Twin Hearts, Twin souls, One love
by Dark Angel of Wind.
Disclaimers: I do not own death note
Claimers: I do own Cassandra, Hillary, and Hikaru, Elanora and the ever flamboyant Dark Deluganda.
DA- *giggling insainly with the occasional laugh*
Dark- .....did you get a sugar high again?
DA-*laughs loudly* nope! just super happy!
Dark-I see...any particular reason as to why?
DA-hehehehehehehe XD
Dark- *sweatdrops*
DA-sorry I'm just Hyper Happy right now cuz I asked one of my favorite Death Note AMV makers to create a Trailer for me for this fic and not only is it awsome but I already got a new reader!!!! XD
Dark-really? well I guess that would make you happy...I have one question.
DA-yes Dark-chama?
Dark-am I in it?
DA- well of course! both you and Light are in it! is IS about you two after all *rolls eyes*
Dark- oh *smirks as he straightens up*
DA- lol I just made somebodies day it seems. ON WITH THE FIC!!
"talking"
thinking
"shadowing"
'Singing'
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Stupid Stupid Stupid Stupid
Raito walked fast down the white columned corridor, past students doing last minute tidying up before the parents came in a hour
How could I completely forget about A1's in my report?! I NEVER overlook anything in my studies and research! It's not like me...I hope that blow to the head didn't affect me in some way
He stopped and looked around for the Raven haired A1, catching his breath
Why do I even care enough to try to find him and apologize? he humiliated me in front of the class! I don't know him well enough to call him a friend!..yet..when I saw that pained look on his face, and felt that anger..I couldn't help but feel. well, guilty.
he shook his head scowling and began walking again, but this time to the cafeteria.
forget this, I am not obligated to go find him OR to apologize...why the hell is everything always WHITE?!
He walked past the open white doors and sat down in his chair with a thud making his friends stop their chatting and look at him
"yo Raito, whats got your perfectly ironed shirt all ruffled?" Mail said twirling a unlit cigarette in his fingers
"nothing. why is this place always so damned white?! can't we have a different color in different rooms or corridors?! its blinding and boring and makes my eyes hurt in the morning!!"
Mail raised his eyebrow as he put the cig away and instead unwrapped a tootsie pop and twirled that.
"probably because white as always been associated with regal finery and soft dignity" Cassandra said cleaning her glasses with her handkerchief
"...well thats a stupid reason, like a color can define something" Raito said scowling at the white table cloth
he looked up to see that Miheal wasn't here, nor was Nate
"hey, where are Miheal and Nate?" he asked the only two at the table
"I think Miheal's still in our room doing his last minute crap, Nate I have no fucking clue, prolly just went to the can" Mail said as he placed the lollipop on his tongue, licking the tip slowly.
"could you please refrain from doing that Mail?" Cassandra said turning her head the other way.
"why? is it too distracting?" Mail said with a sadistic smile as he slowly licked the lollipop in her face
"CUT IT OUT!" Cassandra yelled, her hands covering her red face
Mail laughed loudly before tutting her, "you know I only think of ya as a sis Cass. nuthin' more. sides, you know I have special tastes"
He laughed again as Cassandra squealed in her hands leaving Mail laughing loudly. Even Raito began to chuckle, his friends always helped him get over a bad mood. they were just so..surreal
ATTENTION STUDENTS! PARENTS ARRIVAL IS ESTIMETED IN T-MINUS 20 MINUTES! PLEASE FINISH YOUR PREPERATIONS AND LOCATE YOURSELF TO THE MAIN GREETING HALL! THANK YOU
"welp, judgement time" Mail said with the lollipop still in his mouth.
"I suppose we should get going then shouldn't we?" Cassandra said with a nervous sigh
"yea...I'll see you guys later" RAito said standing up
"yea see ya Raito, Cass" Mail shuffled his feet towards the door
Cassandra smoothed her hair and straightened her bow before standing and following suit
"goodbye"
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Raito stood in perfect alignment with the rest of the students aside him. his features were calm and his posture was perfect. he was wearing his school uniform still as were the rest of the students, with his hair combed.
while on the outside his usual facade was up on the inside he was screaming.
