Ergh sorry i haven't updated since sunday but I've had some family problems to work out, and school have been asking non stop questions about it, so if i dont update for a while you know why. I wrote this before but then i dyed my hair, and came back and my laptop had turned off and didnt save it-.- any way...ENJOY! :D


Yes mum. okay I get it. No I will never skip school again. Ok mum you can stop yelling at me. Yes I will never see Dougie again..Wait?

'No!' I shouted at her. 'I need him mum!' I countinuted to shout at her as she rolled her eyes..

'You've known him a couple of days, I hardly doubt you need him' she spat back at me sarcasticly.

'I need him more that you will ever know...'I muttered to myself, but loud enough for her to hear, as she started walking back into the kitchen talking to herself.

'These teenagers thing its all about love, when you dont even know the half of it!' She exclaimed at me.

'Oh shut up' I though as I left the house closing the door quietly.

'Erm is Phoebe here?' I muttered while standing on the edge of the steps leading up to Phoebe's small house. She lived with her sister because her mum decided she was two much trouble, so now she lives with her sister and her sisters college friends. Phoebe was my only friend outside of school, so I thought I could just get away from mum for a while.

'Sure, she's upstairs. But the place is abit of a mess so I wouldn't come in, just wait here. She should be down in a minute' Her sister Hannah told me quickly.

Hannah closed the door so it was left slightly opened. I heard her run up the stairs and talk to Phoebe, then I heard footsteps again but this time walking down the stairs.

The door flew open and Phoebe was standing there, her short red hair pulled up into a high ponytail and her make-up applied thickly. And of course, a cigarette in her hand. She knows it's unhealthy for a fifteen year old to smoke, but she doesn't care. And that really inspires me, she doesn't care about anything or what people think of her.

'Long time no see stranger' Phoebe said to me, with a slight grin on her face.

'Yeah I guess, but Phoe-'

'Mums being a bitch isn't she..' She said to me rolling her eyes, taking another drag from her cigarette.

'Right..How could you tell?' I asked her, unsure of how she knew straight away.

'You only come here if you need to get away from her, and I guessed thats why your here?' I nodded, and her face formed a smile.

'I see, what is it this time?' She said while sitting down on the steps, and I followed her sitting on the cold stone steps. I began to explain every thing that had happened, I wasn't making a big fuss out of it, but i just needed to speak to someone apart from Dougie and Danny. She kept nodding and telling me that she understood.

After explaining to her, she stood up and walked back inside her house, then back out side sitting down next to me.

'Take them..' She said while placing a pack of cigarettes in my hand, looking at the red design swirling around my packaging. I shook my head and pushed it back.

'It helps with stress, you know. Just take one' She said already sliding one out of the pack, and waving it around in front of my face. One cant hurt can it? I sighed taking it and lighting it.

I placed it in my mouth taking a long drag from it, I could feel my throat being filled with smoke, but for some reason it felt so good. Phoebe smiled, and placed the rest of the pack in my bag along with a lighter.

'Just in case, you know?' Phoebe said to me grinning again, she done that alot and I didn't like it. I always think that she sees me as a weak little girl, trapped in a fifteen year olds body.

'Now scram. Get of my property.' She said to me standing up, and dragging me with her. Phoebe walked back into her house closing the door on me.

'Yeah, bye. Erm thanks for the..you know..cigarettes and stuff..' I said to her, through the door, but she was already gone.

I looked up to the sky, it had turned dark blue and the stars were starting to shine through the clouds, I sighed while walking back to the bus stop, which was at the end of her road. I looked down at the cigarette in my hand, Phoebe smoked alot and she seemed fine. It's not going to harm me. I placed it back in my mouth, inhaling the smoke again. As I reached the bus stop, I pulled out my phone and checked my messages. Dougie. My heart started to race when his name was on my screen, I smiled as I read through the text.

'Come to mine tonight? :) xxxx'

I read then another one with his address. Soon rain began to fall, sighing again, I pulled my hair from my eyes and looked far into the distance, as the rain began to get heavier and the wind picked up.

'It's not attractive when a girl smokes..' A angry voice said to me, I turned around and dropped the cigarette to the floor.

'Why are you smoking, Kayleigh!' Danny said to me walking towards me. Why was he like this? He always acted like I belonged to him!

'WHY!' He shouted one more time again in a more angrier tone pushing me against the bus shelter.

'Danny, shut up! Its my life, it's not what it seems!' I shouted back at him. Thank god there was no-one around.

'Not what it seems? Course.. You really know how to fuck your life up, Kayleigh!' He said to me, with confusion in his voice, his tone was getting quieter, which was good.

'I know my life isn't perfect Danny, but thanks for the reminder..' I spat back at him.

'You know I didn't mean that, so dont be like that..' Danny whispered to me.

I shrugged and turned away from Danny, right as my bus turned up.

'Kayleigh..wait?' Danny said to me as I walked on to the bus, ignoring him I sat down on a seat, right at the back.

I looked out the window to see Danny standing there, the rain soaking his hair making to fall all over the place.

I shoke my head as the bus began to pull away, trying to get Danny out of my head.

Oh God. I hope this is his house. My hand reached the door and knocked loudly. It soon swung open revealing Dougie and a huge smile on his face appeared.

'Your here!' He shouted smiling at me. 'And soaking wet..'He said laughing running his fingers through my damp hair.

'Come here or your going to catch a cold.' Dougie said pulling me into a hug, as I smiled into his chest. Safe..Again, with Dougie.