Chapter eight
"I swear this time It won't turn out the same Cause now I've Got myself to blame…"(Three Day Grace; Someone Who Cares)
I came home the week after. Jon was still off. I met him at his apartment in Ohio. I knock on the door, opening it was the right one. He opened with a cigarette in his mouth. He blew a smoke and kisses me.
We collapsed on his couch, making out. After a while, I noticed Jon went over to grab pills. "It's actually like…" Jon smiles, "its fun to do once in a while."
"Do you realize if I take drugs… I risk my career."
"Live up, Violet."
It was four in the morning. Yesterday was still bothering me. Jon… He made out with me, and then Colby asked me to be his girlfriend… I fell asleep for two hours while Colby drifted off. I was on top of him as his arm kept around my waist. My breathing became heavy. I was freaking out for the future if I kept this up. I slipped out of Colby's arm and walked outside.
When I got out of my room, Jon was standing in the hallway. I was struck. "W-what are you doing," I said.
He shrugged it off. "I couldn't sleep. I've just been pacing this hallway." I nod. "How was your date, Violet?"
"He took me to some fancy place near the Hudson River. He paid and everything. We kissed by the skyline…" I bit my lip, telling Jon all of the things he didn't want to hear. "I'm guessing I'm his girlfriend now."
Jon nods. "Are you happy, Violet?"
"No." I flat out answered. "I just want to be with him to make everyone else happy." We walk downstairs and ended up sitting in the lobby.
Jon grabs my hand. "You need to make yourself feel better before you can go pleasing others. You ended up sick after that, Violet. No one wants to see you collapsed as a wrestler already." I nodded. "Violet, even if we aren't together, I truly care for your health."
"Everyone does, Jon." I bit my lip.
Jon shook his head. "You're not making yourself better by faking with Colby." I nodded. "Violet, please don't do this to yourself. I can't see you overdosing or cutting again. No one wants you back in a hospital."
"I just want to prove to everyone—"
Jon shook his head. "Are you ready for that though? Are you ready for everyone to turn your back because one day you do realize… You are still in love with me." I broke down again. Jon moved over and held me.
The scene keeps repeating…
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I woke up in another room. For some reason, I was in Jon and Joe's hotel room. "She passed out in the lobby," Jon yelled out.
"What the hell do you keep doing to her, Jon!" Colby… "Everywhere I turn she is upset, and she is with fucking you."
"So you take me to blame." There was a pause. "It's always my fault because I did one thing."
"You left her on the ground dying, Jon." Another pause of silence was in the room. "No one ever forgets that." I felt a hand on my arm. I turn and open my eyes. "Hey," he leans to kiss me. "Are you doing alright?"
I nodded. "I overheard everything…"
Colby look down. "I just want to protect you, Violet. Jon physically hurt you back then. I don't want that again. I don't want to see everyone upset over that." I went to grab his hand. I was going through an attack. "I'm sorry. I knew it would bring back flashbacks."
"I'll be fine," I lied. My chest was pounding. I tried to push it to the side. I'll take a pill later. "Let's just get ready. We have a late signing, but I want to find Paige today."
Colby smiled. "Good, you need to cheer up, Violet." I got up and hug him. I open my eyes and saw Jon staring back at me.
"I'm sorry," I mouthed. I had to hold back tears. I just place my face more into Colby's chest
Jon stormed out.
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When we got to MetLife, Colby keep holding my hand. He wanted it to be official. I smiled and kissed him. We went near the NXT backstage. Someone jumped on my back. Colby chuckled. I realized it was my favorite Diva, Paige.
I turn and gave her a hug. "I can't believe you're dating Colby!" She screams out. "I can't believe you are here!"
I chuckled. "I'm not wrestling which sucks."
"You've wrestled before in Wrestlemania, shut up," Colby chimes in. I stick a tongue at him. He smiles, searching for other wrestlers.
Once he walked away, Paige looked up at me. "So I'm guessing you are finally over Jon." I nodded, lying to her. "Hey, he's better for you. He cared about you since that day and even before. All he does is talk about you to us when he was in NXT. How pretty you are..." I blushed. Paige chuckles. "You don't have to worry about him breaking your heart."
I smiled, seeing him talk to Taylor Rotunda or Bo Dallas. "Maybe I did get lucky this time around."
