Once again I want to thank everyone who left reviews on my last chapter. Thank you so much! And also to those who added my story to their favorites list, it makes me feel so good to know that people are enjoying my story! Well, it's wedding time! The next two chapters will be devoted to the wedding, I don't think I could do a good job of writing it in just one chapter. I hope you enjoy it! All Twilight characters are owned by S.M. but Sophia is mineeeeeeeee. Haha!
Chapter 9: The Wedding Part 1
Sophia's POV:
I stared at myself in the mirror of the vanity that was in the corner of my room. Alice and Rosalie had just finished up with my hair, styling it in beautiful side swept pin curls. I had to admit, they did a pretty amazing job to hide the dark circles that had formed under my eyes the past week. Unfortunately the dream I'd had the first night in my new home has become more of a reoccurring dream. I was pretty certain I'd done a good job of hiding my anguish from the rest of the family. I didn't want to worry anyone, it's just a dream after all. Well, that's what I thought until this morning when I not only woke up once again clawing at my throat desperately trying to catch my breath but also to the same searing pain I'd gotten that day in the driveway.
I leaned forward and rubbed in the eye shadow over my eyes. I'd never really worn makeup before, but Alice and Rosalie were so excited to get dressed up I just couldn't resist their excitement. Even Bella let them do her hair and makeup. Alice told me they'd given me the "Smokey eye effect". My unnaturally green eyes seemed even more green with the makeup, I never thought that would even be possible.
I stood up from the vanity and walked over to the full length mirror on the back of my bedroom door to finally get a look at the finished product. I'd been avoiding the dress for about 20 minutes now, it wasn't the kind of dress I usually wore. I took a deep breath and stepped in front of the mirror. As soon as I saw myself, my breath came out in a whoosh. Holy shit. I'd had a feeling they knew what they were doing but…wow. The strapless dress fit me perfectly. It was as if the dress had been made solely for me. It was unique with a wide spectrum of colors and a striking, tribal inspired honeycomb print. The top was sweetheart cut, with a buttoned bib and fit snug like a corset to just below the bust where it flowed outward. It was a little short for comfort, about mid-thigh but the black pumps they'd paired with it made my legs look amazing! I couldn't help but smile at my reflection, Wait till Jake see's this! He's gonna FLIP! Just then there was a knock at the door,
"Come in."
I stepped back from the door as it opened and Edward walked in, closing the door behind him. His eyes grew wide once he got a look at me.
"Sophia! Holy shit! You look stunning!"
The way he was ogling me made me immediately blush. I laughed,
"Why thank you, you don't look so bad yourself you know."
He was wearing a dark grey Armani Collezioni two button suit with a two toned striped shirt in navy and grey, and a navy tie to match. He laughed and straightened his tie trying to look sly. Although, he didn't really have to TRY to do that.
"I know, I know. Alice did it again. You know how she is now, she has us all matching. Different shirts and ties though. I think she's a little upset since Jasper decided to rebel and do his own thing. So please, make sure to tell her what an amazing job she did."
Jasper, I don't know if I'll be able to handle seeing Jasper. I'm sure he looks just completely…I quickly pushed my thoughts away when I realized who I was standing in the room with. I glanced at Edward quickly to see if he showed any signs of having heard me, but he was busy adjusting the cuff links on his shirt.
"I'll make sure to over do it on the compliments. I would've done it anyways."
He looked up from his tinkering with a grin,
"Ok good. Are you almost ready to go?"
I looked around the room and spotted what I needed, I walked over to the bed and picked up the bright green clutch purse Alice had gotten to match my dress.
"Yeah, I just need to switch my things over from my old purse really quick and grab my guitar then I'll be down."
He came over to me and brushed the side of my face softly with his hand,
"So you're actually doing it?"
The past couple of days I had been debating what to get Emily and Sam as a wedding gift, finally I'd settled on doing something special…something I'd hope they would remember forever.
"Yeah, do you think it's a stupid idea?"
He raised his eyebrows at me,
"Are you kidding me? I think what you're doing is absolutely wonderful. You know they'd rather have this than any gift someone could buy them. Did you talk to Jake about it yet?"
I nodded and bent down to pick up the guitar case next to the bed,
"Yeah, he's so excited! He found out their song for me so I could learn it. It's Wagon Wheel by Old Crow Medicine Show. Do you know that song?"