What should I say? what should I do? how should I act? how should I react? what topics should I discuss? how should I talk? what expressions should I use? what if Sayu is still mad? should I try to talk to her in private? should I apologize to father and mom? calm down, calm down Raito, their your family. you've known how to act and talk to them before, you shouldn't have a problem now. it hasn't been so long. only a few years thats all you can do this YOU CAN DO THIS!
Raito's glazed eyes snapped up when he heard the large front door open slowly and people slowly walked in, taking in the ambiance of the grand white room.
as the parent's got closer Raito and the rest of the students bowed with a loud rumbling "welcome"
The order then fell apart as some of the students and parents rushed to each other, while others stood stalk still as their family's came towards them. Raito being one among them.
He gasped inwardly as he saw his mother, father, and sister walk towards him.
Sayu had blossomed into a beautiful young lady, he could tell that she was still as bubbly and charming as he remembered from her warm smile and shining eyes.
His mother had gained some weight and had a few more shades of grey to her hair, but her face glowed as she looked upon him with that warm and familiar smile. the smile that said "I love my family, but I also need to present myself as a good mother figure"
and his father...his father looked exactly the same since that night.
his serious features were permanently etched on his person, everything down to his walk spoke volumes. and his eyes were cold and hard as they looked around him before settling on Raito.
Sayu's smile grew more broad as she saw RAito and threw herself into his arms
"RAITO!!" she hugged him tightly and RAito smiled as he hugged her back, a smile growing on his stoic face as he felt his sisters warmth
he let her go and held her in front of him still smiling.
"wow Sayu, you sure grew up. I'm not going to have to beat off any boyfriends or stalkers now am I?"
"oh stop it!" she laughed into her hand as she hugged him one more time before stepping aside
"hello Raito dear, how have you been? have they been treating you alright in here? with all of your special needs?" Sachiko said with that same touch of concern in her voice he was so used to
Raito suppressed the urge to roll his eyes. his mom was still convinced that her son was crazy and that Dark was nothing more then his craziness letting itself out and that the school was like a asylum helping them all with special therapy. Raito didn't argue with her. whatever she needed to tell herself she could as far as he was concerned.
"yea, mom. I'm fine. I actually made some pretty good friends here, I'll intorduce you to them later"
"hmph, I don't think I want my family to be around any other dangerous people during our brief visit here." Soichiro said with a cold tone.
Raito's smile faltered for a moment before turning around and with a raised hand guided them inside.
I should have realized that Sayu was the only one who still thought of me the same way. I remember when I first told her about Dark in detail in the first letters I sent her, she accepted him and me and when she talked to me on the phone in public she would call him my Dark Friend.
he chuckled softly as he listened to Sayu ooh and ahh about every detail of the school. he truly loved his sister and missed her the most. even when Dark had scared her and ripped at her hair she forgave him and Dark the minute he apologized.
She was a honest, and good person.
"YO RAITO!"
he turned his head and stopped in the hallway to see a happy looking Mail come towards him with a red headed woman and man.
"hey man! 'M showing my folks to all my friends to show them I only surround myself with the coolest and most fun people. This is my ma Viola and my older bro Vincent. Ma, Vinnie this is Raito. the smart stable one"
"ah yes, Mail has told me so much about you Raito. it sounds like without you to keep him in line" she smiled as she chuckled a bit.
"thank you Mrs. but its really because without Mail's antic's the mornings would be pretty boring. it's good to meet you Vincent" he smiled and held out his hand for Vincent
Vincent glared at the hand made a noise as he looked away.
"Vincent! don't be rude! I'm sorry dear he's not the friendly type" Viola said apologetically
Raito lowered his hand and shrugged
"oh, Mail. I'd also like to introduce you to my sister Sayu,"
"Nice to meet you!" said a bouncing sayu
"my mother Sachiko"
"charmed" said a smiling sachiko
"and my f-"
"I thought I said I didn't want you to endanger my family boy?! come on Sachiko, Sayu. we've stayed long enough"
Soichiro turned on his heels in anger and began to walk away.
"but dear-"
"NOW Sachiko! Sayu come here!"
