at the same time. The pain was exquisite and the pleasure was brutal. Her brand burned like fire, rippling against her skin with every movement.
His pace quickened, and Raven felt the smoky, airy feeling of near-release. His and hers. He grunted and pushed against her so hard, that her thighs were sure to bruise. Raven cried out, her back arching as he spilled himself inside her. Snarling, the beast moved so his body covered hers, and blanketed it in something that resembled both possession and protection. Making a noise like a content dog, he unlatched his teeth from her shoulder and lapped at the wound he created.
They lay there for what felt like hours, but was undoubtedly minutes, his tongue sliding along the raw marks of his bite. Rain poured down around them, but he didn't move, and Raven was trapped beneath him. What had she done? What had she let him do? She shifted uncomfortably, trying to put some space between them. The beast seemed less than interested in moving, and all her fidgeting did was arouse him again.
Raven growled. "I'm cold."
"You're not." He slid his tongue along the line of her shoulder, now just wanting to taste her. Raven shuddered in revulsion and satisfaction at his ministration. She felt him smile as he felt her reactions to his touch. "You want me to move." He scraped his teeth against her skin, and his fingers moved to find new places to explore on her body. "I want you again."
"No." Raven shifted her shoulders and tried to push him off of her, but the movement sent aftershocks rippling through her body, and she whimpered with the sensations. Why did she react like this, and to him? She cursed the new wave of heat growing between them and stilled. The beast groaned and pressed his hips deeper into her, moving slightly with the pull of her body. She growled and looked over her shoulder at him. "I'm done. Get off of me."
He growled low in his throat and his eyes narrowed. "You don't get a say, Raven."
"Your host lets me say whatever I want, and he listens to me." She shouldered him again, and this time he budged just a little. "Now, get off of me."
The sour, spiky feeling of jealousy shot through Raven, and she felt the beast's fingers bite into her hips. He pulled himself from her body and turned her around, pushing her back against the cold steel of the hood. Leaning over her body, he looked into her eyes, scolding her. "My host is pathetic, and you know it. He cannot provide for you the way I can, and is no alpha male. He doesn't even know how to properly fuck our mate. An alley way? Disgusting."
"And the hood of a car is any better? You're not exactly making a good case for yourself." She pushed at his arms, putting more space between them. They both needed to breathe before he managed to start the fire between them again. Raven wasn't sure if her body could take any more activity, and one more fucking was probably going to break her. He took a half step back and stared at her, his eyes roaming over her body, sprawled on the hood of the car. His lips pulled up into a slow smile and he leaned back on his heels.
"I'd consider it a better location than a public alley. Our mating should be a private gesture. You, me, and nature." He stood there, naked, wet, and fully aroused, and Raven had to use every ounce of her power and her self control to not react at the sight of him. Her body was betraying her at every step, turning her insides to warm Jell-o as he watched her with a smoldering stare.
Raven tilted her chin up in defiance, and frowned at him. "We shouldn't even be mating. I never asked for this, and I never asked for you."
"That is a lie, and we both know it. You've pined after my host for years. Just because he's oblivious to the signals you send, does not mean I am. I've seen the sidelong glances you've cast at him and smelled your arousal when he gets too close. You've always wanted us, you're just to proud to admit it. But, I can do for you what no one has ever done for you before, Raven. You want me, and your body wants me. You're aroused by the thought of me, strong, virile, and ready to procreate." He sneered and pushed closer to her, breathing in her scent. "I can smell it."
Raven felt anger well up into her chest again. What did he think he was doing, toying with her like this? Trying to goad her into thinking she had some kind of feelings for him? He was disgusting, frustrating, and Raven wanted nothing more than to punch him in the face. "No. And, for the record, I do not pine after Beast Boy. Both of you are nothing more than annoyances."
"Don't deny me or your feelings. It's pointless when we both know the truth…" His fingers dipped into her core again, teasing her. "You're already wet again, Raven, ready for me. You like the feel of my cock inside you, and you want me to fuck you again… don't you?"
"I don't!" She pushed at him and forced him to take another step back, putting much needed space between them. She could feel her body stirring to life of its own accord. How could this happen? She didn't want this between them, and yet her body reacted to every touch and every brush of a sexual promise. Raven slid down the hood of the car and fell into the mud, looking for her clothes. She needed some kind of barrier between them, or at least something to keep him from looking at her as if she were a meal. "Just, go away and leave me alone."