Edward's face lit up.
"Of course I do! That's such a great song, I can't wait to hear you play it!"
I laughed nervously and looked down, fiddling with the handle on my guitar case.
"I'm scared shitless to do this. I never use to care about performing in front of people. I didn't know any of them, so it didn't really matter what they thought of me. But with all of you guys there, and all of them there…." I stopped and thought briefly of who I was actually really nervous about performing in front of, "I just hope I don't mess it all up."
He stepped forward and gave me a comforting hug,
"I think you're forgetting that we've all heard you perform already and you were amazing. Don't be so scared, there's no possible way you could ever mess ANYTHING up," He stepped back and took the guitar case from my hand, "I'm going to bring this downstairs for you. I'll let you finish up."
He gave me one last smile before turning and leaving the room. There's no possible way I could ever mess anything up? Well, I'm glad my family has so much faith in me. I picked up my old bag and started transferring my things the new clutch purse. The only thing I was able to fit was my wallet and my phone. I laughed to myself, This is something I DON'T want to get use to…I like to be able to fit my whole life into one bag.
After that was done, I left my room shutting the door quietly behind me. My heart skipped a beat when I found Jasper standing out in the hallway waiting, he looked indescribably gorgeous. How could I ever explain to you the way you make my heart race? Will I ever be able to tell you that you make my blood boil? I wanted more than anything in that moment to just throw myself at him, run my hands through his golden hair, and crush my lips to his. Oh my god Sophia, get a hold of yourself! I smiled at him, but he just stood there…staring at me with an expression on his face I couldn't quite figure out. He was wearing linen colored dress pants with a matching vest, a white dress shirt with the sleeves rolled up, and a red tie. I looked down at his shoes, yup…boots. The silence was beginning to be too much, He must think I look weird or something! I laughed nervously,
"Do I look that bad?"
His expression immediately turned to shook,
"Are you kidding me?" I jumped at how fast he stepped towards me, "You look absolutely breathtaking."
Jasper's POV:
The second she stepped out of her room I froze. I tried to move, to speak , to BLINK, but found myself incapable of doing any of those things. Nothing in this world will ever compare to the beauty you bestow. Nervousness radiated from her,
"Do I look that bad?"
It was then that I realized she'd taken my silence in a negative way. Of course she would think that! I'd come to realize over the past week just how modest Sophia was.
"Are you kidding me?" I stepped towards her, too fast. "You look absolutely breathtaking."
Her eyes teared up. I brushed the side of her face lightly with my hand, This is killing me. It's been so much easier this past week having two people to confide in, but that didn't take away the torture I felt every time I was around her. I've had to stop myself so many times from expressing my true feelings. Just yesterday, Edward had to take me away from the house when Sophia came downstairs wearing shorts and a tank top with thin straps. I'd never been turned on by someone's collar bones. I mean, come on! But as soon as I saw her, the images of kissing a nibbling at hers flooded my mind. It was so bad that Edward had to make an excuse to get her out of the room just so I could get up. I can't imagine what she'd think if she had seen my raging hard on. This right now was far, far worse. She leaned into me, nuzzling her nose close to my ear and whispered.
"Jasper…"
A million things went through my mind at that moment, and I found myself annoyed that I even had to THINK about it. Fuck it, no one is here right now to steer her away from how I feel. I moved in close to her, pressing my body to hers, knowing very well that she could feel the affect she had over me. She quietly gasped but made no effort to move away. I leaned down and kissed her neck, her pulse was racing, and her breathing sped up. Her sweet smell made me light headed, Or maybe SHE just makes you light headed asshole. My hands moved from her shoulders down her back, moving over the two raised lines in her skin just over the top of her dress. For a brief second, just as my fingers touched, the image flashed in my mind. I knew immediately that it was image that has been tormenting her all week. That's when she quickly moved away from me, her eyes nervous and confused.
"Wait,"
I stared at her not trying to hide my own confusion.
"What is it? Did I do something wrong?"
She shook her head, her eyes tearing up again.
"No, no. It's just…I…um…" She was desperately fumbling over her words. She stared at me with pleading eyes, as though I should KNOW what she was trying to say.
"What just happened there?"
She shook her head, her eyes frantically looking around as if trying to find somewhere to retreat to.
"What do you mean? Something happened?"
