Blades Of Love
Chapter 9- The Deadly Mission
In the morning when I woke up, I found Eren sitting on a chair watching me sleep, on the table beside my head was my breakfast. I was beyond happy, he kissed my lips as he helped feed me my breakfast, it was embarrassing but it made my heart tingle with happiness.
When I ate breakfast I had to go to training, Eren had told me that he would be with Armin, before he had left he had told me words I wished to hear, I love you, and than he kissed me gently.
My heart exploded with ecstasy, he told me. And he actually meant it, when I had gotten to the training field I was usually presented with loudness but I was only welcomed with the cold air, Petra and Eld even old Olou where gone.
Captain Levi was still not here, so I had decided to start training by myself, I had practiced and pushed myself to expectations that had no one expected, I was impressed by myself. The way my movements felt so fluid but yet deadly to the heart.
It could have been hours before I noticed Eren, walking towards me, he smiled. His hands dug into his pockets as he made his way to me, I titled my head looking at him, I set my blades into the holders wiping the sweat that coated my face.
"Mikasa, why are you still here?" I took a sip of water, licking my lips. "I thought I would finish in an hour or so." I wiped the cloth, hoping to die the excess sweat.
"Well come on to dinner." He pulled my hand, I gently tugged it back. "Hold on let me take my gear off." He nodded giving me a second to do so, with the heat even though it was around late evening I felt hot.
I pulled the extra layer off, leaving me in my vest. We made our way to the mess hall, Armin sat alone waiting for us once he spotted his us his bright blue eyes had brightened.
"Hey Armin." He smiled, handing me a plate. "How are you, Mikasa?" He asked softly his voice reminding me of his soft spoken feature.
"I am fine. How are you?" He smiled lightly, "I am fine." I leaned back against the wall, closing my eyes I had a flashback at what I had seen in the middle of training.
I stumbled back my eyes locked with the two men on the floor, blood coated my fingers like a blanket, my breath light but shallow. I looked at the bodies, there eyes lifeless as there skin turned cold, there stood a boy on the ground.
Eren.
Bright green sparkling eyes, his brown hair hung in his eyes. "I-It's okay." He cooed as he held me in his arms, I shivered lightly, I watched him pull his red scarf of wrapping it around my neck.
"I-I killed them." I muttered lowly, I watch there bodies. The probability of there hearts beating was quite low, I had stabbed one with a knife in the heart an another I had smashed his head into the glass outside.
I wasn't aware of how it happened, but it was within a blink of a eye.
"They deserved it." He stared at me, his fingers brushing my cheeks as he stared at my cold calculating eyes, he was right. They did deserve it, they killed my parents without hesitation it was only fair that I killed them.
The door creaked open, and there stood two men, from the Military Police, they watched my form covered in blood, it was too much to be mine. I pointed to the two men, they ran over there fingers reaching down on to there neck.
"Dead." One muttered as the other nodded.
That was the night I had first murdered with cold blood instincts.
"Eren." I called his name softly, he looked up with a curious gaze. I could care less if Armin was here he was a good friend of mine so it was only fair he knew to, "did I kill two people when I moved in before with you." His eyes widened, he dropped his spoon looking amazed at me.
"H-How do you know that?" He looked at me, I entwined my fingers looking at him with a challenged look.
"I remembered." I spoke honest.
"You can't just remember, father had said you had amnesia." I narrowed my eyes at him, amnesia was a serious topic one to not be played with, it could be severe or mild for moments or days.
"What do you mean?" He gulped looking at Armin who sat quietly looking at us, he knew everything to but had decided wisely to stay out the conversation.
"The night we were going to my house you slipped and knocked your head on the ground. You woke up at our house, wanting to know who you were." He looked down as if reminding himself with such horrid memories.
"The people I killed. . .They are the ones that had killed my mom and dad, right?" He looked at me, my eyes narrowed into a dead space, a had gotten the vibe to avenge my parents death. I was going to kill people who were worthless and had given an sad excuse for living.
"Your mother was Oriental." I bit my lip, that mean I have to be somewhat half of Oriental, I was slowly putting the pieces back together it was going to take time but I will do it..
"Why did you never tell me?" I asked my lips voiced my thoughts.
"I didn't want to bring up bad memories." He claimed softly, his gaze softened looking at me.
"Excuse me," a voice said to our right.
