I can barely walk. Jasper was helping me, a great sense of pride and amusement waving off of him but I scowled at anyone who dared crack a smile at me. Don't get me wrong, it was as wonderful as everything with Jasper is but I had no idea that he would want to go for so long. I had been a human for the first time, but then I'd had to change and then earlier this morning, or day, for the last two times this morning I was human. I was practically walking bowlegged.

At least we knew that human and vampire sex is possible. Or at least for Jasper and I. I didn't know, or want to know, if Edward was…different in bed then his brother but I imagine that he'll read all he needs to know about it from Jasper who was currently supporting most of my weight. Emmett had already tried to crack a joke and had found himself being met with both Jasper and I's glare. Jasper, while proud of himself because he'd held back and well…he was a man and he liked to 'mark his territory' every way he could I guess, was also upset that I was hurt.

As of right now we were walking to meet Bella and Edward in the spot that they were going to be fighting the newborn army. I was pleased to see that they even had a spot for the wolves to come out, in a form of surprise attack on the army. And then of course the pleased expression left my face when Edward promptly arrived with my sister.

"Bella and I have decided that I will stay out of the fight." Edward announced, and then he hesitated looking at me. "Bella figured out that Victoria is leading the army." He told me. At once my anger rose at just the thought of Victoria, and to think she was stupid enough to lead an army against me, even a newborn.

Jasper supported me, in the comfort kind as he was already supporting most of my weight. But seeing as I weighed so little it didn't really bother him. I would be fine if he just slung me up in his arms and just kept me to himself, but we did have things to do if only for a moment.

"How would Alice not have seen her?" I asked, my eyebrows furrowing in rage.

"We think that she's letting someone else make the shots for her, maybe Riley." Edward told me I nodded, while I noticed that Bella was eyeing me in concern. I did look almost hurt, seriously hurt but I winked at her.

"Don't worry Bella, Jasper and I were just practicing for you and Edward." I teased her. As predicted her cheeks flushed red, along with the rest of her face and some of her neck. I wanted to grin. "Wow, I see why Emmett likes to tease you so much." I noted lightly. Bella opened her mouth to answer, while Edward and Jasper were mind melding, I can just see Edward wincing as I'm guessing Jasper was trying to help him but was seeing me and him just minutes ago. Bella never got to talk, because Jacob arrived, snarking Edward after he found out that he wasn't fighting.

"This field will give us an advantage in battle. We can lure the newborns with Bella's scent, but it needs to end here." Jasper tried to explain to Jacob, getting the topic off of Edward and Jacob's severe dislike for each other.

"Edward, Belle, and I are going to a campsite. But even if one of them carries me, they'll pick up my scent." Bella explained farther, but I eyed Jacob in distaste. I still didn't forgive him, at least for now.

"Your smell, however, is revolting." Edward made his angry comeback, glaring at Jacob who growled in warning but I rolled my eyes.

"Dude, you really don't want to compare stinks." Jacob took a step forward. He wasn't shaking but he wasn't exactly calm either. I would have to watch him if he was going to get this angry every time that Edward came around. I sighed and grimaced. My stomach was hurting. But strangely enough it wasn't the hungry kind of hurting. How strange.

"He means that your scent will cover mine if you carry-" Bella hurriedly stepped in-between them to break another fight between the two. That was something Bella was always doing, not physically so much but she was defiantly emotionally. It made me snicker a little, even though I knew they thought me to be in a bad mood, though I'm sure that Bella was a little scared by what I said.

"Done." Jacob answered, not even waiting for Bella to finish her sentence.

"This is a bad idea." Edward turned to Jasper scowling. Jasper was quick to reassure him.

"Edward, they don't even want to get close to his…odor." Jasper said, sneering at Jacob. I again rolled my eyes, smacking him lightly on his chest. One of his arms rested on my waist and my arm rested on his arm, the other clutching his hand as I tried not to cause pain in my bruises and my…self. I'd been going to change, but Jasper had stared at my bruises with such pride, that he had marked me, and that I'd refrained. He'd been kind of worried, and guilty that he'd caused them but I'd set him straight.