Why are you lying to me? I knew very well that she saw what just happened. The fear written all over her face was a dead giveaway. There were so many things I wanted to ask her in that moment, like where she got those scars? I assumed this was why she always wore her hair down. More than that though, I wanted to take her in my arms again. I moved towards her again, only to have her step to the side. Her beautiful face was full of sadness.
"I'm sorry Jasper. I uh…I'll meet you downstairs," I reached out to her, lightly grabbing her hand. She looked back at me, the tears streaming down her face. There was no possible way I could hide the heartbreak I was feeling and this only made her cry more, "Please Jasper."
She leaned in and lightly kissed my lips before she pulled her hand away and quickly receded down the stairs. I stared after her, not moving…Did I just completely fuck that up? What the FUCK just happened? I'd never felt so empty in my whole life, like someone punched a hole in my chest and pulled out my heart. What heart? You fucking IDIOT Jasper! Maybe a week ago I would've been able to talk myself into thinking that there was no possible way I could feel something like this, but not now. I DO have a heart, and it's because of HER. I pulled my fist back, my rage on the verge of teetering over the edge…
"I wouldn't do that if I was you bro."
I quickly turned to find Emmett standing at the top of the stairs, a bemused look on his face.
"I'm really not in the mood for this right now Em."
He laughed and moved into the hallway, standing in between my fist and the wall.
"Do you really want to have to explain the Esme why you put a hole in her wall?"
I relaxed my fist and dropped my hand to my side. He was right, I knew I was completely overreacting. You just need to go talk to her, everything will be fine. Jesus Christ…Alice and Edward must really be starting to wear off on me. I was very thankful in that moment that Emmett wasn't as perceptive as them.
"No, just a rough start today I guess. Thanks man."
He raised his eyebrows at me. What the hell are you up to Emmett?
"Well, don't thank me yet! I haven't even told you the good news yet?"
I laughed, knowing this had to be good. Just go along with it so you can get downstairs to talk to Sophia.
"Ok, I'm intrigued. What is it?"
His face lit up in that I'm up to no good grin.
"I got you a date for the wedding. She's meeting us there."
My smile instantly faded. It took every once of my strength to not break his jaw right then and there. The only thing that stopped me was knowing that Emmett was honestly just trying to help me out.
"You got me a DATE? I really don't think that's a good idea Emmett."
His smile faltered.
"Why not? You really want to go to this wedding alone? I called Jake, he said it was fine. He actually seemed really excited about it!"
I literally saw red at that moment. Of COURSE he was excited that Emmett found me a date. I see the game that little SHIT is playing now. Emmett must've taken my silence as consideration.
"It's nothing serious Jasper. Honestly…remember earlier in the week when I went to that bar in town with Rose and Demetri?" I nodded and he continued, "Well, there was this group of girls there that kept flirting with me and Demetri like crazyyyy. You should've seen Rose, she was so pissed! Anyways, one of them was actually pretty hot….you know, for a human. So Demetri and I got talking and decided, wouldn't it be nice if we did our dear lonely brother a favor and get him some MUCH needed ass?" He leaned in close, talking low…the smile on his face huge with excitement. "And let me tell you Jazz, this girl is MORE than willing to do just that."
He laughed loudly and clapped me on the back. I shook my head at him is disbelief,
"So let me get this straight. You guys picked up some slut at a bar to go with me to a wedding, then fuck me afterwards?"
He held is hand up for a high-five, the huge goofy grin still plastered across his face.
"Yes!"
I stared at him, my mouth agape. I knew my reaction was confusing him. Before Sophia came here I would have been more than willing to partake in a scheme like this. I wasn't kidding when I said I'd had my share of women.
"Well please get in touch with her somehow and call it off."
I turned to walk down the stairs but Emmett grabbed my arm, stopping me in my tracks. His frustrations were emanating from him, I knew he was trying hard to make SURE I could feel it.
"No Jasper, I will not call her. What's with you this week? I'm really happy that you're not miserable anymore, don't get me wrong, but this whole sulking thing is just starting to really annoy me. There's no reason for you to gripe. You don't HAVE to be lonely and doleful. I don't even know why it was me and Demetri who had to find you a date…the women haven't stopped throwing themselves at you every chance they get!"
