Chapter 9

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Amy's POV

We just stared at each other, eyes locked one another. All 8 eyes open wider than possible. Emma and my sister had their jaw open and dangling down. Amanda was giving me a cold stare; she shook her head before she walked out of my room. I quickly throw Katherine her shirt and pant and I put back my clothes. She then got off of me and we both stood siting on the side of the bed. Emma was still standing in the doorway, not moving at all. She was only crying and all of this it's because of me and I feel bad. Bad for cheating on her TWICE! I knew she tried to utter out something, but she stayed silent. I finally break the silence.

"Ugh- Ugh, Emma. I- I- It's not what it looks like." I shudder.

"Not what it looks like?" She snapped. "How the hell is it not what it looks like?You had your fuckin tongue down her throat!" I can't answer I was stuck; I can't find any words to answer her.

"HOW ?" Emma screamed. She started sobbing.

"I don't know!" I respond softly, avoiding her eyes.

"Yes you do! Did you cheated on me before or this is the first time?" Emma growled through her teeth. I swallow hard because now I don't have other choice but to tell her the truth.

"It's...not the first time...and I'm REALLY sorry, I never meant for this to happen, you have to believe me!" I respond with tears in my eyes. She had a straight face on. She got up, walked over to me, and slapped me... hard, my upper body moved toward the left. I was dumb-founded for a few seconds. Then I jerk up.

"What the hell was that for?" I yell

"You know very well what that was for!" She snapped back at me.

"You lied and cheated on me, so you so clearly deserve it! How could I be so stupid to trust you? I thought that you really love me, but I guess that I was wrong and I was just a game to you! You can't stop yourself to fuck other girls and even your dirty ex!" She screamed on my face. I glare at her because she has no right to call Katherine like that. She has nothing to do with it. I think? I don't like that. Then we started arguing. For me I black out from anger and sadness. I come back to my senses when Katherine tried to intervene but Emma pushed her out of the door and slammed it. She walked back to me and we started arguing again. Finally I break down and told her everything from the beginning. She started in disbelief the entire time.

"What?" She sobbed "You fucked her right after you fucked me? Unbelievable, I should have listen your sister when she told me to stay the hell away from you!" she raised her voice. I'm going to murder Amanda later; she has no right to tell something like that to anyone who get close to me.

"Yes...I'm sorry, I was going to tell you but I didn't know how" I sigh sadly. She laughed bitterly.

"When? After you fuck her twice! Do you really think that I can believe you after what I just saw? You were ready to fuck her before I walk in, you couldn't keep your legs close!" she said coldly. I clench my fist and groan angrily. I didn't say a word to that because I was too angry after myself. She dropped down on the bed and continued to sob. I get up and walk over to her. I bent down and wrap her in my arms. She got up and pushed me away. Then she sighed sharply and grabbed my arm. She shoved me towards the doorway, opened the door, and pushed me out. She fuckin pushed me out of my own room! I turn around to run back in, but she closed and locked the door. I bang on it 3 times before I give up. I start sobbing violently right there.

"Get the hell out of here. I never want to see you again." Emma yelled from the inside. I laugh bitterly because she can't lock me out of my room.

"This is my room, not yours" I say harshly. I hear her unlock the door and she walked past me, not giving me the time to speak. Just then, my sister walked toward me and before I can tell her that I'm not in the mood for her speech, she slapped me! My little sister slapped me! I rub my cheek and glare at her.

''what the fuck is wrong with you?'' I yell on her face and she gets closer to me.

''NO! What the fuck is wrong with YOU, for messing around with her like that?'' she yelled back. In the corner of my eyes I see Katherine who was standing there, looking at us with a guilty face.

''you don't know anything about her and me! I love her and I didn't mean for this to happen'' I raise my voice and she actually scoffed.

''you have a good way to show her that after you cheated on her twice!'' she blurted out and I glare at her.

''fuck you, Amanda! Just because you finally realize that you love Megan more than a best friend doesn't mean that I can't be in love with another girl'' I scream.

''at least I can show her how much that I love her but YOU, you can't do love! You messed up with Katherine before and now it's Emma, my first best friend! I fuckin warned you to stay away from her, now you got the things more complicated! You're in love with two girls and instead of choosing, you fuckin with their minds'' she screamed. I was so angry, my blood was pumping and I just want to hit something or someone. And my sister was right about everything and I shouldn't play like that with them.

