A/N: I don't know if you got the messages but my last couple of chapters have changed. BELLA NEVER SAID SHE LOVED JAKE! She just told him that he couldn't see Sirina anymore. Thank you for reviewing everyone and I'm hoping the story will pick up pace soon…

So sorry I haven't updated lately! This chapter is extra long to make up for it.

Reviews make me smile :)

Sirina was lonely. Jake came to visit her less and less every week. And it was only while her parents weren't around. She would often lie in bed at night and stare at the ceiling waiting for him to sneak through the window like he used to do. But he never did. She was abandoned at the time she needed him most. She also was starting having more and more of her dreams of him. She kept trying to shake them away. One false move and our friendship could be ruined. And if that happened, she knew it would kill her.

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She survived Monday. Cody avoided her in the halls and students would stop to stare at her. She shrugged them off. So what if she wasn't as popular anymore. She didn't need them.

Tuesday though, completely different…

The girl barged in unannounced. Dressed in a pink and brown plaid mini skirt, pink ballet flats, pink cami and chocolate blazer. Her honey blonde hair was done half up with curls cascading along until her mid-back. She had big doe eyes the same shade of chocolate as her blazer. Her make-up was applied flawlessly. She seemed like one of those girls who automatically knew what shade of eye shadow and lip-gloss looked best on her. She had a perfect ski-slope nose and glossy pink lips. But the trait that stood out the most was the glare plastered on her face. If Sirina could sum her up in 3 words, they would be:

She.

Is.

Mad.

Simple as that.

Soon after the blonde another girl slammed the doors open. She was madder than the first. Sirina looked around half hoping to find something to hide behind but when nothing came, she just stared. This girl had pale skin with freckles sprinkled across her small nose. Her emerald eyes glistened with fury. Her round face was framed with straight, layered flaming red hair. She was dressed in a pair of skinny jeans tucked into dark brown boots, a green tee shirt and a trench coat like jacket. Sirina's three-word sum up:

She is Madder.

The last girl to stomp through the doors was another blonde. She had a skinny face that had a deep tan. Her platinum blonde hair reached her waist with a slight wave to it and she wore a long sleeved tunic-like shirt that was baby blue, and black jeans. Paired with high heels. Sirina deemed her maddest of them all. Three words.

Wow. Unfathomably. Mad.

They all marched right up and glared at every student that stared at them. Which was everybody. A little town like Akiak, Alaska rarely had new students. And these girls defiantly did not belong.

"Where is Sirina Cullen?" The first blonde asked. She looked down at her dark jeans and baggy grey sweatshirt and felt the barrette that had her bangs pulled back and a high, stick straight ponytail. Great, she thought to herself, Glad I look presentable. She brushed this off like the glances students were giving her and raised her head high and walked up with as much grace as she could muster.

"You called?"

"Are you the one my--- I mean Cody's been cheating with?"

"You can have him." She answered.

"I don't want him." The honey blonde snorted, "I want to get back at him." Sirina tried to suppress a laugh. The girl talked like it was some sort of mission to bring him down.

"I would love to help, trust me I would," Sirina lied. She hated all this school drama, "but seriously, I have this huge math assignment that I have to do…"

"Fine" The redhead, said glaring at Sirina.

"CODY!" The platinum blonde screeched in her princess voice. This was the one Sirina talked to on the phone she assumed. As Cody walked up to the group of girls, Sirina did her best to get away. Once she was around the corner she started laughing insanely. She sunk to the floor laughing hysterically. She didn't know what washed over her but she could stop laughing. And just as suddenly as she started laughing, she was sobbing into her hands. She wasn't good enough. Cody never loved her. She wasn't enough for him. She wasn't pretty enough. Giving enough. Special enough. For anyone. Cody wouldn't love her. Her friends had ditched her. And Jacob would never love her. She didn't know but this hurt her most of all.

