When making up with someone, it feels like the stress and difficult situation will never end. When the difficulty is at the peak of frustration, you begin to become blind to the answer that will solve your dilemma. Then comes the moment when things start to look up. The answer becomes clear as day. At the end of the day, All you have to do is look at the brighter side of things and try to find a new perspective.
I'm in my room forever before someone finally comes in and it's not who I want to see.
"Hello, Renesmee." I smile bitterly.
"Oh… It speaks." She snaps.
"Your half human so I'm sure your blood will taste just as good." I grin as I come toward her.
Her eyes widen and she tries to run for the door, but with my telekinesis that luckily still works I shut and lock the door.
She screams and cries for help as I begin to come toward her. The door breaks open and the windows to my room are shattered as two wolves jump through.
"Fuck yeah!" I squeal excitedly.
Kicking in to ultra-fast superhero mode running, I sprint off the balcony and in to the woods. I don't stop, but put a physical and mental shield around me to keep from anyone following me.
I was halfway through Montana when I was taken down by Emmett and Edward.
Back in Forks, I was locked up in my repaired bedroom.
I threw a toddle-like temper tantrum. "What the hell? Just let me gooooo!" I whine.
"We're doing this for your own good, Jessica." Esme sighs.
"My own good? How would any of you even know what's best for me? I could've sworn every single one of you hated me before I left. Rejoiced probably and now you kidnapped me because you think it's best?" I snap.
"Yes. There's no one there to take care of you." Esme smiles.
"And there's someone here? Who? None of you take care of me. Locking me in a room isn't gonna help because I will never stop trying to get away. Mark my words, If you keep me here against my will, I will kill every single one of you without regret." I seethe.
Esme stares at me with wide eyes before running out.
That statement I made? Yeah… Not my best. I can already tell I'm going to regret it.
I start losing count of the days. I've never been one to be great with math, but I gave up counting after three days. Lazy? Can't argue with that logic.
Since I've been forced to live here, I began drawing and painting again. Once again, My life consists of creating portraits of Alec.
Have you ever wanted to hate someone so much, but the thought of them is the only one that can make you smile? That's how I feel about my little vampire boy.
The only thing keeping time for me is my alarm clock. I haven't been able to update Facebook or Twitter so I can almost guarantee I've lost at least a five of my ten followers.
Around twelve in the morning, Carlisle comes in to my room.
"What's up, Doc?" I laugh.
Hysterical doesn't even begin to describe how I feel. My mind feels like mush. I went from complete freedom to complete lock down in less then an hour.
"Jessica, I assure you, You're not losing your mind. I'm here to check on you." Carlisle explains.
"Am I dying?" I ask.
"No."
"Then screw off, I'm busy." I snap.
"Jessica, I'm against this and I'm trying to reason with the family to see if they'll let you leave, but please, have some respect." Carlisle sighs.
"I don't like you people. You all irritate me with your stupid logical reasoning. I rather you give me some blood and I leave." I say.
"I can't do that." He says.
"Then you can't help me. Please, Leave."
A calendar was given to me and I began to watch the time. I wasn't sure if my coven was looking for me or even noticed my absence. I could only hope someone would notice.
Besides the fact that I was denied any and all blood, I was becoming weak. My body was achy and my stomach rejected human food. To top that off, my averagely jade green eyes had darkened to black. My pupils in irises were no different in color.
Not only that, I was starving!
More weeks passed and I was given small amounts of blood. Enough to keep me alive, but not enough to satisfy the burn in my throat or give my eyes color again.
I was beginning to wonder if my family really just wanted me to suffer.
So, As I began to think about making an escape plan, I began to stock up on the small doses of blood my family would give me.
After about a month or so, I drank every bottle of blood I was given and damn… I've never felt to energized. My eyes returned to their cool grass green and my body was on vibrate. I focused on transporting to Voltura, but just as I was about to do it, There was a crash downstairs.
I jumped over to my window and saw the Volturi coming up in the clearing. I listened in to my family's conversations downstairs.
"Alice, Did you see this coming?" Edward hissed.
"No! I had no idea!" Alice cried.
"Bella, Use you're shield. Everyone, Get outside. Jake get Jessica." Carlisle ordered.
A moment later, Jake was in my room. "Let's go."
We all were dragged outside and put in the same lineup. I laughed at this. No way was I going to help them after what they've put me threw.
"Why are you here, Aro?" Carlisle asked calmly.
"My guard member, Nicole, was kidnapped and I'd like to take her back. Now." Aro's voice was dark.
"Uh yeah! Hey, over here." I wave.
Jake slams me with a venomous glare. A growl erupts in his throat and I roll my eyes. Renesmee stays firmly in her place in between Bella and Edward, casting the same nasty look my way. Rosalie and Edward hiss at me. Bella looks on in a bored manner as Emmett looks longingly at the game he has paused in the house.
"That's not very nice, now is it?" I ask in a condescending tone.
"Ah… My dear Nicole, Please, Come back to us." Aro says welcomingly.
"While I'd love to, This mutt has a death hold on my arm." I sigh.
"Why have you returned to this?" He asks.
