IM NOT DEAD YET. xD I've had a lot to do lately with school and other things, but here is an update readers! I love you all so much!

Disclaimer: look at the previous chapter. Too lazy right now to think of something witty. xD


Roxas and I had to talk. Badly.

Unfortunately, neither of us had the time to talk to each other and meet in person, so we've been talking as much as we can on the phone. Can you guess why we needed to talk?

I fell for Riku really bad, and it seems like Roxas fell for Axel. But the problem with Axel is that he has already told Roxas how he felt… although not directly. Roxas told me what happened and now how Axel avoids him at all costs. He said practice with Axel was limited to lines, and lines only and explained how Tifa was about ready to strangle one of them because they wouldn't interact the same way. She said that the love was lost and the play was going to go to ruins.

But what could we do? To switch off now would be a total waste. It would be very weird if suddenly our personalities changed again, and it would be especially weird for me to have to be part of a play with a guy that I would have to kiss who I would rather not go near. Roxas downright said no, he didn't want anything to do with Riku.

Our solution was to try to ignore them. Not try, I mean really ignore them and anything that could possibly worsen the situation. So I tried it out. And it was surprisingly easy at first, avoiding most contact with Riku unless at practice and in the room. But then it got hard. Riku suddenly started staring at me while Cid was in the middle of his speeches about being alert. Cid even hit him in the head with the ball to get him to get back to planet Lacrosse. He seemed very out of it, and started to slip in the game. I'm not sure about his grades, but he was spending a lot more time on his homework. Mostly because when he was doing the homework, he would have his headphones turned up and he would doodle on the pages or sleep on his textbooks.

I was worried, but this shouldn't and couldn't stop my decision to keep our communications to a bare minimum. I had to do this for both of us. Roxas and I were going to get through this, and I wasn't going to let his utterly sexy sudden onslaught of depression keep from focusing on what was important.

It was all fine and dandy today. Yeah, that sounds kind of silly, one day changes everything. But seriously, it was one day. It started with the morning. Riku had failed to wake up and it was one of those rare times when I could sleep, so I didn't wake up in time to fend off the people at the showers. There was no way I was going to get undressed with all guys around. No need for them to see private things.

Then morning health came rolling around. Xemnas aka Mansex our teacher loves to turn health class into sex ed. I don't understand why, and I was trying to figure out if he got the nickname before or after he was a teacher when he called on me. I didn't know what he was talking about, I had taken to doodling in the class to save my pure ears from hearing anything I didn't want to hear. AKA, the fact that people would so openly describe such sexual things in this class! I really would rather you not tell me about certain body parts going in certain places and things of that nature.

Looking at the board to see if there was a hint of a question, there was just Sex written in big bold letters like always.

"Uhm, butt sex?" The whole class burst out laughing, leaving me to turn bright red and hide my face in my arms; but not before I realized that Riku wasn't laughing.

"Really, Roxas? You enjoy 'butt sex'?" Mansex was obviously looking down at me because I could feel his presence at my side, only making me turn into a big red tomato. God, I hate tomatoes.

"No!" I sputtered out.

"Well, if you were paying attention, you would have realized that that wasn't my original question." Mansex stated and walked away, seemingly pleased at this one time he embarrassed me. He never even looked in my direction. Today is all messed up, I used to think Mansex didn't know I was alive until today when out of the blue he decides to pick on me.

Lifting my head from the table I looked around as my classmates settled down. Awesome, I made a fool of myself in the one class me and Riku share. Not that I care, no, I am ignoring him still. Calming myself down, I put a smile back on and sat up in my seat. Although I couldn't miss the fact that Riku seemed to have trouble tearing his intent stare away from me. Go away, stop making me want to look at you!

Lunch time. The time where I normally sit next to Riku. Until recently when I took my place next to Kairi who would glance over at Riku smugly. There is something here, that I just can't see. I was always bad at seeing the obvious, and I wish now would be the time that horrible problem would go away. But today Riku did not take his seat diagonally across from me. No, he didn't. He sat at Seifer's table.

At Seifer's table.

When did this happen? What did I do? Was it me? I bet it was because now the residents of the table I'm sitting at are all staring at me.

"What?" I blinked.

"The last time Riku dared" I laughed mentally at the use of the word, "to leave our table and sit with Seifer was when that happened." Kairi said, suddenly looking at me with a new face that she never looked at me like before.

"What?" I munched down on my quite disgusting pizza.

"Roxas, I think you know what we're talking about." Whoa, now Namine is acting like I'm the culprit? What have I done to deserve this? I have done nothing this year to any of them, or Riku for that matter.

Except for the sudden "I don't see you" act I am doing right now.

