Author's Note: Hi everyone, welcome back to Hold Me Down
Sorry for the delay but I was vacationing at my beloved Los Angeles this week.
Quick Points: thanks to everyone who has reviewed. I read every one of them and try to message back if I can.
Also my apologies to any petrol-heads for the last chapter, I was thinking of a Ferrari 458 Spider and the Aston DB9 and got them confused. Thanks to 'Guest' for pointing that out, I changed it already.
And also I moved Bella's birthday a few months farther, it goes better with the story.
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Previously on Hold Me Down:
"Who was your first kiss Edward?" I ask looking at his face.
"You" he says looking at me in the eyes.
I am about to start laughing, thinking it was a joke but his lips don't even twitch.
He is dead serious.
I swallow hard.
Holy fuck.
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I don't move a muscle.
How is this possible? Edward had to have lived under a rock to not kiss anyone. I mean, look at him. He is gorgeous. I know he would not have any problem kissing anyone of his choice.
Edward has a blank face and looks at my reaction
How is this possible?!
"How can you not… you were… high school… hormones…" I babbled not making any sense. Edward's eyebrows draw together has he tries to understand.
I sit back and let out a deep sigh as I rub my face with both hands.
"How?" I asked pushing my bangs out of my way and watch from the corner of my eye that they stick out all over the place.
"Well, when I was younger I developed a severe sickness." He says looking down at his hand.
I scoot closer to the edge of the chair.
"OK, maybe sickness is not the correct term. I was born without an immune system. As you can imagine, I was defenseless against everything, so I was forced to live in a bubble all my life." Edward says shaking his head sadly.
My eyes go wide and my mouth drops.
I can't believe it!
"Bubble Boy?!" I yell.
Edward hides his mouth with his hand. His eyes wrinkle a bit as he looks down.
"You liar! I can't believe you tricked me!" I shout standing up in a rush and pointing at him.
Edward throws his head back and laughs.
Oh my god! I fell for it!
My cheeks flush and I flop down on the chair.
"You should have seen the look on your face." Edward says between his laughter.
I fold my arms over my chest and try not to laugh.
"It's not funny Edward." I whine shoving his knee.
"Come on Bella. Did you really think I've never kissed anyone?" Edward asked with an amused look on his face, still chuckling.
"How was I supposed to know?!" I yell, trying to defend myself.
Edward shakes his head, smirking.
"Ohh Bella, you are too easy." Edward says before taking a drink of his water.
"You suck." I say leaning back against the chair.
Fucken shit, he almost gave me a heart-attack.
Edward says I'm full of surprises but he is too. I have to start watching my footing with him.
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5 Months Later.
"You're sure? You said in 3 months but canceled." Jacob says over the phone.
"Yes, I'm positive. I have reserved my plane ticket already." I tell him as I dig through the boxes on the corner of my room.
"I am so excited! I have planned this for months; everything is going to be perfect!" Jacob says squealing, hurting my ears.
I roll my eyes. He is so dramatic sometimes.
"I am sure you have Jacob. Hey, have you heard from Tanya?" I asked standing up and biting my thumb nail.
"What you do mean?" Jacob asks.
"I haven't talked to her since I moved here. Is something going on, is she mad at me?" I ask. Anxiously feels my chest. Tanya is important, something is happening and I don't even know what.
"No Bella sorry. She started seeing a guy, if it helps." He offers.
A guy, is she ditching me for a guy?
"How do you know? I asked.
"Sam saw her and a guy at the Olive Garden you two always used to go, remember?" Jacob asks.
I frown.
"Of course I remember Jacob." I tell him. I can't believe Tanya has ditched me over some guy.
Tanya has been known to go MIA for a day or two but almost 6 fucken months? This is ridiculous.
"So, did you find the necklace?" Jacob asked.
"Let me look for it." I say returning back to the boxes.
Yes that's right. I have lived in this miserable town for 5, almost 6 months already and I still haven't unpacked.
My family have seemed to have found their footing, Emmett especially feels right at home. He started school a couple of months ago and loves it. He and Rosalie seemed to have gotten a lot closer too. I got to talk to her more and she seems nice enough so I don't glare at her when I see her and Emmett together. Well, I don't glare as much.
Jasper and Alice are good too. Alice found a job at a local Subway and Jasper works with Charlie at the restaurant. Aunt Sue offered me a job as a waitress but I turned it down, at least for the time being. I can't leave Renée alone.
