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SUMMED UP?

(DESSIE'S POV)

"You scared me." I heard Zack say as I managed to open my eyes. Even if I was in my room, the hospital equipments had messed in too badly. Zack moved my bangs away from my eyes. I don't think I could feel any weaker. The beeping voice was just too annoying.

"All of us." Grace said, and quickly came in front of me so I could see her better.

"You…'re a dop…" I was in mid sentence when Zack skidded in between.

"Yeah, but you knew?" he tilted his head like a confused puppy-dog. Not that he is small but he is so cute that he looked like a puppy. I smiled.

"What was so funny 'bout it?" he asked.

"Nothin'." I said weakly.

"I was so, so, so worried, honey." Mom came in the room and her hands were covered in something foodish. I wanted to get up but it was too cold.

"Don't even try to get up." Zack commanded.

"Got it, chief." I muttered.

"Where were you and why did you go alone, Dez?" mom asked me. I thought it better to give my hand in her so she could read and say.

I didn't want to go alone but had to. I couldn't let Grace go alone or with me. She, as I thought, was a normal human and I could control the newborns.

"Dessie, you could've called anyone."

I thought I could just go and come back. It was a ten-minute task.

"Yeah, that took about more than 28 hours, right?"

Don't know. Didn't see the clock yet.

"Is there any way I can win from you?"

Yeah, could you get me some ice-cream?

"Can someone just control her?" mom looked in Grace's direction.

"I told you to let me come with you." Grace was almost crying as she held my hand. Suddenly, I felt a strong heat all through me. I closed my eyes. I didn't know what was happening but this heat made me feel better.

"Smiles, what-what's happening?" I heard Zack's voice. The beeping noise went all the way sturdier.

"Mom, what's happening?" this was Grace's voice.

"Carlisle? Carlisle?" mom had been calling now. Some seconds later, I felt a cold hand on my wrist.

"She's getting a bit better." This was Carlisle's voice. I opened my eyes suddenly. I felt I was getting better but still not totally fine. I shivered. Zack sat beside me and held me tight against him.

"How're you feeling?" he asked me softly.

"I don't know but yeah, a bit better." I said my voice was tired as I could feel.

"That's it. Grace's a healer." Mom concluded. Grace's mouth fell, I smiled and Zack smirked. Zack helped me up a bit. He kept the pillows under me high so I could be half sitting. After that, everyone flooded in and they had a 'how are you feeling' session. God, this sentence makes me even sicker now. When, Rayne, Evan, Natalie and Riven came in, I could hope for some fun because Zack, right now, not to be exaggerating, but he was behaving as a perfect boyfriend should when his girlfriend is sick.

Okay, I shouldn't think of it.

How can I even think that?

"You know what Dez, Day after tomorrow is the Nondenominational winter dance. God, I'm so excited." Rayne said, excitedly.

"God forbid, Ray, you could just call it the Winter Dance. Would that be a problem?" Riven said. I laughed.

"Um, yeah. That would be 'cause it won't sound as mystical as it sounds now." Rayne snapped.

Whatever." Riven shut his mouth.

I don't even remember if I could stay awake more than an hour but I knew Zack was always there, every second. He didn't leave me alone but I surely did bore him more than necessary. I was used to it, him being around me whenever I fell sick but it was happening after two years. Every time I woke up, I saw him on my bedside. I really wonder how it is possible for him. I wasn't on a solid diet but it was something between solid and liquid.

It had been three days since I was lying in my bed. I was getting really bored and frustrated and Zack was on his patrol. Harmony was spending time with me but now she was downstairs because of some check-up Carlisle was doing of the baby and her. Dallas as usual was supposed to be there with her. Mom was helping Grace with her new gifts because she couldn't understand how to exactly make them work. EJ was supposed to be there and it was Rayne and me in my room.

"Can I tell you something?" she broke the silence.

"Yeah, sure. My ears are open." I said.

"I don't know how you might feel but I wanna advice you to leave Damien." She said.

"Ray, this ain't possible. I love him." I answered.

"That is why I'm telling you to leave him. I think that…"

"You think what?"

"I shouldn't say it."