I sighed, knowing there was no way I'd be able to talk myself out of this. Maybe if I'm an asshole to this girl she'll just lose interest and move on to some other douche bag at the wedding.
"Ok fine. Thanks for helping."
Obviously pleased by my answer he threw his arm around my shoulder with a grin.
"There you go! Alright, then we're off!"
I followed Emmett down the stairs to find everyone gathered in the living room. Rosalie, Alice, and Bella were talking excitedly admiring each others dresses. They all looked so beautiful, I glanced over to the windows were Sophia stood staring out at the lake…they still had nothing on her though. Demetri sat on the couch with Esme and Carlisle discussing the driving arrangements while Edward sat in the adjacent chair staring over at Sophia intently. Alice skipped over when she saw me, trying to keep the disappointment of my choice of clothes from showing.
"Great! Everyone's ready to go now?"
She looked around as everyone nodded. The excitement hung in the air like a thick fog. I stayed back as everyone filed out of the house and waited for Edward who was the last to get up. He walked up to me, his hands in his pockets and waited until everyone was out of earshot. Ah, I see you're disappointed. He laughed and shook his head,
"I think I'm a little more than disappointed Jasper. What the hell were you thinking? Did I not tell you that she wasn't ready?"
I glanced out the door to Sophia who was standing beside her car, looking down at her shoes.
"I couldn't help it. I thought she was ready, she SEEMED like she was."
I looked at him with pleading eyes, You HAVE to understand how I feel right now. He sighed and gave my shoulder a reassuring pat.
"She'll be fine. She's going to ask you to ride with her so she can talk to you. Please PROMISE me that you'll control yourself. She still doesn't understand what's happening between the two of you."
How can she still not understand? Edward shrugged at my silent question and made his way out the front door and down the stairs. I followed behind him, shutting the front door as I left.
We'd been driving in silence for about ten minutes. There were so many things that I wanted to say, but I kept my cool knowing that when she was ready to talk she would. She stared ahead at the road obviously having some sort of internal battle. Finally she sighed and glanced over at me,
"I want to explain what happened earlier."
I took her right hand from the wheel and held it, nodding at her to go on.
"I've been having these really weird dreams all week. Well, these really HORRIBLE dreams. I didn't want to tell any of you because I didn't want you to be concerned over something stupid and pointless."
I squeezed her hand but kept my focus on her face, She looked so tortured.
"Something that is bothering you this much isn't stupid Sophia. Do you want to tell me what the dreams are about?"
I already knew what they were about, but there was no way I'd tell her that. Her eyebrows drew together as she continued to stare straight ahead. She can't even look at me.
"I keep seeing this guy. He has the same eyes as I do, and the way I feel in these dreams…it feels so real. He terrifies me Jasper…" She stopped for a minute, her eyes watering up. "I don't know who he is. He keeps trying to get me to remember…but I just don't know! And right before my dream ends he grabs me by my throat, and I can actually FEEL it. I can…."
"Pull over."
She wiped her tears away and glanced over at me, confused by the rage in my voice.
"What?"
I pointed up ahead to side of the road.
"Pull over…please."
She did as I said, and glanced over at me still misunderstanding my anger. I reached over and shut the car off. I'd only known about the man she'd kept seeing, Edward told me that the image of him has been on her mind since the first time she had the nightmare. I moved closer to her, wiping away her tears. She took my hand and continued,
"I can feel myself die. I try so hard to get him off of me, and I can feel the whole thing…I can HEAR my heart stop beating. Every morning I've woken up gasping for breath, fighting at someone who isn't there!"
She started sobbing and I pulled her to me, tightly wrapping my arms around her shaking body. I was rendered speechless. You're suppose to comfort her! Fucking say something! But, I couldn't find the words. I was completely shocked by what she had been going through this past week.
"There's more."
Are you fucking kidding me? I brushed the side of her face with my hand,
"You can tell me, it's ok."
She moved away from me and took both of my hands in hers. She told me about what had happened to her in driveway, and about the pain she'd been feeling upon awakening from these dreams. I just listened and nodded, trying to hide the horror I was feeling for her. Finally, she'd told me everything. She stared at me with anxious eyes.
"You saw it didn't you? When you touched the scars on my back?"
I ran my fingers over the back of her hand, wishing my ability worked on her. I'd give anything right now to take away the anguish she was feeling.
"Yes, I did."