"Let's just test it." Bella said, trying to sooth Edward. They had a moment, not unlike one that Jasper and I had shared, where they met each other's eyes, before Edward nodded, moving back from Bella and Jacob moved forward. She extended her arms to the grinning wolf and he successfully and effortlessly takes her up into his arms and starts jogging off in a different direction from us, with Edward's instructions to run.

We gave them a few memories, and Jasper and I muttered together, thinking up new things that could work. But then Jasper rested me down, watching with worry for my injuries to take effect but I waved him off. It was healing fast, either that or I was getting used to it. After that Jasper went off after Jacob's scent and I sighed, watching him go.

"Are you worried about him?" Edward asked me. I turned to him, having almost forgot he was there as I'd been watching Jasper's body disappear into the distance.

"I am." I muttered, taking a cautious step to stand beside the man I'd only recently begun to forgive. "I worry every time Jasper is out of my sight, just like you do with Bella." I noted, eyeing him. He looked beaten down but a vampire beaten down is still very intimidating.

"I meant with the fight." Edward turned from where we were both watching the forest and I turned as well, looking at the haunted vampire.

"Yes. My mate is experienced though." I told him, blinking and nodding slowly. "Jasper has fought this kind of war many times and those memories never fade. We can put them in boxes in our minds and hope for them to fade, but it'll always open up again. For humans they can forget or the memories fade. I don't think Bella relishes her humanity as she should." I swallowed, sighing and rubbing my hip.

"Are you hurting from…..?" Edward looked at me, a bit pained.

"Yeah, a little but it's worth it to know I'm loved." I told him, ruffling my hair and grinning slightly at Edward. "Relax. If Jasper can do it I'm sure you can do it. Jasper had to deal with a lot more then you had to and he still made it through with me only having minor bruises." I grinned in both triumph and delight. Edward was silent for a moment. We were now looking back to the forest.

"Thank you, for this." Edward told me and without thinking a snort of laughter left my nose and he looked to me for an explanation.

"I hate to tell your all-important self this but I didn't do it for you." I told him, rolling my eyes. "I did it for Jasper. He needs to know that he's loved, and not just loved for him now, but him all the time. You people look at him like it's his fault that he can't control his thirst. Jasper can handle his blood thirst; he just has to deal with all the other vampires thirst as well, and varying degrees of it." I tried to explain Jasper's problem. Edward's brow furrowed and his lips pursed.

"I know that you don't like me. And I know I deserve everything you are giving me." Edward turned to face me and I nodded, seeing Jacob slowly coming out of the woods again with Bella. "But I think Bella would be happier if it wasn't just the wolves and us who got a long." My mouth pulled up into a knowing smirk. He didn't want Bella to be any kind of unhappy and for that small favor I could forgive him, until his next mess up at least.

"All right I forgive you, but remember I don't forget." I warned him, and he nodded with a flash of determination crossing his face before he went to Bella. I stood where I was, again glancing to the way Jasper had come. He was back. He was walking but at the same time his eyes met mine and together we looked over one another.

To think having a mate meant I would be worried about them every time they left my side. It made me wonder if that was a part of being in love with him or being mated to him. Jasper seemed pleased that I wasn't hurting as much as before, because now I was able to stand on both legs and feel no pain. I think it was just the discomfort of me having something in me for that long.

I shuttered, and walked cautiously to the group trying to get my mind off of my dirty thoughts.

"All I picked up was wolf stench." Jasper told us as he reached us after stepping off of a large log that had fallen to the side. "No Bella." Jasper told us, putting his arm around my waist in comfort and I leant into his body subconsciously. It felt glorious that he welcomed me back into his arms. What was I thinking keeping myself from my Major for so long? Edward nodded but it was small, and it was also obvious that he still had something on his mind past what we had spoken of.

