Chapter 9
Bella's POV
Waking up the next morning, I couldn't help but think that yesterday had been nothing more than a dream. I could feel Edward's arms around me and realized that it was colder than usual. Then I looked under the covers and saw why. I was completely nude which of course made my face turn fire engine red.
It wasn't a dream. We'd made love. I wasn't a virgin anymore and I'd lost it to the one person I'd always dreamed of losing. So why did I feel so horrible? Like I'd done something wrong. Something that I shouldn't have.
Laying there completely caught up in my thoughts. I didn't even hear Edward's cell phone start to ring. I didn't even know that he'd gotten out of bed and answered it until he was standing next to the bed.
"Bella my love, its time."
My body froze. All I could do was stare into his face. Was I sure I was ready for this? I knew it was what I wanted but with it staring me right in the face, was I absolutely positively ready for this.
I couldn't help but think of Jacob at that moment. Knowing the moment that Edward's teeth touched my throat it would mean that the last time I'd seen Jacob would be the very last time, forever. Vampires and Werewolves were mortal enemies and I was going to be a vampire.
I mustered all of the strength that I could to respond to Edward. I knew he was second guessing the decision to turn me and I couldn't have that. Its what I want, no matter whether I want it now or later. It had to be now. I had no choice. It was either this, or die. At least if I was a vampire I could still find a way to have some kind of relationship with Jacob. If I were dead I couldn't have that opportunity.
I pursed my lips and nodded.
"I'm ready Edward."
He reached into our newly stocked closet and pulled out a duffel bag. It was the supplies that Carlisle had given us. It had enough morphine in it to help me through my three days of agony.
Edward's POV
Well, I did it. I made love to the one person in this world that I would find a way to fully die for. It was difficult, even more than I thought it'd be. But I did it, and it was amazing. Holding Bella all through the night I couldn't help but stare at her face. She was so beautiful, and innocent.
She must've been dreaming because many times through the night she'd said my name. No doubt dreaming about everything that had taken place earlier that day.
Just knowing that at any second the phone next to me could ring letting me know that it was time to transform my love into a monster was killing me. Part of me wanted to break the phone in half so that it wouldn't ring and another part of me wanted to forget the call and just go through with it now to cut off the anticipation.
In the morning, I felt Bella stir a little bit in my arms and noticed her looking under the sheets she was laying under. I knew she thought that last night was a dream. Hell, if I could sleep I would've thought it was too. I saw her face blush bright red and I knew then that she'd realized that it wasn't a dream. She didn't give the reaction I thought she would though. She looked troubled, even sorrowful. I didn't understand it. I'd given her what she wanted hadn't I. Did she regret it now?
Just then it happened. The phone rang. I reluctantly let go of Bella and got out of bed. She didn't seem to notice.
"Hello" I said weakly.
"Edward? Hi, listen, I've had a vision. The Volturi are on their way. We've got just enough time for Bella to be transformed." My sister sounded like she was trying to hide her excitement.
"Okay" was all I could say.
"Edward. She'll be fine. It was part of my vision. She'll pull through perfectly and adjust better than any of us. I promise." she said with all sincerity.
"Alright Alice, I better get started."
"Okay Edward. Be safe."
"Alice?"
"Yes?"
"Thank you"
"Your Welcome Edward" she said with a smile
"Goodbye." and I hung up.
I turned around and looked at the angel laying in our bed. It was time.
"Bella my love, its time."
She looked up at me in horror. It took her a few minutes to respond. Then her face changed and she nodded.
"I'm ready Edward"
My strong Bella. It took all I had to turn away from her and reach into the closet for the medical bag Carlisle had given me. It had almost a gallon of morphine in it and a few bags of blood he'd taken from the blood donor bus. This would sustain Bella's thirst until she was ready to go out hunting.
I turned back to her and she'd put a night gown on and was now sitting up in bed her hair in a messy ponytail revealing her ivory neck to me. The monster in its cage began to shake his bars at the sight of this.
I placed the bag on the bed and took my place beside her.
"Edward, No matter what happens. I want you to know that I will always love you. This is what I want. To be with you for all of eternity."
I couldn't say anything. My tongue was suddenly tied in knots. All I did was lean forward and kiss her. Deep and with as much passion as I could. I pulled away from her lips and kissed a slow trail down her jaw line to her neck. She leaned her head to the side making her veins show themselves to me even more. The smell was making my throat burn. Then I did it. I kissed the spot softly and then sunk my teeth into her luscious skin. Her sweet blood poured into my mouth and I began to drink her. Sucking the life right out of her soft warm body.
She slowly went limp in my arms. I tried to stop but I couldn't , it was so hard. Then a small sound touched my ears.
"I love you." she said.
There it was. The thing that pulled me away. I was so close to taking her life and she'd said she'd loved me. I pulled away and looked into her weak eyes.
"I love you so much Bella. How do you feel?"
"I'm fine I just feel w-...Oh my god Edward!! It hurts so bad! Please, please make it stop Edward. Oh god I can't take it!"
I quickly pulled out some of the morphine and inserted into a syringe and injected her with it. Slowly she began to calm down. Watching her laying there once in a while whimpering in pain, I couldn't help but feel such regret for what I'd done. I looked into the mirror and saw something I really didn't like. My eyes. They were a bright crimson color. A color they haven't been in hundreds of years. I hated it. And soon, my sweet Bella will have some to match them.
I laid down next to her and held her. Thinking that this is going to be the longest 3 days of my existence.
I paid attention to Bella for the next three days. Making sure I injected the morphine when I knew she'd need it. Wiping the sweat from her forehead with a cool cloth. And letting her rest. I watched as, and I'd never thought it possible, she'd grown more and more beautiful. Her body began to transform, making it slender and curvy.
On the third day, I was laying next to her stroking her face when she woke up. It felt like someone had shoved a knife through my chest when I saw her eyes. The same crimson mine had been only 3 days earlier.