Raven felt the ripple of his emotions, and she barely had a chance to react to them. His hand grabbed her arm and yanked her to her feet so hard that he nearly pulled her arm from her socket. He pressed his face close to her and snarled, baring his fangs. "You will not deny me. Your body is incapable of denying me what I want or need. If I need to fuck you, then you will open your legs and let me fuck you."
"My body doesn't control my mind, and I do not want you, so you will not be fucking me again. Now, get off." She pushed his hand off of her arm and growled, letting her eyes glow red. The day's events pilled on her shoulders, and if she wasn't careful she would reach her turning point too quickly. And then all it would take was just a few wrong words from the beast to set her off.
"Again!" He grabbed her and threw her into the mud, his body moving so fast he was nearly a blur. He slid over her, snarling and hissing at her as he pinned her down into the mud. His knees were pushing her legs open, exposing her center to him. "I want you again! And you will not deny me what I want. I will fuck you."
Raven stared up at him, struggling beneath the weight of his body. Her emotions ripped through her soul, fighting against the dominion he was trying to hold over her. They would not let him control her, no matter how her body and Desire reacted to him. He was too dangerous for her soul. "Stop this! You're throwing a temper tantrum like a child, because you aren't getting what you want."
"I will not be denied what I want. I've been trapped in that body with no sexual release until you came along, Raven. I am hungry for desire, and hungry for your body. Do not deny me this." His hands slid along her body, shaping her and touching her. "Give me this and I will retreat into my host."
"I don't want to give it to you."
"You're lying." His fingers pushed inside her again and Raven's back arched as she cursed. He smiled and moved over her, pinning her even deeper into the mud. "Your body is ready for me again, ready to be thoroughly fucked." He cocked his head to the side and gave her a wolfish smile. "You do not wished to be fucked? Then, let me make love to you."
Raven glared, still fighting against the bonds of his hands. "No!"
He bent down and swirled his tongue along her pulse, ignoring her struggling and her protests. "I'll be gentle. Isn't that what you want from me? You don't want a beast right now… you want a man." He slid his tongue lower, tracing the shape of her clavicle before moving to taste the flesh of her breasts.
"No!" Raven felt Rage rush through her body, pushing at her powers and forcing their release. Her powers poured from the darkest depths of her soul, triggering her flight or fight response, and she pushed his body off of her with such force that he slammed into the bumper of the car. There was a sickening "thud" followed by an even more frightening silence. Raven scrambled away, her knees and hands slipping out from under her. "Just leave me alone!"
"No." The beast slowly picked up his head and snarled at her, reaching up to feel a cut along his lips. He tasted blood and frowned at her, eyes darkening even more. There were a few cuts along his body, and his back was going to be purple with bruises later, but he had pushed her too far. Raven would not let him win, not without a fight. "I will have you again."
"Not today. Now, give me back Beast Boy!"
"No!" He pushed himself forward and tackled her body, sending them through the tree line and into the forest. They wrestled through the underbrush, snarling and spitting at each other, like animals fighting for dominance. The beast clawed at her body, gaining the upper hand and pushing her against a tree root. "You are always pining after him. I'm the one who claimed you! I get you too!"
"I don't pine after Beast Boy! I don't want either of you!" Raven pushed at his chest and rolled them over so she straddled his waist. The fighting wasn't doing anything but arousing the beast even more, and his body pressed against her in a very unusual way. Raven let her eyes glow red and she snarled down at him. "I want to be left alone, by both of you."
"You need to be fucked."
"You need to learn to shut up."
He shifted his weight and rolled them over, pinning her hands above her head. There was a flash of an unrecognizable emotion in his eyes, and Raven felt her body still as she stared at him. "Why him? Why? He is weak, stupid, childish, and cannot provide for you the way a real mate should. He cannot even defend the territory of his own body, and you somehow find this suitable? As if this is how a mate should act? He should own you, protect you… procreate with you, but he simply flirts and whines." He growled and shook his head in anger. "This is unacceptable, and he should not belong to you, and you should not want him. Yet, every time we meet you whine and bitch until I give him back. But when you talk to him, you claim you do not want anything to do with him. You are confusing and fickle."