'' you know what? You right, I can't do love but I tried and I failed! What do you me to say now….i'm a bitch who fuck around and I was born this way!...I'm fuckin going out, don't wait for me'' I scream with rage and run out of the house, ignoring them yelling my name. I need to get away from here and I certainly need a fuckin drink. How can I be such an idiot? Now I have to find a way to fix everything by my own.

Katherine POV

'' Why did you hit her?'' I ask in shock and she glared at me.

''don't tell me what I can or cannot do with my sister! And be lucky that I didn't hit you too, I don't hate you, trust me!'' she hissed softly.

''I'm the one that you have to blame, cuz I asked her one kiss but I never thought that she was really going to do it…I feel so bad now for throwing up her relationship'' I mumble with honesty. Amanda sighed and we both sat down on the floor, our backs against the wall.

''it's Amy; you know she can't stop herself from doing that. When she's tempted, she can't control It.'' she replied and I nod because it's true but even that I feel guilty. I shouldn't have come back into her life.

AshleyPov

After the meeting, I didn't say a word to Carmen and neither her. Parts of me feel guilty about it but I can't get back to it. After I drop her at her sister's house, I drive directly to my house hoping that my lover will be there. I missed her do much and it's killing that she didn't answer any of my calls or texts. I turn off the engine, grab my bag and walk out of the car. I didn't even get the chance to walk to the door because I was meeting by a hug. I smile widely and hug her.

"Mom! I'm so happy that you're back! Mom has been in a bad mood since you left! "Amanda blurted out. I sigh and bit my lip, see now why I feel guilty? She helps me grab my bag as we walked inside of the house.

"I'm happy to be back to and I'm exhausted! Where are your sister and your mom? "I ask with a frown. I frown a bit more when I see dark in her eyes.

"What's going on, Hun?" I ask gently.

"Amy! I knew that she was going to fuck the things up. I fuckin warned her to not get involve with her!" she hissed. Ok! Now I'm confused, what the hell is she talking about?

"You are going to have to speak English, Amanda! And who is 'her'?" I ask.

"She and Emma have been seeing each other since a week! She fucked her and mess with her brain and told her that she loves her. And just like that, last night we walked on her and Katherine making out! "She raised her voice. WHAT! I can't believe this, I'm angry and a bit sad cuz my daughter is in love with two girls and I guess that she doesn't know who to choose. I need to have a word with her ASAP.

"Why nobody told me? "I ask angrily. She laughed bitterly.

"I found out last night, mom! So don't be surprise or angry. "She answered. I nod and sigh.

"What about your mom? Did she say something? "I ask curiously and she rolled her eyes.

"She didn't say anything and wasn't angry at all but the only thing I heard her say is "givehersometimeandtalktoherwhenshe'sreadyandblabla"she answered, rolling her eyes.

"Of course she said that...where are they now?" I roll my eyes.

"Mom's at work of course and Amy left since last night after what happened and never came back "she said softly and I glare at her. I hate that when my daughters act this way toward each other. It's like they don't care for each other.

"Amanda! And you didn't think about calling her to ask if she was ok!" I yell in shock. She lowers her head and look on the floor.

"It's not my place to do that, I'm already mad at her! "she mumbled, hoping that I won't hear what she says.

"I think you better take that back right now! She's your sister no matter what and you're supposed to be there for her! And I certainly know that you hit her!" I yell on her and she flinched.

"I'm sorry, I'll call her and apologies to her later! "She mumbled angrily, avoiding my eyes. I sigh and start to calm down a little bit because I don't want to get to angry right now!

"So are you seeing anyone? "I ask curiously and she blushed. I smirk and cross my arms on my chest waiting for her to speak.

"Megan and I are seeing each other "she said and I smile. It was about time for fuck sake.

"Aw! I'm so happy that you finally realize that it wasn't just a dream or something that wasn't going to happen. "I explain and raise my eyebrow and she rolled her eyes.

"yea I know, I was just scare because she's my best friend and I wasn't ready for that but that day I realize that I couldn't control my emotions and feelings around her so...I kissed her "she blurted out.

