A/N: OMG IT LET ME UPDATE OMG I'M SO HAPPY.
OKAY THE REASON YOU HAVEN'T BEEN RECIEVING ONESHOTS IS FANFICS FAULT.
I HAVE TWO TO UPLOAD AND ONE CHAPTER OR 'I MISS HIM;
OMG. I'M LITERALLY SO HAPPY.

Sorry about that... heh... Okay, So as I said, I have 2 one-shots to upload, Now I could upload them both today or we ignore the past 3 days and I upload them over the weekend xD Your choice.

So, She's awake, read ooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnn :D


Previously:

"Whoa Keera, slow down, what's happened?"

"Just 20 minutes ago she was brain dead, this is un-heard of."

"Keera, back up, what's going on?" Deeks said nervously.

"You don't know?" She widened her eyes.

"Obviously not if I'm asking"

"She's awake, Detective Deeks. Kensi is awake"


"She's awake..." It took a few seconds for him to register it before he bolted down the corridor towards Kensi's room.

Keera re-gathered her composure just in time to see Deeks fleeing down the corridor.

She was awake.

Deeks rushed past everybody and burst into her room, a doctor looked up started and Kensi's head turned weakly to look at the intruder.

As soon as she saw him, she smiled.

"Deeks" she said rasping.

"Don't try to talk Ms Blye" The doctor warned as Deeks rushed inwards and took his seat, grabbing her hand without permission.

"Oh my god" he closed his eyes tight, testing it wasn't a dream. He reopened them and smiled. "I should have been here, I'm so sorry... The first time I leave and you wake up."

Kensi squeezed weakly on his hand and stared into his eyes, and completely ignoring the doctor's orders she spoke slowly. "I heard you."

Her voice was almost silent in its delivery; she looked at the shock in his face and spoke more. "It's not your fault."

"Shh" he said, stopping her saying anymore. "Doctor Robbins said not to talk."

He didn't need this from her. He didn't need to hear from her as well. Nobody would let him blame himself, but for whatever reason, he had to until knowing if he had missed her screams or cries for help. And he didn't want to find out from her if she did or didn't.

"Deeks, please" She still continued to try to speak, even though it came out so low and so flustered due to the breathing tube.

"Ms Blye, Don't make me have to dose you up, please stay silent, Nurse Thomas will be back with a netbook for you to type on." the doctor warned.

Deeks perked up to the name, he remembered shoving her in the corridor and dropped his head - 'I hope she didn't get hurt' - he thought to himself.

The doctor's pager beeped harshly. "I have a patient to get to; I trust you will follow my orders until Nurse Thomas comes?"

Kensi just nodded and watched the doctor leave. She looked down at her hand that was in Deeks'. This can't be his first time taking it. He had picked it up - avoiding all of the tubes and cuts safely.

Kensi looked back up at him as his other hand reached up and landed on her shoulder, touching her shoulder length hair lightly. Kensi went slightly wide-eyed when she realised that her head did lighter and shot her hand up to her hair, looking at Deeks.

"It's okay... Dubree did bad things... Your hair was bad, Nurse Thomas cut it for you so it would look nice" He paused. "It does, you know, look nice"

Kensi rolled her eyes. "As If—" She began to speak but was cut off by Deeks.

"No speaking, doesn't it hurt even a little bit to talk with that thing jammed down your throat. Just wait a few minutes for Keera to return" He said, rubbing her hand lightly with his thumb. "I should have been here..."

Kensi shook her head and wanted to say something but knew she would get the third degree, instead she just squeezed his hand and waited.

After a few minutes Nurse Thomas returned with the netbook, Kensi smiled at her and wrote 'Thanks' the first chance she got.

"Thanks, Keera" Deeks smiled to the woman.

"I'll be back in about an hour... I'll give you guys some time alone, if you need me just punch in the number '6534' into the box by the door" She smiled. "It my pager code"

"Thanks" Deeks said again, turning his attention back to Kensi, he moved his seat so he was directly next to her, closer to her.

He watched as she began to type.

'I heard you, not much, and I don't know why, maybe it was when I was trying to regain consciousness, I heard you telling me about Monty, just that he liked my cat, but that's not all. You were trying to apologize, I don't know what for but I know you were, and I want you to know, even though I don't remember, none of this was you, none of this was your fault'

He read it over and dropped his head, hearing her type again.

'It. Was. Not. Your. Fault. Whatever you were doing when I was taken, you obviously had no cause to be concerned about me otherwise you would have been able to prevent this, I don't remember how I was taken, but I'm sure if I knew I was in harm's way, I would have found a way, I would have done something. So if I found no way to get to you that is not your fault.'

"You were in the gym, I was meters away from you when it happened. If I couldn't even sense something was wrong I'm not good at my job, I'm not good at protecting you." He looked at her and pushed a bit of hair out of her face.