"This will work." I told him softly, and Jasper raised an eyebrow at my soft tone being aimed at Edward. I guess it really wasn't that hard to forgive Edward. I had been holding it against him for a while. He deserved it and even Edward himself thought so.

"Great." Edward muttered, glancing down at Bella who was silent, as well as Jacob.

"Come on, Eddie boy." I grinned at him as he flashed his eyes in annoyance at me. "Let's get Bella over to the house so we can meet Alice." I told him, pulling out of Jasper's arms to grab his hand and lead him to Bella's car. I hadn't driven here as both Jasper and I had run here, or Jasper had carried me is a better explanation. I slipped into the back and Jasper surprisingly came with me, grinning at my surprise. I rolled my eyes and instead of worrying over a seatbelt I wiggled over to Jasper's lap and pulled, or he allowed me to, pull his arms over my lap. For all intents and purposes Jasper was now my seatbelt.

There was barely talking at all, because Bella was thinking about something, and Edward was watching her, thinking as well. It only made me mutter things about how I hated the silence, so Jasper would start up a conversation with me or my sister. Until we arrived at Charlie's house. When we did arrive it was to see Alice and Dad coming down the stairs to meet us talking to one another and Dad didn't look like he wanted to shoot someone, like he did when Edward was over.

Bella got out first, as Jasper squeezed my hip right over one of his hand prints and I winced. "You might want to give me your jacket." I whispered to Jasper who blinked in confusion so I explained. "I don't think my Dad would be too happy if he saw your handprints on me." I told him. Jasper nodded his eyes lighting up in understanding as he shed his jacket, helping me into it while we still stood in the truck bed. After having it on I jumped down, with Jasper's steadying hands helping me. Then he followed carelessly, laughing at my pout.

"It's not fair." I whined, following him so he could greet Charlie with a handshake between men. Dad even threw a hand on Jasper's shoulder. He was so happy that Jasper and I were finally back together.

"So how did the night with Rosalie go?" Dad asked me and I almost froze up, not understanding what he was talking about but I grinned at him and stepped up to the challenge.

"Oh you know, as great as every other night with the Cullen family all in one big group." I teased Jasper and he mock scowled down at me. "We watched some movies, and Rosalie did her hair a little." I told him. "We talked…girl things." I smirked as Charlie automatically back tracked.

"Right, girl things." He whispered it as if I'd said Voldemort's name. "Did Rosalie tell you about the trip this weekend?" Charlie asked me and Jasper was the one to step in, though Alice had been quietly, almost to low for me to hear, to Jasper.

"Actually I'd been just coming to ask her if she wanted to go with us." Jasper smiled, tight and yet not. It was odd.

"Of course." I automatically answered. There was a pause and I grinned sheepishly. "What is it?" I asked, more like muttered and Jasper looked at me with affectionate amusement on his face. I just wanted to spend more time with him and with the Cullens though I'm sure I've spent a long time with the family, and the Pack but I'd spent very little of that time with Charlie. It was probably for the best. Any day now I'd have to leave him to take care of a newborn Bella.

"You know how much we love to hike?" Jasper questioned me; leaning down to kiss me on the nose and I wrinkled it in reflex. "Well we are going this weekend and Alice doesn't want to go so she invited you and Bella to go have a sleepover with her." Jasper told me. I grinned slyly and stepped on my tiptoes to kiss him, just because I could.

"I'd love to keep you and Bella company." I told Alice, smiling but then looking to my father. "Of course, if it's all right with Dad?" I asked him but he waved me away.

"You're grown up enough now I think it's hardly appropriate for you to ask me. Plus I'm going to be gone fishing all weekend with Billy." Charlie waved goodbye to me and Bella who was now standing with us, Edward having at some point driven off. I waved him away as well, grinning at Alice. She winked at me and Bella.

"Come on, Bella." I pulled her along as Alice explained what she missed. I pouted when I realized that there were only two seats in the Porsche. "I'm driving!" I announced, holding out my hand to Alice who gladly put them in my hands, nodding and winking at me as Charlie finally closed the door. I climbed into the Porsche, turning the key in the ignition and sighing in pleasure at the sound of it.

