I just wanted to say sorry for the delay in getting this chapter out. My laptop is on the blink... my daughter, thinking it would help restored the computer to it's original condition and we lost everything... not good!. Anyway I'm all up to date. Sorry!
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Chapter 9.
Edward.
As my father drove down the long road ahead of us, all I could do was sit and stare out of the rain splattered window. Forks hadnt changed abit. It was still thr rainiest place on the planet. Green too... It was green everywhere. Tree's, grass, overgrown bushes and shrubs grew wild and free. I sighed heavily and rested my head against the window as we passed the `welcome to forks` sign. Never in my wildest dreams would I ever thought of returning to this small, wet dreary town. This place held bitter-sweet memories for me. A month ago, If I thought about Forks, I thought about the heart that had been stolen from me. I thought about a dark haired beauty, and falling in love. That was the `sweet` part. The bitter part was how that girl had stolen my heart and crushed it beneath the soles of her feet. She had cheated on me and broken me so completely that I had never felt whole since. When I think about Forks now. I still remember the falling in love part. But the most thought was that It had been me that had ruined our beautiful relationship. I had seen what I thought was Bella cheating, but in fact I was witnessing a crime so vicious that the rage still floored me. I could of stopped it from ever happening, If only Alice and I hadn't acted so rashly, we would of known the truth. If only we had gotten out of that fucking car and confronted them instead of driving away, we could of prevented it from ever happening. Life ever since that day had been hollow and almost unbearable. I had thought the small town girl had ruined my life, but the truth was, I had done that to myself. I had left her, after adding two and two together and coming up with sixteen. Not only had I left the only girl that I had ever loved, I had also left my baby, a baby that I had never known about, and yet again that was my own fault.
The rain hit the windshield, the wipers were whipping left and right to clear the rain away, but I saw nothing. Instead I saw a pair of beautiful chocolate brown eyes. They shone with so much love and adoration, how could I ever of thought that she could cheat on me. She couldnt cheat on me anymore than I could cheat on her, It was impossible. I stupidly, inwardly slapped myself around the head for failing to see that more clearly in the first place. I could of saved all of us from the heartache that had been caused by my foolish actions. Not only had I lost my heart, but Alice had lost her best friend, and sister figure. Like me, that was also her own fault. But my parents had lost a girl that was practically considered a daughter to them. They had both been heartbroken by the turn of events. They hadnt bothered to say goodbye to Bella, because the job had appeared so suddenly it was impossible, plus... as far as they knew, Bella was going to be joining us. Little did they know that the last time they would see her was at the barbeque for their anniversary. Mum was the worse. She couldnt and wouldnt believe Bella to be capable of such a thing. I should of fucking listened. It seems that it's true when they say `mother knows best`. I know fir a fact that she had wanted nothing more than to return to Forks and to see what Bella's explanation was. I should of let her. Of course Alice I both pleaded with her. We didnt want to see Bella and her cheating, slutty ways- Did I say that I was a dick. Because I am.
I need to prove myself, I need to be the man that I should of been all along, Bella's man. I would do everything in my power to earn her forgiveness. I knew that their would never be anything between us again, but I at least hoped I could forge some sort of frienship with her, If not for us, then at least for our daughter. Our daughter... no matter how many times I said that, It still didnt seem real, like a dream unreachable. But that dream had been tucked away here unknown. My beautiful little girl that was now counting on her daddy to make her all better. I couldnt fail, I hadnt even met her yet, but I already knew that I would give up my own life in exchange for hers- I would die for her.
I was so lost in my thoughts of my two girls that I failed to realise that we had come to a complete stop. I looked back out of the window only to be met with the house of my past. The house looked just the same. that couldnt be said about the greenery though. It had grown wild and free due to being neglected over the years.
"Mom. Look what Bella did" I said to my mum as I skipped over to her. My mum had stood of and dusted the soil of her hands. We both turned and saw the bush in the shape of a butterfly. "Oh Bella. Its beautiful" my mother had told her. Bella's ten year old face had beamed in delight before she blushed and put her head down to hide the proof of her delight. My own bush didnt look so great. I tried to carve a wolf, but it ended up looking more like a sheep. Emmett had teased me for weeks about it.
"Edward, you okay?" Alice asked, as Jasper carried their bags into the house. I swallowed heavily, my eyes were stinging with emotion but I simply nodded my head and went inside. My parents had never been anle to sell this place, Forks would aalways be our `real home`. They had simply rented it out, but it had been empty now for the last year. Fabric sheets covered the furniture, and a layer of dust covered the mantle piece above the fire. It needed a good clean. It would keep the girls busy while My father and I were at the hospital.