"Just accept that you may be falling for a really great guy, Violet." Paige spoke up. "You need him in your life."
We said our goodbyes because I had to get ready. I went over to Colby. I wrapped my arms around his waist. I didn't feel as if I was faking. It felt... as if I was really falling for Colby
Taylor smiled. "That's cute. Good luck on Sunday, Colby."
He nods, takes my hand, and walks with me. Brie walked by us with a smile. She had Bryan or Daniel Bryan. She stops us for a second. "I was waiting for Colby to ask you as his girlfriend. He kept asking me how to do it."
Colby blushed and Bryan chuckles. "Dude, she's a keeper. Just be careful of her brother. He bites."
"He's not even signing tonight," Colby laughs. "We don't have to worry."
I smiled, "Yet at least. I think he has to worry about my father more though. Jon did." Colby nodded, not wanting to remember him.
We found Joe with his family backstage. We sat down for a while as I talked to his wife. Colby was playing with their daughter. I smiled brightly. Maybe sooner I'll realize he is good for me.
Joe laughed at Colby. "This could be your future, Orton."
"We just started dating. Let's not go there." I chuckle. I still would rather have it with Jon. I may be falling for this guy but...
Jon found us, telling us we had to sign. We all got up, going to our place. Colby gave me one last kiss before we went out. Jon just looks down again.
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After another successful signing, I walked over to find some Divas. Colby left me alone to follow Joe and Jon. Nattie was with two other girls. "Oh hey wait! You're Eva Marie and JoJo." They nodded. "Yeah, I trained you guys for a while at NXT."
JoJo smiled. "I really appreciated that. I'm such a huge fan of yours."
"Same here," Eva bumped in. I just kept a smile.
I point out her red hair. She said she just did it. "It looks great. I mean looks like I'm not going to be the only one with crazy hair." She laughs. "Well its great meeting you guys. I think I'm going to grab something to eat then practice with The Shield."
I gave my goodbyes. I went to catering to grab a small meal. No one I really knew was there, so I sat by myself. I started to text Colby who was going to come soon with Jon and Joe. I ate some of my food when I saw someone sit next to me. Hoping it was Colby, it turned out to be Jane. "How are you doing, Miss. Orton?"
"Fine," I whispered out. All I wanted to do at this point is throw my water at her and tell her I don't need WWE... But it was all a lie.
Jane smiles. "That's great. So, we're going to start shooting with you in Total Divas tomorrow." I nodded, but I was rolling my eyes in the back of my head. The last thing I needed was to become a reality star. "It would be great, Violet! You and Nattie as veterans on the show!"
"I know. I'm really only doing to show that even a wrestler needs a recovery path." It was true. I was on the right path. I was starting to go out with a great guy. I was getting back into the wrestling scene. I had great family and friends to support me. Some girls need to realize that even a Diva can go through self harm and suicide. I hope that I just see that one fan who goes up to me and says that I helped them through something. I was smiling in the back of my head. Yeah, you're doing this reality show for a good thing.
Jane nods. "That you are Violet, and we are happy to see that. A little rumor going around is you are seeing Colby Lopez or Seth Rollins." I nodded. "Okay, I was just wondering."
I took a sip of my water. "No, it's fine. Here he comes actually." He sits next to me and gives me a kiss.
"Now isn't that cute," I felt Jon and Joe come behind me. "We're not going to show your relationship, Violet."
"Wait, why?" Colby moves in closer to me, "I mean, I know we're starting out…"
Jane simply smiles. "We want everyone to believe that you are seeing Dean Ambrose or Jon Good." I turn to look at Jon. He was in even in shock. "You're going to the red carpet events with Jon. You will be seen with Jon. You and Colby can keep your relationship, but you need to be seen with Jon in public."
Jon shook his head. "That's disrespect on their relationship."
"It's best for business, Jonathan." She walks away.
I felt Colby's hand going up and down my shoulder. I was about to break down. Right when I was feeling something for someone else, I'm thrown back in front of Jon Good. I looked up at him for a second.
"I'm sorry..." He mumbles out.
A/n: So I'm pissed off about The Shield losing the tag teams… you guys? At least Dean still has his title, or I would be rioting.
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