Christmas

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I really didn't want to talk to her today after the last things she had said to me.

Master seemed to have forgiven her. But I was less inclined to forgive her as I had seen Master's upset when she had left us weeks ago.

He had suddenly become increasingly unsure of himself after her outburst and that was entirely down to her and hated what she had done to him.

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"Cass, please." She growled as I went to move away from her and go back to my master who was sitting on his bed, talking and joking with Remus and James. ", Your master has given me permission to seek you out but he says he won't force you to listen to me. But I can't stand his silence or James' scowl anymore and I want to apologise."

I tried to move again but her arm moved faster than I did and stopped me much to my irritation as she barred my way so that I couldn't escape her.

But to be honest I had no intention of listening to woman who saw me as nothing more than a pet or a plaything so I knew that I would have to get away before more lies and disgusting words fell from her lips.

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Most masters would probably be treating me as a pet but since my master had never treated me like that I was finally getting the message the message and decided to make the decision he allowed me to make.

"Get out of my way." I growled as she tried to stop me moving again. "If it is my choice to talk to you then I say no. Thank you for wanting to apologise, but no."

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She finally got the message and moved out of my way and I moved back to where my master lay on his bed, curling up next to his body like a cat.

"Has Lily talked to you?" He asked, acting as if he hadn't watched me the whole time that Lily tried to talk to me, cornering me in his room as I had returned from the bathroom.

I nodded and he exhaled.

"She apologised to you?"

I shook my head. "I don't want her saying things she doesn't mean to me. She hates me and her apology won't change that."

He sat up and pulled me onto his lap under the curious gazes of Remus and James.

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"She doesn't hate you or me." He said in a confident tone, sitting up and pulling into his lap. He began to stroke my back lovingly, not caring his friends were watching. "She was concerned about you being hurt or abused by me. James is very angry she spoke to us like that and is very angry she spoke to us like that and is very angry she upset you. She is very sorry for the whole incident though and asked me today to let her apologise to you and as it is Christmas day I decided to give her some leeway so I agreed. I would like you to hear her out but I won't force you."

I nodded and when I looked over at where Lily was sitting I was surprised that she was slumped over the dressing table. Also I knew she was upset as everything was silent when I stared at her and I knew that she was crying as I could hear her sobs. It was upsetting that I had made her cry.

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I immediately rose from my master's lap at the sound of her upset and despite still feeling angry at her I put my hand on her back and when she lifted her head from his hands I wanted to cry too as her eyes, her soft green beautiful eyes, were red rimmed and I could see her despair as she thought I would never forgive her and that left her relationship with James in turmoil.

"I never meant to hurt you." She whispered with a sniff. "I know I hurt you but I was worried that he was harming you. Sirius isn't known for being nice to women he beds and you are a captive victim for him to treat as he wishes."

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I chuckle at her concern and the thought that he would hurt me as he had been nothing but kind and she smiled as I smiled.

"Forgive me." She begged, looking up into my eyes looking really hopeful that I would forgive her after I had seen how upset she truly was.

I nodded in reply and I was really happy that she cuddled me close and I smiled as I realised I finally had a female that I wasn't afraid of and that wasn't trying to use and abuse me, like the girls at the training centre had.

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"Now that that is over." My master announced with a chuckle and a deep sigh. "We have some Christmas presents for a very naughty little pleasure slave.

I turned to look at him to gauge his mood and I was extremely relieved to see him grinning from ear to ear and when he saw me looking at him he winked at me and my heart lifted.

"Come and sit on my lap." He purred to me, beckoning me close to him. "We have unwrapped all our presents with the other students in Gryffindor that are here for the holidays but we still have your presents for you to open."

I moved over to him fast and almost sighed in pure contentment as I crawled into his lap. At this moment I realised that for the first time there was no tenseness in the room and we were all relaxed around each other.

It was almost like Lily's acceptance set us free and let us show our true relationship that was becoming more and more affectionate month to month.

Due to this, my fear of him had almost completely gone and I was relaxing into my new life.

It was a wonderful afternoon and I got beautiful gifts of food, new socks and bath things. But as per normal after a few hours my life was once more made difficult as my sickness returned and they made a quick exit once I started to vomit.

"Oh, princess," He whispered as he knelt next to me, holding back my hair and stroking my back as I continued to vomit, leant over the basin. "You are getting worse. I should take you to see someone before you get much worse."

My head quickly swung back and forth in denial and I regretted it as I started to vomit even more violently.

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"Please," I wailed, once I had stopped vomiting. "Please don't send me away or let them take me from you. I'll be good, I'll be good. Please, don't make me see a doctor."

He just nodded as I started to cry and I flung myself in his arms, pleased that he had agreed to leave me be.

But to be honest I just felt like I had dodged a bullet as this sickness had been around for two months and seemed to be getting worse but as long as I had him with me and my master protected me I could get through anything.

I hoped.

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End of Chapter

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Author's message:

I am really sorry that this chapter took so long to be uploaded. I hadn't realised I had already written either side of this chapter but this chapter was needed but wasn't written. Also was doing campnanowrimo so was busy.

As for the comment about Remus. His 'obsession' over her was a mixture of lust from first sight and sensing that this girl needed to be protected so he set himself in the role of protector for her.