"Say what?" I demanded. I was pissed off. My best friend thinks I should break up with the guy I love. What the hell is happening?

"Nothing. You know Riven got me this." She showed me a pendant which was in a silver chain and was half-a-heart and had written 'my life' on it.

"It's cute." I complimented.

"I knew you'd say that."

"Hey, uh, Zack really didn't date anyone after me? Like after I went away?"

"I don't really think he did. I feel he still is stuck on the same girl."

"Wonder when this guy would stop loving mom and understand that he can't get her."

"Uh…exactly. What's with Natalie, any idea? She's sick since yesterday."

"I don't know. I didn't even know that she was sick till this moment."

"Yeah, you know about yourself first."

"Exactly."

"Anyway, you know there's this guy in school. He's a Quileute and he is so, so, so cute, I swear you never saw something as cute as him."

Excuse me! No one can be as cute as the following for me.

1) Zack/Damien. (Well, I don't know but I feel Zack is a few degrees cuter than Damien. Not that I don't love him but c'mon you have to fact it out. Zack is better. If I was not in love with Damien and Zack had asked me out, there are chances I would've said yes to him.)

2) Dallas. (Like a brother.)

3) Riven, Evan, Nathan, EJ and the pack. (Ditto as Dallas.)

4) Dad.

5) Jacob.

6) Uncle Drew and the hunters.

"Hey, you lost somewhere?" she snapped her fingers in front of me.

"No, no. Not at all. I was just thinking how Riven would react if you say that in front of him."

"A princess has to kiss a lot of frogs to find her prince."

"But you've got one and you've dated about 8 guys before Riven."

"10 to be precise and I was talking about you. I mean like seriously, you've gotten stuck on just one guy."

"No, I dated two of them- Zack and Damien."

"Let's not count Zack. You have a brotherly feeling for him now."

"NO! I don't take him that way. I mean I take him as my bestest best friend and you know that I won't ever take him as a brother. That would be the last thing I would take him as."

"Not bad."

"What not bad? Can't a girl and guy be best friends?"

"Surely they can."

"Ray, you're acting crazy is what I wanna tell you."

She went away after an hour's gossip of fashion in school these days and discussing about the Nondenominational Winter Dance and Carnival AKA the winter fête in short which is just after the Winter break and god, I didn't even notice there's just 15 days left to Christmas. Rayne doesn't want to say it in short because she feels it won't be that 'mystical'. I don't really get what she means.

TWO DAYS LATER…

Finally, I was better, totally better as you might say but still on the bed. Zack, Rayne and Riven had been doing my homework and yeah, I was missing some of the UTs and tests but it wasn't that bad. I was happy that Grace's medication was working really properly and here she got an aim, to become a doctor. She had always been into this but now, she was totally focused. She watched a documentary with EJ yesterday and it was funny how he came complaining to me about it like Grace had been forcing him to watch it. I had told everyone not to let Damien know because I know he might get over tensed about the whole thing which I believe was his right but you know I didn't want to do that but I was kind of confused that if he knows about it later, he might overreact and whatever.

I was totally confused. I felt like I wanted to talk Harmony, so I went downstairs. As soon as I opened the door, I heard her scream: "Not now! Not now! Not now!"

I was alarmed and so I rushed in. she held her baby bump and fell on the bed shouting. Dallas hurried in and so did the rest of my family.

"Dad, what do we do?" Dallas was totally acting dumb.

"We needa take her to Carlisle, stupid." I shouted.

"Thanks Dez, you're a genius."

Since when did my brother have so less of brain? Anyway, my brother carried her to the car while she hit him in pain. Mom, dad, Grace and I followed them. Dad, Grace and I were the same car while the others were in Dallas'. We followed Dallas' car bumper-to-bumper but then, Dallas' stopped and we almost crashed into Dallas' car. We saw Carlisle speeding to the car and flung the door open and we all heard the loudest girlish scream ever and then, I ran out. I ran to see what was happening in the other car. I held Harmony's hand and then, all of sudden, there was a crying sound. Carlisle bent to cut the umbilical cord, I guess and there it was. A small newborn covered in blood. I smiled at Dallas as Harmony smiled at me and him both.

