hii guys,
im sorry that this took so long, i just hadnt much inspiration. I don't know if you like this story anymore, but if you don't, just say it plz.
so, a long update :) this is about Bella's little talk with Carlisle ;)
I don't own Twilight :(
When I was done with crying, I felt that Carlisle was looking at me. I looked away but I felt his cold hand under my chin pushing my head up, so I had to look at him. His eyes were sad, full of worry and concern. ''Bella, we are not going to leave this office before you say what Is going on!'' he told me. Those words. It felt like he was mad at me, and when I tried to look away, I felt that he held my face up. ''Carlisle, I just don't want to talk about it. I will stop, and we can leave this all behind us.'' I said to him. ''no Bella, don't you realize that we are so worried about you? You're so thin and it looks like you haven't slept well.'' Also, look at your arms, and tell me then that you're totally fine.'' He said sarcastically. I could feel that my defensive self came up. ''no Carlisle, I think we are done here. I really don't want to talk now. There is nothing wrong with me. I'm not crazy or something, also, when I will tell everything, you guys will realize that I'm not good for Edward. You guys will leave again and there is nothing that I can do about it.´´ I whispered the last part. Finally, that was said. It was something I was worried about from the time that Edward and the rest came back. That they will realize soon I was dangerous for them. Every fight, every vampire they had to kill. It was all because of me. If I died, they could live in peace again. Of course, they will be a bit sad, but that will go over. Alice and Jasper won´t stop loving each other. Rosalie and Emmett will ruin all their rooms when they are having some private time and Edward will find another woman, a vampire who wasn't dangerous for them. And Esme and Carlisle won´t stop loving their kids. It will all be the same… I thought. But when I looked at Carlisle, I saw he was MAD!
´´ISABELLA MARIE SWAN, if I ever hear those words again from you, you will regret it so much. Young lady, maybe we weren't clear enough? You want to know how everybody felt when we needed to leave you? Emmett became serious, no more lame jokes and laughs. Alice had lost her best friend, she was crying without tears every time I saw her. Esme didn't want to go outside anymore, she was locked in the house and felt like she lost her own daughter. Jasper couldn't deal with his emotions, and all the emotions from us. He mostly was in the woods, where he was alone. Even Rosalie knew this wasn't good. She saw our family fall apart. And I, I lost my daughter, my beautiful, brown haired, stubborn daughter, who I love so much I will die for her. Edward couldn't handle it and we saw him almost never. And you say we will leave you again. Bella? if you ever think something like that EVER again, I will have to punish you…'' and with that said, he hugged me tightly.
At that moment I knew they wouldn't leave me, but my guilt was even higher because of all the sadness and hurt I created.
so, that was it for now, I will update soon. also, check out my other story, weekend with Carlisle ;)
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