"Did it hurt?" Bella finally demanded. My eyes rose and I looked at her in surprise. Alice had already zoomed into the tree line. I could guess what Bella was talking about. She'd seen the bruises and how much I was hurting. I rolled my eyes at Bella.

"Way to be subtle about it." I complained, kicking the car in to high gear not worry about much but I did keep it within a human's view as that was what I was right now. And plus Bella was in the car and I think Edward wouldn't be pleased with me if we got into a wreck and she didn't make it out completely uninjured. He'd still be mad then. I wouldn't blame him of course.

"Belle?" I blinked and turned to Bella. I'd completely forgotten about her question.

"Yeah it hurt. I'm not even going to sugar coat it." I told her, turning the car. "It hurt enough for me to want to cry, but I didn't because well…" At this part I smirked lewdly and Bella groaned. "Jasper kind of kept my mind off of the pain. I didn't even feel it until he mentioned the bruises." I told her, and I grinned at the memories of his hard grip on my panting body while he'd been as delicious as ever. "It all depends on your pain tolerance and how….good….Edward makes it for you."

"He'll be good." Bella automatically returned, not thinking. I turned my head to her and slowly her cheeks flushed, though she didn't turn her gaze away. I laughed loudly, even as I pulled into the driveway of the Cullen house where Alice was waiting, smiling at me. It was night time now, which wasn't much of a stretch because it had already been late in the day before we came to the battle scene. It would only make sense that we would come here next.

"Hey, Belle." Alice sang as I got out of the car, dropping the keys into her hand.

"It drives like a dream, Alice." I complimented and she smiled appreciatively at me.

"Come on, then slow poke!" Alice said, dancing almost to the end of the forest line. "The rest of us are going to go feed so that we can be all pumped up for the battle. Would you like to come with us?" Alice asked me and Bella came into view, hesitating at the door of the house where I could see Edward waiting. I thought about it. I wasn't really thirsty and I wasn't going to battle.

"I think I'll just spend this night with myself." I told her, nodding to her. She frowned and so did Bella and I smirked. I knew exactly what Bella was thinking. How could I not when she'd asked me about sex just moments before we arrived. "Can I borrow your car again? I was thinking about going out and getting some new clothes?" I asked her as an excuse. Alice nodded throwing the keys back to me and I fumbled with them a second before I walked back to the car.

"Have a good night." I halfheartedly told both Bella and Alice who was probably gone by now as she was no longer within the visible view of the road.

Contrary to what you may believe, I did spend the day shopping. I shopped for all kinds of things, not just clothes. I wanted new clothes because I didn't have any that really flattered me. I had funny shirts and tight jeans, but I didn't have any blouses that would really show off what I had, and now I had a reason to show off what I have, Jasper. It made me giggle a lot in the store and I even went so far as to visit a lingerie store, just in case. But I was really just spending time out because I didn't want to go home. I couldn't go to Charlie's and the Cullens was Bella and Edward's territory for tonight. I had nowhere to go but the wolves and I'm sure that as soon as my future disappeared I'd get a call from Alice.

So instead I took my credit card and spent the night getting a massage, which was a little awkward because the massager could see my bruises, and then slept at a hotel, being sure that Alice could see my decision. And when I fell asleep in one of the best hotels in Seattle, which was where I went, I was peaceful but not perfect.

No perfect came at maybe three in the morning when Jasper joined me in my bed of the hotel, whispering to me about Alice seeing me. I'd muttered and rolled over onto his chest so I could return to dream land and the beautiful dream of dwarves and hobbits that I was having.

But I didn't.

"Did you miss me, Nefertiti?" Amenhotep was standing over me. I looked around in surprise. How did I get here? I was a human but it was the imperfect human that I had been and I could remember where we were. I knew it was the office I'd found Amenhotep and herin. The hieroglyphics of my time were everywhere, the sandy rock pillars in the room large. I could see everything as it used to be, including my aggressor. "Or should I call you Belle now?" He sneered, grabbing my neck and pulling me up with nary a flex of his muscles.