I looked to see it was a Scout, "Commander Erwin had called for the three of you, Ackerman, Arlet and Yager." He called our last names out, we stood up following this Scout to the location. What could Commander Erwin want with me?
As he opened the door, I stepped in. Inside was Hanji, Captain Levi and Commander Erwin along with Mike. As the three of us walked in it was quite, with utter silence. The conversation had started with the Commander greeting us.
"We have called the three of you here because we have a mission." I raised an eyebrow, as I kept my arms behind my back.
"We are very well of each of your talents. Armin Arlet, always ready with a plan and also known as one of the best stagiest. Eren Yager, determined young man with the power to transform into a Titan, finally but not least, Mikasa Ackerman, the beyond talented woman with the paring blades."
He pointed out each one of us, "skills needed to create one of the best teams within the Scout are in need of you skills." Commander Erwin had sounded desperate as he looked at the three of us.
"I am ready to do anything for my country, Sir." Armin had graced his voice loud in the room, Commander Erwin nodded approval looking at the short blond boy.
"As long as I get out of a cage I'm happy." Eren claimed, he shrugged his shoulders nodding.
"If I am use to you I am certainty willing." I spoke, he looked at me and had smiled lightly.
"This is mission for outside the walls, we have predicted a blood sample that could bond with the human cells and great a DNA that could give a human being features of a Titan, such as healing." Mentally I had dozen questions.
Why did they need this blood sample?
"It sounds much to ask, the book needed to create this is located in the forest near Shinganshina district, expect it is not exactly around it. The destination is a bit far up South." Captain Levi locked eyes with me, he knew something I didn't.
"It is located in the house of a former doctor's." Hanji spoke, looking down with her crossed arms across her chest, I breathed out. At least they were telling us the truth.
"It may seem to be located in the Titan territory, though we have written several routes for you to get there without encountering Titan's, it will take you a few hours there and you will be back." He entwined his fingers together looking at all three of us.
"I will assign Levi as your Captain." I narrowed my eyes, only four of us were going, but yet that was better a bigger group would attract the attention and would be harder for us to get there.
"The four of you will leave in the morning with your 3DMG just in case," Commander Erwin said, his voice loud and ground shaking though he seemed he could be gently.
"May I ask a question?" Armin asked, Commander nodded. "Do we have an image of some sort to see what equipment we need." Hanji handed him a piece of paper, from a small distance I noticed the labeling and the drawing.
"After we find the book, and bring it to you, how may this benefit our current needs at this moment." He asked, there you go. That's Armin always thinking ahead, his posture remained the same as he stared straight ahead.
"We plan on figuring on how we can increase Eren's ability's. Or if it could help preventing soldiers from dying, I guess what we are trying to say is that were trying to find a way to stop soldiers from dying."
"Are you sure this will work? Cause I don't want to risk my life and the other's I care for if you are not sure this will work."
Eren had gritted his teeth, he was looking at me with clenched fists. "If you manage to get the equipment we have already created a safe route back, that we have made during are expedition's a while ago."
"Commander Erwin, I hope you are right, and this does not fail like the formation for the recent expedition." Eren gritted, Captain Levi narrowed his eyes at Eren.
"You are even lucky, Erwin considered you to go. I was against it because you are useless." Captain Levi looked at him, his tone deadly as the female Titan as he looked at him with his same bored eyes.
"Y-" Commander Erwin silenced both of them, "you both will be on a mission together so you will learn to work together." He looked at both of them seem to not be fighting about the mission, but it seemed deeper than that.
"Mikasa, I will have you put you as the co-leader." I nodded, my fingers held each other, my knuckles turning white. A part of me didn't want to do this because I knew the outcome won't be as good as they thought.
"In the morning sharp at 11:00AM you will be leaving through the gates, we all bid you farewell along with your friends before you leave." After saying those words he dismissed us all, expect Commander Erwin called me back.
I was in the office alone with him, "Mikasa, I know you have your doubts and so do the others, but I am in need of you trust."
"Sir, I have my trust in you but, it's just I will think the outcome will not be good. But I am willing to do it." He leaned back in his chair giving me a soft smile.
"It is amazing that you could trust me, usually I am only trusted by Hanji, Levi and Mike. A solider like you is needed everywhere, I am grateful for everything you have done."