"I…" Raven struggled with her how breath and looked away. His words hit too close to a tender wound inside her heart, and she wasn't ready to face it yet. She couldn't face those accusations.
"I need to fuck." He growled again and his knees slid between her thighs, spreading her legs again. Heat burned to life again and Raven felt her body react without her consent again. He pressed against her center and looked her in the eyes. "And you will not lie there and take it, Raven. I am your mate too, and your body will always want mine."
He didn't give her a moment to fight or respond, and he surged forward into her body. Raven moaned, her back arching as he moved inside her. He was harsh and almost angry, as if he were trying to teach her a lesson for her disobedience. Raven screamed as he bit into her shoulder, pinning her into submission again. She had defied him, and she needed to be punished in the only way the beast knew how.
The air around them shifted suddenly, and his pace slowed from his fevered pitch to an almost gentle lull and Raven opened her eyes to watch as his expression morphed into one of a struggle. Behind the beast's fiery green eyes, Raven could see the shadows of her friend. Beast Boy was fighting against the beast, trying to save Raven and keep her from harm. There was a moment as the beast stilled, his eyes shut as if in pain, and then he gasped.
Beast Boy coughed and cursed and pulled away from Raven, stumbling through the underbrush as he forced space between them. She lay on her back, staring at the canopy of leaves above her, listening to the ragged breathing of her friend and trying to calm herself. His fright washed over her, beating at her senses until it felt like her ears were ringing and her own body was shaking. She turned her head and looked over at him, sitting against a tree and staring at the ground.
"I… I didn't think I could suppress him…" He shoved wet hair out of his eyes, and looked over at her. There was a long, heavy pause between them as Raven fought to get a hold of her sanity. Beast Boy reached out to touch her, and then quickly pulled his hand back, as if he'd been burned. This was, after all, a very delicate situation. "Are you…" He didn't finish asking the question, knowing full well that it was a loaded gun.
"Am I what, okay?" Raven sat up, her body and joints groaning with the movement, and leaned against the tree behind her. She looked over at Beast Boy and frowned. Was she okay? She'd been dominated, screamed at, punished, fucked, Desire had a field day and Rage was smoldering deep inside her soul… but she still felt intact. Her head hurt, and there were undoubtedly wounds on her body from the fight, but… everything felt manageable. She could tolerate this, for now. "I'm not quite sure at this point. I've been thoroughly fucked from every which way possible, both literally and figuratively, and I'm still trying to find my bearings."
"It wasn't supposed to be like this, Raven… It was never supposed to be like this." He fell into the mud, a hand covering his face. Raven saw a tear slide from his shielded eyes, and he made no move to wipe it away. "I don't know any more if I'm a man or beast. This… this thing takes over me, and I do this to you. I can't be around you if I can't control myself."
"Gar…" Raven felt something pull at her heart and she moved a bit closer to him. He may have seemed like a happy-go-lucky idiot sometimes, but behind that vapid expression, he had his own demons to fight. And Raven knew the feeling of that battle all too well.
"Raven., I'm so sorry…" He looked into her eyes and leaned forward, moving to kiss her. Raven didn't try to pull away, and gave him someone he could cling to in this moment. His hand cupped her cheek, rubbing his thumb along the line of her cheek bone, and staring into her eyes. Raven kept her face blank neither encouraging or discouraging whatever act he was going to do. He leaned in and kissed her slowly, his lips moving against her own softly and chastely.
Raven didn't move, didn't breath, and didn't say anything, letting him finish whatever he needed to do. Although, Raven did have to admit that the sensation, although strange and foreign, wasn't exactly un-enjoyable. It was just… different, and she didn't know exactly how she felt about it.
Beast Boy pulled away and shook his head, frowning. "I'm so sorry. I've never meant for any of this to happen. I never meant for you to get hurt."
"I know."
He leaned into her warmth and pulled her close to him, into the shelter of his own body. There, wrapped in his arms, Raven felt herself began to shake almost violently, as if the events of the day were finally wracking through her body. Something about being in his arms made her realize how close to danger she had actually been. Both from him and from the beast inside him. Taking a slow, shaky breath, she looked up at him and managed a few, breathy words. "Let's… let's go home."
He closed his eyes and pressed his head against her own, just nodding.
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I apologize for my gratuitous use of the word "fuck" in this chapter.
Anyway, please let me know what you think!