Renée and Charlie have formed a great friendship with Esme and Carlisle, not that I blame them. Esme and Carlisle are great. I have learned how witty and fun Carlisle is and how he seems to keep up with Esme, which I didn't think it was possible. Esme is a riot.
What makes things so amusing is how Renée and Esme like to team up together against Charlie and Carlisle. Edward and I love to watch how Charlie and Carlisle try to dig themselves out their holes but always seem to dig themselves deeper and in the end doing whatever the women want.
Then there is Edward and me.
Edward is a ray of sunshine on my cloudy life. It's crazy how much his company make me smile and makes me feel not so homesick.
Since that day we decided to be friends, we have been inseparable. At the beginning Renée and Esme kept asking when were we going on the first date but since then they have stop asking but still give us looks, Edward and I just roll our eyes at them.
I am so grateful for his friendship, more than he will ever know.
I have learned so much of him, and he has of me. I love spending my time with him.
I did find out that there is a community college but I decided to take a break and help Renée this year.
That meant I had a lot of time to be with Edward, especially when everyone is busy with work or school.
I asked Edward why he doesn't work or go to school, he simply said he doesn't need to and I didn't press. Better for me anyways, what better company than Edward?
But lately Edward and I have gotten into a lot of disagreements, and it is always the same, Los Angeles.
I have been pushing Edward away more and more. I know I am hurting him but I don't know how to stop; I don't know how much more he can take.
The good thing is that Edward and I always seem to bounce back, plus we haven't had an argument in 3 weeks.
I hear a knock on my door and I smile.
No one but Edward knocks my door. My brothers should really take note.
I walk to the door and open it.
"Hey Bubble Boy." I tell him. He smirks and walks to my three-sided window, he kneels on my bench and he opens the curtains before he turns and sits.
He always does that. I don't like my curtains open, not liking the green but I let him.
"Edward is there?" Jacob asks when he hears me greet Edward.
"Yeah, just came in." I tell him before going back to digging through the box
"Bella, you shouldn't let him into your room, he is a stranger." Jacob says. I can hear the displeasure in his voice.
I straighten up and sigh, running my fingers with my bangs, causing them all to stand in all direction. Edward draws his eyebrows together and looks at me; I wave my hand and shake my head trying to sooth his worry.
"Jacob, I really don't want to start with you, we have talked about this way too much." I tell him.
When Edward hears the name Jacob, he frowns.
Edward and Jacob don't get along, which is fucken stupid because they don't even know each other.
"How are you going to defend someone you know for only 5 months, where I have known you for years? I am only looking out for you!" Jacob yells.
Fucken great, we are going there, again.
"Jesus Jacob, calm the fuck down. I appreciate you looking out for me but it's pretty hard when I'm two states away, don't know think? You are not here to pass judgments so don't. I know what I am doing; I am a big girl so stop now before you piss me off." I warn and take a quick peak at Edward. I don't want him to know why I am fighting with Jacob.
"Whatever Bella, I got to go." He says before hanging up on me.
My eyes start to water but I blink the tears away. Jacob is being unreasonable.
I drop my phone into the box, forgetting what I was looking for and flop on the bed.
"Fuck my life." I say but the bed muffled my words and Edward didn't hear me.
I hear Edward shift on the bench and I turn my head towards his direction and look at him.
"You're alright?" he asked. I smile and nod, causing me to rub the side of my head against the bed.
"Why do you talk to him if all you guys do is fight?" Edward asks.
I groan and hide my face on the blanket, not Edward too.
I suddenly remembered what I was going to ask him when I saw him.
"How come you never told me that I met you on your birthday?" I ask him as I prop my arms in front of me and place my chin on my hands, looking at Edward with an eyebrow raised.
Edward smiles shyly and rubs the back of his neck.
"How you know about that?" he asks.
I give him a pointed look.
"My mother." He says, answering his question.
"I'm surprise Esme didn't say anything at your party." I tell him and watch in satisfaction as he squirms around the bench.
"I could have bought you a gift." I tell him with a wink.
Edward chuckles.
"My mother was already going to do a party for my return so I told her to do something simple for my birthday, just the 4 of us and that she would not mention anything on the party the next day.
I nod half listening as I thought of a plan.
"Bella, whatever you are thinking, no!" Edward says in a stern voice.
I smile as I get up and put my shoes on.
"Let's go." I tell him.
"Are you sure? I can wait for my mom if you have things to do." Edward says as he watches me rummage around for my purse and phone.