"Yeah, Riku normally doesn't get upset over anything unless it's ya know, Roxas. You caused it last year." Selphie put in her two cents and now they are really confusing me. I did what last year? I'm not Roxas, so I wouldn't know. But since I'm supposed to be him, I have to act like I know what they are talking about.

"Oh, right. That." I say as casually as possible, but they continue to stare at me. Luckily I was saved by Cid suddenly bursting through the door, announcing that practice isn't canceled after all today! Then the bell rang and I ran out of there as fast as I could to escape the looks I was getting.

What had Roxas done last year? It's not like I can contact him at the moment, he has practice all afternoon and I don't know when he'll get back. He normally calls me, so I won't really have to worry.


After taking an extra long shower since I did not have the chance to take one this morning, I returned to the room surprisingly before Riku did. Is he with Seifer? He was talking a whole lot more to him today…

Sitting on my bed, I took out my health book and glared at the pages and I started to peel the banana I had snatched from the cafeteria since the lunch lady refused to give me dinner saying that I was late. Some caring lunch ladies they were.

As I read the pages that were filled with things I would rather not know and stored them in my mind until I got the questions right, I heard the door open and them slam shut. Ah, it appears that moody Riku is back. But unless he talks to me, I don't talk to him. Simple way of ignoring him.

"Hey."

"Hey." I respond without looking up as I continued to eat the banana. Roxas always said I had a weird way of eating one of my favorite foods, which is pretty much true. I start at the top and bite off the outer most part of the banana and then stick it in my mouth and suck on it for a minute or two, bite it off, then repeat the process. It's something I've done all my life and I have yet to figure out why Cloud would repeatedly tell me not to do that unless I wanted to be molested.

Like I said, I'm book smart, not… whatever else smart.

So as I sat there reading the book and slowly biting away the banana I could feel Riku's eyes boring into me. They must be because as soon as I had heard him sit down on his bed with his books, he hasn't moved. Starting to get irritated, I use all my might not to look up and see exactly what he was doing.

"Stop that." Riku said suddenly, making me jump out of my intense reading about various STDs I didn't really need to know about. Pulling the banana out of my mouth, I looked up at him and saw that his face was as emotionless as possible. But I could see a glint in his eyes that made me kind of fear for my life.

"Stop what?" I asked, looking back down at my book and flipping the page. Hallelujah, only one more page to go!

"Eating the banana."

"Listen, I didn't have any dinner, so I'll eat whatever I want." I snort and stick it back in my mouth.

"Well then at least stop eating it like that!" Wait, was that a hint of a plea in his voice? Surprised I look back up at him.

"Like what? Haven't you ever seen someone eat a banana?" I raise an eyebrow.

"Yes but you eat it like-"

"Like what?" I ask and put it back in my mouth and bite off a huge piece. Licking my lips to get some of it off my mouth I saw Riku shift on the bed and lick his own lips. What had he been eating? I bet he's been hiding chocolate or something. Oh my God, is he like those depressed girls who eat their feelings? HE'S GOING TO BECOME FAT. I must search the room for the hidden stash of chocolate and eat it myself! There's no way I'm going to let that sexy body go fat!

I swallowed and just as I was able to tell Riku that it's not worth it, he got off of his bed and looked straight at me.

"You're still eating it." He growled low. "Stop it."

"I'll do whatever I want!" I pout and stick it back in my mouth. "Nyahhh!" I wrap my tongue around it and then bit off a piece and swallow. Ooo, who knew getting Riku annoyed could be so much fun.

But I'm not doing so well at ignoring him, am I? If I was, I would have just stopped eating it for who know what reasons Riku had. Was this some kind of joke or something? Anyway, I should just stop now so that this doesn't get me in trouble. I had been doing so well too. I put the half eaten banana down on the table next to me and was about to say sorry so I could move onto my horrid health homework, when Riku pounced on me.

Yelping, I had no idea what had just happened as I struggled underneath him to get myself free. Riku grabbed my wrists and pinned them down next to my head and was starting straight into my eyes. There was something strange hidden in them, but with my obvious lack of social knowledge, I had no idea what emotion was being shown in his eyes. Nope, not happy, not sad, not angry…. Hmm… what is it-

I had stopped struggling so Riku pulled away his hand and reached to touch my cheek. I didn't move, absolutely frozen by the situation. There was a big red X flashing through my mind but my body was stuck. He placed his hand on my cheek and leaned his face closer to mine.

"You've been different ever since Halloween…" He breathed, his breath spreading across my neck and making me shiver. Oh God, Cloud was right. I'm going to be molested for eating a banana. Why does sucking on a banana while eating it cause people to molest me? Is it some perverted thing I just can't seem to comprehend at the moment because Riku's face is getting ever so close to mine?

His hair draped over his shoulder and was ticking my nose as he continued to caress my cheek as I lie motionless. Big Red X, Sora! Big Red X means move it! But as his hand started to trail down my neck my mind continued to shut down in different areas so that soon I'm pretty sure the only thing I'll be able to do is pump blood and breathe.