"It's…it's a girl." Mom said. Meanwhile, dad and Grace were coming out to see what was happening.

"What are we naming her?" Dallas asked Harmony. Harmony had told me about it. She had said that if it was a girl, she would name her after her mom- Amelia and the middle name was for me to think and once Harmony had suggested that Krystal was a really pretty.

"Amelia Krystal Clearwater." I stated as mom cleaned the baby. I felt I was going to cry. I was this happy to name her. There was a heat spread all through my body and I felt so happy I can't tell anyone. Mom wrapped her in a baby pink baby suit that mom had in her bag. (I think she already felt that the baby was going to take birth in the car.) But whatever, when I held the baby, she had already started growing more than I think normal babies do.

"She's slower than Ness." Carlisle said.

"Is she?" I asked mom.

"Yeah, totally. I believe Ness at this stage was about the size of a baby of two months." Mom answered as if she had been there.

"Whoa! Dude, no!" I said.

"I believe she will grow fully at the age of 13 or might be 15. That depends but then she'll stop growing." He said. As I got out of the cramped car, with the baby in my arm, I began sneezing and the cold winds made me weaker to my knees. She smiled.

"Hey, Millie, you shouldn't be smiling your…err…gums out when your aunt is sneezing. That is basic knowledge." I joked. She beamed again. I looked at her even more carefully because in the car, it was so stuffed that it was difficult to distinguish her features properly. She had dark brown, curls and her eyes were the darkest shade of blue and getting green in the middle till they met the pupils. Her nose was small and round, somewhat like mine. Now that's a co-incidence. Her lips were so small and cute and almost like a circle and her skin was whitish but her cheeks were totally pink like those of the kids you get to watch in movies.

"What did you call her?" Dallas asked me.

"Millie. Why? You didn't like it? If you want you could nickname her yourself." I said so that wasn't offended.

"No, it's cute. Then Millie it is." He declared. "By the way, are you done teaching your niece so daddy can have some time with his baby?" he almost was snatching her from me but I didn't mind because I needed a warm place. The car had been warm because it was everyone there and the blower was on whereas here, it seemed it was going to either rain or snow. You could never tell what happens here in La Push/Forks. The weather is so unpredictable that one second, the sun is high above you and the other second it starts to rain, let alone the clouds start graying and stuff.

"Smiles, why are you out here?" Zack suddenly appeared from nowhere as I managed to walk back into the car. He pulled me in his chest and held me tight. I was still sneezing badly and now it started getting difficult to breathe.

"I was just going back into the car. My lungs kinda hurt." I stated as he walked me to the car. Mom and dad helped Dallas do the stupid formalities so as to claim that Amelia Krystal Clearwater is now a property of the Clearwater family i.s. (i.s. means In Short) she is a member of our little family that looks almost equal aged to each other. In a few years, Millie would be looking just the age equal to her grand mom and mom. Now, that is what is going to get my mom. HAH, HAH, HAH!

Zack left me up in my room because I had again shot up with the temperature thingy. He gave the blanket up to my chin.

"Zack, I don't want to sleep." I said and sat up straight.

"Smiles, you need to get full rest." He told me and sat beside me on my bed.

"You're talking as if I just had an accident. I wanna go and see how Harmony is." I answered and folded my arms over my chest and sulked like a five year old kid.

"Okay, how about if we watch the Lion King trilogy? That'd be better, right?" he asked me. Lion King Trilogy is one of my most favorite movies of all times and Zack knows it very well. Even if we both have watched it over a thousand times, I still love to watch it and Zack always sits with me and watches it and the amazing thing is that I couldn't watch it back last two years because of some or the other thing.

"Hmm…not a bad offer." I muttered.

"I'll get the discs." He said and rushed downstairs. I heard his steps come back in a few seconds.

"That was quite fast." I commented.

"Know that." He answered. He turned my room into a mini theatre room while switching off the lights.

We soon rolled to the part where Zazu was telling Simba and Nala about the whole them-being-together-after-they-grow-up thing. I thought of Quil and Claire and felt that somewhere it had got to take some attachment with the imprinting part. I pulled the remote and pushed the pause button.

