Hello all! I really am very excited about this chapter and as soon as you read it I'm sure you will be to! I'm not quite sure where my beta is…

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So anyways while she is lost in a rainforest somewhere.. I HAD to get this chapter out!!

So without further adieu… this is…

An Angel In Hell

Chapter 8

Tears are words your soul beg to say.


Years past, and as the endless time seemed to stretch for far too long. A debt-run society existed around us, wars crashed down, reports of horrors happening over seas, men leaving to help in the efforts, women doing everything at home to aid their sons and husbands and grandsons. Slowly I was able to get my bearings and start walking amongst my natural prey. I could control myself more or less all of the time now, and Cailien was doing just as well, learning quickly how best to use her small size as leverage to her benefit in situations.

She has quite a way for getting what she wants when she wants it, with a tiny pout of the lip and a little widening of her now molten honey colored eyes. "Astonishing," Carlisle would say giving into anything and everything she willed. It was her power, which was evident the moment she figured out Carlisle's habit for giving in, which was now mine, and anyone else's that she felt she wanted something from.

I strayed from Carlisle's watchful eye, wanting to explore more of the world that was endless for me. With a generous loan from Carlisle's personal bank account, I decided I was to go. Given the choice Cailien trailed behind me, never leaving my side for a moment and we roamed around the busy city of New York finally settling in a loft house conveniently located just outside the city limits adjacent to a perfectly flourishing forest, then moving further West into a log cabin in the middle of the gorgeous Rocky Mountains.

Ten years past swiftly, settling into the existence to which we were now bonded and caged. No longer did I think of it as a punishment though, it was an opportunity, another chance, there was so much I could do, so much I could make up for.

But it was time to go home.

Cailien's hand was in mine as we walked down the paved sidewalk towards the Carlisle's giant house. She skipped beside me humming a tune only she knew; sometimes I envied her youthful presence. As we walked men whistled and shouted pick up lines from their doorsteps or the sidewalk on the other side of the street. I merely tuned them out and listened instead to the cheerful melody coming from the little vampire beside me.

Finally we reached the door of the mansion. The cedar wood smelled new, as did the white paint on the wrap around porch. Although in the outskirts of town, the southern styled house stood out amongst the others in the crowded neighborhood of Chicago.

"Isabella!" Carlisle's voice was a cheerfully accepted sound as he opened the door.

"Carlisle! How are you?" I said excitedly, giving him a kiss on the cheek and stepping in the door. "And you remember Cailien," I said motioning to the child clinging to the fabric of my dress.

"Ah but of course! How are you my dear Cailien?" Carlisle asked squatting down to her height.

"Carlisle!" she screeched throwing herself into his arms. We all laughed as he hugged her tightly. "I've missed you, you know!" she said giving him a kiss on the cheek.

"Oh and I have missed you!" I stood back and glanced around the house. It looked as beautiful as ever. The carved dark wood of Carlisle's father's cross hung on the wall above the staircase, polished and gorgeous.

As I turned back around, I realized how much I missed this house. The six years I spent here seemed like an eternity ago although really it was only ten years. "So my Bella, what do I owe this charming reunion?" Carlisle set Cailien down on her feet and she sat on

the floor in a heap of pale green fabric and started pulling off the dress shoes I had made her wear.

"Just needed to come back home for awhile," I smiled hugely as I looked at his bright eyes.

"I see, well your room is where it always is. I see you have brought no luggage, but the clothes you left are in the same drawers," his gentle voice surrounded me with the sense of security as I nodded and started up the stairs trailed by the pitter-patter of bare feat.

I opened the door of my room and smiled. The peach bedspread the white rocking chair the honey colored wood of the dresser. It was all the same; everything was the way I left it. Cailien ran around me and tried to jump up on the bed. I ran over before she hit the

ground and lifted her onto the pillows. "Still a little high," I laughed, brushing some of her curls out of her face.

She scowled and stuck her tongue out at me.

I went over to the dresser and opened the first drawer. I pulled out the silver chain with the ivory elephant pendant on the end and walked back to the bed where Cailien was now trying to rip off her panty hoes.

"Remember this?" I asked holding the chain in front of her. Her little hand reached for the necklace.