"I told you I want to." I say as I look under the bed but don't find it. I grab my glasses and slip them on.
"Edward, have you seen…" I start but he interrupts me.
"It's on the box." He says pointing at the box I was digging through earlier.
"Right." I say remembering I threw it there after Jacob hung up on me.
"Let's go." I tell him and head downstairs.
"Mom!" I call out.
"In here." She calls out from the kitchen.
"Where are you two going?" She asked as soon as she saw us.
Renée likes Edward so much I could probably tell her I'm going cross-country with him and she would be ok with it.
I shake my head, I'm pretty sure Esme and Renée are already planning the wedding.
"Edward is house hunting." I tell her as Edward takes a seat and I look at the fridge for a snake before we go.
"Poor Esme, she is still heartbroken about it." Renée tells Edward before she looks at me.
"I would be too if my babies left." She tells me looking sad. I smile and give her a kiss on the cheek.
"Mom I told you already. You are stuck with me." I tell her and Edward smiles.
"Believe me, I know she is sad but I am ready to have my own place." Edward tells Renée. She nods.
I offer Edward a banana which he takes.
"Don't be too late; Esme and I are making dinner." She calls out.
"We won't." Edward answers.
Once we get in the car Edward heads to the other side of town, which is only like 10 minutes away.
"Are you renting or buying?" I ask him when I see all the housing coming up. One thing I will admit is that Forks has beautiful houses.
"Buying, I think. The houses are pretty cheap here and it's the right time but I am keeping my options open." Edward says as he parks behind a pickup. That's another thing about Forks. Everyone seems to drive a pickup.
"Edward, long time no see, how are you?" I hear a woman as she makes her way over to us.
"Irina. I'm good, thanks. This is Bella." Edward says introducing us after he shook her hand.
Irina smiles at me and shakes my hand.
"Nice to meet you Bella, I am quite certain your new here, right?" She asks.
"Pleasure to meet you too Irina and yes I'm new." I tell her.
She frowns.
"Sorry to hear that. You should call me for lunch; I know how lonely this place is." She says handing me her card.
I was taken aback by her forwardness but she seems nice. Plus she seems to hate Forks like me.
"I will definitely call you." I tell her before putting it on my purse.
"Perfect. It would be nice to talk to someone my age for a change." She says smiling.
"Edward, you can come along if you want." Irina tells him with a teasing smile.
"Thanks for the invite." Edward says rolling his eyes.
"Come on. This is the first one I want to show you." Irina says walking ahead of us.
"I like her." I tell Edward as we follow behind her, Edward agrees.
Irina then proceeds to give us the details of the house. I only half listened as we walked around.
"I'll let you guys get a feel for it while I make a quick phone call outside." Irina says before stepping outside already dialing on her phone.
"What do you think?" I ask Edward as we walk for the living room to the kitchen.
"I don't know." He says leaning against the wall.
"What do you think?" he asks me.
I make a face.
"I don't like the fact that the kitchen is this small, I mean, it doesn't have a dining room and the biggest table you can fit here is probably a two sitter." I say looking around.
"It would be good if you were renting but if you want to buy, I think maybe something a little bigger." I tell him.
"Ok, let's go tell Irina that this one is a no." he says walking to the front door.
I grab his arm and turn him around.
"Edward chose something that you like, forget my opinion. You are going to be the one living in it, not me." I say but Edward smiles.
"I don't like it either and I agree with you, plus I brought you here for your opinion too." He says
And so for the rest of the afternoon, we saw 3 more houses. It was pretty excited stuff.
I think I was more excited than Edward.
"So what did you think of the houses?" Irina asked.
We are outside of the last house we saw and I think this one is my favorite.
The house has a huge front and back yard. It has a beautiful water fountain in the front with pretty rock placement all over and big colorful plants, it has two driveways; one that curves like an upside down U in the front of the house and the other that breaks at the edge and leads to the garage. It has a small but pretty garden with different array of flowers and fruit trees on the edge of the garden that act like a fence, and because the house is an L shape with the garden in the middle, it gives the garden a nice cozy and intimate feel.
The inside is just as big. It has a dining room with a big crystal chandelier and a big kitchen with a connecting laundry room that also connects to the garage. Two living rooms with a fireplace in one and a slide door that leads to the garden in the other. Two big bedrooms that share the hallway bathroom, and then there is the master bedroom.
The master bedroom is to the left of the house and it's gigantic. A California King bed can fit there and still have plenty of room. It has a walk-in closet with big mirrors around and even a small build-in bench in the middle of the closet.
