Hihi! I know I haven't updated in awhile. I couldn't focus and then I started another story so that didn't help. So I hope you like this chapter! So sorry about the wait!

Disclaimer: I don't own shugo chara

Aoi's POV

The snow fall to the ground. Each one different in their own way. It looked like a white blanket covering the ground. And that's all I wrote for my literacy poem due next week. What? You thought I was outside describing the scenery to you.

Like hell I'd be out. There isn't any snow outside but it was pretty damn cold. Then again it is the middle of December.

Kukai has been teasing me about being afraid of the cold and snow. He says as the perfect being, I shouldn't be afraid of stuff like that. Just to let you know I am nowhere near afraid of those things. But if Kukai says it one more time I might have to give him a mouthful of my fist.

I looked at my watch to see the time. I sighed. I was going to have to finish my poem later. I grimaced as I put on my jacket. I was gonna have to brave the cold I hated so much. I had an appointment with the principal.

I took one last look at the calendar that sat on my desk. I giggled at my sudden thought.
She'd be pissed if I didn't come see her on her birthday.


Kukai's POV

I walked slowly in my room. I threw my book bag on the floor and plopped in my bed. I sighed into my pillow.

"Oh my god! Did Utau get mad and stalk you again?" that's what you think happened right? No the exact opposite happened. She is not angry with me and she been avoiding but instead this has been going on for weeks.

This is defiantly not what Aoi said was gonna happen. We are going to have a serious talk when she gets here. Ah guess who just came in.


Third Person's POV

Aoi was talking off her jacket when Kukai came out his room.

"I thought you didn't want anyone to know you are a girl." Kukai looked her up and down. She was wearing gray skinny jeans and a blue long-sleeved turtle was going to say snappy comeback but kept it to herself since wasn't in the mood. She sighed and sat on the couch.

"I went to talk to the principal about something important. He already knows I'm a girl so I thought it was okay and since it gets so dark fast, barely anyone was outside."

"What did you have to talk to the principal about?"

"Don't worry about it." that had came alot harsher than Aoi had meant it to be, almost a growl even.

"Sorry for asking then." She covered her face with her hands and her head.

"No I'm sorry shouldn't have said that. I'm just upset that's all." she uncovered her face to give Kukai a sad smile.

"So what do you needed to talk about Kukai?"

"How did you-"

"Perfect beings can read minds remember?"Aoi joked. Kukai laughed.

"It's about Utau."

"I already told you my advice might not work." she said, knowing exactly what he was going say.

"But now she won't even come near and she avoids me all the time!" Kukai whined.

"Maybe you smell bad. You play alot of sports."

"Stop with the jokes you know what I mean."

"Fine. Maybe you pissed her off again. You do lots of stupid things that get her mad and the time you can't even remember what you did. Just go confront her about it and say sorry for whatever it is you did."

"Thanks Aoi. Only you can give me advice and insult my intelligence at the same time."

"It was my pleasure." she smirked.

She went into her room and shut the door. Aoi didn't tell Kukai what she really thought was wrong with Utau. She thought of it as a worst case scenario thing so she didn't tell. It would totally crash him if she did. And even if Aoi knew it or not Utau is one of the only things stopping her from falling in love with Kukai completely.


Kukai's POV

Either I have gotten really bad at finding Utau or she become really good at hiding. I don't know maybe alittle bit of both.

Right now I'm in the park looking for her. I asked her roommate where she might be. She told me to check here. I sighed. This was going nowhere.

"Hey! Sorry I'm late!" I turned around and saw her. Utau was running towards some guy with white hair. Ha-ha he has a stupid hair color. But back to the situation. I don't think either of them saw me so I hid behind a tree.

"Well maybe if you give me something I might forgive you." he smirked. It scared me how much that looked like Aoi's smirk. That's when Utau kissed the guy on the lips.

Before I knew it I went from behind that tree to punching the guy in the face.

"What the hell man!" the guy yelled at me, while holding his cheek.

"Oh my god Kukai! Why did you do that!" I turned to her. She flinched sensing that I defiantly wasn't in the mood.

"You wanna tell me why you were kissing him before let you start asking me question!" She looked like she was about to cry.

"Kukai I was going to tell you but that kiss happened and I couldn't bring myself to do it!" at this point she was full on crying but honestly I didn't care.

"How about I save you the trouble then? We're over." I said it as coldly as I could without her hearing the sadness in my voice. I walked away telling myself it didn't matter even though it was killing me inside.


Aoi's POV

I zipped up my coat and put my hat loosely. I was hungry so I thought I should check out the cafeteria is serving (the good one). As I reached for the knob, the door opened.

"Oh hey Kukai! I was just about to go get something to eat! Wanna come with-" he pulled me in and kissed me. It was rough, sloppy, and it wasn't him at all. I pulled away from him.

"What the hell is wrong with you Kukai!" I yelled. He didn't answer so I just pushed pass him and left.


I had been walking around for at least an hour. It started snowing earlier and I'm freezing my butt off. I was ready to go back to the dorm but I didn't want to see him. I was still mad about the kiss and me being the stubborn person that I am, I refused to go back.

As I walked I heard two people arguing. It sounded so familiar. It was little Nagi and Rima.