I shifted looking at him, his cold eyes sparkled with happiness, "training and training will mold you into a deadly weapon. I urge you to trust people you are sure you can. With the power you pose you could be used as a weapon or a savior."
That night I laid in my bed, thinking. My thoughts flooded with emotions but how could I think with the amount of things on my mind, Eren, the mission, my parents, my background.
I slowly processed the thoughts, that night I had barely gotten sleep but it was as if when I slept for an hour my body felt energized, I wanted to train. And so I did.
I dashed through the woods, my blades cutting the objects, the breeze blew through the dark forest I found this beyond relaxing, the way I felt free but strong as a boulder. I couldn't be crushed by anything and by no one.
I had reminded myself of the cut before. I looked at my blades, strong and sharp. I raised it against my skin, I pressed it down swiping it to my right, the blood splashed against my face, I watched within seconds the deep cut I had produced with my blades.
I-It was healing and quickly to.
My breath hitched as I looked at my cut, it took barely minute for it to fully heal. My skin had looked the same, untouched without a scratch.
"What's wrong with me. ." Later that night around, 4:00AM I made it back to my room, took a cold shower and had fell asleep in my bed.
"Hey, Mikasa. Wake up." I shifted lightly, opening my eyes, noticing Sasha's brown hair I opened my eyes, feeling the sunlight spill into my room.
"Sasha?" I adjusted my body sitting up, I breathed out, running a hand through my hair as I adjusted my eyes rubbing them lightly.
"What time is it?" I asked, I lifted my feet off of my bed, touching the ground with my toes. The floor was cold but none the less to expect from it, I licked my lips looking up at her.
"It's 9:00AM." I yawned lightly, stretching my arms as I looked at her, "thanks for waking me up." I gotten up, she smiled at me.
"I saved you breakfast, though it wasn't much," she said.
"I'm glad you thought about me." She gulped, looking at me.
"Well, I am going to get ready, I will meet you outside by the training field." I spoke, she nodded before she left closing the door. I breathed out, I pulled my clothes on, along with my gear, I had to refill my tanks and grab new blades.
Today I was going on the mission to get the equipment for Commander Erwin believing in his hypothesis, I clenched my teeth if he wasn't right. It could not only put my life on the line but Armin and Eren.
I made my on to the training grounds, securing the straps of my cape, I still admired the way it felt to be wearing it, I loved the fact I was a true Scout, I still couldn't believe I was actually one. Years ago I had doubted myself that maybe I wasn't going to be an actual Scout but here I am.
Before going to the training field I had already reloaded on my supplies that I needed, I tighten the scarf around my neck before I walked outside.
Commander Erwin stood there with Captain Levi, along with Armin and Eren. Even our gang, they stood confused on what was happening, but remained there.
"Your late." Captain Levi scolded me, I ran a hand through my hair looking at him, "she was up training late." Commander Erwin spoke. My eyes widened, how did he know that?
"I'm sorry, Sir. I found it as a stress relief." He nodded, "it's fine." Captain Levi bit his lip looking at me, after what he did he acted so calm and collected. I guess all he was focused on was distracting me from what actually happened.
"We have your horses ready, I will escort you to the gate." Commander Erwin mentioned, the others behind us rubbed there heads, and gave us a look of confusion.
"Why do you guys need horses?" Connie asked, his eyebrows narrowed.
"Unless your going outside the walls." Sasha spoke, Armin nodded looking at them. Krista eyes gotten wide as Reiner bit his lower lip, his blond hair poke in every direction.
"We have a mission." I mentioned nothing further, because if I did I was afraid I would give to much information, "y-you can't go out there." Sasha stuttered, over the past years me and Sasha had grown quite closer, she was always easily worried and seemed to over think everything.
"We will be back soon." I watched her eyes become tearful, "Mikasa you are beyond strong, but you have feelings why did you agree with this." She pleaded, she didn't want me to go.
"I agreed." Krista held her arm, as Sasha watched me get on to the horse, she held her face in her hands. "I-I'm sorry." I whispered lowly, Commander Erwin had took the lead, with Captain Levi in front and Armin and Eren trailing behind.
I gripped the straps on Don tightly, I didn't mean to make her cry. It was because we had gotten closer, she was like a best friend towards me, obviously not like me and Armin and Eren but I felt like sometimes I was very grateful for having her as a great friend of mine.