My absolute favorite part of the bathroom is the two sinks with huge mirrors, the shower with a lot of different settings, and the amazing tube. It is big even for two people and deep enough for bubble baths.
I even laid on it.
"I really like this one." Edward says pointing at the house before looking at me with an eyebrow raised.
I smile and nod my head enthusiastically.
"I know what you mean, this own is one of my favorites too." Irina agrees.
"Has there been an offer on it?" I ask Irina.
"I have shown it to a few people but no offer yet." She tells me and Edward.
I look at Edward. This is a big decision.
"Let me get back to you next week. I need to think things through." Edward says at last.
"Perfect. You have my number. Hopefully we can make something happen." Irina says shaking Edward's hand then turns to me.
"I'll be expecting your call Bella." She says before shaking my hand too and walking to her car.
Edward leans against the Volvo and stares at the house.
I think he is really considering buying it.
But then it sinks in.
Edward won't be my neighbor anymore. I frown; I don't want Edward to go.
I stand next to him and push his arm gently with my shoulder.
"What are you thinking?" I ask him as I stare at his profile.
"I really like this house." He says still staring at it.
"I like it too." I tell him. He looks down at me.
"Thank you for coming." He says with a sincere smile. I suddenly have the strong urge to caress his face so I shove my hands inside the pockets of my jeans.
"I'm glad you invited me." I tell him with a smile.
Looking at Edward like this, it would be so easy to fall for him.
It would be as easy as just leaning in to him and tasting his lips again. When he looks at me like this, I can see the line of friendship blurring and my plans dissolving.
During this past 5 months Edward has been my rock, the person that has helped me out the most. I have come to depend on him, on his smile, so much that it scares me. Even now as we walked through the house, I couldn't help but picture me in the garden as Edward sat next to me. Or me on the kitchen attempting to cook but failing miserably, and Edward would just smile and order pizza.
It is so easy to picture my life with Edward, but even as I picture it, warning signs flash on my mind.
If I would ask Edward to move to Los Angeles with me, would he do it?
Am I that selfish as to ask?
I look back at the house, breaking our connection.
I can't ask Edward something like that. It wouldn't be fair to him or to me and that will only result in him resenting me in the end.
No. I can't have anything more than friendship with him, even if it kills me.
"Well buy it or not, it's on you." I tell him. The thought of leaving Edward, creates a lump on my throat. And so I pick a fight.
"What are you getting at?" he asks frowning. He turns his body and faces me.
"Have you looked into other places like Port Angeles, or even Seattle? My point is that you don't have to settle for Forks." I tell him.
Why does he have to pick Forks?
Edward folds his arms across his chest and stares into my eyes.
"What makes you think I am settling?" he asks his frown still in place. I shrink back a little before I can stop myself.
"You're not?" I ask gaining back my backbone and standing straighter looking confident even if I am a nervous mess inside.
"Tell me Bella, where am I supposed to go, Los Angeles?" Edward asks, looking upset.
I shrug my shoulders.
This whole thing is pissing me off. I should have kept my mouth shut but I can't seem to do that when it comes to Edward.
This is supposed to be an exciting time for him and I am ruining it, like always.
"You know what; forget I ever said anything." I tell him, walking passed him and going to the passenger door.
I try opening the door but Edward stops me.
"No, I want to talk about this." He says, trapping me against the door and the side mirror.
"What is going on?" he asked, looking to have calmed down.
"Nothing Edward." I say stubbornly as I stare at his shirt.
"Bella I don't know what you want me to tell you. I love Forks. I am not settling. Just the opposite, I am starting my life. I understand you don't like it here but I do. Someday I am going to meet someone who will see this, see what I have to offer." He says pointing at himself and then to the beautiful house before looking back at me.
"And she will take it, she would be happy with it. Someone who would be fulfilled with what I have to give. It might not be enough to some but it is all I have, it is all the love I have." Edward says looking into my eyes.
I feel like I just got punched in the stomach.
We have discussed Los Angeles plenty of times and even argued but he has always been neutral, as far as his feeling about the whole thing go. Edward has never told me his views of it, until now.
We are on thin ice now.
My eyes start to water and Edward becomes blurry.
Is this what Edward thought about all this time?
Am I the one that made him feel like this?
Edward has been wearing his heart on his sleeve all this time and I do nothing but stomp on it every chance I get.
"Bella, I didn't tell you this to make you upset." Edward says, gently grabbing my chin and making me look at him.