"That's my girl! Next time don't run away from something like that...now do I need to give you the speech about sex "I ask playfully and she glared.

"No! I can deal with it by myself, thank you! "She hissed and we ended up laughing together. I open my mouth to say something when I see my daughter and my wife walking into the house. Amy avoids looking at me and walks straight to her bedroom. I can tell that she was probably fucked up again, that's her way to fight against her pain but I told her that it wasn't right. She needs help but she doesn't want me to get into her business. I sigh and turn to look at my wife who's giving me a look that I can't read.

"Hey" I say softly. Amanda was standing there, looking between my wife and me.

"Can we know what's going on between you two? "She asked tiredly.

"It's really not the time for that! "I hiss. She scoffed and I know that she's was angry.

"NO! I'm sick of it, you two keep fighting with each other and neither of you want to tell us what's going on! How can we be a real family if anyone can't tell anything to each other?" she yelled, looking at me then my wife.

"Don't use that tone on us, ok! You want to know the truth about everything, ask your mom cuz I didn't do anything! "Spencer raised her voice on her and she gave me a cold stare and I did too.

"What's that supposed to mean? That I'm the only one who threw our relationship into a mess! "I raise my voice too.

"Yes, you did! If you weren't a cheater, we wouldn't be in that state! "She yelled. I swallow hard because I catch the confuse look in my daughter's eyes.

"What is she talking about mom?" she asked me. I sigh and run my shaky fingers in my head. I don't want to tell my daughter about this because after that she might think that I'm a bad mother and a bad wife and I don't want that.

"I don't want to talk about that right now!" I say coldly. Spender crossed her arms over her chest.

"No, Ashley! Tell her that you cheated on me with Carmen when you were in California. You can tell her too that you were in NY with her again!" she said harshly. Ok, now I'm royally pissed and angry. I look at her coldly in the eyes.

"You had no right to tell her about this, Spencer!" I scream. She didn't flinch at all.

"So it's true then? That's why you two broke up for a few months!" my daughter asked angrily but I can see hurt behind this. I groan.

"It wasn't like that! I tried to talk with her, to explain everything but she didn't want to listen! "I hiss.

"Well, sorry mom but what Spencer did was the right thing! How can you expect her to talk with you after a nasty thing like that?" she blurted out with disgust, regretting her choice of words. I narrow my eyes on her and she immediately lowers her head.

"Go to your room right now cuz I might regret it if I slap you right now! '' I scream with rage. She nodded and ran into her room.

"I didn't change my mind when I said that I want us to take a break! '' she announced.

'' I never agree with this and I won't! You're my wife and we are supposed to fix our problem like real adults. Taking a break won't help the situation.'' I argue. She shook her head.

''ok then, I think we should see a counsellor'' she said. Are you fucking kidding me? Carmen, now her! I grit my teeth.

''I don't want some stranger to get into my family's problems.'' I reply and she scoffed.

''it's that or the break! You better choose fast'' she said coldly before she walked out of the living room. I groan angrily and punch the pillow that was on the couch. I start to calm myself a little bit. What am I going to do now? I'll have to think about before tomorrow. And now I need to go have a conversation with my daughter. I walk upstairs and knock on her bedroom door but no answer, only the music. I knock louder and this time she opens the door. She rolled her eyes and gets back under the cover, I follow her and sit on the edge of the bed.

'' you want to tell me what happened when I was gone?'' I ask harshly, I didn't want to use that tone on her but I was mad and I can't help it.

''no'' was the only word she said. I clench my jaw and yank the sheet off her body. She turned around and glared at me. Her eyes were bloodshot, probably because she cried all day or other thing, which I don't think she'll be crazy enough to do that.

''Amy! Don't make me get angrier on you! And why your eyes are so blood?'' I hiss.

'' why do you need to know if I'm pretty sure that Amanda opened her fuckin mouth and told you everything!'' she hissed back, avoiding the question.

''don't use that tone on me! And yes she did, I heard her side if this story! Now I want to hear yours.'' I yell and she scoffed and laughed bitterly.

'' so that you can yell at me and tell me that I should have never get too close to her!...Go ahead, I don't fuckin care anymore!'' she yelled. I glare at her.