"Why are you ignoring me?" He asked, his breath against my lips now. Answer him, Sora. Think of some excuse besides the fact that you aren't Roxas. Aliens, alignment of the planets, anything just spit it out!

"You have a secret, don't you?" His voice now dead serious as his hand stopped its journey to the lower part of my body; I wasn't sure if I should be glad or upset that he stopped. I couldn't answer him, not with his beautiful eyes staring straight into mine. I can't lie to him, I can't… I have to lie to him. I just have to. Now just open your mouth and talk.

"What is it Roxas? I know you're hiding something. You've been hiding something this whole time haven't you?" He said, his voice slightly rising. "Haven't you? Why won't you tell me!" I started to get scared and tried to wriggle my way out from under him, but only succeeded in knocking our hips together in such a way that it made Riku shut his eyes tight and made my eyes bugle. But that wasn't going to stop me.

"Rikuuuuuuuuu… Get off…" I whined and tried to wiggle my way out again.

"Not until you tell me the truth." He said sternly, but still with his eyes shut. Get off me, get off me, get off- I kept trying to get away but he stayed put. "Tell me the truth. Tell me what's going on!" His voice rising again as he opened his eyes and leaned in close to me again. "Tell me now." He said with the most serious face I've ever seen him do.

"I can't!" I replied and stopped trying to get away; it was useless. "I can't tell you, I can't tell you!" I repeated and then looked directly into his eyes. "I can't tell you." I repeated, trying to get my point across, but the only thought that started to play through my mind now was how badly I wanted to kiss him. Just once, that's all. Would Roxas care? Roxas would never do something like that. He's not as emotional like I am. I go on instinct and he goes on… whatever he goes on. But he wouldn't do that he wouldn't not at all. But Riku's lips are now moving and I have no idea what he is saying because the only thing I'm focusing on is his lips, and how they are now dangerously close. His eyes change from angry to normal and that's about the only thing I notice as his words are nothing important anymore. I got just one chance. I'm sure Roxas would understand.

No he wouldn't, but hell, he told me how he kissed Axel in his sleep so I can certainly kiss Riku when he's awake right?

Right?

Leaning up I place my mouth directly over his as he was in the middle of some sentence. Riku's lips stop moving and I now realize that the big red X has turned into a million big red X's but I'm not caring anymore. I wrap my arms around his neck to pull him closer to me when the most unexpected thing starts to happen.

Riku kisses back.

And not just some little kiss either. He pushes me back so my head is now back on the bed and my hands go to knot their way through his silky hair. His hands trail down and one goes under my shirt and the other rests next to my head. I feel his lower body rub up against mine and I gasp at the wonderful sensation, giving him what he wanted. His tongue roams around in my mouth, tasting every bit of it and my tongue slides against his in a battle that I obviously wouldn't win. He started to pull away but I pull him right back down, refusing to let him go. Riku licked my lips before I release him and he pulls away, a glint in his eyes telling me that he enjoyed that almost as much as I did.

Then everything came crashing down. He blinked his eyes and looked away from me. Surprised, I just stare at him in confusion.

"You're not him."

"What?"

"You're not him." I take a few seconds to process this line in my head.

Oh. My. God.

"You're not him…" He puts his head into his hands. "Heh, I should have known from the start. How freakin' retarded I was to think…" He laughs, but it's not a laugh because something is funny. "You're not him…" He gets off of me and runs a hand through his hair. "Shit…" He sat on his bed and put his head into his hands.

If what I'm thinking Riku is talking about is true, Roxas has a lot of explaining to do.

"Riku, I-" I start but he gets up from the bed and turns away from me. He reaches over and tears down every single one of the pictures on his wall. And rips them up into a million little pieces as I watched in shock.

"I'm going to room with Seifer for a while. Don't worry, I won't let anyone know." Know that you're rooming with Seifer or that you know that I'm not Roxas? Oh God, this is not good. My cell phone rings and I look over at it to see that Roxas is the one calling. When I look back Riku is already halfway done throwing most of his clothes into a bag. I don't move a muscle, towards him or to picking up the phone as I just watch Riku walk out.

The phone stops ringing, and it beeps to let me know I have a missed call.

Did Roxas and Riku really…?

What have I done?


Argh the next chapter is proving to be difficult. I tried to start writing it but with a lot of people iming me and stuff, it turned into an uhm... very very Teen rated chapter. So I'm not sure if I want that since it was kinda like "explodes from no where" and I want a certain thing to happen but I can't write it and blah blah blah. I'll try to update soon loves!

Ahhh... I can't write certain scenes very well... (weeps in emo corner)

In the meanwhile, por favor review! :D