Chapter Nine: Facing our Fears
She didn't know what to say or think as each house past her line of vision. Everything just blurred together since leaving Molly's. Gabby didn't say a word as she continued to stare out the window, so many things running wild her mind. Did he really cheat on her? Did he not love her? The tears ran slowly down her numb face.
Shay parked the car in front of Matt's apartment, she waited a moment for Gabby to say something, but silence lingered in the air as the two best friends remain frozen. "Do you want me to go in with you?" Shay asked quietly as looked forward.
Gabby shook her head no before the words left her mouth, "no," she finally said as she wiped away the tears. "I'll be fine."
Shay didn't know what to do, she could tell by Gabby's appearance that she was lying, but she knew that she needed to do this alone. "Call me if you need me," She said as she watched Gabby reach for the door handle.
"Thanks," Gabby said as opened the door. Standing in front of Matt's apartment made the hurt in Gabby deepen; she heart began to feel heavy as she saw the light from the window. Everything was normal, but she knew that after the conversation, everything would never be the same again. She listened for the car to pull away before she made her way inside. Once alone in the cool night air, she took in a deep breath and slowly walked up the steps to his apartment, her hands clutching her bag.
When she reached for the doorknob, she could feel new tears being released. As much as she tried to fight them back, there was no use. She quietly made her way inside, hoping she could have a second to collect herself before seeing Matt. She walked into the living room to find it empty with the TV on. She ran her hand through her hair as she took a seat on the couch and set her bag next to her. How could this happen? She thought as she closed her eyes.
"Hey," Matt said as he came back into the living room from the bathroom. He had hoped that Gabby had a fun night out with Shay, but when his meant her's he could tell something was wrong, Gabby looked completely broken. "Baby, what's wrong?" he asked as he quickly walked through the dinning room to hold her.
"Please stop," Gabby said in a low voice, causing Matt to stop right in his tracks. More tears continued to fill her eyes once she saw him.
Confusion played on his face as did what she had asked him to do. "What happened?"
Gabby stood up from the couch and folded her arms across her chest, but kept her distance from him. "I need to ask you something and if you tell me that it never happened, I promise that I will believe you and never ask again," Gabby stated as she looked Matt in the eye.
As he watched her stand before him and as he listened to her words, his heart broke into a million pieces. She knew what he had done. His own eyes began to water as he watched her choke out the question.
"Did you have a sex with that girl from the bar?" She knew the answer before she had even asked the question; Matt's face gave it away. Tears now streamed down her face as she watched him.
He couldn't lie to her that would hurt even more. "Yes," he said as he closed his eyes and tears of his own began to flow.
Gabby slowly nodded her head; words could not express the amount of pain that took over her heart. She felt like she had been suckered punch and all the air had been expelled from her body.
Without thinking Matt rushed over to her and pulled her into him. "I'm so sorry," he said as he began to cry.
Gabby stepped back out of his reach, "don't touch me," she said as she wiped the tears off of her face. "I need to go," she said as she took her bag off of the couch.
"Gabby, please don't go," Matt said as he tried to reach for her again. "We need to talk about this."
"I can't," she tried pulling away from him a second time.
"Please," he pleaded with her.
"I can't Matt!" She raised her voice and then the flood gates began to break open. "I can't even look at you." Gabby yelled as she rushed out the front door. She needed to get out of there, it felt like the walls were closing in around her and the ground had opened up and ready to sallow her whole.
Matt knew that he should have gone after Gabby, but his feet couldn't move. The memory of Gabby standing in front of him and the look on her face broke his heart all over again. He hated himself; he had hurt the one person that he loved most in this world. He leaned against the wall to help support him, but it was no use as the tears left his body, his legs began to give out and he slide against the wall.
Gabby didn't even realize she had made it home until she was standing in her living room. It had been a while since; she had been back to her apartment by herself. The last time she had been here was with Matt. Gabby sat on the couch and before she could do anything to stop it, her body began to shake violently with sobs. She had never felt so lost and broken before.
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