I tried my best to understand exactly where you were coming from, never knowing if you were ever telling the truth or simply trying to please me. Unforgettable words of sweetness and gifts that showed you cared still remain in my memories, a happy time I still miss. Never once did I believe that you would ever turn your back on me and leave me to fend for myself against the world. Since you left, the confinement of my bedroom and the continuous bleakness of the walls became all I knew. Day by day my sanity started to disperse away like weightless clouds drifting across the sky. Black crows soar above the tree tops as blackness surrounds every object, shadows lurking behind each corner. The shadow moves taking on the form of a hand that reaches out towards my neck. Breathing, a first nature occurence becomes difficult, a struggle for survival. The shadow constricts against my throat, stopping the air flow by all means necessary. Ten years since that fatal day when everything began to spiral downwards to the pit of hell. Nine months of torture, ridicule, and perpetual badgering from the abhorrent bourgeouisies. Eight weeks to fabricate a method that protects my heart from the onslaught of belligerence from fellow peers. Seven days of continuous preparation to avoid dauntless stares of oppression and hate. Six hours to pull back my shoulders and stand up straight with pride. Five long hours of staring at myself in the mirror criticizing the way I appear, dull brown hair and lifeless eyes bore back at me. Four minutes of silence as we keep contact, eyes fixed intently on the others'; my dull eyes and your bright gray-blue eyes remind me of a vicious storm and the sun shining through the clouds after the storm has long gone. Three seconds of heart-pounding misery as your lips begin to part causing a shock of agony to travel through my body, while I mentally prepare myself for the last words. Two steps that separate our bodies, keeping them cold from the lack of heat radiating from your skin and you look me straight in the eyes as your lips finally part completely. One word that shatters everything I have built up, my protective barrier, my courage, wits, and my sense of hope; one word that changed my life forever causing me to plunge into a dark realm of hate, lies, trickery, and loneliness. One word that made me shed tears I never dreamt that I would cry at all. One word that eventually caused my heart to cease beating; one word of dread that ended my fairytale fantasy and had woken me up to a crude reality. One word I feared that remained in my thoughts forever when I pondered about you; one word that meant everything and nothing at all simultaneously. Goodbye.