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A/N: This is the final chapter, my friends. All I have to say at this point is that I am grateful for all the feedback and alerts this fic received. I never thought people would enjoy what I had to write, so all I can say is thanks to everyone that read this and stayed faithful to my version of Teddy's story.
I want to thank you ClayCelloFire, especially, for being such a supporter. This chapter goes to you.
Thanks again, and for a last time, happy reading.
Chapter 9
"This is Home"
People always say you should live life to its fullest, and you know? They are right. But how many of those thousands of people actually do so?
I can assure you that out of ten people, nine just talk but never act. I know so, because I used to be one of those nine.
I used to believe I was one out of ten, but I was wrong.
I used to believe I was living like I was supposed to, when I wasn't.
I used to believe I had it all, but I truly had nothing.
I used to lie and deceive, when I knew it wasn't right
I used to believe I had the right to be wrong, when I didn't
I used to be the person I never wished to be, thinking it was the best I could pull off…
Its funny how being so close to dying can really make you see things for what they are, instead of what you want them to be.
After a stroke caused by stress to my already weak heart, I had a dream. A dream that told me all those things I already knew but refused to admit to myself.
I've finally opened my eyes, and what I see is just so beautiful, so full of color, and so amazing; I'll never close my eyes again.
I can see now how wrong I was. I can see now that I don't have to be alone, bend or broken. I can be like everyone else.
I used to believe that being sick would only gained me stares and whispers and pity. I couldn't have that. So I shield myself from everything around me. I used to believe I didn't fit in, I didn't belong. But I had been wrong all along.
I've found where I belong, and it is where I had always been. Though, it's the same world, the same places, the same people; it feels different. It feels new, it feels like something I had never known.
I can see the sunset, the sunrise
I can feel the rain
I can feel the breeze
I can live now… And I'm eternally grateful for that.
I know that my life hasn't been what it should have, but I think I wouldn't change it; even if I could. After all, it's been all those mistakes, all those misunderstandings and misjudgments that had shaped my mind to its actual state of peace and happiness.
I regretted a lot of things. And regret is something I rather not feel. I've seen my enemy, so I won't go back. I won't go back to that state of confusion and depression. So, instead of feeling regret, I've decided to simply be grateful for what I've lived. Just as I have a large number of the aspects of my life that went wrong, there is an equally large list of the things I'd live again if I could, such as the first time Victoire and I kissed; both being completely sober and very aware of what we were engaging ourselves into.
Oh, I believe I have not yet expressed the main reason I can say that I am living life to its fullest now; and it is none other than Victoire Weasley… my fiancé.
Yes, fiancé.
While I was dreaming, the one thing that convinced me I was meant to live was the blonde witch I love. And the first thing I saw when I woke up was her face. Her eyes were closed, she was sleeping. Then I realized it didn't matter if I had two years or two days to live, as long as she was part of them, I'd die a happy man.
So I asked her to marry me.
And even though she now knew it all, even though I'd be dead pretty soon, even though it seemed like a little too late; she said yes.
So, I believe it is now, when it don't get any better.
My heart is set. Happy is next. Happy is now.
I have someone to love and that loves me back.
I have a bright future ahead of me, no matter how long it is, it's definitely bright.
I have a beautiful, trusting family.
I have friends whom I'd die for.
I have a new vision of the world I live in.
I have hope
I have faith
I have, for now, good health.
I truly have it all.
I am where I was always meant to be.
I am home.
Yes, love, family, friends, happiness, joy; are home.
What I feel now, this amazing sensation, is home.
Yes, this is home.
