"You learned to run from what you feel, and that's why you have nightmares. To deny is to invite madness. To accept is to control."

"Megan Chance"

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The fog was thick, too thick to possibly see through obviously. Mikoto wondered why she would wake up here? Only to get the answer as the fog started to clear creating a small path towards a patch of light. She didn't hesitate when calmly walking forward, her hand outstretched as she challenged the light...her fingers only grazed the wall of beam only to scream as it engulfed her in darkness.

She hazily opened her eyes to see she was staring into the aftermath of her worse nightmare.

Gore.

Bloody gore everywhere.

Guts from bodies and faces she knew.

She started scream and tremble at her bloody hands, she hugged herself falling to her bare knees and started to cry out.

The voices were coming back...they...were taunting her in regret.

You shouldn't have ran!

"I couldn't help them!" She yelled.

You abandoned your people for your own life!

"It was our only option!" She reasoned.

You should die!

Kill yourself!

Pay for your sins!

"STOP IT!" She snapped wrapping her arms around her head to shield herself from the voices, but it was futile.

...Well if you shouldn't pay for your sins maybe your child should.

Mikoto opened her eyes wide and looked up at the cloaked figure who stood in front of her with a sword at his side. The figure removed his hood to show a face an older face of her son.

His red eyes were pitying her as he looked down, his black hair cover his face slightly.

"I should pay not you." He whispered making Mikoto helplessly reached out to stop him, as her son raised the sword to his own throat.

"No Kyuma!" Her protest wasn't heeded.

Blood stained her clothes, skin, a pool of blood now accompanied the ground beneath her knees as her hands rested in blood... no that's wrong...her own regret.

This is how it feels.

"No."she whispered.

Feel their pain.

"No."she said louder.

Don't deny it.

Mikoto always knew it would come back, she always wanted to apologize, she always wanted to say how sorry she was to her people. She placed her face in her hands and broke down.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry," she repeatedly cried it out in a muffled voice. The voices eventually stopped their assault leaving the queen's mind broken while the air was filled with desperate apologies.

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"Im sorry! Im sorry! Im sorry!" Mikoto was crying in her sleep making Sumeragi scared as he tried desperately to wake her. He tried shaking her, and calling out her name in a panic.

"Mikoto!" The king shouted this time making his wife eventually wake up. Her brown eyes met her husbands and tears started to glide down her cheeks even more. Sumeragi knew what he had to do as a husband gently taking her in his arms, he caressed her in his embrace. Mikoto sobbed into her husband's arms.

"They taunted me..kamui ki-kill..." The women eyes were threatening to release another round of emotional tears. Sumeragi put a finger to his wife's lips shushing her from reliving that nightmare. He hushed her gently wiping away the tears with his thumb.

"Mikoto just forget about it. It wasn't real okay?" He smiled before giving her a reassuring kiss on the lips. She moaned softly breath wavering she put her hands on his chest. "I'm okay,"she breathed calming herself while wipping the tears from her eye's. Her head tilted in a questioning matter behind Sumeragi releasing her husband and climbing off the bed.

Sumeragi knew she was going towards the door he heard the door creak open a while ago. Turning around to their left the king see who was about to accompany them was a young girl at the door her slightly short blonde hair was on her head. Her red eyes were watery, cheeks had dry tear marks.

"What happened kamui?" Mikoto picked up her daughter. Kamui hugged her moms neck and closed her eyes.

"I had a nightmare,"Kamui mother smiled gently kissing the forehead of her child. "Well mommy had quite the nightmare too," kamui gasped in shock making her mother chuckle in amusement as she sat back down on the bed Sumeragi ruffled his step daughter's hair a caring smile on his face. The red eyed girl pouted and tried to fix her messy hair only failing in her attempt.

"So, what happened in your nightmare?" Kamui expression changed to a frightened one before shaking her head and hiding herself in her mother's protective embrace. Mikoto caringly stroked her daughter's hair calming the child down. She then glared at her husband who backed off, his hands raised in defense, and with a nervous chuckle backed off.

"Hmmm don't worry Kamui,"the women said positively towards her daughter just as an idea popped into her head. "Hey how about you keep me company?" Mikoto had her head tilted waiting for an answer, her child smiled gleefully and nodded vigorously towards the idea. Mikoto couldn't help but laugh herself as she wrapped her into the sheets with her. Sumeragi kissed his daughter head wrapping an arm around her and his wife protectively creating a family cuddle.

Kamui in the middle smiled happily sinking into her mother and father's warm embrace.

~END~

So yeah school 10 more days, anyway thank you so much for readng this far remember to follow and favorite if you liked. Review ask question i'll respond in the chapter, and also criticism is appreciated.