'You're damn good at your job Deeks'

Kensi's eyes suddenly went wide and she began to freak out. "Amy, Amy" She said ignoring the tube and her orders.

"Kensi! Kensi calm down" He held her hand tighter and looked her in the eyes. "Amy is okay, she's with Callen... CALLEN!" He sounded alarmed. "Nobody knows you're awake!" He let go of her hand and grabbed his phone, Kensi fisted the hospital blanket in effort to get that comforting feeling she had holding Deeks' hand back.

She watched Deeks dial what she assumed was Callen's number relatively fast.

"Callen, its Deeks... She's awake." He looked hard at nothing for a minute before saying again. "Okay"

He quickly joined Kensi again when he noticed she had typed something.

'Anybody miss me? ;P'

Deeks smiled slight and offered her his hand again, noticing her grip on the hospital blanket. She took it without having a second thought.

"Everybody missed you, Nell didn't sleep until we found you – and that was only because Hetty forced her... They found some bad... Media concerning you on Dubree's computer." He felt Kensi flinch slightly. "Nell got a little ill, according to Callen it got to the point where Eric was just holding her as she cried."

"I don't know who missed you more, me or Nell"

'She's my friend' Kensi tapped.

"I know she is" Deeks smiled.

They sat in a comfortable silence, Kensi clutch Deeks hand near her chest – She was afraid of what would happen if she let go.

In about 10 minutes to door shot open and Nell rushed in.

"Kensi, Oh my god" Nell had tears in her eyes.

Kensi smiled at her friend and looked at Deeks's hand that she was clutching. "Uhh. She isn't allowed to talk, but she is happy to see you" Deeks smiled as he took his hand away from Kensi slowly, assuring her it would be okay and passing her the netbook.

"I'll go see Callen, I'll be back in, in a few minutes."

Deeks stood up and Nell took his seat appreciatively, walking to the door and immediately hearing Nell start a conversation.

Deeks walked out and down the hall, where he saw everybody – and by everybody – that meant including Amy.

"Mr Deeks" She ran up to him, before he had chance to react the girl wrapped her arms around him. He looked at Callen his shock before returning the girls embrace.

"Sorry Deeks, we had nowhere safe to take her" Callen said.

"That's fine." Deeks said, letting the 9 year old go and crouching down to her level. "hey, girl" He tucked some stay curls behind her ear.

"Hey" She smiled brightly. "Is she okay?" The girl stood on her toes and looked over Deeks' shoulder to the steel doors.

"Kens' is doing fine." Deeks addressed the whole room.

"Mr Deeks?" Amy grabbed his attention again. "I understand if she doesn't want to... But can you ask her if I can see her?"

Deeks looked nervously at the girl and put his hands on her shoulders, she was so thin and fragile, he was afraid he was going to break her.

"I can't promise you anything, she did ask if you were okay though"

The girl nodded and sucked in her bottom lip, much like Kensi did when she was in her 'I'm upset but I won't admit it mode'.

"Your mother does that when she's upset" he said, putting his thumb on her chin and gently pulling her lips apart. "Don't be upset."

"I can't help it" The girl said strongly, changing her posture so that she was standing completely straight.

"At least you're more truthful than Kens'" Deeks muttered.

"Huh?"

"Oh, nothing, kidding" He stood up and laughed nervously. "I'll go see Kens... I'll ask..."

"Thanks" The girl hugged him again before he walked back up the halls.

Deeks knocked on the door lightly before re-entering the room. "Hey" He smiled at the girls.

"Nell, I'm sorry, could you give us a minute. I need to ask Kensi something" He shifted on his feet.

"Sure, of course" Nell gave her friend one more smile before walking out.

'What is it?' Kensi had tapped before Deeks sat down.

"Amy... She's here... She asked me to ask you if she could come and see you."

'Deeks... I hope you didn't promise her anything... I haven't seen her since she was a baby, I couldn't deal with this whole open thing, being able to drop in and out when I please... I gave up on that when she was 1, Deeks... I don't know if I can'

"I understand if you can't" He was cut off by Kensi putting her arm up and starting to type again.

'I say I don't know if I can, but even if I can't, I need to'

"I'll go get her"

"Wait" Her raspy voice said.

'The doctor is taking this thing out of my mouth in a few hours, I'll be able to talk then, can we wait?'

"Of course" He smiled and took her hand.


A/N: So as I said – FANFICS FAULT, NOT MINE.
Now I'm thinking of uploading the one-shots today but I just realised – I don't want to overload the fanfic and make it stop allowing me to update again, so I might just update 'I miss you' and put up one one-shot today.

I do apologize.. so much.

Please review xx

-LJ x