'' yea, that's one of the thing! And second of all, what the hell were you thinking? You slept with her and make her believe that you love her!'' I yell again. She narrowed her eyes angrily and stood up from her bed.

''I DIDN'T MAKE HER BELIEVE THAT! I LOVE EMMA, OK! I've love her since a long time! And at the beginning I didn't want to get involve with her because of you, Amanda and Aiden!...But now that everyone found out, I have nothing to hide anymore!'' she scream. I take my time to look at her in the eyes and I can tell that she really meant what she say; that she's in love with her. I sigh and reach my hand in my hair.

'' then why did you hurt her?...And I never had a problem with that, I just warn you because I didn't want any of this to happen'' I inform her. She looks away and whipped her eyes.

''I don't know, ok? I don't know! I was caught in the moment with Katherine and I didn't know how to stop! And I didn't know how to tell Emma the truth about what happen the night before I got my wrist twist'' she blurted out. And I think that she just realize what she just said because she widened her eyes and I give her a confuse look.

''what really happened to your wrist, Amy? And what happened that night? Did you cheat on her the first time?'' I ask angrily. She lowers her head to avoid my cold stare.

''I got into a fight at a club when I was out with Katherine and….when we got back at home, we went to my room, we talked and all. The next thing I know it's me kissing her and making out with her. We didn't get too far because I stopped.'' She mumbled. I don't even know what to say because one I didn't raise my daughter to be that kind of girl and two I'm angrier than before.

'' the fight was about what? And I want the WHOLE truth!...You better fix the things with Emma right now!'' I warn her. Her eyes widened and I know that she was scared. She nodded her head.

'' mom, I can't tell you about the fight you'll have to ask Katherine because she asked me to not tell anything to anyone'' she mumbled. I look at her curiously and I can sense that it was something big and maybe personal. I nod because I totally understand.

''ok, I will but try to stay out of trouble this time because I don't want to pick you up at the police station for a third time'' I hiss. She rolled her eyes and nodded.

'' yes I know for…god sake'' she said softly when she saw the look that I give her. I stand up from the bed and decide to let her be in her own space for now.

''I'll leave you alone now…but please, go talk to Emma and fix it! Got it?'' I exclaim and she nodded. I kiss her on her forehead and walk out of the room.

The next morning…

When I wake up, I was alone in my bed which didn't surprise me. I sigh and get out of the bed and walk to the bathroom to brush my teeth. I walk downstairs and spot my wife sitting at the table drinking her coffee and reading the newspaper. I couldn't help but smile a bit, she caught me and I don't why but she smiled at me. I'm confused now, one minute she gets angry on me and the next minute she's smiling like nothing happen. I shook my head and walk close to her and take a sip from her cup of coffee.

'' good morning'' she mumbled. Ok! Now there's something wrong with her.

''good morning…are you sure that you didn't have fever or something'' I mumble and she scowled.

'' no, I'm totally fine…I can't smile now?'' she asked. I roll my eyes and I open my mouth to say something but was cut by a pair of soft lips. My eyes widen in shock but I kiss her back, before we had the chance to get too far we got interrupted.

'' god! I had enough of this in my whole life, don't need to see this again!'' Katherine whined, with her hands on her eyes. We laughed and I remove her hands from her eyes.

''don't be too in shock, babe, you'll see this maybe every morning…and why the two of you were kissing if last night you were screaming on each other'' Amanda asked confusedly before she grabs a bowl of cereal for her and Katherine. I look at Spencer; waiting for an answer but nothing instead she changed the subject. Is she playing with me or what?

''where is Amy? You didn't wake her up?'' she asked to the girls, who shrugged their shoulders.

''she should have set her alarm'' Amanda scoffed. Spencer shook her head and chuckled but Katherine and I glared at Amanda.

''what? It's not like she'll wake up anyway, she's always late for school or she skip'' she blurted out. That's another problems that I'm having with Amy; she doesn't care about school anymore. She completely changed after Katherine left her and now I'm scare that the things will get worst because Emma left her.

''shut up, Amanda!'' here she is. The devil finally decides to wake up. Amanda rolled her eyes.