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It was Christmas Eve. Sirina sat staring at the lone tree. It sparkled beautifully. She looked at the presents under the tree wishing again against her will, for Jacob. Bella and Edward had gone out for the evening. Jasper and Alice were celebrating Christmas in the Alps and Rose was upstairs with Emmett. Carlisle had to work late tonight and Esme was busy finishing the decorating. She looked over at the clock. It had been 6 days since her breakdown at school that Alice had seen and came to pick her up. Cody wasn't there on Wednesday. She didn't know why she still wanted him to accept her. He hurt her so much, but all she felt was guilt. Maybe if she had just kissed him there, or held his hand more often. Maybe if she had been smarter, prettier? Why didn't he love her? She glanced at the clock, this time comprehending the numbers. 9:45. Early enough to fall asleep. She walked slowly up to her room. Rosalie came out of her room and stopped suddenly. She looked frantic.

"What time is it?" she asked Sirina. Sirina liked Rose. She treated her as an equal, which is an honor in itself. They often went shopping together or slept over in each other's rooms. Even though they were not near as close as Sirina was with Alice or her own mother, there was some sort of bond between them. Rose wanted children. Everyone knew that. Sirina remembered hearing a hushed fight back when she was 7.

"Emmett, why does she get everything?" Rose cried out throwing a pillow she was clutching to the ground, "The choice, the life, and the child! We've tried everything. It's not fair!" She let out wrenching dry sobs.

"Rose honey, come here." Emmett clutched his wife to his chest, "Calm down baby. I know. I know" He stroked her long blonde hair as she mumbled incoherently into his buff chest. She continued heaving; trying to cry tears that wouldn't come.

"That child should have been mine Emmett. I wanted one so bad. Even when I was human I wanted a baby."

"I know." he said again pressing his lips to her head, "I want them too."

"What did I do wrong Emmett? What did I do to deserve any of this? Why does Bella get everything?" She turned her head into her husband's chest again he clutched her closer. His normally joking voice was gone and it was replaced with love and sympathy for his wife. Sirina almost started crying when she heard this. It was so unlike either of them. She had gone to her mother that night and told her what she had heard and her plan to make things better. The next morning Sirina asked Rose if she would go to the mother daughter dance for her 2nd grade class the next week. Rosalie was speechless and agreed with joy in her eyes.

"Sirina, Sirina! What time is it?" Rosalie's voice brought her back to reality.

"9:45"

"Are you sure?"

"It's kind of hard to misread a digital clock," Sirina reminded her.

"Right. Um, I forgot Edward's present? What do you think he'd like?"

"Um… I really don't know." Sirina said thoughtfully, what did she get her dad?

"Okay, well I'm gong out quickly. If anyone asks for me tell them I'll be back around 2 or 3 'Kay?"

"Okay."

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Sirina was lying in her bed wishing for sleep again. She glanced at her bedside table. 1 AM. Lovely. She jolted u when a rock hit her window. She stayed frozen until two more small stones collided with the glass.

"Jake?" She asked startled by his appearance at her window. He agilely climbed the tree by her windowsill and slid through the open window, "Jake what are you doing here?"

"Sirina," he said out of breath, "I need to tell you something."

"What is it?"

"I love you."

"Wh- what?" I stuttered.

"I love you Sirina Cullen! I can't sleep or eat without thinking of you. You are the first thing I think about when I wake up and the last thing when I sleep. And I know how corny this must all sound but Sirina, I truly do love you. I want to be with you." He rushed through his words, "Damn it. I wanted this to be so much better. In my mind I pictured something romantic---"

"Jake!" Sirina cut him off. He looked at her. She brought her hand up to his face and cupped his cheek softly, "You're babbling again." Jake breathed a laugh and ever so slowly bent down and pressed his on Sirina's. She felt the warm movement across her own. They were soft, warm and familiar. She kissed him back while bringing her arms up and around his neck. He placed his hands gently on her hips and pulled her closer to his tepid body. She closed her eyes and got lost in the moment. He pulled away much too quickly for her taste.

"Sirina," he laughed again, "I never thought I would say this, but you might want to go to sleep now." She nodded, still dizzy and lay down in her bed again. Jake started making his way back to the window.

"Wait." She said, propping her head up on her arm.

"What?"

"I don't want you to go." she said slowly.

" I guess I could stay for a little longer…" he smirked

"What's so funny?" He pounced at her playfully but missed her by an inch, landing smack next to her body. Before she could even turn around he felt his warm arms wrap around her. He whispered in her ear and she laughed along with him until drowsiness got the best of her and she drifted off to sleep.

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This is my Christmas (or other Holiday, or if you're not religious, just a thank you for reading) present to you! Hope you liked it!