"Why did you pause it?!" Zack complained.

"I wanna ask you about something." I answered.

"What 'something'?" he air quoted.

"About imprinting."

"You remember the story better than I do."

"And you have got the pack link. Tell me why it is so important that no one considers it wrong like c'mon for example your parents, my parents, Sam-Emily, Brady- Ava?" I asked innocently.

"Well, imprinting, what I strongly believe, is something way too different than what you think it is. It's not wrong, never really. It teaches a wolf what he has to value and live for. You gotta understand the other one to understand it way better."

My centre of focus shifted from his thoughts to his mouth and his eyes, for the first time felt so deep and hypnotic that I could've almost given up. He paused and started again:

"What do you think is between you and that guy? You know what, it's way weaker than what is between you and me. You never understood it and I know you won't till sometime I tell you and I can't manage to see you go away from me. It's…it's not just friendship, Smiles. I know you feel it somewhere for me. I know that is why you care for me, worry for me. He is ruling your feeling, that's it. He's just changing you into someone even you don't know about, let alone him knowing you. You are way too different than this 'butterfly' he's turning you into. You know what, I have imprinted on you and this makes me care and worry about you. I want you, Desiree and I know you are just mine…"

I was listening and then all of a sudden, when I was lost in what he was saying I got so confused to know what was happening till I time I felt his lips brushing over mine. The heat that spread through me made me feel better than I really was. I let him hold me tight against him and just followed along with what was going on. My heart pumped against my chest and I felt that it was going to skip out. And one thing I knew was that I enjoyed it…

Wait a minute?

"Well, imprinting, what I strongly believe, is something way too different than what you think it is. It's not wrong, never really. It teaches a wolf what he has to value and live for. You gotta understand the other one to understand it way better."

"What do you think is between you and that guy? You know what, it's way weaker than what is between you and me. You never understood it and I know you won't till sometime I tell you and I can't manage to see you go away from me. It's…it's not just friendship, Smiles. I know you feel it somewhere for me. I know that is why you care for me, worry for me. He is ruling your feeling, that's it. He's just changing you into someone even you don't know about, let alone him knowing you. You are way too different than this 'butterfly' he's turning you into. You know what, I have imprinted on you and this makes me care and worry about you. I want you, Desiree and I know you are just mine…"

OH MY GOD!?

I shouldn't just be enjoying this. I am in love with Damien and I should be focusing on Damien, not kissing someone else who is my best friend…

Add the correction: is- was.

I tried to push him away softly, not to freak myself out at first.

"I knew you loved me ever since." He told me removing my hair back to my ear. I tried my hardest to fight back my tears.

"Zack, go away!" I tried to suppress my voice.

"Smiles?"

"I said LEAVE! I DON'T LOVE YOU ZACK! I HATE YOU NOW! YOU NEED TO LIVE WITH THAT! I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOUR FACE, EVER…" I had begun crying in half sentence.

"Just once, look into my eyes…" he said placing his hands on my cheeks and making me look above.

"GO AWAY!" I shouted and pushed him with all the force that I could. He walked to the door and looked at me once before leaving. I turned my face away. I fell into my pillow and cried as long as I could. I couldn't understand what was exactly happening. My mind was whirling and I was confused, way too confused. Then I remembered what Rayne had told me.

"I don't really think he did. I feel he still is stuck on the same girl."

Oh my god! That girl was me, not mom. Zack had told me that there was a place in the woods he wanted first to show to his imprint and that was me. It was never anyone else but what about Damien? I loved him not Zack but the only thing was that why did enjoy kissing Zack rather and better than Damien?

I know that this would create a problem.

A problem between me and Zack…

Zack and Damien…

Damien and me…

Everything would just whirl around and there would nothing I could be ever able to do. Even if I loved Damien, I would never want Zack hurt. It wasn't that I loved Zack but I cared for him and worried for him, just like he had said to me. I took him as my best friend and not as a brother. Does that really mean I am in love with Zack? If that happens, I am too sure that I have wrecked my own life. I want Zack and I don't know what to do with Damien. Me considering him cuter than Damien, does it mean that I love him more than Damien? Is that really it?