"I just want you to know where my stance is. Forks is my home and I am staying here, just like you say Los Angeles is your home. But that doesn't mean I don't value your friendship any less. I appreciate your friendship. I respect your choices and I won't try to change your mind, I hope do the same with me." He says.
I nod, my cheeks flushing in embarrassment before I clear my throat.
"We better go." I tell him. Edward looks at me for a long time before sighing and letting me open the door.
I feel so ashamed and guilty for, as indirectly as it was, asking him to leave Forks and for making him feel like he is unworthy. All I want to do is be alone so I can cry and beat myself up.
Edward starts the car and drives to the house.
Was I really blind and didn't see what I was doing to Edward?
"Bella, are you alright?" Edward asks me quietly after he shut off the engine in front of his house.
"Are you, Edward?" I ask.
"Bella don't do that. I am fine. Really, stop worrying about me. I am a big boy; I know what I am doing." He says smiling. I smile too, remembering I told Jacob that earlier today.
"I'll see you later then." I tell him before getting out the car.
"Ok Bella." Edward says so quietly, I almost missed it.
I am so stupid.
I practically run to the house and to my room.
I lock the door and make my way to the window to shut the curtains but stop myself.
Forks is really not that bad.
Instead of shutting the curtains like I always do, I take a sit and lean my head to the window and watch the rain and the green.
How can Edward think he is not worth it?
"Because I make him feel like that, my obsession with Los Angeles is not letting me see what is in front of you." I say to myself.
What do I do?
I am so confused, I need Tanya.
I hear my notification tone but don't reach for my phone and continue to look out the window.
It is always like this. I lash out at Edward for things that I am afraid of and Edward tries to bring me back.
Fuck, sometimes I feel like I do it on purpose, always pushing him.
I sigh, why does Edward put up with me?
I must have fallen asleep because a knock wakes me up.
I wake up groggy and disoriented; I look around trying to get my bearings. The sky has darkened and my muscles are aching for being in the same position all this time.
I uncurled and start rotating all my sore muscles, cracking my back as I stretch. Someone knocks on my door again.
I stand and look at myself in the mirror as I walk to the door.
I have bags under my eyes and I have the imprint of the window still on my left cheek. Long red lines cover my face, from my ears to the side of my mouth and nose. I rub my face, trying to get rid of the marks.
My hair is a disaster, now that's what I call bed hair.
I crack a smile rolling my eyes at myself and unlock the door before opening it.
"Hey, sleepy-head" Edward greets when he sees me.
I smile sheepishly and try to subtlety fix the rat nest on top of my head.
"Nice hair." Edward says noticing.
Edward is the same as always, like nothing very happened. I was really worried about things being different between us but it doesn't seem like it is.
Out of sight, out of mind I guess.
I'm relieved that we don't have to talk about it anymore.
I grin. I have my friend back.
"What's up?" I ask him walking to my desk and picking up a brush to untangle my hair.
"Dinner is ready and you weren't answering your phone. So I bravely volunteered to come get you." Edward says sitting down on the bench.
I snort.
"Brave indeed." I say as I brush quickly before braiding my hair into a simple braid on the back of my neck.
"I came here expecting the worse but instead I hear you snoring." Edward says smirking.
My eyes open wide and my cheeks flush.
I have been told I snore, a lot.
Edward laughs when he sees my reaction.
"Whatever, let's go." I tell him leaving him behind as I head downstairs.
"Finally, we are starving here!" Emmett says when he sees me.
"You are always starving." I mumbled taking at seat next to Rosalie who smile when she sees me. I smile back.
Edward takes a seat across from me and we all dig in.
Dinner with the Cullen's is always fun. Esme and Renée seemed to be in sync, feeding off from each other, causing Carlisle and Charlie to squirm in their chairs.
Personally, I think they like it.
Currently, Rosalie is telling about the time she pulled a prank on Jessica that has me laughing. Rosalie is an evil genius. I lean in close to her.
"You need to help me with some pranks I'm planning for my dear brother." I tell her quietly so Emmett can't hear. She grins.
"Definitely, and after Emmett, we'll get Edward." She says with a wicked grin.
"Hell yes!" I whisper-yell at her.
We start giggling like school girls.
I like Rosalie.
"What are you two giggling about?" Edward asks across the table.
"Don't be nosy, it's girl-talk." I answer flashing Edward a smirk.
"Bella, Renée tells me you are not going to be here for your birthday?" Esme asks grabbing my attention.