"I didn't. These crazy people kidnapped me for reasons that even I can't understand. They still have distaste for me, yet, they wouldn't let me leave. Their insane." I say.
"Jacob, Release her." Carlisle whispers.
Jake lets go of my arm and the second he does, I transport myself over to Aro's side. Putting an immediate shield over everyone he brought, I sigh. I'm where I'm supposed to be.
"Carlisle, What you and your family have done is punishable by death. Kidnapping a guard member is illegal." Aro says sadly.
"I understand, but please, Spare us. We'll leave your coven alone." Carlisle begs.
Aro turns to me, "We'll see her memories and then see what should be done."
He takes my hand. I feel as if my mind is being tugged at and scavenged through for everything it's got. I hate the feeling, but I know I'm safe. Once Aro has seen everything that happened, he's, for lack of a better word, displeased.
"What do you suggest we do, Nicole? They are your family." Aro asks me.
I sigh and look over my frightened family, "Death is a bit of stretch. Even if they have treated me horribly, I can't help but feel pity for them. The best I suggest is forbid them to come to Italy. This should be considered a second strike. A third would be death."
Aro nods with a smile. "You're a wise one, Child."
After a lot of talking I barely paid attention to, I'm back on a plane to Italy. I was home again.
When we finally arrived back in Voltura, My bedroom was the first place I went.
The difference was amazing and gladly welcomed. My first few days home were spent running around the whole castle, talking to everyone here. Jane and I planned a hunting day tomorrow so I could get my strength back.
Felix played video games with me for almost three days straight which I'm proud to say I won. Hedi and I went shopping for new clothes, Demetri played cards with me, ect.
The only people I hadn't spent anytime with are Derek and Alec.
I barely spoke to Alec on the plane. He had been so preoccupied with a silent conversation between Aro and Caius. They seemed to really be in to the conversation so I simply talked with Jane. Derek, on the other hand, hadn't even come.
Traveling to the throne room, I see Aro and Marcus discussing something. As I enter the room, They look up at me. An instant smile makes it's way to Aro's lips.
"Ah... Nicole, Dear. What brings you here?" He asks.
"I was just wondering where Derek might be." I smile innocently.
Aro's eyes flicker over to Marcus who seems to tilt his head subtly, "He's working with Renta. She's trying to see if he can penetrate her mental shield and perhaps open it for Jane or Alec."
"Oh. Would it be possible for him to take a brake later?" I ask quietly.
"I'm not sure. That depends on Brother Derek. He needs all the training and practice he can get." Aro explains.
"I understand." I smile sadly and begin to turn out.
"Before you leave," Marcus says.
I stop and turn toward the averagely silent master. "I suggest stopping by Alec's room. He's been very worried about you." Marcus's tone let's me know this is more of a request then it is a suggestion.
I nod and turn away.
At the current moment, I'm standing outside Alec's door. My fist hanging in the air, a few inches from the smooth wood.
Everything we've been through together during my time here on the Volturi guard was... eventful. Every moment together was always crazy and thrilling, but somehow all the good crazy shifted and the perfect world I thought I had crumbled before my eyes. All because of Renesmee.
How is she always knows how to fuck up my life? Must be another one of her gifts.
I let go of a breath and knock on the door, it swings open almost instantly. Alec looks distraught, but still neat. A vampire's need for perfection I suppose. He tries to smile, but it falls.
"Hey, Nicky." He says.
Memories of standing in doorways with this boy flood my mind. Like the time he just got out of the shower and I was at his door. I smile at the thought. I was probably a drooling, babbling, blushing mess.
I can't hold the fact that Renesmee wanted to hurt me against him. She accomplished it too. I gave up on the man I love because I followed her plan. She pretended to be me so Alec would do as she wanted and she knew I would walk in on them. She's known me so long... maybe she could pretend to be me if she really tried.
"Are you okay?" I ask.
He shrugs, "I should be asking you that question."
"I'm great. A little thirsty, but that'll be dealt with tomorrow. I came by to see if you were doing alright and see if maybe you wanted to hang out. I've-"
"Are we going to ever get back together?" He asks.
My mouth is hanging open. That took me by surprise and no noise is escaping my mouth.
"Yes." The word escapes my lips before I can stop it.
His face lights up, "Do you know when?"
I look to the ground, the answer naturally flowing in to my mind. "When I forgive you."
"When will that be?" He asks quietly.
Before my mind catches up with me, My arms are around his neck and my lips are connected to his. Moving in perfect sync, I feel the fire inside my tummy light up. Butterflies bat around and my body is on vibrate. His tongue slides along my lower lip. My mouth parts slightly and I feel the sparks explode on my already tingly lips. When we pull away, my forehead rests against his.
"Now." I smirk.
His lips crash back on to mine. We begin to move inside his room and the next thing I hear is the door locking. We crash on to his silky sheets and I feel his fingers on the bottom hem of my shirt. I quickly take off my shirt, Him following suit. Alec's hands wander the button of my jeans and the butterflies in my stomach start beating a million times faster.
"What're we doing?" I ask quietly between kisses.
He grins against my lips, "Making up for lost time."
