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" Good morning Dimitri ." greeted a cheerful voice when I opened the door of my room . I looked at her smiling face and groaned mentally . I had had a shift the night before , which meant I had barely had some sleep . But even in my groggy state , I couldn't simply tell her to go away .
" Um ….. What is it Amy ?" I asked trying to sound as polite as possible .
" Well , you have to go to Lissa's apartment now . They called you for something . And I'm on my way to my room to pack my bags . You know , I have that week – long holiday coming up ." she was practically beaming when she said this . And even though her good mood was highly contagious , I couldn't help but feel nervous .
It had now been almost a week since Roza and I had gone on our " date" and I had hardly seen her since . I must say , not seeing her in person had helped me numb the pain that her words had inflicted , but that didn't necessarily mean that Rose had left my mind for even a single moment . Because she hadn't , and nor had her words .
I could vividly recall the anger in her eyes when she had told me the very things I had tried so hard to forget . I could recall the pain in her voice as she had reminded me how much I had hurt her .
The same questions haunted me since that night . They swirled around my mind , threatening to engulf me into their depth . Was Rose really over me ? Had Adrian replaced me in her life so quickly ? But who was I to judge any of them , I was the one who had messed up everything . And I loathed myself for that .
Everyday was a struggle knowing that Roza was lying in someone else's arms . Knowing that it was Adrian and not me , who ran his hands over her sensuous body . That he was the one to comfort her when she needed it . Knowing that Adrian could talk to her without seeing the sadness in her eyes , and without provoking anger in her. My only consolation was in knowing that they had not been getting much action these past few days , if you know what I mean . This in turn spared me the horror of dropping in on one of their sexual encounters .
And once again , there was the voice in my head , my subconscious mind talking to me . That irritating voice which never missed an opportunity to convince me to let Roza go .
Adrian is better for her . He can give her a lot more than you will ever be able to . Let her live a good life for once … The nagging voice kept reminding me . And even though my heart would never again want to comply to this , my higher reasoning couldn't help but see the truth behind these words .
I mean , Adrian's intentions had never been bad , he truly did love her . Moreover , she seemed to be quite happy with him too . And as much as this broke my heart , I couldn't help but wonder whether I was about to jeopardize Rose's life once again , by trying to get her back .
I should have given up by now . I probably would have , if something else hadn't managed to catch my attention that night , during our " date" . And invariably it had been something about Roza .
In the midst of our argument , faith and confidence had radiated off her while speaking of Adrian that night , but I couldn't help but notice a single emotion flicker across her face , even though it lasted only for a few seconds . It had been gone as soon as it had come , but had certainly managed to leave me perplexed in its wake . What could it have been ? It surely seemed to be sadness , maybe even doubt . But why would Rose be sad or doubtful about Adrian when she was standing in front of me , practically yelling at me about how Adrian had helped her through it all ? Or was it something entirely different ? But one thing was for sure. There was a lot more going on in Rose's mind than she was letting anyone know . And I was almost certain that even if she decided to let someone in , I surely wasn't on the list .
I let out a soft sigh at this thought . I had broken her trust and I would be lucky if I ever gained it back , let alone be forgiven by her . But this was not the time to brood upon my misfortunes , especially because I was about to meet the protagonist of all my thoughts very soon , as she was definitely going to be with Lissa at this time of the day .
" Do you know why I have to go there ? And why couldn't they just have called me on my cell phone ?" I asked her .
" Beats me . I will leave it to you to find it out for yourself ." she turned around to leave . " And now if you would excuse me , I have far more important things to do than act as a messenger pigeon ." she said , giving out a laugh at her own comment . This made me chuckle in response too . Amy was cheery and a good friend of mine amongst the guardians . She was also the reason all of us had been able to walk away alive from that alley after the strigoi attack near Lehigh University . If she hadn't arrived there at the nick of time, none of us would have been here to tell the tale . She was really nice and she happened to be Adrian's guardian .
With that my thoughts turned to Adrian . I had tried very hard to block him out , but it was just not possible at times . His feelings often tended to go haywire and consequentially I felt the mental walls that separated our minds , crumble away every time.
But now I felt nothing noteworthy through the bond , so I let curiosity get the better of me and decided to snoop around a bit . Yes , I know I had vowed never to invade his mind after what I had seen there last time , but as I said , curiosity is a very powerful thing .
As I racked his brains to find what my drunken bondmate was doing , I found out that I would be meeting him soon enough , for he was sitting at the very place I had been summoned to . And , on top of that , he was sitting next to the very person who refused to ever leave my mind .
Jealousy surged within me while contentment flooded through the bond . And why wouldn't it ? He was with Rose after all . Any man lucky enough to be with someone like her was bound to be a lot more than content . That lucky bastard . He now had what I had been too blind to see and had taken for granted , and now I was left regretting my own actions .
Once again , I found my thoughts invariably drifting towards a certain dark – haired beauty , and I found my legs taking me towards where she was . I came to a stop in front of her best friend's apartment and was greeted by Christian . And by the looks of it , he was clearly not expecting me there .
Wait . I thought I had been called there . Hadn't I ?
Still confused , I looked around and said , " I got the message that you wanted to see me , Lissa ….. ?" It came out to be more of a question than a statement really . But it wasn't Lissa who replied .
" Actually , it was me who called you , Dimka . I thought that a little socialising would be good for you ." said the voice that had laughed along with me several times over the years . A voice which had flirted with me innumerable times . A voice which belonged to none other than Tasha Ozera .
I hadn't even given a second thought about who had summoned me . I had been too preoccupied with my thoughts about Roza and had presumed that it had been Lissa . And I was definitely surprised by the devilish grin Tasha was giving me right now . This woman certainly had something up her sleeve .
I looked at her and saw the excitement glinting through her eyes . I was not at all happy to be there . Mostly because I was drowning in self – pity and self – loathing , while I tried to convince myself that Adrian was better for Rose in many ways . And that is why I had avoided her the past few days . Being in the same room as her was not helping me at all , and to think that I was in this situation because of Tasha's childish games . Ugh.
I was definitely not in the best of moods . But even in my irate state of mind , I could see something luminous in Tasha's eyes . Something which I had rarely seen in those blue eyes of hers . Something mysterious , yet impish . Something that seemed almost alarming in its gleam .
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