She sighed and looked out into the surrounding forest, her eyes glistening with tears.
"That's why I pulled away from you. I didn't want you see that. You didn't do anything wrong Jasper, I just wanted to make sure you knew that."
Finally I understood. She hadn't been turning you down! I wanted to take her in my arms and finish what I'd started earlier, but Edwards warning echoed in the back of my mind.
"Has anything like that ever happened before?"
She shook her head,
"No, nothing like that. Then again, no one has ever touched me there before."
Her face blushed crimson. What I wouldn't give to touch every inch of your body darlin'. This thought didn't help with keeping my excitement under control. I thanked god right there for being in a seated position. I reached up and placed my hand on her shoulder. She hesitated at first, but then gave in and let me guide her body to shift so that her back was facing me. I ran my fingers over the faint raised scars. This time, nothing happened.
"Do you remember where you got these?"
She shivered at my touch. She was silent as I continued to run my fingers lightly over her skin. When she finally spoke her voice was barely above a whisper.
"No, I have no idea where they came…"
She was interrupted by her phone ringing. She turned and gave me a apologetic look before answering it.
"Hello?"
"Sophia? Hey, we just got to La Push….are you almost there?"
It was Bella. Sophia sighed.
"Yeah, I'm so sorry. We'll be there in ten minutes."
"Ok, it looks like everyone is just arriving now. We'll see you soon!"
She smiled, her and Bella had become really close after the past week.
"Great, see you soon sweetie."
She hung up the phone and looked over at me. Her face reflected my disappointment.
"I guess we have to go."
Your eyes reflect the map to the rest of my life, just TELL her! I knew I couldn't, so I didn't. I just smiled and nodded as she turned the car back on and put it into drive.
We pulled up to the dirt lot aside the general store at the reservation. Sophia parked the car and shut it off, hesitating before getting out. I reached over and grabbed her hand,
"You ok darlin?"
I focused on her emotions not really sure if I'd get anything since they're always so sporadic. She attempted a smile,
"I'm just nervous. I haven't been around any humans since last week. I'm assuming I'll be meeting a lot of people…that means handshaking, hugs, any kind of contact really." She sighed before continuing "I don't want any incidents."
Now I understood, we'd talked a lot earlier in the week about the kind of things she's seen and been through. I can't imagine how hard it must be to have to experience so many things that were never meant to be seen in the first place. I leaned in and kissed her temple,
"It'll be fine. We're all here for you and if anything happens, anything at all then we'll just leave if need be."
She smiled and squeezed my hand.
"Thank you so much Jasper."
She opened the door and got out , looking around for the rest of our family. Shit, there must be ATLEAST 250 people here! Bella immediately flashed into my mind, we made sure she hunted right before leaving, but still you never really knew with newborns. Finally we spotted them at the far side of the lot. It was then that I remembered what Emmett had done earlier, and what I had failed to fill Sophia in on. With them stood my date. She had long straight blonde hair, was about 5'10"…thin. She wore a VERY short, EXTREMELY tight black dress. How the hell did she squeeze those TITS in there? This type of girl would've suited me just fine before last week, but she has absolutely nothing on Sophia. I went around to the back of the car where Sophia was, taking her guitar out of the trunk.
"Um, shit. I forgot to tell you something."
She turned to me with a smile. I found myself once again lost in her eyes, all I really wanted to do was ask her to skip out on this whole wedding and come away with me…anywhere. Just as long as it's only the two of us. She tilted her head slightly waiting for me to speak. Fuck Jasper, how bad is it? Just tell her it was all Emmett's idea! I finally found my voice,
"Well, you see Emmett…"
I was cut off by her presence behind me.
"You must be Jasper!"
I sighed before turning to her. She stared at me, her blue eyes were wide with excitement. I looked down at her hand resting lightly on my arm, wanting to shake it off.
"Yes, and you are?"
She smiled at me, obviously not affected by lack of enthusiasm. This is going to be a lot harder than I thought.
"I Brianna! Emmett told me so much about you!"
She threw her arms around my neck and pulled me into a tight hug, pressing her body against mine. I looked over at Sophia, her eyebrows drawn together in confusion. Brianna finally moved away and glanced over at Sophia,
"I'm sorry. I'm Brianna," She stuck her hand out to Sophia "Jasper's date!"