"Mmhmm," she mumbled rolling the elephant in her hands. "It was the necklace I was wearing that day." We were both quiet for a moment thinking of that single last day. "I forgive you, you know Bella," her childish voice made me smile.

I nodded at her, wishing I could tell her that I didn't forgive myself as she climbed into my lap.

About an hour later I had changed into a housedress and comfortable slippers, while Cailien looked happy in the sleep gown she wore whenever I didn't demand she wear something presentable.

When we came crashing down the stairs playing a game of tag, Carlisle wasn't home. I picked up a note on the kitchen table that said he was at the hospital and wouldn't be back til' morning. I smiled knowing that he was still a doctor, something he had been committed to doing since I came to live with him years ago.

I sat down in the parlor and opened Romeo and Juliet by William Shakespeare. A book I had started on the trip to Chicago and never finished. I started once again from the beginning and read until I heard the front door open and Carlisle's voice float through the house.

"Isabella!" his voice was strained, something was worrying him.

"Carlisle I'm in the parlor!" I yelled back standing setting the book on the side table.

Suddenly he was in the doorway. "Bella, I need your assistance, collect Cailien and hurry outside." I didn't have time to ask why before he disappeared and moments later I heard the door slam shut.

"Cailien!!" I yelled. Faster than I had time to wonder where she had gone she was in the parlor.

"Yes?" she had changed into an ivory dress that was decorated by blue silk bows. In her arms she held a velvet dress and a pair of travel shoes on top for me.

"Oh thank you so much," I said quickly changing clothes. "Come now, Carlisle needs help with something," she nodded and grabbed my hand as we ran for the door and into the dark.

The night would not last much longer I thought looking at the paler black in the east. Cailien and I rushed to the carriage waiting outside the house and quickly climbed inside taking seats opposite of Carlisle.

He explained his situation quickly. He had been asked to save a son of one of his patients who would not live much longer. He told me that I was to wait in the carriage until he called and then come help him with the boy. I nodded mind whirling with information.

"What can I do?" Cailien asked her voice as chipper as ever.

"Stay put," I said sternly. She crossed her arms and made a humf sound sitting back in her seat.

About thirty minutes later my name was called from the doorway of the hospital. I ran from the carriage careful to run at a fast human pace as to not stir the driver.

Carlisle looked slightly awkward holding the teenage boy in his arms; although he showed no signs of hardship the boy's feet almost touched the ground.

I took the boy into my arms and carefully sprinted back to the car. The driver didn't seem to have noticed as planned and merely waved a hello to Carlisle as he walked back from the hospital doors. I got a glance into the hospital as the doors were closing; the lights were off but the dawn light made part of the room visible. I wish it had been dark enough to not see. I realized we were outside the mortuary. Lines of the deceased were in rows down the room. That sight would haunt me forever.

I didn't have much time to dwell on the thought though, because a moment later Carlisle was next to me propping the boy's feet onto his lap. He tapped the thick glass between the driver's seat and the back to signal to the driver to head home and in a moment the car lurched forward.

I peered down at the boy for the first time. Long bronze hair swept down almost to his eyes that I noticed immediately when he opened them for a moment were a startling emerald green. He had a strong jaw line and his lips were a delicious peach color. He was a handsome boy, for a human.

"I will change him as soon as we return home," Carlisle whispered in to my ear so the driver was sure to not overhear him. I nodded and looked up to see Cailien standing on her tip toes in looking into the boy's face her small hands were holding his which was resting on his torso.

I could feel his pulse slowing, he was very weak, he would die within the day if we didn't change him. A small voice woke me from my concentration on the heartbeat inside of the body lying on my lap. "It's okay, Bella will take care of you. She takes good care of me. I promise everything will be okay. Carlisle will help you." Cailien's voice was so quiet I don't think I was meant to hear it. I felt a lump in my throat form as I recognized the last two sentences. That's what I had repeated to her over and over as I ran to the house the day I bit her.

I looked over at Carlisle who how intently studying the boy's face. "What's his name?" Cailien's voice broke the quiet it in the car.

"Edward. Edward Anthony Masen," Cailien smiled.

"Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, I like that name." her high voice laughed lightly. I nodded in agreement and hugged the boy protectively closer to me. I liked it to.


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