I'm sorry that the last chapter wasn't perfect, also I found a mistake I made saying Bella's face is tan instead of pale, but I hope you like this chapter a lot better. I'm also glad that most of you liked the previous chapter, makes me want to write more and more!

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BPOV

I wake up in the middle of the night. My alarm clock says that it's 2.37am exactly. Way too early for me to get up. I concentrate on my surroundings and find that Edward isn't lying next to me on the bed. There's a piece of paper on his pillow. I pick it up and hold it up towards the window, trying to read it with the little moonlight.

My sweet Bella,

Don't worry, I'm out hunting. I will be back in the morning, hopefully before you've even read this.

Love,
Edward

Oh well, out hunting again. I know it can't annoy me, but I just can't imagine how hard it can possibly be to be around me, a human. I don't think I smell different myself, but everyone in this house seems to notice. I feel like a walking hamburger sometimes.
My throat is a little sore and I decide to get up for some water. I switch on the light and rub my eyes. It's pretty cold out of the bed, since no one is thinking of turning on the heating in this place. I look for some socks in my bag and put them on before walking into the hallway. Finally I didn't forget. I walk towards the bathroom and hear voices. There's someone taking a shower and soon I hear who that person is.

Alice..

My heart skips a beat and I wonder what I should do. I feel pulled towards the bathroom, wanting to walk in so badly, but the other side of me tells me to just go back to the bedroom. It's safer to go back to the bedroom, but I can't control myself. Silently I continue walking to the bathroom and when my hand is on the doorknob I wait. Alice isn't singing any more and I now hear only a male's voice coming from the radio. I already miss her sweet angelic voice.

"Who's there?" Alice asks, even though I'm pretty sure she already knows.

"It's me, Bella. I'm sorry. I just wanted some water.." I answer, finding it difficult to speak all of a sudden.

"Bella! Sure, come in."

I wait a little more, asking myself if I can really just walk in and be normal towards Alice after everything that happened during the day. Then, I turn the doorknob and open the door a little. Looking inside I see Alice still standing under the shower, but the shower cabin has stickers on it so it's not see-through any more. Alice's head is still visible above the sticker and she looks at me, smiling.

"You're up early," she says.

I nod shyly while I try not to think of Alice's naked body, so close, in the same space.

I walk to the sink and open the tap. The cold water on my hands wakes me up even more.

"Thank you, for the pyjamas by the way." I almost forgot that she gave hers for me to wear.

"No problem, of course. I'm sorry that I put all your clothes in the machine. You know how I am when it comes to clothes."

Again I nod and feel my face turn red.

"Did you manage to get your blouse out of the laundry in time?" I remember that she ran upstairs to save it.

Now it looks as if Alice is shy and turns her face down a little, but then looks up at me again and smiles again, but half-hearted.

"No, I threw it away, sadly enough."

Her voice sounds strange, and I feel bad for her. She must have liked it a lot.

"Can't we get a new one soon?" I suggest, trying to make her smile again. It works only a little.

"I hope so, Bella. I would love to go shopping again with you.."

"But..?" I hear there's more, by the way her voice sounds.

"Nothing. I'm sure we can do that soon. You should drink something and go back to bed, Bella."

I feel strange after hearing her voice sound so low and different. I take a few sips of water and then look at her once more. A small shiver goes down my spine looking at her lips and perfect golden eyes. They seem to be brighter now, looking at me, strangely intense.
I'm scared to keep talking so I decide to go back to bed, like she told me to do.

"Night.." I whisper.

"Hmm.." she murmurs back, so I turn my back to her and leave the bathroom quickly.

Why does she act like this?

Back in bed I lie awake and stare at the ceiling. I feel like I'm falling deeper and deeper every day, every minute, every time I breathe air into my lungs. My heart is screaming for more of Alice. More of us.
I close my eyes and let my hand slide under the sheets. Thank god that Edward isn't here to see my red, glowing face as I fantasize about Alice.

Oh, Alice.

APOV

I sigh as if I really feel the need to breathe. Warm water drips down on me while I stare at my feet. This situation can't be real. This is not really happening. If only I could say that with it being the truth. Bella is filling up my whole being and now I have to block out my own brother, making sure he doesn't get to know about all this. How did it change? Why did this happen? My feelings for Bella are growing still and I can't seem to stop it. Honestly I don't even want to stop it..
I turn off the shower and wrap my towel around me. The mirror shows my sad face and I find it hard to look at myself.

When did I become such a good liar? Why am I lying to myself? To Bella..

Within seconds I'm all dry and I cross the hallway quicker than ever. In my room I lock the door behind me and lean against it. I sink down onto the ground and hold my head in my hands. My eyes burn, but there are no tears following. I want to cry, so loud. I want real, wet tears streaming down my cheeks, I want Bella to hold me. Now. Another sigh. Being a vampire never felt as bad as it does now.

I get up from the floor and walk to my closet for clean clothes. Once I have them on I decide to go downstairs and maybe read a book or two to get my mind on other things. Downstairs I find I'm not alone. Esme is sitting at the breakfast bar and looks up when I enter the room. She smiles but when she sees my sad face her smiles drops again, immediately.