"Oh you do so love your new husband don't you?" He purred. Amenhotep was too close to my face and I could feel my breath sharpening on its way out as I tried to breathe through the tightness of his grip on my throat. "He can never measure up to me, why would he want to? He will take one look at you and see me all over you." Amenhotep threw me onto the ground and I felt the familiar sickening in my stomach as I heard the sound of the ties on his royal clothing being stripped.

"No." I muttered, trying to get away from him but that only made it worse as I began to shake. He slammed his foot into my stomach, stopping me in my place and he grinned, bearing all of his white teeth at me.

"You are pathetic, and vile. Who could ever want you after all you've done?"

"Belle!"

I sat bolt upright in the hotel bed, shivering and clutching the blanket. I couldn't think staright past my dream –nightmare – and I breathed in sharply as if his grip really had been on my throat. I could see a body before me and I panicked for a moment more before familiar blonde hair and pale chest.

Jasper.

I remember vaguely him arriving at some point and then I'd tried to go back to sleep. He was wearing only a pair of jeans and he was watching me, worry in his golden gaze as it rested on me. He looked as gorgeous as ever, even when he didn't understand why I was upset. He pulled me into his arms when he realized I had stopped freaking out. The feel of his cold arms washed away the nightmare and I buried my head in his shoulder, keeping tears about. My subconscious hadn't let me forget the worries of the night before.

"It's all right, I'm here." Jasper whispered to my ear, telling me that I was loved and he was here for me no matter what the matter was. I didn't want to break down in front of him again. I'd done it at least once before and I didn't want to do it again. But I couldn't control my own emotions like Jasper could so I shivered in his arms, dragging the blankets farther upon us and lying back, still engulfed in his arms.

"I'm sorry." I muttered, replacing my head on his chest. "I had a bad dream."

"Do you want to talk about it?" He eyes me over, as if I was going to start panicking again which I wouldn't put past myself at this moment in time. I wasn't tired and yet I was at the same time, but strangely enough my stomach still hurt, like Amenhotep had really slammed his foot down there. Which was strange because it was only a dream.

"I dreamt of Amenhotep." I whispered softly to Jasper's scarred chest. Immediately the arms around me tightened and he tensed.

"I shouldn't have made you talk about it." Jasper's voice was pained and I looked up to his face but it was whipped clean of any emotion that he was feeling. I wiggled my arms free from his arms and cradled his indifferent face in my hands, scouting up so that I could kiss his forehead.

"You deserved to know about it." I told Jasper. "I'm just happy that you didn't see me then. I was so…broken." I winced , wrapping my arms around my Jasper's shoulders.

"I should have been there. If I'd just-"

"What? Been born earlier? Honestly Jasper nothing is your fault." I exasperatedly laughed. But Jasper didn't laugh with me, he only shuttered and I realized there was something deeper there that I wasn't understanding. Jasper looked up to me from the edge of the pillow and I scouted down, all my attention on him. He took his time telling me what was wrong, moving a strand of hair out of my face first.

"I-I," Jasper swallowed and I could see the tears in his eyes and I was so worried that I'd done something wrong, that Jasper was hurting. What could be wrong. "I just…I can't stand to think of you hurting because of something that I could have helped." He stopped me from speaking by a finger on my mouth and I exhaled sharply as he moved it to stroke my lips as he spoke. "I keep thinking of when we came back and you were so…broken. I felt like I was hurting you the same way your husband had, even before I knew what he had really done. I can't forget the sight of you so thin, as if you were a skeleton walking." Jasper shuttered, losing his eyes. I rested my head on his forehead.

"Every time I saw you I couldn't think of anything else but how much I had hurt you. I was obsessed with trying to make you better, to show you that I loved you and I felt so terrible about what I did. To make you chose…" Jasper's shoulders slumped against me and he squeezed me carefully to him.

