More fluff in this chapter. Hopefully it's good.

I'm starting to get kind of self conscious about this story. I may pull it off completely.

I've been working on proof reading a little more so hopefully the grammer and spelling with be a little better.

Wynnie found her self in front of the gym and she made her way in. All of the rage and frustration from the past day just made it way out as she started kicked the punching bag in the corner. Kicking and spinning, the sweat fell from her brow as she tried hard to work the emotional pain away. She was about to punch the when she stopped her right hand from making contact and stared at the cast irritated. She sank down on the floor crying. "I am strong I am strong," she kept repeating to herself over and over again. Madeline walked in to her friend curled up on the floor. She sat down beside Wynnie and comfortingly rubbed her back.

"Oh Wynnie," she said calmly, "Are you alright?"

"I killed someone Maddy," she said slowly. "I may not have pulled the trigger but it's my fault Lieutenant Bestin is dead. I should have been more responsible." Madeline had heard what had happened and thought carefully about what to say.

"Darling first and foremost you did not kill him. His death, while very tragic, was a result of a scared group of people who felt threatened by you and your team. Second my dear, yes you did make a mistake, but people understand that when it comes down to it they probably would have made the same mistake. Trust me if Colonel Sheppard thought you didn't belong here he could have easily sent you back."

"I know, but it still hurts all the same."

"This is going to sound weird but that good… It means that your icy heart has finally thawed enough to let people in. It also means your human, hun when you lose a friend it's not supposed to feel good and it's never going to get easier."

"I know…" Madeline hugged her friend and lifted her up off the floor.

"You know if Doctor Beckett found out you weren't in bed resting he'd have your ass strung up on a wall and probably mine too. Let's head back, I've got some stolen chocolate from a certain scientist stash and a couple episodes of Grey's left to watch."

"You stole some of Rodney's chocolate?" She sniffed in disbelieve.

"My Italian Stallion… the scientist I was talking to a few days ago gave me a couple bars; apparently it's not well hidden. And McKay calls himself a genius. Oh I forgot I got a hold of some moonshine as well." Her friend wiped her tears dry and shook her head. "It's good to have connections in the science crew. You'll find out soon enough I'm sure." The two of them curled up in Madeline's room with a couple bars of chocolate, and two shots of moonshine each while Grey's played on Wynnie's laptop. Madeline even loaned her stuffed polar bear to Wynnie so she's have something warm to cuddle up with. She was asleep before the first episode was over.

"Hey girl," Madeline said shaking Wynnie awake.

"What time is it?" Wynnie asked rubbing her eyes trying to focus.

"It's 4:30 am, you can go back to sleep if you want to stay, but I wanted to let you know I've got to head out. I'm heading to the mainland with my team."

"Oh…" Wynnie stammered jealous that her friend was going on a mission.

"Wynnie dear, you get a break, get some sleep. I've not been able to sleep in past 6am since I've gotten here. And that was a good night's sleep. My captain is a hard ass, not as bad a Myles, but pretty close.

"Yeah yeah, just shut the light off before you go. I'll probably head back to my room after lunch, and then I don't know maybe some solitaire. Colonel Sheppard's got me on paper work duty tomorrow so I'll probably just relax as much as possible today. Beckett won't let me jog anyway."

"Do you want anymore pain meds before I go?"

"No thanks, just hurry up already." Madeline laughed as she got her gear together and walked out.

Aournd lunch time Wynnie decided she wasn't hungry and downed a couple of power bars instead. Then she proceeded to take one of the pain meds the doctor proscribed for her throbbing hand, and wandered back to her room in a medicated haze. On her way she proceeded to bump into a very annoyed looking McKay. "Hey Rodney watch it," she mumbled almost incoherently. He looked up at her angrily for a moment before his gaze softened.

"Oh Wynnie," he said helping her up, "I didn't see you. I guess now were even."

"Huh?" she replied still in a half asleep daze.

"You bumped in to me and spilled my lunch, and now I've run into you. Well maybe I didn't spill anything but I did knock you down. I guess you knocked me down the first time. Whatever… now we're even for the fall and one of the chemists I work with found a reaction with phosphorus and got that chocolate out of my pants, which reminds me… Do you know who may have taken a couple of my chocolate bars. I swear someone on my team keeps taken some." Wynnie smiled knowingly to herself and put a finger on his lips in a shushing manner.

"Shhhh, you talk too much. If I knew about your chocolate stash I have dove in head first by now." Realization spread across McKay face as he looked down at the cast covering her arm.

"Oh… right… how are you Sheppard told me everything."

"Peachy… I'm peachy as always, everything is peachy. Bright perfect and peachy, nothing could be better except maybe getting attacked by wraith. Thank God I've only had the pleasure of meeting them once and very briefly." The last part was the only serious thing she had said.

"Wynnie…" Rodney started almost unsure of what else say. "I should probably let you know Sheppard doesn't think poorly of you. In fact he thinks you're an excellent pilot and a strong leader, but you did cause a man to be killed and that can't be overlooked. So you got yelled at, I've been yelled at too, I once lost the trust of my best friend because I screwed up. Give it sometime and people will eventually forgive you."

"Humph, talk talk talk that's all you do for once just shut up and enjoy some silence, your voice is pounding in my head." Her eyes were drooping even more.

"Are you really alright, you seem… drunk?"

"Yeah they pain meds for my hand. They make me kind of loopy and tired. So yeah I'm ah just going to head back to my room. Wanna walk back with me, if you can just please be quite."

"Errr sure…" McKay stammered slightly embarrassed. Her hand made its way into his as he led her back to her room. She laid down on the bed and looked up at McKay. "I've got to head out, I've got a big problem in the lab, we brought back a simple portable energy pack from one of the missions we were just on and I'm playing around with it because it may be something we can use. I know it's a magnate passing though coils storing the energy it into a simple capacitor, but one of the scientists on my team broke off part of the circuit, moron."

"Damn it McKay, you turned down my last invitation to cuddle with me, now I'm looking at you expectantly and all you can talk about is damn capacitors." He blushed slightly and looked unsure of what to say. "I'm sorry I'm not trying to be mean. I'm just… frustrated, sore, and highly medicated looking for a little comfort from the one person who I wanted it from most, who ironically enough is the only one who hasn't really offered any. Do you really like me at all?" He sighed and rubbed his face.

"You know I do…"

"If I lay here… If I just lay here… would you lay with me and just forget the world." She sang horribly out of tone in a voice that sounded more like a dying cat than a person, but it made McKay smile.

"Alright… I will lay with you, just as long as you promise me to never sing again." He put his arms around her and let her snuggle up close. Her body was warm and her head made its way onto his chest as her breathing evened out and she fell asleep. He smiled down at her and brushed the hair out of her face and kissed her forehead.

The brief song snipit was from Snow Patrol's Chasing Cars. Not my own.