A/N: Hey! Yo! Wuz up my home d's! This DJ MBAV fan66 hitting you up with another songfic here!
So, this one comes entirely straight from my own twisted little mind. And let me warn you. Be prepared to bust out the tissues for this one, cause it's a tear jerker. I'm taking this one to a dark place. A dark and emotional place. So, be ready for it. Lol!
Now! On to the shout outs:
TiredOfBeingNice- I am so glad that you liked it and that I'd interpreted the song right! To be honest, I never really heard the song before until I looked it up and watched it's music video. And I must say, it's a pretty good song! Plus, saying those words just sounds like something Erica might be too afraid to say to someone because she's never really been in a serious relationship before. At least that's what I get from the show. It seems like she's always going after a different guy every day or week! Lol!
Justme2491- I know that your review was from chapter 7, but I'm gonna give you a shout out on chapter 9 instead, since chapter 8 has already been posted. Lol! So, thanks! I'm glad you thought so! And yeah. Sorry about that. If mean the song part then it's because the site won't let me single space or triple space when I hit enter for the next line. Trust me! It looks a little better on the original document than on the site's document. And if it wasn't the song part that seemed jumbled, but the story part, then yeah. That was all me. I had hard time with this one, but at least I did a pretty good job on it, though.
Disclaimer: I do not own My Babysitter's A Vampire or the song My Immortal. I do own though this songfic's plot. So...yeah! Let's get to it! Shall we?
Songfic #9
Song: My Immortal
Artist: Evanescence
Pairing: Benny/Ethan
"You know! You're more trouble than your worth, sometimes! Sometimes I wish you were dead, so I wouldn't have to worry about you all the time or have to come to your rescue all time because of your lame seer powers!" shouted Benny to his boyfriend, Ethan. Ethan just stood there with a look of shock and his mouth wide open, as well as Benny's.
You see, the two had been dating for a year now and it was their one year anniversary. But the two had just gotten into a pretty heated argument over something, and emotions were high as was the tension between the two.
"Ethan, I-"started Benny, trying to apologize for the words that just came out of his mouth. He didn't mean to say those hurtful words to Ethan, but he had let his emotions get the best of him and they just flew out without even thinking. But Ethan heard the words and cut his apology off.
"No! Benny!" he said harshly, and tears stinging his eyes. "If that's how you really feel about me, then...then we're through! I never want to see you again!" yelled Ethan with tears now flowing down his cheeks, as he then turned and ran down the hallway, crying. Benny just stood there in disbelief.
"What have I just done?" he thought, sullenly. He was heartbroken. He couldn't believe that he just told Ethan that. It was like...someone else had taken control over his body and thoughts and made him say that to Ethan, but he knew that it was all him. Him and a little thing called anger. He needed to apologize to Ethan and make things right again with his boyfriend, but he knew that with Ethan's emotions still on high that he wouldn't want to see him right now. So Benny decided that it was best to just let Ethan have some time to himself and cool down first, before trying to talk to him.
Sadly, the next day. Benny hadn't seen or heard from Ethan all day, at school. He was starting to get worried. He then got a phone call from his grandma, one that he wish he never got. She had told him that Ethan was in the hospital and was in critical condition. When he heard her say that, he froze right there in the hallway and was gripped with a strong feeling of fear and worry. He told her that he'll meet her at the hospital and then hung up and quickly ran out off the school, towards the hospital.
As soon as he got there and reached Ethan's room, he dropped his stuff and just stood there with a look of horror and shock, as tears begin to well up in his eyes. He ran over to Ethan's bedside and then picked up his delicate and bruised hand. "E-Ethan?" he choked out softly. "Ethan. It's me? Benny. Baby, please open your eyes." he pleaded to the still Ethan, but no response. He then heard footsteps come up from behind him. He turned around to see his grandmother walk in with a look of sadness and remorse on her. "G-Grandma! W-what happened? W-what happened to him?" asked Benny, crying. She walked over to him and wrapped her arms around, giving him a hug.
"His mother said that he went out last night to get some fresh air. He told her how you and him had a serious fight and just needed some air to think. When he didn't come home after it started to get late, she panicked and called the police. Later they had informed her that he was found in the park, badly beaten and then stabbed by some guys, who they believed tried to rob him." she explained to him. "They managed to catch the guys thanks to an eye witness who saw them, but it was too late. They had already stabbed him and ran off. The witness then called 911 when he saw how badly injured he was." she finished.
