A/N: hey guys. I just got back yesterday from my trip. BC was beautiful. And yes I am Canadian, and I live in Alberta. I didn't get to update while I was on the trip because at the end of the day I was tired and I had to get up early. I also went zip lining and had 3 hot instructors. One was British and I could literally listen to him talk all day. But anyways on with the story .

I don't own divergent

On the train ride back from capture the flag I sat in the corner not engaging in any conversations. My peaceful ride doesn't last long, because Shauna sits beside me. I groan. I know she wants to finish our conversation.

"We'll hello to you too , Four." She says annoyed. She elbows me in the ribs and I turn to glare at her. She just smirks.

"What do you want shauna ?" I ask.

"To continue our conversation." She says, like it's the most obvious thing in the world.

I sigh loudly. "There is nothing left to continue."

She crosses her arms tightly to her chest. She is stubborn and she'll keep pushing me until she gets the information she needs. She can also detect when I'm lying. She would've fit in with the candors. "Yes there is four. You are not going to hurt my best friend over some high school crush. I won't allow it."

I chuckle. "I'm not scared of you Shauna. Sorry to burst your bubble but I'm pretty sure I only have four fears , and none of them are you."

She lets that sink in for a moment. Then a curious expression appears on her face. "I'm curious. What are they ?"

The blood drains from my face at her question, but I compose my expression quickly before answering her. "None of your business!" I growl.

"Come on Four!" She whines. "Just tell me one, and your secret crush is safe with me!"

"I don't have a secret crush." I hiss.

She rolls her eyes. "Just tell me."

I groan loudly. I only have four fears to choose from. I can't tell her about Marcus. No way. I don't want to explain why I'm afraid of confinement. Or why I don't like to kill people. So the easiest choice would be heights.

"Heights. One of my fear is heights."

I look at shauna to see a shocked expression. But then her face softens to a look of understanding. She places a hand over mine, I flinch. "That is one of mine too." She smiles sadly. I don't say anything I just sit and watch her. Then I hear shouting and my eyes flicker to tris. She's laughing with Uriah and the other initiates.

Shauna nudges me , I turn to her and she's smirking."if you're afraid of heights, why did you climb the Ferris wheel with her?"

I groan. She will not let this go. "She could of fell. I'm not Eric. I'm not heartless. That is why I turned the wheel on. She slipped, the rung broke and she would of fell to her death. I couldn't let that happen."

She gives me a weird look, but drops the conversation. We sit in silence the rest of the way back to the compound.


"Boys, who won?" Max asks. We are in the pit now and just about all of dauntless is here to see who the victors are.

I smile proudly. "My team won."

Max claps me on the back, with a huge grin on his face. He gives Eric a disappointing look. Eric glares at me. I smirk at him.

"If you were on Four's team raise your hand!" Max shouts. Everyone that was on my team raised their hand. I look over at Tris and a big smile was plastered on her face.

"Let's here it for Four's team , the victors this year." Max shouts. And the entire pit exploded in celebration, all except for Eric's team who bowed their heads in shame.

"Congratulations babe." Skyler says before wrapping her arms around my neck and brings me into a passionate kiss. I hear cat calls around us and various shouts of "get some." And "fours getting lucky tonight." Skyler just giggles against my lips. I feel two pairs of eyes burning into my back. I turn to see who they are. The first pair doesn't surprise me. But I can't tell if Eric is mad about losing, or that I'm kissing Skyler - either way I'm enjoying it. The other pair of eyes surprise me. It's her; tris.

She looks away as soon as our eyes meet, her face turning a deep shade of red - almost crimson. I watch as Christina grabs her arm and pulls her back to the dorms. Everyone around us is leaving the pit.

"Let's go to bed babe." Sky says pulling me towards the elevator. We reach our floor and walk down the long hallway to my apartment. I let go of her hand and go get ready for bed. When I return from the bathroom, Skyler is already snuggled in my bed. I lie beside her pulling her against me.

"So where did Eric hide his flag?" She whispers.

"At the end of the pier, the trees didn't provide much camouflage."I chuckle.

"How'd you find it?"

"One of the transfers - Tris - climbed the Ferris wheel and spotted where they put their flag."

"Tris? Which one is that?" She asks curiously.

The blonde one. She's beautiful, selfless, brave..." The first jumper."

"Oh the stiff. Didn't think she had it in her. Did she go by herself?" Her voice is innocent and curious. But apart of me wonders if Shauna told her.

"I did." I say quietly, barley audible.

She sits up now and faces me. Her lips turning into a tight frown. "You did? You climbed the Ferris wheel? You're scared of heights Four! You can't even go zip lining with me but you can climb a Ferris wheel with some stiff!" She crosses her arms against her chest.

"I wasn't just going to let her go by herself! She could of died. I wouldn't be able to live with myself If I knew there was a reason I could prevent somebodies death."

"So if I asked you to go zip lining, would you? Be honest."

"No I wouldn't." I say sternly. "I'm not going to risk my life for no reason. I may be dauntless but I'm not an adrenaline junkie."

She doesn't say anything for awhile she just glares. She then returns back into my arms. "That's the abnegation in you Four. I would have let her be an idiot, and fall to her death." She scoffs.

I don't say anything to her. I just bite the inside of my check to prevent myself from saying something I'll regret. Her words reminded me of Eric , it reminded me of a time during my initiation.

*flashback*

I watch her as she watches the fights. She has the same expression on her face as Eric does. Her lips curl into a smirk, clearly amused as she watches blood spill from the girls mouth who is unconscious. It is then her turn to fight. She fights a girl named Mila who transferred from candor. I watch as she repeatedly punches the girl in the face, until she falls hitting the floor hard. Mila struggles to defend herself. She takes a few more blows to the head before Skyler starts kicking her violently in the ribs. Mila lets out a blood curdling scream , as her eyes roll in the back of her head. I watch as Amar - our instructor , pulls her off. "Stop." He snaps. "You won! It's over!"

I look down at Mila's bloody face, and limp body , then at Skyler. Her expression is cruel and full of satisfaction. I can't help but wonder if something happened between the two that would make her act like that. I need to ask Mila.

*the next morning*

I walk into the infirmary before breakfast. She's awake and getting ready to leave. I smile she's a fighter. "Hey four." She greets me. She bends down to tie her laces but groans.

"Let me." I say. I kneeled down and tied her laces for her.

She smiles."thanks."

"Anytime. How do you feel?"

"Like I got hit by a bus." She laughs, but then her hand goes to her side.

"Did something happen between you and Skyler?" I ask her. "I mean for her to black out like that."

She shakes her head sadly. "Nothing happened between us. She didn't need revenge. She just did it."

*end of flashback*

Is my girlfriend is sadistic, cruel and malicious, just like Eric? I always thought that fight was heat of the moment but was I wrong? There was a reason she left amity. Amity is peaceful. No fights, nothing bad ever happens there, but In dauntless it does. Blood gets spilled, sometimes innocent Lives are lost. I shake these thoughts from my head. No. My girlfriend is not evil. She doesn't take pleasure out of people's pain.

A/N: this chapter could of been better but I really wanted to update. Next will be the knife throwing scene, and visitors day.