Hello, loves! I apologize for the extremely long delay in chapter updates, but real life and a crappy computer have gotten in the way. In the event that you all have forgotten what the story is about, go ahead and go back the few chapters and re-read so that you can get the feel for it.
I, hopefully, will have a lot more time to do some writing. I've missed it but things are looking up a little more these days, so let's keep our fingers crossed that I can update at least weekly, shall we?
I own nothing. Let's do this.
EPOV
She was in love with me since day one. I didn't bother to even try to look her up. As much as I would like to think that most of this was her fault, I can't let her take all of the blame. I was a little emo kid who just thought I had everything pegged and now everyone's relationships have suffered a little, or a lot, because of Bella and my stubbornness.
I flicked my cigarette over the banister and rubbed my hands over my face. "Okay, so what do I do, then? I mean, I can't just walk in there and be like, 'Hey, so I'm sorry you thought I took your virginity as a game.' I don't think that would go over very well."
"I say let her suffer a little bit." Alice growled out. I cocked my eyebrow at her and she sighs. "Well, okay, I'm being childish, but seriously! You two are a couple of idiots, if I've ever known any! Everybody has been walking on egg shells where the two of you are concerned."
"She's right, you know." Em shrugs. "Don't get me wrong, I love the both of you like there is no tomorrow, but you both have been huge fucking babies about this for long enough. I say you take Bella to the side, maybe go for a walk or something and clear the air."
"I don't know." I look in the kitchen to see her laughing at something Rose said and I sigh. "What if she doesn't want to talk to me?"
Jasper pipes in with his two cents. "Who gives a flying fuck? Look, this is what got you guys into this mess to begin with. You guys didn't want to talk to the other in fear of misperception. Man up! And don't do this for any of us. We're grown ass adults and we'll cross that bridge when we get to it. Do it for you and Bella." He takes a sip of his beer and winks at Alice and I swear to God her face turned about seven different shades of red in a matter of seconds.
"You're right. Maybe I can get her to take a walk down to the lake with me tonight before it gets too dark?" I look at my friends and they're all nodding in confirmation.
Now just to get her to agree without wanting to rip my balls off...
BPOV
I look outside and see the satisfied faces of all of my friends, and Edward. I can't really call him a friend since we haven't spoken to each other in 10 years. We're more like acquaintances now. I've thought about everything I've been told today. Everything that I've known to be true seems to be a lie. Well, maybe not a lie, but everything seems to be the complete opposite of what I've felt or known in my heart.
I didn't think of Edward's point of view. I didn't think about the fact that he lost his virginity to me, too. I didn't think. That's what I get for not thinking. I've ruined close friendships with the people I love the most.
Rose noticing my inner turmoil pats me on the head. "Cheer up, Bells. It's not the end of the world and you have all week to right all of the wrongs. Sure, it might take a little more than a week but avoiding him like the plague isn't going to work, either."
"Yeah, you're right. I don't know how to go about it. How do you just give up on an idea you've been holding on to for so long? It's not that easy. Yes, I realize I'm mostly to blame at this point, but it's really difficult to just let go of all of the hurt I've felt for so long."
Just as she was about to open her mouth the whole crew waltzed back in from their impromptu smoke break. Edward kept clearing his throat and pulling on the collar of his shirt and Alice looked like she was trying really hard to not shoot lasers out of her eyeballs.
"So, Bella, how's the book thing going?" Emmett, ever the peace maker, asks.
"It's going pretty well. I've been in contact with Summit and they're entertaining the idea of turning the books into movies, with me doing the screenplay for it." I boasted.
"Seriously? That's amazing!" Jasper smiles at me. "I'm not gonna' lie, I've read the books. They're enthralling. I mean, I'm not a teenage girl or anything, but I got hooked on it. Very well written."
I chuckled and looked at Edward. "Yeah, well, you're not the only guy here who's a huge fan." I cocked my eyebrow at Edward and he scowled at me.
"Seriously? Out me why don't you? You wound me." He puts his hand on his heart and, at least for a moment, we're okay.
So, for everyone or anyone who was worried that it's going to be one of those stories where one is to blame more than the other, calm down. They're both equally to blame in this. ;)
Do you guys think Edward is going to get the guts to ask her for that walk? Or do you think something else is going to happen to put it on hold?
