Chapter 9
I woke with a start, my heart beating erratically, the nightmare that had awoken me fresh in my mind. The look of sorrow in Damon's eyes as he turned away from me; the defeat on his face as he approached his inescapable death. How I stood there and watched as he died… for me.
I sat up and fought the racking sobs that were threatening me. Damon was sleeping beside me, his hair rumpled and his face relaxed. I swallowed the lump in my throat and curled into his chest. He stirred and wrapped his arms around me, pulling me closer against him.
"Elena." He murmured in his sleep.
Tears slipped down my cheeks.
I softly kissed his neck and his chin, trailing my lips in feather-light caresses across his face.
"God I love you." I said almost inaudibly.
He opened his eyes and stared at me.
"What?" He murmured.
My cheeks were still wet with tears and my eyelashes were glistening, Damon frowned.
"Elena…"
"I love you." I said. "I love you so much."
I reached up and crashed my lips with his in a kiss that was as full of desperation as it was passion. He responded with equal need and our mouths moved together in unison. My stomach was erupting with uncontrollable butterflies, a feeling I had never had with Stefan.
Damon laid me back on the bed and kissed me softly. His gentle hands moving down my body, I arched into him, my skin burning where he touched me. I needed him. I needed him so badly that it hurt.
I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer to me.
"Damon." I gasped.
His body molded into me, I could feel every contour, every muscle. His lips were warm and soft against mine; I had never wanted somebody more.
My hands moved to the buttons on his shirt, he curled his fingers around mine and pulled away from me. I stared at him questioningly.
"Lena…what are we doing?" He murmured.
I looked down.
"Can we not talk…there's a lot of other things we could do." I whispered.
I kissed him and he kissed back but quickly pulled away again. I sighed.
"I can't be your rebound Elena, I can't do this with you and then carry on the way things are. It would change everything." He said.
"I love you Damon. Didn't you hear me?" I replied softly.
I could see the fight go out of him. He wanted me as badly as I wanted him. It was undeniable.
He pressed me into the bed and kissed my neck, I closed my eyes and moaned quietly. He pulled my top over my head and ran his hands down my sides, pausing at the dip of my waist.
"You're so beautiful Elena." He whispered.
My fingers fumbled with his shirt and it quickly joined mine on the floor. I touched his chest, stroking his muscles, feeling the lines of his body. He closed his eyes and sighed in contentment.
Damon's hands trailed over my hipbones and traced the line where my panties met my skin. I pulled his face back to mine and kissed him roughly, my lips molding to his in perfection.
I moved my hands down to the waistline of his jeans, dipping my fingers beneath, Damon's eyes fluttered open.
"Elena…" He began.
I shook my head.
"I want this Damon…I want you." I said softly.
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