"Birthday, when is your birthday?" Edward asks before I can answer Esme.
"On Saturday." I tell Edward before looking back at Esme.
"Yeah, I am flying to Los Angeles tomorrow night. I'm very excited." I tell her with a grin.
"What are you doing?" she asks.
"I'm not sure, Jacob has planned everything, and he says it is a surprise." I say animated.
I am sure it is going to be a night I won't forget.
I only turn 21 once, and I am planning on enjoying it completely.
"Who is Jacob?" She asks looking at Edward quickly before looking back at me.
I frown, why is she giving Edward looks. I look at his direction and he does not look happy.
I look back at Esme, not feeling so excited.
"He is my best friend." I tell her.
"I hope you take pictures and have lots of fun." She smiles looking back at Edward before going back to Renée and picking up where they left off.
For the rest of the night, Edward is quiet and I am filled with anxiety.
"Mrs. Swan, Mr. Swan, thank you for a wonderful dinner but I really must get going, I have an early morning tomorrow." Edward says as soon as the dinner was over.
"No problem and I told you already, it's Renée and Charlie." Renée says.
Edward just smiles before giving everyone a quick goodbye and heading outside.
I quickly come up with some bullshit excuse about being tired and sneaked out through the back door and go after Edward.
When I get to Edward's house I don't seen any lights on so I head to the patio.
"I thought you had an early morning?" I ask when I see him sitting on the folded chair in the dark.
"Why didn't you tell me you are leaving tomorrow?" he asks.
"Are you upset with me?" I ask, not understanding.
What is his deal?
"Don't you think I would have liked to know you are leaving?" he asks standing up and walking towards me until he is standing in front of me.
"I was going to tell you tomorrow, what is going on with you?" I ask, shifting my weight to my right foot.
"Don't you realize how dangerous it is for you to go over there, especially to celebrate your 21st and alone?" Edward asks, looking upset.
"So many things can happen to you." He says running his hand through his hair.
I frown.
"I won't be alone; Jacob and Tanya will be with me." I say. I hope Tanya will be there.
"Yeah, Jacob that hangs up on you when he gets angry and Tanya that hasn't contacted you since you got here, what happens if you argue with Jacob and he decides to leave you out there somewhere, or if Tanya doesn't even show?" he asks pulling the ends of his hair.
I fold my arms across my chest.
"I have lived there all my life, nothing is going to happen that I can't take care of and you don't know Jacob or Tanya so don't say shit you don't understand." I tell him, feeling very annoyed.
Edward is crossing lines here, I will not let him bad mouth Jacob or Tanya, just like I don't let Jacob bad mouth Edward.
"Can't you see that this trip is a bad idea? I'm worried." Edward says looking into my eyes.
"I don't think you will be safe there, especially with your friends." Edward adds.
That does it. Now I am angry.
"I don't ever recall asking for your permission Edward. You have no right bad mouthing Jacob or Tanya. They love me and they will never do anything to harm me. I am going. You are not going to stop me." I tell him before walking away, heading for the house.
Edward grabs my arm, stopping me.
"Why are you being so stubborn, I am only looking out for you." Edward says looking very frustrated.
"No one asked you to Edward. Those responsibilities don't belong to you, you are not my boyfriend, we are just friends. Stop acting like you have rights over me." The words come out before I can take them back.
Edward looks stunned and takes a step back like if I slapped him.
"You're right, we are nothing. Have a safe trip Bella." Edward says quietly before turning around and heading for the kitchen door.
Now is my turn to grab his arm and stop him.
"Edward, I'm sorry. I should have never…" he doesn't let me finish.
"No, you are right. What the fuck was I thinking, worrying about you. I am not your boyfriend; I have no right to say anything to you. Now I really need sleep, good night." Edward says with a detach expression on his face before pulling his arm out of my grasp and walking away.
I have never heard Edward curse and I know it is my fault.
"Edward." I call out, my eyes stinging.
He stopped but didn't turn around.
"Just know that I wanted to be that for you Bella. I have tried everything to make you see pass your old life and see what was in front of you. But you didn't let me. I am tired of doing everything I can, being any one you wanted me to be and it was still not enough for you." Edward says quietly before continuing to walk to the door and stepping inside without looking back.
I don't move from my spot.
I really fucked up now.
A sob breaks out from my throat.
I think I have finally pushed Edward too far.
There you have it.
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Is Edward done with Bella? Why does Jacob hate Edward?
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