While my mother was pulling the coverings of the furniture and Alice skipped around the house, opening windows to air it out. I walked to my bedroom. I pulled the sheets of the bed and stood the mattress up to bat of any dust, once I replaced it I pulled out some clean sheets and put them on. Once it was done I flopped lazily to the bed and hid my face under a pillow. I wanted to stay here and pretend that non of it had ever happened, and that I still had a gorgeous brunette to call my own. It was easy to pretend. Bella had always been mine, she always would be, adding a daughter to that only solidified what I already knew. They were my girls, and even though one of them hated me now, I would never stop apologising for my mistakes. My phone rang, I looked down to check the I.D, Emmett. Fuck...!. I hadnt even called him to tell him of the recent events.
"Hello Em" I answered. "Yo Bro" He yelled down the phone. "Whats going on, Rose and I are sitting outside mum and dads and it looks completely deserted. Did you guys forget that we were coming up this weekend?" He questioned
"Shit Em" I replied. "Yeah you could say that" I went on to tell him about the visit by Bella, and Tanya's part in all of I told him about Jasmine and discovering that I had a daughter who was sick, I told him all about the accident and the upcoming operation if I was a match.
"Fuck dude" He sighed heavily into the phone. "You fucking left her, just like that." I had never told him the reasons why Bella and I had broken up. He is four years older that us, and he was already away at college when it all went down. But he had met Bella millions of times, and like the rest of the family, he had loved her like one of our own aswell. "Why the hell couldnt you just listen to mum and me, when we told you that Bella wouldnt do that" he yelled. Yep he was pissed, but it was nothing more than I deserved.
"Your all in Forks now" He said, more like asking. I nodded my head before foolishly realising that he couldnt see me. "Yep" I replied. "Just getting ready to go to the hospital to meet Jazz" I told him, with a smile on my face. "Okay Bro, were on our way" He told me. I went to argue, telling him that he didnt need to do that. He simply told me to fuck off. He wanted to meet his niece and he wouldnt miss being here for the world. He would be here as soon as he could. After he hung up I grabbed some clean clothes out of my bag and headed for the bathroom.
After I showered and changed I met my family down near the front door. I needed to get to the hospital I couldnt wait anymore to meet my little girl. We were all going for the first visit, my mother and Alice was bouncing with anticipation at the thought of meeting Jasmine. My hands became slick with sweat the nearer we came to the hospital. What would Jazz think of me? Would she hate me for abandoning her? Only time would prove to her that I would never leave her again, I hope she could give me that.
I raced through the corridor until we came along the receptionist's desk. "Dr Cullen?" An older woman inquired, looking at my father in shock. "Hello Margaret" He exclaimmed. "Were here to see my grandaughter, Jasmine Swan" He told her, shock evident on his face. Then she smiled widely. "Of course" she said as her eyes cut to me. "She's in room fourteen" She pointed out the direction, I thanked her brefor hurrying to the room. Out of breath and extremely nervous I stood outside the room. I had my hand up raised to knock, but I couldnt quite seem to budge. I could hear laughing and singing through the door. Then I heard the sound of the most beautiful tinkling lugh that I had ever heard. "Momma" the voice cried. "Make him stop. Make uncle Jakey stop" she giggled. I was hurt that he was making my daughter laugh so wholeheartedly. But I was also very thankful to him. Bella had told me that he was a great friend still, and that he was now married to Leah Clearwater. I was no longer jealous of his relationship with Bella, but I was jealous of the relationship he seemed to have with my daughter- It should be me!. Without hesitation I knocked on the door, then I heard heavy footsteps coming my way as I opened the door.
"Cullen" Jake's cold voice said. I ignored him for now. I only had eyes for the two girls before me who were huddled in bed together. The little girl stared at me in wonder as Bella whispered something into her ear. "My daddy" I heard her whisper. A beautiful word that was like music to my ears and a stab to the heart. This should not of been the first time that I had heard her say it, She should of been calling me that her whole life. Jasmine smiled shyly and held her hand out to me, gently patting a space of the bed at the opposite side form where Bella sat. I quickly glanced back at my parents who were huddled together with looks of awe and love for the small girl etched upon their face. I quickly turned back to Jasmine and walked slowly towards the bed. I noticed that Bella looked as if she wanted to bolt at any moment, but for her daughters sake, she remainned perfectly still. I sat down on the bed where she had indicated and took her small hand in mine, offering her a smile in return to the dazzling one that she now showed. For the first time in a long time, everything felt right in the world. I felt complete again.
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