Sachiko bowed apologetically to Mail and his family before giving Raito a sad look and then running off to her husbands side
"but dad! we just got here!...I'm sorry Raito. I'll write and email you soon, and I'll call next Friday ok? try to get skype up on that laptop of yours I've got it on mine and it'll be like we're talking face to face"
she leaned up and kissed her brother's cheek before giving him a brief hug and running after her parent's. her voice loudly talking to her father about the injustice of it all
RAito watched them leave and he swore he could feel his chest caving in and wondered if Mail and his family could hear his heart breaking. his eyes burned but he would be damned if he was going to cry in public.
Mail placed a hand on his shoulder startling him for a moment
"...hey..man I'm sorry I didn't think that-" Mail started but Raito shrugged him off.
"it's alright, its not your fault. it was nice to meet you both, please excuse me" Raito said quietly as he walked towards the hopefully emptey music room.
he went to the door but stopped when he heard voices.
"-stop it ok? I know that this is all an act to get more attention. I love you and don't care about what other think, you're not crazy and your not a freak. so just stop all this "shadowing" and "other" nonsense and come home."
I shouldn't be listening to other peoples problems, I have enough of my own. I'll just go to my room I g-
"but Elanora, this is not a act. I swear to you that I, We do need help and we are getting it here. no it's not craziness. but its also not a normal thing"
His eyes widened as he heard the voice of Cassandra and leaned in closer to peek into the crack in the door.
he couldn't see Cassandra, but he did see a young lady close in age. long dark brown hair, dark brown green eyes, tall slim body sporting a white sundress and sandals. she was holding her hands her head tilted in a angle with pleading and concerned eyes.
"no you don't! and stop talking like that! it's creepy like a robot's voice! talk to me like you used to and stop wearing all this preppy crap. you always told me you HATED snobs and preppy girls so WHY are you dressed like one?!"
"I told you Elanora, I'm not Hillary. I'm Cassandra and-"
"stop it stop it STOP IT! YOUR MY SISTER HILLARY! and stop calling me elanora! call me El, or El-chan, or even Kitten or kitty!"
she clenched her hands in her dress
he heard Cassandra give a sad sigh and wondered if she was going to cry again.
"....E-El?"
Elanora gasped and let go of her dress
"Hilly?"
"I-I'm sorry El, but I can't leave yet. this place is helping me. really it is, and I've made such wonderful friends. even if they never actually see me I can still see and hear them and it gives me a warm feeling. like when you would give me my warm kitty snuggles"
he heard Cas-no Hillary laugh. he had never heard Hillary speak before. she was always buried deep inside Hikaru and Cassandra, always watching and listening. never coming out. he could tell from her soft voice that she was a very emotional and intelligent girl. and wished that he could see how she was acting, what her mannerisms were, tell her that she didn't have to hide. that tell her that she was wrong in all that she thought of herself. to leave the past behind.
"...so your going to keep this up? your not going to stop?....I can't believe you would this far. I know you have self esteem and self confidence issues and you feel like you're invisible. BUT DO YOU REALLY NEED TO PRETEND TO BE CRAZY JUST TO HAVE PEOPLE TALK TO YOU?! YOU HAVE ME! WHY DO YOU NEED TO STAY HERE?!"
"b-b-but E-E-l I'm I'm not-"
he could hear her voice cracking and could almost see the tears swelling up in his mind. Raito gripped his hands into balled fists as he felt his anger boil. his feelings for the A3 were that he had for his sister. in fact she reminded him alot of Sayu..if Cassandra, Hikaru, and Hillary were all smashed together anyway.
"I DON'T CARE ANYMORE! IF YOU WANT ATTENTION THAT BADLY THEN STAY HERE FOR ALL I CARE!"
Raito jumped out of the way in time for the brunette to run past him crying.
he turned towards the open music room and saw a silently crying Hillary. Knees underneath her, her arms to her side limp, and her eyes staring t the spot her sister once stood.
Ratio immediately bent down and swept her in a hug that he used to comfort sayu with.
he began to get worried as she stayed unresponsive, her tears still streaming down her face, her eyes were dazed and her arms still at her side.
He hugged harder and felt his own held in tears spill.
"I'm so sorry, god it's neither of our faults. and you should remember that always." he whispered.
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DA-.....what is WRONG with me?! ok please review! and be prepared for lots of band riots and awsome kick ass friends...emphasise on the Kick Ass! MWUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! till next time! DA! OUT!