"If you are so sick of arguing, then just leave me alone!" Rima screamed at him. She bumped into me. She looked up with watery eyes. When she realized it was me, she hugged me. I rubbed her back for confront. When I saw little Nagi running towards us, I whispered to her.

"He's coming over here. Don't worry I'll cover you. Just wipe your tears away in the meantime" she nodded and let go of me. At that moment, I moved away from Rima and blocked little Nagi.

"What do you want? You're the last person I want to see right now!" he said harshly.

"It doesn't matter. What matter is what just happened between you and Rima?" I said.

"What is there to discuss. She hates me. That's all." I smirked. He seemed confused.

"What?"

"She doesn't hate you. She likes you idiot. She only says that because she thinks you hate her." He looked shock by what I told him. I put my hand on his shoulder.

"Look just tells her how you feel okay?"With that I ran back over to Rima. She was still crying.

"See! He hates me!" she cried.

"No he doesn't Rima. If anything he loves you." She was shocked but then pouted.

"You're lying."

"Well how about you go make up and ask him yourself." I wiped away the last of her tears. I gave her alittle push towards little Nagi. She reluctantly walked over. I gave little Nagi a thumbs up for good luck before walking away.


I slurped up the rest of my ramen. It was my 4th bowl. The shop owner isn't surprised by it at all. I come here all the time when I'm not in the cafeteria with Kukai.

I slumped back in my chair, satisfied with my meal. My phone vibrated. It scared me so bad I almost fell out my chair. It was a text from Amu.

From: Amu

To: Aoi

How is Kukai doin?

I looked at my phone with a confused face.

To: Amu

From: Aoi

Wat r u talkin about

After a few minutes my phone vibrated again. I looked wide-eyed at the text I got.

From: Amu

To: Aoi

He caught Utau with another guy nd broke up with her

I got up from the chair and ran to the exit.

"Hey Aoi! Where are you going? You didn't pay yet!" the middle aged man yelled.

"Not now old man! Just put it on my tab!" she yelled back.


Third Person POV

Aoi run as fast as she could back to the dorm.

"How could I have been so stupid?" she thought.

She caught her breath before she went in. when she did go in, Kukai got up from the couch to face her.

"Look Aoi. I'm sorry about-" he was stopped by Aoi's sudden hug.

"Don't be Kukai. I'm the one who should be sorry. I should have seen what was wrong instead of getting mad at you and leaving all alone. I must be a suckish perfect being. I keep letting you down, don't I?" she had him tighter and buried her face in his chest.

Kukai couldn't help but smile at her. She was already making him feel better.

"No. I think you're doing just fine." he hugged her back. She looked up with a smile.

"How about I make it up to you Kukai. Got any request?"

"Well you could wear those shorts you know I like so much." that earn him a slap on the arm and a 'pervert'," or you could help me study for that math test we have on Friday."

"okay." Aoi rolled up her sleeves and put on her game face. "Let's do this."

"Why are you so serious? You know we're only studying right?"

"But you know it's not the easiest thing in the world to teach you math."

"Whatever"


As usual, Kukai has been zoned out ever since they started studying. He's been staring at her for 7 minutes straight. She probably knew but he could care less.

He sighed. He should listen to what she's saying so he decided to try. As his eyes went from her face to the paper she was writing on, he saw something he wished he didn't see. There were scars on her wrist. He looked away quickly, thinking it was his imagination.

"You saw them didn't you?" she asked, not looking away from the equation. He didn't know whether to tell the truth or not. She put the pencil down and her chocolate brown eyes met his emerald green ones.

"It's been awhile since the last time I cut myself. Probably the day before we first met." she smiled sadly, "my mother's death is what triggered the cutting. When I was little, my dad was always working so it was just my mom and I but my mom never let me feel sad about it. She always encouraged me, praised me for the good things I did, and always gave me a smile that could make anyone happy. She always told me to try new things but never pushed me to do anything I didn't want to. I wanted to keep her smiling, so I did anything I could to make her happy. That's probably why it seems like I'm good at everything. My mom was my everything and then fate took her away from me." Aoi's smile faded.

"She died. The cops told me she committed suicide. I was devastated. I don't know how long I cried. After she died nothing seemed to go right. My dad quit his job. He wouldn't even talk to me let alone look at me. Tsubaki was ignoring Momoka and Momoka couldn't focus so they were no help. I was all alone. Cutting was the only way to let out the pain. It was the only pain I could control."

Kukai felt bad for her. He wanted to hold her and make all her pain go away. He always wants to see that smile she only showed him. Then it came to him. The feelings he's been feeling for these past months, the way he's feeling now. It was never indigestion. It was love. He's in love with Aoi. He snapped out of his thoughts when he heard Aoi's voice.

"But it's different now Kukai. I'm happy now and I want to show her how good I'm doing. I want visit her grave on her birthday next week but I couldn't get approved by the principal for a day pass. So I don't know what I'm gonna do yet but I'll figure something out." Aoi said.

"Let's sneak out then." Kukai suggested. Aoi thought about that but hadn't seriously considered it

"We can go together. I got your back." He grinned. She smiled. Aoi loved his enthusiasm.

"Ok."