Jean's POV
The day when I had taken Annie's side I knew it was a regret of mine, when I glanced at Mikasa, I watched her eyes cold her beautiful face held a blank stare at me. I ruined it, she never lied to me, she told me the truth and like a dumbass I believed Annie.
After that day we were dating, the same night we had sex. Expect it felt like nothing with Mikasa, it was plain and boring. The night I had with her was exotic, the way she moved against me or the moans that came from her full lips.
The night of picking the regiment, she stood at the front Armin beside her. I had stayed only after discovering Marco's death, I didn't want to join the M.P because well I just couldn't, I wanted to save humanity.
When everyone had stayed there, she didn't dare acknowledge my presence, it made my angry. She knew I was here and sorry, why couldn't she just laugh like she always did before.
I was so stupid, so fucking stupid.
On the expedition she was all the way in the back, but I couldn't help but worry for her. I cursed myself because I was suppose to be thinking about Annie not her.
Everyone gathered outside the forest, there were people missing and two of them were Mikasa and Captain Levi along with Eren.
Moments after thinking that I watched Captain Levi burst through the trees, seconds later Mikasa came out to, steam coming off her cape. She was going fast, to fast to the point where I think she would lose control.
But yet, the beauty seemed to surprise me. She stopped with ease, she tucked her blades into the holders, she was so beautiful, her long hair flowed down her shaped back. It was no doubt everyone drooled at the sight of her, no matter the age or gender.
Both me and Armin were loading the bodies on to the carts, both me and Armin had overheard Captain Levi with Commander Erwin.
"It's Mikasa. She managed to take down the female Titan, without using energy." Captain Levi spoke, both me and Armin where shocked, us both and Reiner had trouble trying to get it's attention. How in the world did she do that?
I had gathered the bodies and made my way to the other four Sasha stood by with someone crouched near one of the members, her long black hair covering her face.
When I looked closer I noticed it was Mikasa, I heard that Mikasa was training with Captain Levi and his squad members would always be there, she was close friends with them.
Her small figure, trembled lightly. Sasha stayed quite but managed to keep the tears in her eyes, I breathed out as I watched Mikasa look up at me, her face flushed as the tears rimmed her grey eyes.
I watched as she was suddenly gone, she flew back into the forest. My eyes widened, these were the squad members of Captain Levi's team, and they were all killed by the female Titan.
I immediately made my way to Captain Levi, out all of us he was the fastest to catch up with her and her speed.
"Captain Levi, it's Mikasa. She ran back into the forest, she's going to kill the female Titan." I rushed, he dropped Eren's body into my arms before dashing off into the forest.
When he had brought her back, her face was blank. Like the day I broke her heart, she took a long glance at the bodies of her dead friends, clenching her small but yet powerful fist she called for her horse and made her way up front.
I rode somewhat in the middle as we were making our way back, she rode at the very back. I took a glance back and noticed the Titan grab a Scout biting his head off, Mikasa acted calm and collected as she rode.
These Titan's came from somewhere, what the hell?
All of a sudden another Scout was in the reach of a Titan, he tried to ride faster but was picked up by the Titan, it was hard to see but you could barely make out Mikasa's movements as she brutally killed, 5 Titan's.
I gulped, looking at she landed softly, her movements seemed to almost faster than Captain Levi, was that possible.
That night as me and Annie made our way to dinner I couldn't help but get over the moves she had done, the way she moved so fast and strong her movements were silent. This was all with the training with Captain Levi.
We were siting with Armin, Mikasa and everyone. I couldn't help but look at her, she was beyond beautiful, her hair was long and black. Everyone was staring at her, expect she didn't notice the way they looked at her.
She had caught me, some how it resorted to her and Annie having a brawl. When Annie had tried to fight her it was as if Mikasa won from the first step, before she could take down Annie like she did in training, but now she made this look like baby food.
Annie's face was smashed against the ground, as Mikasa stared at her with glowing deadly eyes, Mikasa could destroy her if she wanted to but she didn't. I had pushed her off Annie, but I did it so roughly.
She threatened to break my fingers, and I knew she could. But being the jerk I am I mentioned her wanting to be with me. She had told me something I wouldn't hear her say before.
Now she is going on a mission outside the walls, I can't help but be angry. She was going, and she didn't care about the people she was leaving.
Why couldn't I tell her my feelings?