Her confusion was instantly replaced with a look of pain. It was only a split second, not long enough for Brianna to notice…but I definitely didn't miss it. Sophia dropped her guitar case, her face turning bright red. She swore under her breath as she bent down to pick it up. When she looked at us again, her face reflected Brianna's excitement. She held her guitar case in front of her and nodded at Brianna, avoiding her outstretched hand.
"Wow, I didn't know Jasper was seeing anyone." She glanced at me quickly before looking back over at Brianna, "It's so nice to meet you! I'm Sophia."
Brianna looked relieved, she lowered her hand moved closer as Sophia took a step backwards. Trying to make it look as though she was reaching into her car to look for something.
"Oh! Emmett told me so much about you too! You're Jasper's sister!"
She froze, her eyes darting between the two of us…her face completely flushed once again.
"Yeah…I'm Jasper's sister."
Brianna nodded with a smile and moved back towards me, putting her arm through mine. Why the fuck are you just standing here like an idiot! And WHY does she keep touching me so much? We just fucking met! Brianna laughed,
"Well Sophia, you look just absolutely ADORABLE!"
Sophia stood straight up, gripping her guitar case tightly in her hands and smiled slightly. The color had completely drained from her face. I removed Brianna's arm from mine and moved towards Sophia. But, she just shook her head at me and quickly walked away.
Sophia's POV:
I walked away from them as quickly as I could. I didn't know where I was going, I just didn't want to be around him…or her. I don't know why I'm so upset about this! There's nothing going on between Jasper and myself, so he's free to see whomever he wants. The second she came up to us it felt as though the blood in my veins turned to ice water. It was one of the most horrible feelings I've ever gotten from a human. I knew that if I'd shaken her hand I would have seen something I didn't want to. Something about her just felt…wrong. I rounded the corner of the General Store and spotted Jake leaning up against the wooden railings leading to the field where the ceremony was taking place. His face lit up once he noticed me, I picked up my pace and ran over to him…dropping my guitar case and throwing my arms around his neck.
He hugged me back tightly, then moved away slightly looking me up and down…his eyes wide.
"Holy shit girl! You look so great!"
I laughed and gave him a once over. He was wearing a black suit, white shirt, with a sage green vest and tie. The color reminded me of the forest, it couldn't have been more perfect.
"Me? Look at YOU! The girls are going to be all over you Jake!"
He laughed and threw his arm around me,
"Really? You think?"
I gave him a playful shove. Jake always made everything seem better,
"Just think of me tonight as more of a wingman than a date."
Jake laughed and pulled me in for another hug. The guests were starting to make their way down from the parking lot to the large open field. White folding chairs had been set up on either side of a long white runner that started at the opening of the wooden fence. The chairs were adorned with ivy and wild flowers, every color you could possibly imagine. A small white gazebo sat at the other end of the runner, every inch of it had been covered in the same ivy and wild flowers, along with thousands of small twinkling lights. My eyes stung with tears. Jake leaned down and whispered,
"Hey, are you ok?"
I nodded and pulled him closer. How pathetic would I sound if I told him this is the first wedding I'd ever been to? Could I tell him about Jasper? I didn't even understand WHY I was upset about that.
"It's just all so beautiful."
He smiled and grabbed my hand, pulling me towards my family who were making their way down to the field with the rest of the guests.
"Come on, I want to say hi to Bella."
Jake and Bella had talked a couple of times over the past week. Their friendship was really starting to get back to the way it was before. It made me so happy to see them getting along again, I know how much their fallout hurt the both of them. Jake let go of my hand and ran over to Bella pulling her up into a huge bear hug. Carlisle, Esme, Rose, Emmett, and Demetri made their way to their seats while Alice and Edward stayed behind to talk to Jake. Jasper and Brianna lingered nearby, it looked as though Brianna was talking Jasper's ear off. He hadn't gotten one word in, just a nod here and there. I looked down immediately when he glanced over and caught me staring at him, Shit! What a way to look creepy Sophia. I didn't know how I'd ever explain my reaction at meeting Brianna to him. I looked around at all the arriving guests, the air around us was buzzing with excitement. I needed something to do, and quick. Standing here by myself was starting to feel a little pathetic. I was about to turn to go take my seat when I saw Jasper running over to me,
"Sophia wait, I really need to talk to you."
