A/N: okay so only a short one from Bella's P.O.V. It explains more about haw Bella feels toward both Carlisle and Edward. I guess I had been kinder vague about Bella and Carlisle so I hope this helps Again I don't own and I would love it if I could please get a few more reviews if that's at all possible, thank you.
Love
Isabella C
Mr. Magnificent
Bella's P.O.V
I had just finished explaining to Jacob why I wouldn't be heading back to Forks with him on Monday and I have to admit he was taking it better than I had thought he would. He smiled sadly at me from across the table; he had but his cutlery down and extended his hand to take mine that I had placed on the edge of the table.
"Is there no possible way?"
Jacob's voice was as warm and as inviting as his skin, even though he was pleading with me, he deep brown eyes wide. I had always found it so hard to deny him anything but hear I was for probably the first time telling him no.
"Jake you know Carlisle means the world to me and after that accident he was practically a father to me. It's the least I can do to show him my gratitude"
Yes Carlisle was like a father to me and like with Jake I had never been able to say no to him, even more so than Jake. God I knew haw to kill the conversation, but I had to tell him after all if we where seeing each other I had to tell him the truth right?
"I know Bells but you keep put it off and the longer you stay away the harder this is ganna get"
His eyes where locked onto mine, his thumb rubbing over the back of my hand in small comforting circles. Here he was comforting me when I was the one who had broken yet another promise to him all because of the debt I felt I had toward Carlisle. He was so kind and understanding that it almost broke my heart to deny him anything.
"Bella it's been seven years now, almost eight your ganna have to go back at some point, to at least do something about the house"
Ah yes the house. The empty, abandoned house that I hadn't seen since I left home that day to go to school in Seattle. As much as I wanted to deny it Jacob was right, as always. The house was probably used as the local kids hang out or drug den.
The thought of seeing it boarded up and covered in graffiti shock me to my core and I felt a pang of pain through my heart. I needed to do something with that house, but what? As if he knew what I was thinking Jacobs voice cut through my thoughts.
"Have you thought about your going to do with it? I mean you could sell it or rent it out. I think the latter would be best as you might want to reclaim it at some point"
"I don't think reclaiming it will ever be an option"
My tone was dull and I knew I sounded bored but I just couldn't stand talking about this any more. As much as Jacob wanted it to be part of my life I just wanted to push it as far away as possible. Sensing my discomfort Jacob changed the subject.
"So it's you're birthday on Saturday? You got anything planed?"
Ugh another dreaded subject. In two days I would turn twenty four and no doubt have to put up with a surprise part that Alice would have insisted to throw.
"No. No planes"
It was the truth. I personally didn't have any planes what so ever for Saturday apart from vegging out in front of the TV watching reruns of Will & Grace.
"Good because I have a surprise for you"
His words and the gigantic smile on his face took me by surprise. He knew I hated surprises almost as much as I hated gifts but he still seemed so happy about it I didn't have the heart to have a go about it. The Cullen's, well mostly Rose, Esme and of course Alice had always made a big deal of my birthday in the last seven years. We had done everything from big parties to girly weekends away, hell we had even gone to Vegas for my twenty first. Even though they had been fun all I had really wanted was a quite weekend at home, preferably alone but I knew Edward would probably be there.
Ah yes, Edward. 'The Other Cullen' as I always liked to refer to him as, even in front of his family. They all thought it was grate that I saw him as an attachment to them and not the other way around. Once I had found out whom Edward was I had practically bombarded poor Jasper with thousands of questions about his younger brother.
Even though I had known Jasper for ten years the first time I had meet Edward had been that day in the office and I didn't even know who he was. All I knew was that I wanted him in every way possible, but when I had found out he was Carlisle's son I had practically ran in the opposite direction.
It didn't help that he was being so nice to me. The fact that I would come home and find he had stayed up to make sure I got home okay and had made me dinner along with doing the laundry made me love him even more. Yes love
I Isabella Swan was in love with 'The Other Cullen'.
I had to stop calling him that. His name is Edward. With his sparkling emerald eyes that seemed to pull you in. the messy bronze hair that I longed to run my fingers through. His smooth pail skin that seemed to cry for my touch and his pail lips that I dreamed of kissing.
Ah God stop that. I was here with Jake for Christ's sake; I shouldn't be thinking about another man, no matter haw much I longed for him. Looking up my eyes meet Jacobs deep brawn ones and even though I loved Jake all I could think was that they weren't Edward's.
But I know that no matter haw much I fantasize and dream about being with Edward nothing would ever come of it. I couldn't deny Carlisle the joy of his son falling in love and getting married. They doth deserved some one that was happy and free with the looks to rival there own, not damaged goods.
I couldn't deprive Carlisle of that not after everything he and his wife had done for me after the accident. I would rather run again than see Carlisle disappointed.