Benny then started to cried harder. She rubbed circles on her grandson's back, trying to sooth the poor hurting teenage boy. "This is all my fault, Grandma! I should of never said that I wished he was dead! And now, he just might!" he cried out loud. Mrs. Weir was stunned by this, but then relaxed and proceeded to still comfort her grandson. "No. It's not, Benny. This was all just some strange and stupid coincidence. That's all." she said to Benny softly.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Almost a month had past since then and Ethan's condition was still the same. The doctor had told them that it wasn't looking good for him and that he most likely won't make it. The whole entire time, Benny remained by Ethan's bedside, day in and day out. Refusing to leave his love's side until he regained consciousness again. He refused to believe what the doctor was saying. Ethan wouldn't leave him like that. Not without saying good-bye or something first. He had asked his grandmother if there was a spell or something that could make Ethan wake up from his coma and make everything ok again, but sadly she told him that there isn't. So, he just sat there. Waiting.
He would speak to Ethan sometimes when it was just the two of them in the room together. And as weird as it sounded, he thought that sometimes he could faintly hear him answering back, but it was more like a whisper that he couldn't quite understand.
Then two days later, the inevitable had happened. The machines that where hooked up to Ethan, started to go off and his heart stopped. The doctor and nurses had tried furiously to resuscitate him, but it was no good. Ethan Morgan was dead. Benny cried and was shouting at them to continue and for Ethan to come back and not to leave him. Mr. Morgan had to hold Benny back to keep him from interfering.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face-it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice-it chased away all the sanity in me
It's been one year today. One year that he and Ethan would of celebrated their second year anniversary of being together and it was also one year ago since that terrible night when Ethan was put into that coma. The coma that he never woke up from. The memory still haunted Benny to this very day.
That day, was the day that his world had seemed to end. He still blames himself for Ethan's death. He couldn't but help to feel that some way he was responsible for it. Even if everybody told him that it wasn't. He just didn't believe it. Ethan's death had effected Benny greatly, and not in a good way, either. He hardly would say a word to anyone, unless he had to. He would barely eat. His cheery and happy demeanor, just vanished. Instead, he was always sulking, brooding, or just really depressed all the time. This worried his grandmother and his friends, but he didn't care. The one thing that he loved the most in this world and that brought happiness and joy to his life, was gone and was never coming back. And it was all his fault.
Benny tired to put on a happy face to mask the pain and guilt that he felt inside for his friends and family, but deep down they all knew that that was all it really was. Just a mask. All he could think about and dream about was Ethan and the happy times that they had together, which only hurt more knowing that he'll never get to experience anymore of them with him again.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
Benny stood there, staring down at his best friend and lover's grave. A tear started to make it's way down his cheek as he stood there, looking at it sadly. "I'm sorry Ethan. Your death is all my fault." he said, wiping the tear away. "I've tried to be strong about it. I truly did, but I just can't!" he sobbed. Then he fell to his knees at the headstone and then placed a hand on hit, slowly running his fingers down the cold stone marble.
"I can't live like this anymore! I miss you too much that it hurts just thinking about all the time that we shared together. As friends and as a couple. All those times that I was there to comfort you whenever you got scared or sad. I miss feeling your gentle and warm touch on my skin and your sweet and soft lips on mine. I miss seeing your beautiful big chocolate brown eyes and your loving kind smile. Everything!" he cried.
I've tired so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
Then he let out a small chuckle. "It's strange really. It's like no matter where I go, I can still feel like your presence is nearby, somewhere. Like your always there, even if you're really not." he said with a small smile that then fell to a sadden frown. He then shook his head. "But I know better. And that's why I have to do this, Ethan. I feel so alone without you here. I hope that you can please forgive me for what I'm about to do, but I just can't live in this world anymore without you. Without seeing you standing in front of me. Without hearing your gentle and sweet voice speaking in the present and not in past from some video or memory. Without feeling your...warm and tender touch caressing me on my face again or your lips touching mine ever again." he said sadly.
Benny then pulled out a kitchen knife from his bag and held it up in the air with both hands wrapped around the handle firmly. "Please forgive me." he whispered quietly, as a tear ran down his cheek. Just as he was about to bring the blade down towards his heart, he heard a voice that made him stop right as the blade about made contact with his chest.
"Benny! Stop! Don't do it!" shouted a voice, from behind.
Benny knew that voice. It one that he's been yearning to here again for the past year now. He slowly lowered his right hand, that had the knife, to the ground and stood up slowly, turning to face the source of the familiar voice.
There stood the love of his life. His soul mate. His best friend. Ethan Morgan. Benny stood there in awe and surprised at seeing him standing there, right before his very eyes. He had this...white glow about him sort of and it seemed like he wasn't quite fully there. Almost like he was a...ghost. "Please, Benny! Don't kill yourself because of me." the ghost pleaded sadly.
"E-Ethan? B-but it can't be?!" stammered Benny in disbelief, but at the same time over joyed to see him again. Ghostly Ethan nodded his head, telling him that it's really him. Well, the ghost him anyways. "But how?" asked Benny curiously.