''what? You finally realise that you have school and decide to wake up'' she blurted out and winced in pain when her sister hit her behind the head. They glared at each to her and I don't like that when they hit each other, it's not a good thing.

''that's for slapping me! If you hit me one last time, you'll be sorry to have me as a sister'' she warned before she grabs her bag.

''whoa, minute…where do you think you going? You need to eat your breakfast'' my wife yelled. Amy turned to look at her mom.

''I'm not hungry…see ya later'' was the last thing she said before she walks out of the door. I sigh and rub my temple.

''Amanda, please behave with your sister! She needs you right now, she's have a hard time!'' I hiss softly.

''well, mom it's not my fault! She should have keep her legs close like she's keeping her mouth close…no offense Katherine'' she said.

''none taken'' she mumbled. Oh god! Fuck my life!

Amy's POV

Since that night, she didn't even answer my calls or texts messages. I don't blame her for that because I'm the coward in this story. It was dinner time and I didn't want to eat in the cafeteria where I probably see my sister and other people that I don't want to see. I walk outside and light a spliff because I want to have one right now. But before I have the time to light it, I spot her sitting by the bench, alone by herself. She was sobbing. I hate myself more than I hated anything that ever walked the earth. I was a giant walking piece of shit. Emma looked up and saw me.

"Go away... please just leave me alone." She said calmly,

"No Emma, please just hear me out." I respond. She got up and went over to me.

"No Amy, so you can tell me why you decided to cheat on me TWICE or to tell me that you're still in love with her. I can't trust you, Anymore! You're just a piece of shit and I should have never fall in love with you" Those words that Emma muttered out were like a million knives straight through my heart. I just stared at her. My entire nervous system shut down. For a few seconds I couldn't move. All I could do was stare into Emma's beautiful hazel eyes, which at once were beautiful, but now because of me, were cold, lifeless, and abused. I finally come back to my senses.

"E-Emma, you don't trust me? C'mon, we can work this out, we can find a way to talk about all this and I know that you don't mean those words" I plead.

"No," She sighed. "I don't trust you anymore and ever." I can't breathe. I had no reason to. "Amy, you fuckin betrayed me. You went and slept with your ex. And yet you told me that I wasn't an item on your trophy shelf! I was so stupid to believe you and you take advantage of me" she screamed.

"I didn't fuckin sleep with her! And you're not an item for me, I love you and you know that!'' I scream back. Emma just shook her head and hastily went back on the bench. At that point I got mad. I really don't know why, I just did.

''yet, you're still in love with her!'' she yelled.

"You know you do this all the time." I exclaim, avoiding what she said. She just looked back at me with an angry look in her eyes.

"Do what?" She replied harshly.

"When you jump to conclusions. You never hear me out or hear my side of the story." I inform her coldly.

"Why should I when it's apparent to everyone that you still love her and want to fuck her! You even try it twice! Let me guess she's a whore with parents that neglect her?" I can't say anything because I was so so angry and I can't believe that she just call Katherine her whore. She's not; she's not the kind of girl to sleep with everyone. And the fact that she just insults her parents was too low for me to deal with it. I give her a cold stare.

'' fuck you, Emma! You don't know her and you have no right to talk to her like that'' I scream with rage. She laughed bitterly.

''right, I don't know her and I don't want to get to know her'' she replied. I sigh and try to calm myself because I have to if I want to make the things right but with her it was complicated, like the first time we went through.

"Look Emma," I begin, "Please can you-"

"No Amy, I can't." She interrupted. "I can't and I won't."

"No, please. Emm-" she interrupted me again.

"Amy,I said no." she said angrily.

"Please Emma," I wrap her in my arms. She started sobbing in my chest. "Please...I won't be able to be myself without you in my life" I whisper in her shoulder. She pushed me away and was still sobbing.

"Amy, you should have thought about it before you jump on her" She sobbed "I can't, I'm sorry."

"No. please!" I yell. She can't just walk away from me like that. I don't want to lose her.

"I'm sorry, Amy…I have to go." She walked over to the door and opened it. I slowly start to walk toward my bike. There's no fuckin way that I was going to stay there. The last thing I see was Emma's depressed and sobbing face that turned my heart into stone. I sit on my bike and start sobbing. Eventually I cry the whole ride. It's definitely over between her and I.

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