"Hey," I softly interjected, brushing my fingers over his pale cheek. He opened his eyes. "It's all right Jasper. That's behind us. I've gained the weight back and I know you love me. You never let me forget." I half-smiled and the current of love that was almost subconscious to me now strengthened and expanded. I chuckled and felt the tears in my eyes and I kissed him on his mouth and I shivered as his tongue met mine.

"It doesn't matter. Just knowing that you were once so thin because of me, it'll always haunt me." Jasper muttered. I half-think that he didn't want me to hear it as it was said on the whisper of the breath. His hand ghosted over my side and I let a breath out and smiled at him.

"I can only pray that one day you'll forgive me for hurting you – and haunting you." I muttered, kissing him sweetly on the lips. Jasper smiled into the kiss, one hand resting in my hair and the other just above the curve of my backside. That was until it went dangerously lower and I was suddenly pressed against the steel of Jasper's front.

"You know," Jasper purred to me. "Mars is bright to night."

It took me a second to remember what he was getting at. It was the memory of that first baseball game. The one where I'd been lusting playfully after Jasper, before I'd even really comprehended that I was in love with more than just the blonde man's hair.

Jasper walked up to the plate next. He did some twirl thing with the bat, but it looked awesome. It was weird; he twirled it then caught then twirled it back to the right position. Note to self: Take lessons from Jasper on bat twirling. He bent down and I took a peek at his ass. You know…I was never an ass person but I could try it if he keeps putting it out there to look at for me. I sighed out a little, soft enough they didn't hear it but, hey that's a bonus for me, right?

I watched as he cracked the ball sending it flying Rosalie's way. She chased after it, and we waited for it to be thrown back. Emmett crossed the home run plate just in time before the ball was back in Alice's hand again. Jasper hit the third base. I clapped my hands together as Carlisle stepped up again. He hit it but this time Rosalie caught it, and threw it to Esme at home run and she got Jasper. I was getting excited. They said that they only play one round, where each team gets a term. We were winning to! Carlisle got to first base, but at least Jasper hadn't gotten another score.

I laughed and whopped along with the other girls as we got close to winning. One more out, and we would win! Jasper snorted and walked away peacefully, and I was happy to watch his ass as he walked. "Nefertiti! Focus!" Alice called back and I moved my eyes to the sky as fast as possible so no one could tell I was looking at Jasper. I was smirking though, so that was probably giving me away.

"My bad, you know…uh…" I searched for something to say before I got it. "You know Mars is bright tonight!" I chimed, quoting a centaur off of Harry Potter. Alice laughed, while the others didn't seem to get it, they just took it in stride.

I couldn't help but let out a laugh at that. "Do you even know what that is from?" I asked him, giggling. Jasper grinned at me, squeezing his hand.

"Yes. Alice told me." Jasper grinned at me and then rolled me over. "I was very intrigued as to what you were doing to get out of focus to." Jasper ran his lips along my neck, teasingly until they barely brushed against my own. I swallowed and kept my eyes on the ceiling. Jasper gave me one final kiss before resting on beside me again. I hadn't wanted to say anything but I didn't feel just wonderful. My vaginal area still hurt, and for some odd reason the weird twist I could feel in my stomach wasn't going away and I didn't know what it was.

"Is something wrong?" Jasper wondered and I realized that I hadn't taken my absent gaze off of the ceiling and I turned my eyes to him, smiling softly.

"I'm just still sleepy. Do you mind if I sleep?" I asked Jasper, curling into his chest when he opened his arms without a word. Instead he pulled up the blankets that had somehow gotten tangled at our knees. I was wearing a cute little pajama set that I'd just bought and I smirked when Jasper's hand lingered on my hip before I was perfectly warm on my back, and cool where Jasper laid beneath me.

I softly fell to sleep, and this time I had no nightmare with Jasper's love being constantly on my mind, and in my own emotions being reflected.

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