"Alice, what is wrong, my dear? I have never seen you this sad.."

Should I tell her. Can I trust this with her? Yes. This is my mother. She has always been there for anything and everything. But everyone in this house would hear it to..

I take a piece of paper from a close lying notebook and a pen and start writing things down. Every single thing. About everything that has happened so far between Bella and me, the beach, the shopping, my vision, the bathroom. It takes me no longer than half a minute and Esme is standing next to me now. She takes the paper from my hands when I reach to give it to her, and then hide my face in my hands. I sink down onto the floor again with my back against the kitchen cupboards and keep my face hidden. I only hear Esme handling the paper, the silence that follows, and quiet "oh's" and more sounds that I can decipher in my mind. She must think I'm ready for another mental institution.

"Alice. Are you sure about that vision? Are you.. sure about everything you.. wrote down?"

I look up and nod. If only I could cry now. Esme looks at me and kneels down next to me. She wraps her arms around me tightly and I close my eyes.

"Things can change, sweetheart. This can all change and maybe it won't have to be like this at all. Bella could move out with Edward and be totally fine with him forever.."

At this I look into my mothers eyes with pure panic. She looks back, not understanding.

"I don't want that! At all. I don't want things to change that way!" My voice sounds higher than normal.

She nods and I take the piece of paper back. I write only a few words this time. Enough to explain everything I want to scream out right now. Esme looks with me on the paper as the ink comes down onto the paper.

I love her..

We don't speak for a long while, just sit in silence.

"Alice. I hope you are really sure about things like this. I can't help you with this, nor her. If your vision is the future then you'll have to accept it and find a way to solve things. For all of you.."

I nod and look into her eyes. Esme smiles slightly and I still feel like crying.

I want Bella.. I can't be without her..

We both get up when my dad walks into the room. He looks at the both of us curiously, but when Esme gives him a meaningful look back he smiles and greets us. I greet him back and walk out of the kitchen, towards the living room.
I take one of my favourite books and sit down on a chair next to the window. It's raining outside, still dark as well. I would be so much easier if I could sleep like a normal human being. Instead, I open my book and start reading.

BPOV

After hours of rolling through the bed from one side to the other, light is coming through the curtains. Great. Half a night without sleep. I must look horrible now with dark circles under my heavy-feeling eyes. Edward isn't back yet so I get up alone. Not bothering to shower, I walk to the washing machine and find my clothes perfectly folded on top of it.

Thank you, Alice.

I take my clothes and walk back to the bedroom. Quickly I look outside and see that the weather is grey and wet, again. Edward must be soaked when he comes back. I put on some warm clothes and turn on the radio. Morning news is on an I don't really listen to what they are saying. Instead I look in a mirror on the wall and stare into my own eyes. Another long day, just starting. How am I going to survive another day?
I remember Alice in the shower last night, talking about her blouse. Maybe it would be nice to take her to one of her favourite shops and buy her a new one.. Maybe she forgot about it because we had such a weird day together. That maybe she was thinking I'm insane and about plans to get away from me.. No. Surely Alice doesn't think of me that way. Before I can think more, Alice is standing in the doorway, smiling brightly.

"Oh, Bella! How nice! Don't you mind shopping in the rain? Of course we take umbrella's!"

She must have seen already that I'm taking her to the shops then. Oh well.

"Sure. Anything to make you smile again," I answer.

At this she looks to the ground for a short moment and then back again, smiling that half-hearted smile again. Or maybe I'm just imagining that..
Right at this moment Edward is back in the room. He looks at me, then at Alice, and walks towards me, kissing my cheek. Again, I see Alice looking away. Does it make her uncomfortable seeing other people kiss? I never noticed that before.

"We're going shopping today, Edward. I promised your sister to get her a new blouse."

Edward looks at me, less happy than a few seconds ago.

"But we never do anything together any more.. When are we going to have some time together again? I miss you, more than you think.." he says, making me feel a little bad.

"Tomorrow. I'm all yours tomorrow. Is that okay?"

He looks at me thoughtfully, then nods and smiles again.

"No injuries and danger this time, do you hear me?" Edward says to Alice, and me.

We both nod and I feel a little angry again, knowing it wasn't Alice's fault last time it went wrong. I turn on my heel and take Alice's hand, pulling her with me outside. I feel her stiff hand in mine and wonder what's wrong, until I remember that she is always like this. In a strange way it arouses me, thinking of her cold hands, her cold body, touching mine. When we are outside, close to the car, we both notice that we're still holding hands and we both let go, me turning a little red. We get in the car and I shiver. The seats and the air inside the car are cold. Alice sees me shivering and turns on the heating for me. I look at her, thankfully. Our eyes lock for a few seconds and then she turns her eyes away again.

"Let's go then," she says softly, almost whispering.

A small smile appears on my face as I look at the road in front of us. I know I shouldn't be doing this to myself, being so close with Alice, but it feels too good not to..