"You need to tell me the truth," Usagi glared at me. I'd never seen his eyes showing such anger targeted towards me. Maybe towards Big Brother Usagi but never towards me. After a moment of feeling complete terror, he continued speaking. "Whatever you're hiding from me, it has to come out into the open, You're worrying me more than ever."
He groaned when I still refused to say anything. "I don't want to hurt you, Misaki." I looked up at him in surprise. His violet eyes were showing such sadness. He sighed again before saying something that I never wanted to ever hear come out of his mouth. "Misaki, you're being really troublesome."
I stared at him in complete shock, tears forming in my eyes. He looked away from me, staring at the floor, his silver hair covering his face.
"I'm…" I paused, a tear falling down my face. I had a moment where I thought back to what Papa Usagi said a while ago. "You're a very troublesome presence." My heart felt like it'd been thrown down a never-ending dark pit.
My head dropped and I began to sob. I didn't even care about the fact that I was sobbing louder than a newborn baby or that I was being completely and utterly pathetic. My hands formed into fists, producing pain from my shattered bones.
Usagi turned around in surprise and stared at me. I wanted to run away, go as far away from Usagi as possible. But that was impossible. Usagi didn't come near me, just stood there and watched in shock. A few minutes passed just like that before I started to feel lightheaded. I was losing a lot of fluids in too little amount of time.
Usagi noticed me slowly slipping off the chair and jumped into action, catching my head before I hit the ground. He pulled me back up slowly. I continued to sob.
"I'm sorry," I repeated the two words over and over again in a whisper. Usagi sighed sadly, putting his hand on his forehead.
"Shut up!" he finally yelled after about the hundredth time I said 'I'm sorry'. I flinched, unconsciously expecting a roundhouse kick to the face. I could feel a sharp pain on my cheek, making me gasp in pain. He turned to me in disbelief as I gasped for air at the pain my own mind was producing. It was surging through my face.
"No, stop," I whimpered. I started slamming my head into the wall behind me, trying to stop the slow surge of pain that wasn't even meant to be there. Usagi grabbed my chin and pulled me into an unexpected and passionate kiss. The fake pain died away as we kissed. When he pulled away, he sighed and looked straight into my eyes with tears welling up in his own.
"I NEED you to tell me what happened to you," he demanded, a tear slipping down his cheek. "I understand you don't want to be a bother, but not telling me is more of a bother."
"I-i can't t-tell you," I gasped, my head feeling sore from the repeated blows.
"Yes, you can," he contradicted.
"I don't want to lose you," I whimpered as tears slipped through my closed eyelids again.
"You won't lose me," he shook his head, putting his forehead against mine. "I won't leave you, no matter what. I swear."
I shook my head. "That's not true."
"Yes it is," he sighed, putting his lips on mine again.
"You can't tell me that this doesn't hurt you," dad screamed when they thought I was unconscious. "You're torturing your own son! Don't you remember his sweet little smile and innocent nature?"
"I remember him being a pain in the ass! I remember him being really annoying! I remember wanting to shoot him in the head before doing the same to myself!"
"Think about all the happy moments we had together, a full family!"
"I don't have any happy moments. All I can remember is two whiny little brats that I couldn't get rid of."
"Don't you feel remorse that you have to kill him?"
"Everyone has to leave eventually," I said aloud, my eyes going wide with fear. Big Brother, Manami, Mahiro, Usagi, they all would leave. And so would I. I'd never had that realization before.
"Misaki?" Usagi started shaking my shoulders. I looked up at him, despair filling my entire body. Why was I just now realizing this? I'd been in the situation where my parents died before, I should've been aware of the fact that everyone dies eventually. "Misaki, please, understand that I'm never going to leave you."
"Don't you understand?!" I growled, catching Usagi off guard. "Nobody has a choice! We're all going to die and there's nothing that can change it!"
Usagi stood up slowly, groaning and rubbing his eyes. He looked pale and there were dark bags under his eyes.
"You should get some sleep," I said, making sure not to make eye contact with the author. He scoffed at me in disbelief.
"As if I can sleep!" he growled, rubbing his eyes again.
"I really can't tell you," I informed him. Without warning, scaring me half to death, he screamed and threw a vase in my general direction. He was off a few centimeters to the right, which wasn't far enough. Some of the glass made its way into my cheek. I was surprised to find my eyes dry as could be, and no pain at all in the new cut.
"Damn it!" he screamed. I should've been sad or be feeling some kind of remorse, but all I could feel was rage. How could he throw a vase at me? He could've blinded me! The glass was so close to my eye! He's angry, sure but I'm doing this for him! I'm staying quiet for him! He says he cares but he just tried to kill me with a fucking vase!
"What the hell?" I exploded, my voice deeper than it's ever been. It was surprising for the both of us. Usagi literally jumped and stared at me in disbelief. The moment of rage passed quickly, and I began a coughing fit, a crimson color staining my tongue, lips, and chin.
Suddenly, it felt like someone had their fingers wrapped around my neck, squeezing the life out of me. I closed my eyes and when I reopened them, I saw my mom smiling like a maniac, holding me by my neck. I wanted to scream, but it was no use. She was going to kill me with her death grip. The crazy woman started to fade out of my view, a flash to the silver-haired man who was trying to snap me out of my trance.
Then everything faded, leaving me in darkness.
Sorry if this didn't make much sense. I swear it'll make more sense later. This isn't going to be finished anytime soon, so it'll all be explained by the end!
