Chapter 8: I'm Going Crazy
This explained everything. How human Edward looked so much like Edward Cullen. The rest were just mere coincidences. But Edward Cullen was right there, in the picture. He looked beautiful, even when he was human. I thought that vampires got even more beautiful when they were changed, but Edward… He looked just as beautiful.
He was half smiling, like he was contemplating whether he should or not for the picture. His mother was beautiful and his father was handsome, like he was. I reached out my hand to touch his face in the picture. He was real. This proved that my now fading memories of him had once existed. I found a picture of him when he was human, and I even found the relatives he didn't know existed. But I lost him.
With that thought, the picture became a blur as hot tears betrayed me. I quickly wiped them away and turned my face away from Edward so he wouldn't see.
"Bella, are you okay…?" Edward asked. Too late.
I cleared my throat and put on a smile. "Yea, I'm fine… but I better go… Thanks for showing me around. See you tomorrow," I said as I rushed out the front door.
I ran as fast as I could back to my house. I pulled open the front door and slammed it shut behind me. Breathing rapidly, I leaned back against the door and closed my eyes. It was so ironic how fate had brought me here to the place where Edward's relatives were, but not where Edward was. I felt the large hole in my chest forming all over again.
Renee came rushing over to where I was from the kitchen. "Bella? What's wrong? Your face is so pale… like you've seen a ghost or something."
I was always pale, even when I lived in sunny Arizona. But I felt as if I HAD seen a ghost… Seeing Edward in that picture, but not knowing where he was in this world. It felt so unreal but I was absolutely determined that he was real. It was an unexplainable feeling. Edward seemed more real to me now but yet I felt so empty.
"It's just cold outside, is all. I'm fine. But I'm feeling a little tired. I think I'm going to go upstairs and work on my homework," I said, as I started my way upstairs to my room.
The first thing I did when I got to my room was I hopped in the shower and took a long, hot bath. I tried so hard to get the picture out of my mind by concentrating about other things, but it was impossible. I hopped out of the shower and began to work on my homework. I usually worked diligently on my homework, so it never took too long, but tonight, all I could think about was Edward Masen and the picture. I ended up staring at the same math problem for one hour, and when I moved on to my reading assignment for English after giving up on math, I found myself reading the same sentence over and over again.
I put my book down and stumbled over to my bed. Everything was so quiet. Too quiet. I tried to think about my first day of school, but my mind kept on reverting back to Edward and the picture. Everything reminded me of him. I shut my eyes and tried to think about other things but I just couldn't. It was making me paranoid. I shut the lights off and tried to sleep but even in the dark, I could see Edward's face. I was going crazy.
The next thing I knew, it was 5 o'clock in the morning. Sometime during the night, I had thankfully fallen asleep. I went over to my desk and tried to finish my homework, trying my best to concentrate on it and not think about Edward. It took me two hours to finish everything and after I finished, I packed up my school supplies in my bag and went downstairs to eat.
Ralph had made scrambled eggs, bacon, and two slices of toast for me. I thanked him and sat down to eat. Renee then came into the kitchen and we talked about my first day.
"Were people nice? Did you make friends?" Renee asked.
"Yea, everyone was nice and I did make friends," I responded.
"It's a lot like your school back in Phoenix, isn't it?" Renee asked.
"It's a little smaller, but yea, it's pretty similar…" I said.
"Do you like all of your teachers?" Renee asked.
"Most of them are nice. I'm sure I won't have a problem with them…" I said.
I still couldn't take my mind off of Edward.
"By the way, did you take the brownies to the Masen's yesterday?" Renee asked.
Great. Way to bring up the Masens… "Yea, they really seemed to appreciate that."
I finished my breakfast and told Renee that I was off to school.
"Have a good day, hun," Renee said before I headed back to my room to get my stuff.
I got to school early today. The parking lot was almost empty, and I noticed one silver Volvo across the lot. I didn't know what I would say if I saw Edward. What would be my explanation for abruptly leaving so fast..? I quickly hurried inside and went to my locker to get the books that I needed for my morning classes. I still had about half an hour to kill before first hour so I decided to go to the library and look for a new book I could read. The library here was huge. Even though my old school back in Phoenix was bigger and had a larger student body, the library here was bigger.
I went to the library, but decided not to go in. Edward was sitting at a table with some of his buddies. I didn't want to face him just yet. Of course I wouldn't avoid him forever, but I just needed some time. I'd have to find a way to avoid him in the classes we have together too. Just seeing his face reminded me of my Edward, and I was already going crazy enough.
To be continued…