The second he touched my arm I could feel the anger and jealously emanating from Brianna. Jasper turned towards her, he could feel it too. I looked behind him to where she was standing and shook my head,
"I really don't think now is a good time. It's ok, we can talk after. Go be with Brianna…"
He ran his hand through his hair, a thing I noticed he always did when he was frustrated. Brianna made her way over and stood next to Jasper. When she smiled at me I got that uneasy feeling in my stomach again. I let my guard down, and heard the words behind her fake façade. Would you just go take your seat and leave us alone you stupid bitch? I took a quick breath in and stared at her in shock. I could feel my face burning from the shock and embarrassment of what I'd heard,
"Excuse me?"
Her smile faded and her eyebrows drew together in confusion. Oh you're good!
"Huh? I didn't say anything sweetie."
Bitch. I quickly blocked her out again, knowing that if I could continue to hear everything she was thinking I'd never be able to get through this night. Jasper glanced over at Brianna,
"Will you please give us a minute?"
I knew it had to be wishful thinking on my part that I heard annoyance in his tone towards her. She nodded and made her way to the seats occupying the rest of my family. Rosalie turned and gave me a "Who does this girl think she is?" look when Brianna sat behind them and leaned in between Emmett and Demetri projecting her flirting towards them. I laughed and shook my head, Rosalie shot me one last smile before turning around and smacking the back of Emmett's head.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you."
I turned back to him, his face looked tortured. Did he always look this tired? I smiled and gently placed my hand on his cheek.
"It's ok Jasper. You don't have to explain anything to me. You shouldn't feel bad about bringing a date with you." He opened his mouth to argue, but I just shook my head and went on. "Seriously. You've been helping me out so much this week. I don't want that to consume your life. I feel horrible about getting in the way of your personal needs."
He gawked at me. Did I say something wrong? I thought this was how guys talked. I knew exactly why Brianna was here. I saw it in her thoughts…well, what HER plans were. As much as it killed me, I had to suck it up. Especially since I didn't have any clue what I was feeling. There's no way I could ever compete with any of these girls…and from the looks of it, Brianna has had much MUCH more experience than me. You know, compared to my complete LACK of experience. Even though being around her set me on edge, I knew she wouldn't be around after tonight. Are you serious? You're just going to LET this happen? I knew I was, because I had no place to say it couldn't. Jasper looked over at Edward, they seemed to be communicating again in that same way they'd been doing all week. I didn't think they knew that I noticed, but I did. Even though it only confused the hell out of me. Edward shook his head at Jasper, an angered look on his face before turning back to Bella and continuing his conversation. I couldn't take it anymore,
"Jasper, please say something."
His gaze snapped back towards me.
"I don't think you understand Sophia."
I sighed and threw my hands up,
"Well then please Jasper, maybe you can enlighten me sometime. I have no idea what's going on. Every time I THINK I do it ends up getting all fucked up. I mean, what wouldn't I understand about this? You're my brother right Jasper?" The words felt so wrong, "and I'm your ADORABLE sister?"
I stopped and took a deep breath in. My heart was racing, and my hands were shaking. I looked around nervously at the attention my outburst had attracted. Jasper stepped towards me and cupped my face in his hands, pressing his forehead to mine he whispered.
"I wish I could just tell you,"
I looked into his eyes, which were now glistening with tears.
"Tell me what Jasper?"
I got lost in those eyes, it was as if the whole world around us meant nothing. I couldn't fathom the horrible taste in my mouth from what I'd said. He put his mouth to my ear and whispered so softly it sent chills down my entire body,
"Sophia, I…."
"Looks like someone could use a drink!"
A growl built up in Jasper's chest as he pulled back and looked behind me. I turned to find Edward, Alice, and Jake huddled close behind me with drinks in hand. I moved away from Jasper, embarrassed by the interruption…once again.
Alright everyone, that's the end of part 1 of the wedding! Hate it? Like it? LOVE it? Please leave comments or any feedback you might have. It seriously inspires me to want to make this absolutely perfect. Things start to get a little crazy in the next chapter, which I'm already in the process of writing. Also, if anyone wants to know what Sophia's dress looks like, here's the link…Yes, it's ACTUALLY a dress. What can I say, I'm a VERY visual person. Haha. There's also a picture of her car just in case you were wondering. Don't forget to leave comments!
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