Ethan gave him a kind and warm smile. "I've been here ever since the coma." he replied. "After my heart stopped, I saw how distraught and depressed you were over my death. I saw how you kept blaming yourself for it. I tried so hard to make contact with you, to tell you that isn't your fault and that I don't blame you. That we both had said some hurtful things out of anger that we didn't really mean. But I always wound up coming up short. All you would hear was nothing more than a barely heard whisper. When I came here and saw what you were about to do, I knew that I couldn't let you just end your life because of me. So, this time I put everything that I had into pushing to make contact, to stop you. And it looks like it worked." he explained.
Tears started to flow down Benny's cheeks. "I've missed you so much, Ethan!" he cried. "I know. And I've missed being able to interact with you, too." Ethan said back to him with a smile. Then his smile turned to a frown. "But please. Don't commit suicide on my behalf, Benny, just to be with me again." he said. "Why not? Then we can be together again!" replied Benny, giving a pleading look to Ethan. "Because! It wouldn't be right or fair to everyone else! Think about how Jane, my parents, or even our friends would feel! Think about how your grandma, would feel! To lose the only family that she has left! No parent or grandparent even, wants to bury their child or grandchild before themselves! It's not right." scolded Ethan, but then his voice started to soften at the end.
Benny stood there, shocked. He never thought about it like that before. Ethan was right. It would be wrong. "And besides! Now, that you can finally see and hear me, we can be together again." added Ethan as he walked over towards Benny, and then placed a hand on his cheek. Benny leaned into his touch, closing his eyes and letting a quiet moan escape his lips. He had let go of the knife that he was holding and let fall to the ground. It was strange. Instead of Ethan's ghostly touch being cold like he thought it would, it wasn't. In fact, it had this warmth about it, that seemed to resonate and spread throughout Benny's entire body. It felt really good to feel his touch again. When he opened his eyes again, he saw Ethan's beautiful brown eyes, staring back at him and a loving smile spread across his face, which only made Benny smile back at him.
"Just know that I would never leave you and that I'll always be here for you, whenever you need me. All you have to do is just ask and I shall appear to you." said Ethan lovingly, but he was then starting to disappear. Benny knew that he couldn't probably stay and was sad to see him go, but he knew that he would see Ethan again. After all. All he has to do is just call when he needed him most and he would be there. Always and forever. This put a smile on Benny's face knowing that he can take comfort in that.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
...me, me, me.
Over the next few months, it had seemed like Benny was back to his old self again. And though at times he did still tend to get a little down thinking about Ethan, it didn't always stay that way, thanks to his ghostly lover. Just as Ethan had told him, he always appeared whenever Benny would call out for him. Just how Benny was always there for him when he was still alive. Sometimes he would even drop in on Benny and give him a little scare, just to surprise the love of his life and...afterlife. Of course, it always whenever they were alone so people wouldn't think that maybe Benny had lost it, talking to someone who wasn't ever there according to their eyes. The only ones who really believed him and knew about the ghostly Ethan specter that haunted Benny was of course his grandma, Sarah, Erica, and Rory.
After a year of depression and darkness, Benny's life was starting to look up for him again. The light that he thought had left his dark and empty soul has returned and he couldn't be anymore thankful than that, as he cuddled with his ghost boyfriend in bed. Holding him in his arms and feeling his warm touch spread through him, as Ethan ran his fingers down Benny's bare chest. Nothing could keep these two apart. Not even death it self.
A/N: And BOOM! Another one bites the dust! Lol!
Sorry, to make you go through so many tissue boxes. You can just put it on my tab! Lol! So, I know that this song is probably suppose to be about being with someone that you once loved, for that love to only start to fade between the two, but you can't bare to let them go even though you know that they don't love you anymore. And yah-dah! Yah-dah! But I thought why not turn it into something else! Something even darker! Like someone dying! Muh-hahaha! A bit of twist to the song, huh? Lol! Sorry. I just had to let my darkside out for a bit. Lol!
So, please leave me a review and tell me what you all think! And don't forget! If you have a request for me to do a songfic, then please feel free to let me know! Remember! You can give either a song, or a pairing, or a certain situation to base it off, or all three. Whatever floats your boat! And the pairing doesn't have to be limited to just two characters. It can also be just a single character or multiple! It doesn't matter to me. And it doesn't have to be a romantic pairing, too! It can also be a friendship or family pairing, too! Or whatever other kinds of pairings there are? (*shrugs nonchalantly*) Whatever!
So, with that! I bid the farewell, until next time! Adios! Cause Dj MBAV fan66 is outta here! See ya! And keep on listening! Lol! ;)
